#that'll be a separate post because i have Thoughts

[logicalbookthief]

Things Left Unsaid -- An Analysis of Rei & Touya

Apparently Rei has been getting a lot of flack lately, all of it undeserved, and since I had a post analyzing her relationship with Touya in the works already, I figured no time like the present.

Disclaimer #1: There are a lot of issues with the writing for Rei’s character that have nothing to do with her and everything to do with how the storyline is using her, which I will address and examine.

Disclaimer #2: I’m someone who, while always curious as to what kind of relationship Rei had with her oldest son before he died, never thought it would be revealed that Touya was close to his mom. I don’t think you get the Dabi we see in Chapters 290-295 without him being so warped by his relationship with his father yet so dependent on his attention that he was willing to kill his brother and himself simply for his father’s acknowledgement.

But that’s what I find so interesting about Rei and Touya -- it’s a relationship that mainly consists of regrets and things left unsaid. There isn’t the anger or resentment Dabi feels for Endeavor, because that intense level of emotion sprung from the loss of the father who used to be his whole world. His feelings toward his mother seem more amicable, but also more distant.

And while she could’ve done some things differently in regards to her oldest, I want to make it clear that the distance between them was very much by design.

After all, Touya was the end goal of their marriage. It was never any secret as to why Enji wanted to marry her and to some extent Rei must’ve realized that this child was not meant to be hers: the child was the transaction, the thing she was needed to create, to give to her husband. Of course she loved Touya and was likely his primary caregiver for most of his life, but there was no doubt that once his quirk manifested and he could begin his hero training, his life would be dominated by his father. Which is what happened.

Here, I would like to point out something I noticed in the flashback chapters. We never see any panels of Enji alone with any of his children during their infancy -- even with Shouto, the perfect child he longed for, we see Rei holding Shouto, sitting by him as he sleeps. Enji is there tangentially. Once Shouto begins his training, that is when we see him with his father.

So to see Enji with Touya when he was a baby, prior to his quirk manifesting, strikes me as a big deal. But it makes sense if you remember that he’d placed all his hopes, dreams and expectations on his firstborn. Initially, it doesn’t look like he even considered the possibility that Touya wouldn’t be his successor or that his little eugenics experiment would fail; this was his first, most optimistic attempt at a masterpiece. So I don’t believe it’s far-fetched to see him spend more time with Touya right off the bat (it’s what will make the eventual abandonment all the more crushing).

However, Rei isn’t seen at all in the snippet of Touya’s infancy, despite us knowing she was relegated to the caregiver role. Rei is literally out of the picture. Compare this to how she features prominently in Shouto’s infancy or how we see her holding a baby Natsuo. You could argue that, hey, we don’t see her holding a baby Fuyumi either, but there’s other scenes where Fuyumi’s attached to her mother’s hip or crying over her being hurt. Things that suggest a closeness, when the only scene we get of just her and Touya is one where they’re at odds. 

As we move further into Touya’s childhood, though, Rei becomes the only voice we hear advocate for him against his father. I’m referencing two specific instances:

When Enji coerces her into having more children to replace Touya now that his father has deemed him a failure, something she knows will hurt their son deeply.

And after Touya lashes out at Shouto, which Rei doesn’t blame on Touya, but rather on his father. She delivers such a satisfying condemnation of his actions, probably the most cutting one Endvr’s received to date, and it so accurately sums up one of his major character flaws.

How can you call yourself a hero when you can’t even face your own son?

The tragedy of it all is that Rei never said any of this in front of Touya -- it was always said in private, just to her husband. That alone took courage, yes, but it would’ve meant everything to Touya to hear her condemn his father aloud. Instead when she does speak to him, she says this:

It’s why I can’t wrap my head around that scene in Ch 302, where after Enji admits he didn’t know what to say to Touya, Rei replies, “Neither did I.” 

When we’re shown in flashbacks during that same chapter that she did understand her son. “He just wants to be acknowledged by you” is quite the indication that she, at the very least, understood the cause of Touya’s turmoil even if she couldn’t fully relate to it herself. So why can’t she say any of this to him?

The answer is in the way she addresses Touya, as it is nearly identical to how Nao addresses Tenko in this scene:

Both Touya and Tenko grew up in similar households: the father had all the power, physical and financial, so the mothers were left to try and comfort their children in a way that didn’t go against their husbands’ desires -- and so, to use Tenko’s own words, they would “reject them with kindness.”

So it’s no wonder that Touya lashes out at his mother after she suggests he pursue other things. He isn’t five like Tenko was, he’s thirteen and has a much clearer understanding of why she says this and why it’s a bit hypocritical, since he’s aware of her situation, too.

Just as she was bound by her family, who wanted her to marry Endvr for the money and status, he’s bound by the expectations of his family. I’m not sure if I’ve seen anyone else touch on this detail, but when Touya states that he knows his grandparents sold his mom into marriage so his dad could have a child, we could infer that Touya knows enough to realize that his mother might not have necessarily wanted him.

Not him specifically, but any child — the story has neglected to flesh her out beyond her marriage and motherhood, so we have no idea if Rei wanted to become a mother prior to this arrangement, despite how much she loves her kids now — although it is possible that he might’ve internalized it this way.

So you have Touya, who at least knows with certainty that his father wanted him to exist, yet he comes to understand that his father only wants him if he can meet a specific set of expectations, and if he cannot, he’ll be discarded. If he can’t surpass All Might, he can’t fulfill his reason for existing and his father will have to replace him. So to have his mother urge him to follow a path other than becoming a hero would mean, to Touya, accepting that he is the mistake he fears he is. Of course he isn’t going to respond well to that.

