#meltdown signs

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autism Meltdown Early Signs

Confusion & brain fog

Dissociation & memory issues

Mutism or speech delay

Paranoid & self-conscious

Higher sensory sensitivity

Increased stimming

Positively DBT - BPD, Autism, ADHD Peer Support

[psymachine]

thinking about them finding stupid ways to be happier together

[kotikaleo]

Aautistic meltdowns

Autistic meltdowns are an involuntary response to sensory or emotional overload and overwhelm. This highly dysregulated state is not behavioral, but a physical manifestation of a neurobiological reaction. They can happen at any age and take from 20 minutes to few hours before the person is able to recover. It is not a temper tantrum, as it is not a manipulation tactic in response to not getting needs met, meltdowns are a physical manifestation of a neurobiological reaction and cries of distress.

[ghostboyhood]

i think growing up watching primarily shows and movies from the early 2000s and 90s definitely did something to my young (unknowingly) dysphoric ass bc all these guys would make me cry i was so jealous of them

[maculategiraffe]

my sister, who works in child development so I assume she knows, was telling me that the baby's preschool teacher was saying a bunch of things to her that (my sister said to me) "are basically code for 'we think your child might be autistic.'"

and I was like well I mean steve is definitely on the autism spectrum and I probably am and you've been saying you probably are and we secretly think that might also be what's up with our mom, so it wouldn't be surprising if the baby is too, and it certainly wouldn't be a problem. but out of curiosity what does the baby do that seems autistic to them? because I thought the early signs in toddlers were like... problems with joint attention, and ignoring other people. and he's always extremely engaged with me when we hang out

and my sister said "they say he doesn't talk, and he doesn't respond when they call his name, and he spins around in place..."

and I was like huh. well he certainly talks to ME. and responds when I call his name. and when he feels like spinning I simply sing the turn around game song and he loves it and follows all the directions. have they considered that they might just be boring

[dykedvonte]

why do you hate Joshua Graham or Honest Hearts so much?

This DLC and character represents a bigger issue with fandom spaces I have but particularly fallout fandom in general.

Fallout tends to tackle a lot of topics controversial and not. The first two games it’s heavy cause they are the most satirical and direct with how anti-war, nationalism and etc… they are. 3 loses this as it’s very clear once you play or learn about all the games that Todd and a bunch of guys at Bethesda just liked the 50s post apocalyptic aesthetic and refuse to actually critique the ideals of the time period like the earlier titles.

New Vegas is the game that really gets back into it a degree it almost seems like it’s taking too much on. There are things done exceedingly well while other things are done horribly wrong . I’ve made posts about it before and plan to make a big series of posts (it’s a lot of writing) but my biggest gripe is with Honest Hearts and all the gross and white savior esque depictions it has of indigenous peoples. The entirety if FNV does not do the injustices faced by indigenous people correctly on any count. My two biggest complaints are with the Khans and the tribes in Zion but I’ll talk about the former on a different post.

Both characters of Daniel and Joshua are the most accurate depiction of white saviors I’ve seen and I hate how the DLC tries to justify and defend them. The DLC treats Joshua like this man who has repented for his past actions when he is just retracing his steps after his cruelty bit him in the ass. He was one of the worst parts of the Legion and it is all but explicitly stated that if you don’t force him to be non-violent he will turn the tribes of Zion into the legion 2.0. The Dead Horses and the Sorrows are horribly infantilized by both Daniel and Joshua who both use them for self serving purposes guised by religious duty. The White Legs are the horrible stereotype of violent and savage indigenous and I personally think a lot of their interlinking with Ulysses, his hair and Ulysses character in general are distasteful and very telling of how BIPOC or POC where involved.

But outside of the game it’s the weird obsession people have with these characters ideologies and trying to make them seem more interesting/philosophical than they are. Tumblr is an echo chamber and many fans of Fallout are not the people on this site. Many people are not educated in the issues these characters convey and how poorly they do or used these characters as a poor introduction for their takes. Contrary to what a lot of people believe in, fallout has a prediomeny white cis male fanbase. More importantly a large portion of the fanbase is white.

You can joke how FNV made you trans or see the numbers on post/fics or diverse headcanons but these are kiddy numbers compared to the millions that consume the franchise and aren’t in those more aware spaces or don’t engage in the spaces the same way someone like me does/has to. Their views shape a lot more than people realize and it’s exhausting to be in a space where people don’t correct the more subtle yet toxic aspects of it but also adopt them into some weird quirky view point on the characters or issues. Some people don’t realize and some people don’t care.