I don’t like when people try to compare Touya’s reaction in this moment to Shouto’s when Rei tells him he isn’t bound by his father’s blood, using that to paint Shouto as the “good” child and Touya as the “bad” one. They didn’t react differently because of any innate sense of goodness or lack thereof -- they reacted differently because the situations are different.

Telling Shouto that he didn’t have to be like his father comforted Shouto, who only knew his father as the bully who hurt his mom. He associated his father, and his father’s fire, with all of that fear and pain -- and thus, he associated the part of himself that took after his father with those feelings. She wasn’t denying his dream of becoming a hero, only assuring him that when he became a hero it could be whatever kind of hero he chose to be, that he wasn’t doomed to be like his father.

Whereas what she tells Touya sounds a lot like what his father told him, which was to give up on being a hero and pursue other aspirations.

Encouraging Shouto to become his own version of a hero still falls in line with what Endvr ultimately wants, which is for Shouto to be a hero capable of surpassing All Might. Whereas this is what happens when Touya continues to train to do that against his father’s wishes:

This is where the framing begins to bother me and where Rei’s characterization becomes inconsistent. 

So in this scene from Ch 302, we see Enji abusing his wife for “letting” Touya continue to train, punishing her for her “failure” to stop him. Obviously, none of that is Rei’s fault. If anything, Enji would be more responsible for preventing Touya from hurting himself since he’s the reason his son is hurting himself in the first place.

Moreover, the fact that he hits Rei over this sort of muddies the water of an previously-established narrative. Since the Sports Festival arc, we’ve known that Endvr abused his wife because she tried to interfere with Shouto’s training. It got to the point where she was terrified of her husband and it drove her to a breakdown. Why introduce this new aspect to the abuse, when it was already established that a) he was physically abusive and b) his motivations for abusing her were explicit to the audience? 

I’m not saying it doesn’t make sense that a man who hits his wife for one reason could find another reason to do it and justify his actions to himself. And while the scene does portray Endvr in a bad light to show how wrong his actions are, literally draping his figure in shadow, why does it even dare to suggest the idea that Rei was remiss in her duties as a mother? Again, the scene isn’t even necessary, since the narrative has long-since showed the audience that Enji abused his wife. 

By itself, the scene would read as further exploration of how Rei was victimized and how it affected her children. When you look at it with the chapter as a whole, though? Remember, this is the chapter where Rei claims that all of the family shares the blame in what happened to Touya, displacing some of the blame that rightfully rests on Enji. 

But my major gripe with this scene is how it reframes the sole moment we get of Rei and Touya alone. Because we know that Rei understands Touya, based on her confrontations with her husband in Ch 301 & 302. Rather than encourage him to be what he wants or acknowledge that his father is in the wrong, however, her advice falls in line with what Enji wants -- to stop Touya from training. And this comes after a scene where we see Enji beat his wife when she doesn’t stop Touya from training.

With all that in mind, it could potentially be read as Rei trying stop Touya for the sake of protecting herself and the family -- I don’t think it’s coincidence that in the scene where he hits her that we see Shouto, Fuyumi & Natsuo all as witnesses who are very distressed by what’s happening to their mother -- at the cost of Touya’s need to be validated. And if executed well or at least better than it has here, that wouldn’t be a bad choice of narrative per se, and it would fit into the pattern where the households the villains were raised in -- notably Shigaraki, Dabi & Toga -- mimic the society they live in, just on a smaller scale.

Except. Does that sort of narrative make sense based on what we already know about Rei?

Certainly, it is natural to want to protect yourself under physical and/or emotional duress by appeasing your abuser. This sort of complicated dynamic appears in the Shimura family, too. Just like in the house that Kotaro built, the Todoroki family revolves around the desires of the abuser and is dictated by his whims.

I would argue that Nao does give us a well-written example of this narrative. From the beginning, it’s established that she loves Tenko dearly. But in the house her husband built, there’s no room to love her son as he deserves. She prioritizes the feelings of Tenko’s father for the sake of maintaining peace in the household and this is established quickly and plainly.

Early on in the flashback, Kotaro exerts his control over the house, while Nao + her parents look uncomfortable. Despite this, we watch as they comply with his rules, all at the expense of Tenko’s feelings. When she stands up to Kotaro at last, it is not where Tenko can see and already too late. It’s a painful story, full of regret and sadness, but it is consistent from start to end. Nobody feels out-of-character or there to prop up anybody else.

So why doesn’t Rei feel as consistent in this narrative?

Because it doesn’t fit with everything we knew about Rei prior to her abuser’s subpar redemption arc.

The way she interacts with Touya would make sense, if this was how she was portrayed from the start. However, her behavior in Shouto’s flashback -- where she was first introduced -- contrasts what we get in the later Todoroki flashbacks.

Let’s compare this to the scenes in Ch 302. Here, Rei interferes on Shouto’s behalf. She advocates for her son in front of Shouto where he can hear. She stands up to his bully/villain and tries to protect him, while also validating his feelings in the process. Directly after this, Enji hits her, not for failing to comply with his demands, but for defying him. 

It is difficult to reconcile this Rei with the Rei we get in Ch 302. And if you try to find an in-story reason for the inconsistency, the options either do a disservice to Rei or make things even more painful for Touya. But I’m sure most of you have realized that I’m going to suggest a reason for this inconsistency that goes beyond the canon.

Because when Rei was first introduced in the story, Endvr was unequivocally the villain in the Todoroki family, not some misguided patriarch trying to atone for his “past” mistakes. Years later and in the midst of his redemption arc, the narrative seems to be intent on making this man more palatable to readers, and it’s used Rei at every opportunity to prop up his efforts to be better. Often, though, it takes some of the heat off Enji by displacing it onto other family members, most significantly Rei & Touya.

Like, you can literally see the difference in the frame from early in the manga to now:

Ch 39: Endvr trains his five-year-old to the point where he’s throwing up due overextension and being punched by a fully grown adult who is also his father. Rei tries to protect her son and gets slapped by Endvr. All the blames rests squarely on Endvr, who is clearly the aggressor and painted as the villain here.

Ch 302: Endvr hits Rei for not preventing Touya from sneaking out to train, knocking her to the ground. Again, Endvr is clearly the aggressor, but oh this time it’s not driven solely by his selfish desires it’s also cocnern for his son; Rei is the victim but oh she also should have been watching him more closely, and oh well why was Touya going out in the first place, when everyone has told him to stop and he knows his mom will get punished for it?

Honestly, I can understand where some people have mixed feelings over Rei’s character, particularly since the writing has done her such a disservice recently. With that being said, however, it takes a minimum amount of critical thinking to recognize that while you can criticize some choices she made, you cannot hold her to the same standard of accountability as Enji, it’s absurd. The power imbalance was obviously tipped in Endvr’s favor, always.

It is a shame, too, that we can’t have more discussions that don’t turn into some readers (a lot of whom are attempting to make Endvr sound less horrible than he actually was) trying to demonize her. It’s doubly a shame the story itself doesn’t bother to flesh her out as a person, instead using her as a prop, because the complex relationships she has with Touya -- with all her children, really -- has plenty of room for exploration. 

Like, there was no reason to add this new dimension of resentment due to her spouting Enji’s words back at Touya, when there was already a source of tension supported by previous canon -- the neglect the Todoroki kids suffered because Rei couldn’t be the parent they needed, due to her declining mental health and eventual breakdown.

Or, if you want to complicate their dynamic further, why not add something that focuses on Rei and has nothing to do with Enji? We learn in the flashbacks that Rei agreed to the marriage more-or-less to please her family, lamenting that she “intended to smile through it to the end,” essentially admitting that her hope was she could grin and bear it. It is telling that she had this attitude before entering her marriage; evidently, she was raised with the idea that she should be acquiescent to her parents’ whims and not express herself if she was only going to be contrary. Maybe she didn’t know how to deal with Touya’s very expressive, very emotional outbursts as a result. And her inability to respond would be the exact opposite of what Touya was seeking.

Not to mention that Touya died, and for the last decade, Rei was under the impression she had lost her son forever. He died while she was hospitalized, torn up with guilt over what she did to Shouto, only to find out that her other son died in a frankly horrific manner, and she could do nothing. By the time she would’ve found out, it was too late to even try to do anything. I can’t imagine what she must’ve felt in terms of regret alone, plus her grief. And I’m still mad we were robbed of her reaction to Touya being alive, because now suddenly there is a chance to do something, to change what was once written in stone.

Or what about Touya’s feelings for his mother, that have yet to be given much depth? As the oldest and most aware of his existence, it seems like he was the first to truly understand his mother’s situation and I can’t help but wonder: If Touya knew he vessel for his father’s ambition, and his mother was sold into role of creating/caring for him, did he question her love for him? Once he found out one parent’s love was conditional, it wouldn’t be a leap for him to consider it for the other. And yet if that’s true, Dabi doesn’t appear to hold any ill-will towards her for that. He was angry at her hypocrisy, because he knows she should understand, but her words to him didn’t reflect that.

All of that is fascinating and so much better than what we got in canon, so far at least. I’m hoping for them interact in the present at least once before the end of the series, and I think they will, but as to how satisfying a reconciliation it’ll be, I guess we’ll have to wait to see how the Todoroki plotline progresses from here on out.

[wolfsskull]

back in like 2013/2014 i remember playing this online game called the end. it had puzzles, strategy minigames, and basic navigating maps but the cool thing was that in each level it would ask you certain philosophical questions and build a map of your personal philosophical beliefs and how they compared to other notable historical figures. i just remembered it and wanted to play it again but the actual site was shut down i guess and i can't find it hosted anywhere else.

it's too bad, i remember really enjoying it the first time i played it

[emovatore]

Safe to say, everyone was quite excited about Marnie’s arrival.

[arsontisticallyinfernal]

🗯️Hell-o hello ‼️ I came across with your Request Rules blog and then I had a minor ask idea,,,

(Headcanon, perhaps seperately if your write for so many at once ^^') What would it be like for the demons and the purgatory hall to have GN!Reader who's like a master level chef👨‍🍳 Like they make such amazing food to the point it's *chef's kiss*.

BUT‼️ (But?😨) There is a catch . . Masterchef!Reader doesn't want to be disturbed while cooking due to being afraid one of them will do something that'll turn the whole dish upside down. So afraid to the point they will yell to leave before they touch anything. Though they will only let Luke and Barabatoes(Barbatos) stay because they know they can trust them

"EVERYONE GET THE FCK OUT BEFORE YOU CURSE THW FOOD OR SOMETHING THE FOOD ISN'T DONE😡"

"Except you, Luke and Barbatos bcs ik I can trust you 🥰☺️"

- Orange Anon

YES, I LOVE THIS ORANGE ANON, YOUR A GENIUS!! And I'll be doing them all in one post, so it's gonna be long

btw I didn't add in Rapheal cause I didn't know if you wanted the newer characters as well, I'll make a separate one for them if so

Reacting to Masterchef!reader + The demons + Purgatory hall

Pronouns: They/them for reader, He/him for everyone else

Genre: Neutral, not fluff and not angst, leaning on fluff with Barb and Luke

Characters: The demon bros, Diavolo, Barbatos and Purgatory hall

Fandom: Obey me

Warnings: swearing

Edited/proofread: No

It was a night at the demon lords castle, and the human was cooking tonight. All of purgatory hall, house of lamentation and the demon prince with his butler were there, nearby them. Midway they were cooking they felt anxiousness bubbling up within their stomach and let out the loudest yell they ever shrieked "GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE, YOU MIGHT CURSE THE FOOD OR SOMETHING!"