My main issue is just the idolizing of these sort of thing in this fandom space and people try to acts like a game like fallout whose tagline is “War never changes” and has never had a game not revolve around political or militaristic factions issues isn’t that deep or doesn’t relate to real issues. I think it’s mainly caused by how over powered you can become and how you can strong arm your way past these learning moments as majority of people who play this game do play it as a power fantasy where they can do so as they please (which of course, go ahead it’s fun) but never take in parallels or lessons in the story as if it was just another first person shooter.

Also like another personal gripe is Cazadores spawn like hell whenever I’m there and I have not found a mod that works to mod them out so I have to play Indigenous Racism the DLC while getting jumped by giant wasps WHILE helping Mormons. Like I cannot catch a break.

[makorragal-312]

Here's the thing:

I can empathize with Emma to some degree. At the end of the day, she's just a girl with an intense crush on Itsuomi and constantly makes her feelings known to him hoping that one day, he'll feel the same way. Just peek high school girl behavior.

HOWEVER...

It has been literal years and Itsuomi has made it clear more than once that he is not interested and he's now in a relationship with Yuki. And Emma refuses to get the hint and even went as far as to try and make up a lie about spending the night with Itsuomi to chase Yuki away. So when she's at her job crying about how Itsuomi "ghosted" her over text, it's hard for me to feel even remotely bad for her.

Again, I feel for her on the "unrequited love" front. But for everything else, she needs to move on.

[clowningcrows]

bro i punched my bedroom walls when i was 16 how didn’t i know i was transmasc years ago

[spookietrex]

I should have known better than to dig through my old stories from when I was a teenager. There's so much trauma packed into them.

So I tried to unwind with a nice little video game (a new dating sim/visual story) since I'm having a high support needs day (high pain, poor mental health, increased confusion, anger, etc.) Anyway, I wasn't expecting the little platformer game. Usually not a problem.

Except today I'm not able to do hand-eye coordination well.

Today I'm not able to problem solve well. Today I'm barely able to get out of bed and am at a 12/10 on the pain scale, have negative spoons, and have the patience of my poor traumatized toddler self whose parents told them at age 10 they were a mistake (accident while on birth control) long after the divorce and whose parents should have never been together to start with.

Today, I had a meltdown because I tried to play a free to play video game, I couldn't edit the settings to make it disability-friendly, and struggled for 15 minutes with a task that in not unsimilar to a level in Mario Maker/Flappy Bird. I cried, screamed, and hit things. I wanted to hit my laptop/self-sabotage. But I didn't. I rage screamed (accidentally left the windows open, oops), tried to control the hitting to pillows only, and sat with my feelings.

I am tired of being exhausted all the time. Reparenting myself when my teenage self hates all adults and doesn't trust them is hard. Being kind to myself when everyone else treats me like scum is hard. Melting down over something I wanted to do to cope but suddenly can't do and can't change that is hard. But I will continue to fight for myself and others because no one deserves to be silenced.

My story matters. I owe it to myself to remember, even if it's hard. I can be kind to myself and not push myself.

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Signs a Meltdown is Imminent

Easily angered

Body feels full of electric energy

Brain fog

Unable to make decisions

Visually overstimulated

Cognitive/emotional/sensory overload

Feeling vulnerable

Unable to communicate

Want to be left alone

Heightened senses

Can’t focus

Need to stim intensely

Littlepuddins.ie

[jitteryjive]

i need to remake my cup bros ref… both cup and human designs… it’s been almost a year(?) and i’ve developed the headcanons and i would like to share with the class!!! (i wrote thirty tags. Please help me)

[neurospicyyy]

Yes, I threw fits when I was a kid.

No, I wasn’t in control.

No, you shouldn’t judge me for it.

Yes, I am aware you think I had the choice.

But surely you understand I didn’t really have one?

Surly you understand I was struggling?

That I’m still struggling?

That I always will be?

[im-a-lil-bitch-boi]

my mom: ur not autistic, stop

also her: describes aspects of my childhood that r v obvious signs of autism

[ultfreakme]

person who said Geto is dead-wife-coded....

Why would you say this why is this so true? He had to be fridged to enrich Gojo's backstory. God I fucking hate them please be normal for five second stop haunting me

edit: he even had the freaking dead-wife flashback sequence but speedrun because he's Gojo Satoru and all that.

[butwhypants]

What I love about the titanic sub, is it's like the polar opposite of the Suez boat stuck incident

Where that was a minor inconvenience that no one person was really responsible for but affected just about everyone on the planet equally, this is a great tragedy for a handful of stupid idiots who built the world's shittiest submarine and they are the only ones affected by it in the slightest

[happyk44]

So badly want Hestia to be watching her demigod nieces and nephews interact with each other and her thoughts are just "I thought you had to be dead to be reincarnated"