All eyes directed to them in shock, but the human spoke once again "Besides for you two, I trust you two" they stated, pointing to Barbatos and Luke

Diavolo

He's very curious as of how you make such amazing dishes, so he would want to see you cooking up close to see exactly how you make these spectacular foods!

When you let out that yell, he was shocked, but understood how you felt...er- or at least tried to. He respected what you wanted though and left the kitchen. In his opinion, as long as he ate your amazing cooking, it was worth it.

Barbatos

He has tried your cooking once during that retreat back in lesson 7, he thought it was decent for a human and would like to have it again, maybe he'd even teach you how to cook some devildom dishes.

When you yelled out, he was almost already gone out of the kitchen, but once you pointed to him, he walked right back. He will so for sure teach you how to cook certain devildom food now. He's actually quite glad you trust him to be around you when cooking.

Lucifer

He's ate your food before, and absolutely loves it. He particularly likes it when you cook for him late at night when he's staying up working, so he appreciates your cooking, human food or not.

The moment you told everyone to leave, ouch, his pride just got stabbed, not like he'd admit to it ever though. He'll still walk out of the kitchen, after all you did request for everyone besides for the chihuahua and butler to leave.

Mammon

He doesn't care much about your cooking; he thinks it's pretty good for human food but could care less. Still make it for him, he craves it.

How dare you make him leave the kitchen! Lucifer had to drag him out of the kitchen so you’d be left alone. [not counting Barb and Luke] You bet he tried to sneak back into the kitchen but got caught by Luke.

Leviathan

To be bluntly honest, he probably wasn’t even in the kitchen in the first place, he’d probably be hiding somewhere on his phone. I’d honestly would be doing the same.

He could hear your shout, and honestly, he thought it was an anime protagonist yelling before powering up. 

Satan

No opinion on your cooking, he enjoys it and if it is cat friendly, he feeds the stray cats any leftovers of your cooking.

Wasn’t even in the kitchen in the first place, though he definitely could sense your building wrath, so he wasn’t surprised you yelled. He felt satisfaction when he saw the look on Lucifer’s face, he could easily tell that Lucifer’s pride got struck a bit.

Asmodeus

He LOVES your cooking as long as it doesn’t have too many calories, he thinks it’s absolutely delicious.

Oh he had to hold in the laugh when he saw Mammon’s face when you shouted, it was priceless! He even got a picture and posted it to devilgram. But his own reaction to you shouting? He felt a bit hurt, why don’t you want Asmodeus in the kitchen near you? But he listened anyways, he for sure filmed Mammon trying to get back into the kitchen

Beelzebub

Give him your food, he wants it. Beel adores your food a lot, just like any food he eats. Cook for him, he loves it when you cook for him.

He didn’t care that you yelled, and he just simply left. As long as he gets to get your food, he’s happy.

Belphegor

He thinks your cooking is fine for a human, he’ll eat your food if you do cook.

He was sleeping and not even you shouting woke Belphie up. He eats the food once done, he thinks it’s good. 

Simeon

Cook for Simeon more, he’ll love you even more if you do. Plus, he want’s someone besides Solomon to cook.

Was at the table like the gentleman and angel he is, though he was very startled when he heard you, yelling at everyone to leave the kitchen. Was confused when Luke and Barbatos didn’t walk out, but Lucifer explained to Simeon that you let the two stay. He loves you even more 

Solomon

Thinks your cooking is fine, but could use some work. He is so willing to “teach” you. Too bad he doesn’t know.

For sure was standing right beside you, trying to tell you how to cook. With that shout he quickly made his way out of the kitchen, he’ll have to teach you another time.

Luke

AAAAAAAAAAAA- please replace Solomon and move into Purgatory hall and cook for Simeon and him instead, please. But besides that, he enjoys your food, Luke has definitely taught you how to cook some celestial pastries before.

Was about to follow Barbatos out of the kitchen, but when you pointed to him? He stayed, standing by your side. Can you teach him how to cook your human world foods? Please?

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Hopefully I didn’t butcher your request or any of their personalities, hope you enjoyed! istg there might be so many grammar errors so don’t mind that-

Feel free to come by again and request. And if you[the reader] haven’t requested before, feel free to, no pressure ^^

[hunting-season]

2S, 1B cont.!

*go onto my profile for the first post abt this AU!*

TL;DR: Yuu & Grim are two souls in one body! Yuu's body, to be exact. They have magic, can switch who is in control of the body, and have loads of trauma! bc they are a science experiment :) Now they're in Twisted Wonderland!

This headcanons post is mostly about Yuu-Grim's relationships with the Heartslabyul guys! Another post w the Savanaclaw guys at a later date.

vv

Riddle Rosehearts

Initially thinks Yuu-Grim are very well-behaved. At least when Yuu is in...in "control of the body"??

He doesn't understand, but he's not going to question what he thinks is someone being mad. He'll just make sure they don't break any rules.

Even so, he does treat them as just one person instead of two at the beginning. Not that it doesn't phase them too much

Except when RIddle's scolding Yuu even though Grim is the one who did it, so Grim gets mad and takes control when he feels Yuu clam up and feels scared

Remember my first post: whoever's in control of the body has their feelings more pronounced/felt !!

Post-Overblot (and getting a vague understanding of Yuu-Grim's traumatic past), Riddle is only more than happy to treat Yuu and Grim like the separate beings they are! It's the least he can do after they helped him through his Overblot.

The first person to suggest that they wear something to indicate who's currently in control!

Doesn't understand how calm the two are around Floyd (well, Grim less so, but only when Floyd's hugs start to hurt)

Ace Trappola

He's a real asshole in the beginning. Mocks Yuu-Grim for being "freaky" and "weird"

Post-Dwarfs Mine, he'll lay off the insults, but doesn't treat Yuu or Grim as separate people.

Yuu doesn't mind but Grim doesn't like it when Ace teases them

It's obvious when Grim's in control because Ace will find "Yuu" talking back to his quips

After confronting Trey in the library and learning you've been in a similar situation to Riddle's (and quickly deducing that's the reason behind Yuu and Grim insisting they're different people), Ace is quick to change his tune

Of course, he'll play it off when it's pointed out by Grim, but he just doesn't want to be too mean! Making fun of people is fun, but if it's trauma-related that so obviously affected someone?? Yea, no, there's no fun in that

The most protective of Yuu-Grim !!! He's gonna be the one to loudly correct others who don't correctly acknowledge whoever of Yuu-Grim is in control.

Deuce Spade

At first, he thinks it's just a moniker/persona like what a couple delinquents from his past used to have

He also thought "Grim" was Yuu's last name. Which the two found very funny and cute

He's always polite! He's the first person to treat them as different people, but only when it's obvious that Grim is in control

After the Trey-in-library scene though, he gets better! He tries his best to remember they're two different people in one body!

Like Ace, he's also protective of Yuu-Grim! Not huge on reminding others, but will threaten ppl who try to make fun of the two.

I don't have many other thoughts, Deuce is just a Good Boy TM. doing his best to be kind!!!

The one who reminds Yuu and Grim to check their bracelet and make sure it's displaying the right symbol

Cater Diamond

Thinks Yuu-Grim are a little eccentric but it's okay! He can work with it

Like Deuce, he tries his best to refer to them as separate people, but he does slip up

After hearing a little from Trey his speculations on Yuu-Grim's past and Riddle's Overblot, Cater does go out of his way to include both of them in conversation so it's more one-to-two than one-on-one talk!

Is the one to get the two something to wear that'll show them who's in control! It's a grey bracelet that's more of a wristwatch with its whole surface being an indestructible touchscreen. All it can really do is display one of 2 symbols though: a rabbit silhouette for Yuu, and a cat silhouette for Grim!

He got it from Idia, who was pestered into making it www

It was simple enough to make so it's okay ^^

Loves taking photos with Yuu-Grim! Pics w Yuu are guaranteed to be cute and pics w Grim are always fun bc Grim will either frown or smirk at the camera depending on his mood

Trey Clover

Like Cater, he thinks Yuu-Grim are eccentric but won't comment on it

Thinks Yuu is cute! Not entirely fond of Grim when he's angry, but it's usually a very childish tantrum so he's cute in a different way

After the library confrontation and Riddle's Overblot, Trey goes out of his way to make Yuu-Grim tons of sweets! He makes them fish-shaped to appease Grim

(Trey's happy when Yuu says it and Grim like it a lot and that it's "almost as good as tuna")

Suggests to Riddle that they should hold more Unbirthday Parties and smaller tea parties and invite Yuu-Grim. He doesn't mind the baking, really

Trey likes seeing Riddle and Yuu-Grim eat his sweets bc they're all happiest like that!

Babies Yuu-Grim. Just a little. A pinch of fussing never hurt anyone

(Yuu-Grim definitely don't mind)

Group

Cater and Deuce are the ones who try to use both of Yuu's pronouns!

Ace mostly sticks to they/them for Yuu but uses it/its in private when it's just their group

Trey and Riddle stick 100% to they/them. Very rarely they'll use it/its for Yuu just because they're not used to thinking it/its being pronouns for people

Since Grim just uses he/him, it's easy to remember his pronouns, but he's not in charge often, so the boys often slip up and refer to Grim with they/them

Not that Grim minds, lol

^^

Please feel free to send asks about this AU !!! Or anything else !!! I'd love to chat :D

[haleigh-sloth]

Adding onto my last ask- I've seen so many people want different endings for Touya. Some people don't want him to be with his family at the end (eventhough I'm 100% sure this will happen and I want him with his family.) Some people said that they rather Touya die than have him reconcile with his dad while some people want to see that. Then they claim he doesn't care for LOV while others say he cares more about the LOV than his own family.But I love Touya sm. I just want him to live and be happy.

Ahhhhh

I'm gonna answer this separately cuz there's a lot, yep. This is exactly what I meant in my response to your first ask, split ideas for his character and where he should go and what he wants etc.

Me personally, I don't hide the fact that I want him to go home to his family. I also am not quiet about the fact that I'm 100% sure that's where he's going.

I obviously have no taste for the death ending, and I don't think that'll happen at all.

The other endings though, well, while they're not terrible--they're not what I want and they're not what I think the story is pointing toward in the slightest.

Personal take under the cut since I don't wanna upset people who don't wanna read this.

Me personally--I seriously dislike the take that he cares more for the LOV than his family, and I seriously dislike and disagree with the take that he would totally be fine if he had opened up to them and accepted their support.

I'm not gonna get into the analysis of the LOV and their relationships with each other on this post since that could honestly be its own post by itself, but I'll say that in my opinion--saying that Touya would have just been content with the LOV's acceptance completely ignores what we know about Touya:

His spiral started because his father basically cut off the parent/child bond cold turkey and made no attempts at rekindling it in a different way outside of training

His spiral got worse because his mother didn't have a strong presence in his life the way she did for Shouto. The only attempt we saw her make for Touya were words thrown at Enji, and Rei asking a half-assed question about the reason Touya wants to be a hero, not acknowledging to Touya's face WHAT was hurting him so bad, even though she was fully aware.

His spiral continued getting worse because his siblings, who were getting neglected and becoming scared of their father as time went on, could not be an emotional support for Touya due to being young children and to the circumstances listed above.

He died during an emotional breakdown after his father failed to show up.

He woke up from a 3 year long coma and immediately wanted to go home to apologize for the last things he remembers saying to his mother, and his siblings.

He RAN HOME

He saw that things hadn't changed, and that he had essentially been replaced, and that his existence didn't matter (obviously this is not the case, he did matter, but Enji is a vile piece of shit)

After seeing that his family had buried him in their past, he declared Touya Todoroki officially dead and became Dabi, and set out for the next 7 years planning his own suicide, his own funeral.

So yeah...personally, nothing about that tells me that even IF the LOV had all sat down and shared each other’s deepest, darkest feelings and miseries with each other (which btw there’s nothing to suggest that ANY of them have done that), he would have felt seen or felt any kind of relief. His pain is so directly tied to his family and his ABSENCE from his own family. He has cried blood two times in this series, and both times were when he thought of his family.

So yeah when I see the metas about Touya needing to open up to the League so he can openly accept their emotional support (which btw I don’t see them give each other as much as everyone claims they do) in order to start his healing journey, I just have scroll on by and ignore because I could not possibly disagree more. I don’t think the League is the answer to his pain or his problems.

That being said I’ve said it before that I DO see some positive development where he doesn’t just ignore his affiliation with the LOV or write it off as a convenience. Like, I think once he’s fully saved from himself (via Shouto+Endeavor’s actions) he can start to act more like he cares, because that’ll be after he finally is seen by his own blood, after he’s finally gotten what he’s wanted.

[writing-good-vibes]

this old and empty house

house of wax fic again, who could have guessed. i've been working on my personal hc timeline of event for the sinclairs and tbh i think vincent did start college but dropped out. as always, bold is sign. warning for a little bit of angst but when do i ever write anything completely soft about them.

When he woke up, Vincent expected to see the plain white-washed walls of his dorm room. Expected to hear the clamours and shouts and life of the students in his block.

When he opened his eyes, he instead saw the textured ceiling and sky blue walls of his bedroom, a line of paper airplanes circling over his head.

He'd been home for three weeks now and still he wasn't prepared for the surge of anxiety to roll through him every morning. The alarm clock on the bedside glows, 7:09 am.

He ought to go check the post box, he thinks, to see if his college paperwork has arrived yet. The paperwork confirming his withdrawal from his bachelor's degree at LSU.

He thinks he'll forgive Bo, sooner or later, he always does. But right now, he's angry. Angry when he wakes up and angry when he goes back to bed. Staring a hole through the wall that separates him and Bo. Four and a half inches of plaster between his bed and his twin's; been that way since childhood and will be like that when they're long since grown.

He hears the clatter of pots and pans from the kitchen and knows Bo is making a mess of breakfast. The smell of burning milk will fill the house until dinner if he doesn't get out of bed. Lester's going to be late for school again if Vincent doesn't swoop in to save the pan of oatmeal that he knows Bo is ruining.

Stumbling up, he gets dressed, pulling a sweater over the t-shirt he's already wearing and searching for his jeans amongst the laundry on the floor.

He leaves his room, walking down to the end of the hall to check on momma. She's still asleep, thankfully. Hopefully she'll stay that way until they can feed Lester and drive him to the next town over. In a few weeks he'll be getting his own driving permit, which will save Bo a lot of trouble ferrying him around everywhere.

When he gets to the kitchen, Bo is stirring a pot on the stove and yelling at Lester to get his school bag ready (a hand-me-down from Bo himself), like he's still a kid. Like he isn't gonna be graduating in a year or so.

Vincent's never been able to stomach oatmeal but Bo loves it. Always too thick and too bland and too plain. He thinks that's why Bo likes it.

Still, he takes over cooking --

("Let me," he signs and Bo hands over the spoon gratefully.)

-- and serves up two bowls of oatmeal, with at least three servings left because Bo eats like he's never going to get another meal. Plus a bowl for their momma, if she feels like eating.

With no time to spare, they bundle Lester into the truck and Vincent watches him and Bo drive off down the hill, through town and onto the road leading away from Ambrose.

He doesn't want to check on momma again. He's sure, beyond sure, that when she wakes he'll know about it.

He's been avoiding the stack of school work that he left on the sideboard in the family room. Been avoiding it for three weeks because it's worthless now.

Maybe some of it can still be of use, he can incorporate it into the waxworks somehow. He'd been planning a mural of sorts for his final project. There must be a spare wall in the museum, somewhere.

It takes an hour and a half for Bo to get home, and when he does he brings with him bags of groceries. He must have stopped off in town while dropping Lester off.

"I thought we could make gumbo for dinner, I stopped by and got a half-pound of crawfish from that place," Bo explains, unpacking things onto the kitchen counter. He's trying to be nice, Vincent thinks. Nice. That'll be the day.

Vincent leans back and watches him. Soon he's enlisted to the chopping board and he slices celery rhythmically. He has nothing else to do.

Bo sets the pan of crawfish and stock and spices and the vegetables to simmer away on the stove; it'll take all day to boil and reduce and turn into something good.

When they leave the kitchen Vince notices the stack of letters on the table by the door. Bo didn't mention they got any mail.

They while away the day watching TV and... well not much else. They alternate who picks the show, falling into old habits that Vincent doesn't think they'll ever grow out of. Bo picks Geraldo, then Vincent chooses Murder, She Wrote. Bo wants to watch Star Trek after that and then Vincent sees Dynasty and Bo complains but he's more invested in it than Vincent ever is, and then MacGyver is on and Bo perks up again.

(Their viewing is punctuated by silent trips upstairs to see to momma. They don't talk about it.)

They do this all day until Bo realises he's going to be late to pick up Lester from school and leaves in a flurry of curses, stumbling over his untied laces as he makes for the door.

Lester comes home and goes to his room because he doesn't want to be around the twins. Hasn't ever since Vince came home and the storm clouds peaked the horizon. For three weeks it's been brewing until it churns silently above the Sinclair house. Lester's always had a good intuition.

He comes down for dinner and Bo makes them sit at the table and makes Lester talk about his day, like they're a happy family that does that sort of thing.

Later, when Lester has retreated to his room and they've finished helping momma eat her dinner, just barely, the twins are both tired and thoughtless. Bo bangs into the sideboard in the family room and Vincent's schoolwork goes flying. Pages of sketches flutter to the floor and Bo has to stop dead in his tracks as to not step on any of them.

He glances guiltily at Vincent and Vince isn't quite sure what he's feeling guilty about. He hopes its for -- well, he hopes it's for bringing him back here.

"You oughta move all this," Bo says, trying to sound authoritative but he isn't meeting Vincent's eye.

"Why?" Vincent asks, but he makes a move to collect the fallen pages anyway. Really he just wants Bo to say it, to confirm what he's made happen.

"'Cause it's goin' to get ruined if you leave it lyin' aroun', want me to keep knockin' it aroun' all time?"

Vincent knows not to bait him but he does it anyway, "It's not like I'm going to need any of it anyway."

"Well, you're not just gonna throw it out, are you?"

"It doesn't matter either way."

"Quit it, Vince."

"Quit what?"

"You know what. Look, I'm sorry! Is that what you wanna hear?"

"I do, actually."

Bo scowls, looking his twin dead in the eye just like he's always done, "I know you blame me but it's not my fault momma's sick! What, you gonna say you don't wanna look after her? Gonna leave her to rot away on her own?"

"That's not why you really dragged me back here! You did it because you're never going to leave and you didn't want me to get away either."

Bo's lip twitches and pulls into a smile. "You think you were ever gonna leave for good? You'd be back, once you finished that goddamn waste o' time college degree, you'd be back, 'cause there's nowhere else for you to fuckin' go."

"I lasted well enough without you."

Bo doesn't reply, but Vince can see his jaw clench. He walks off, boots leaving dirty prints on the few remaining scattered pages.

Vincent doesn't move. Breaths out deeply and then stoops to pick up the dirtied pages. None of it matters now anyway. He hears Bo stomp upstairs and wonders if he'll come back down in time for Tales from the Crypt tonight. Glancing over at the table by the door, he remembers the stack of mail that Bo had left there.

Vincent finds the envelope with the LSU seal and tears it open.

*

Bo does reappear just as Vincent turns over to the Cryptkeeper. They sit side by side on the worn-out couch like they always do and watch the tale.

As he lies in bed, awake long after he and Bo went upstairs, Vincent thinks that perhaps it's a blessing that their momma had one of her good days whilst he and Bo argued. He'd almost forgotten about her.

Before he falls asleep he hears the sound of rain, a downpour, on the windows.

[paleangels13]

would i be able to ask for either 131 or 150 with joel/niko?

First of all thanks for the prompt(s)! 🥰

I wanted to wait until tomorrow with posting this but it's done soo might as well post it now :D I will actually do the 131 as well and post it separately (will tag you in it if that's okay ^^) but that'll have to wait until tomorrow or the weekend 😅

Hope you like it and sorry if you didn't want spice, because spice is what you get :D

Prompt: "Stop distracting me"

386 words

Niko was sitting in his small home office, leaning over a bunch of concept drawings for new merch. He didn't really like any of the ideas but had promised to get them done by the end of the week.

It didn't help his situation at all that Joel kept coming in every 10 minutes to check if he was free now. Niko didn't say anything about it the first 5 times, only rolled his eyes at the sixth try but when Joel came in once again ripping him from his focus he snapped.

“Fuck, dude. Stop distracting me!”

Joel froze for a second at the sudden outburst before he started to smile innocently.

“Sorry, can't keep my legs shut when I'm around you… oops, I mean can't keep my legs still when I'm around you!” Joel said, taking a seat in Niko's lap, not bothering to ask first.

“Did you really just–” Niko interrupted himself, now staring at Joel with wide eyes.

He hadn't really looked at his friend – possible boyfriend – until now which turned out to be a huge waste of time.

Joel slightly circled his hips, rubbing himself against Niko's bare upper leg. “You like what you see? Joonas helped me find it,” Joel teased, pulling the hem of the crop top up just a little bit further. “He liked it a lot, actually. Bent me over to fuck me in the changing room right then right there,” he giggled.

“Oh, did he? Thought you were my slut, not his,” Niko growled, sliding his fingers underneath the fabric of the short black skirt Joel was wearing.

“Couldn't say no to him. He's way too convincing if he wants to be, and his hands felt soo good on me.” Joel's voice was laced with a moan when he said that, obviously wanting to provoke Niko.

Niko wasn't exactly jealous, he just didn't like Joel talking about Joonas this way, knowing Joonas had fucked his… well whatever.

“Get up and bend over. Hands on the desk. Oh, and don't you dare ruin any of the drafts I drew. Bad enough you kept me from finishing anything, wouldn't advise you to ruin the few things I at least started.”

Joel smiled happily, finally getting what he had wanted the whole time, and obeyed without any further protest.

[hms-no-fun]

what was the most frustrating and/or fun part involved in formatting godfeels?

the first thing to know is that when i started gf1 i knew jack shit about html and css. i've always REALLY struggled with coding, but i forced myself to learn when faced with the horrible possibility of publishing a homestuck fic in all-black lucida. can you imagine??

i didn't do this on purpose, but as the series went along i always found a new thing that i wanted to try to test my own meager abilities as a novice code understander. it's funny, i very specifically remember writing these lines in gf1--

--and thinking, man, that's a really cool effect! breaking the grammar rules for emotional impact by having "leave" on its own line separated by line breaks like that is pretty much where the entire meta aspect of godfeels started, and you could even go so far as to say that this is the moment when the gf universe becomes metaphysically distinct from homestuck? idk if that's the best way to put it but looking back on it and even at the time, this moment always felt extremely important as a style choice with narrative implications.

formatting is a pain in the ass, but it gets less so every time i format a chapter. i've got a whole process now that i might go into at length sometime down the line (that'll be a long post though and probably won't have time for that in the immediate future), but i can tell you that my best friend is ctrl+f. the nice thing about homestuck's dialogue style is that you have these repeated consistent handles at the start of every line of dialogue. so you write a chapter and then you find and replace every instance of "Vriska:" with "<span class="vriska">Vriska:" and by god you're like 40% there!

uh. that is, if you keep your text color to the dialogue. which i... don't.

there's a lot of the process that's really tedious, but like, i play a lot of open world games. i kinda like tedium. i've got cut/paste bound to hotkeys so when i'm going through putting </span><br /> at the end of every line of dialogue i just put on some steely dan and hit f3 a bunch. hotkeys are also my best friend, they have saved me SO MUCH wrist strain (i think it was the Risk & Dare chapter that finally pushed me to learn what the fuck a hotkey is lmao).

the most ANNOYING formatting is always always always in the narration. when terezi's narration breaks and she just has a few letters showing through? yo that shit takes forever. then the way June, Risk, and Dare show who's fronting any given thought requires me to pay real close attention to the text as i'm going (i manually format my docs so that they look how they will when finished, it's really tough for me to feel the scene if it's not visually accurate)-- which wouldn't be a problem except i'm always in such a goddamned hurry that i start formatting immediately after deciding that a draft is ready to publish, which means i've probably been writing since dawn and now it's like 8pm and formatting will only take like an hour so i might as well just get it out of the way EXCEPT IT ALWAYS TAKES TWICE AS LONG because chapter 8 was a fucking BEHEAMOTH that damn near killed me

what's nice about having a team is that they can tell you "hey, maybe you should wait until tomorrow so you can do a finally quality check when you haven't been awake for 18 hours"

the most fun part of formatting is honestly just seeing the finished product. as much as godfeels is a work of prose fiction, it's always felt distinctly visual to me in a way that was heavily influenced by the likes of house of leaves and (closer to home) nellcromancer's revolution 23 years in the making. i spend a lot of time fine-tuning the amount of scrolling people have to do to get through any given chapter to make sure it's paced correctly, make sure it FEELS the way i want it to feel. a lot of times in the doc the more abstract formatting is stuff that i leave in brackets, like for instance the huge color scroll at the start of the ch8 epilogue.

that one was hypothetical and ready to be on the chopping block until like a day before i published the chapter. a lot of the formatting tricks i've done are built off of things i did before, right- so i did the linebreaks in the screenshot from gf1 above, and expanded that style choice exponentially with each chapter. i wanted to have a cut to black in one of the early parts of ch8 that zoe figured out from me, then i modified her code to allow for Epigone's ugly-ass green background when it takes over (something i didn't plan until i realized it was possible with tools i already had --see how that works?). so when i needed to signal symbolically a physical journey through the layers of each aspect of reality without explicitly revealing WHO was doing the journeying (i wanted you to presume it was "us" and that the "us" VV addressed until July left the scene was literally "us" and not Roxy & Callie), i felt like wrangling the css to do that would be a pain... but then i sat down and just sorta mapped it out?

and by god it just WORKED. that to me felt like a huge accomplishment, that i finally understood the tools i was working with enough to be able to plan it out in advance.

there's so many formatting moments like when Dare screams "YES!" at June, or in gf2.3 when June's completely shattered and drifting as Dare and Risk through her own consciousness with this fits and starts of unknowable perspective shifts, seeing them actually WORK on the page is unparalleled. there's always so much shit getting in the way of the words when it's not done, all those fucking squiggles (which i mostly turn off but sometimes they're helpful for spelling) and all the slight differences in how they process the shape and feel of different fonts, it's never until i see it on ao3 that it feels RIGHT to me. and that's the best part, always

[thewriterowl]

So I saw the post of "boba and din have a bounty on luke and corner him and the resulting double-ended (ha) 'talk'" and this concept is living rent free in my mind.

Din and Boba, who are impressive enough individually but are damn near unstoppable when teaming up, begrudgingly decide to work together to split the reward. They end up cornering this adorable little blond rebel with a very nice ass who's got an astronomical bounty on his head. But somewhere in the process, plans change, and instead of dragging him back to the Empire in chains, they rail him within an inch of his life, each of them taking turns, separately and together. Luke, while squirming furiously and doing his best to escape the first time he's got a cock going up his ass and another down his throat, seems to eventually sense they're not going to kill him or turn him in somewhere around the second orgasm, and he settles down and submits to what he won't admit is the best sexual experience of his life so far. And eventually he's back at base and safe again, with a sore ass and lot of bruises and some vivid memories that'll feature in his most shameful fantasies.

But what he didn't realize is that even if Din and Boba aren't going to turn him in for the bounty anymore, they've decided the best use of their free time is to KEEP catching and cornering Luke like this. A few times separately (but Luke is too good and can usually escape or evade more easily if it's just one of them) but eventually it's both of them working together, much to Luke's dismay. He can barely go on a mission now without an interlude with two determined Mandalorians where he ends up bent over whatever's convenient and fucked at both ends because Din and Boba might have been lone wolves to start with but they've fully embraced the concept of double-teaming their object of interest.

(...In my mind, this goes on for a WHILE in a sort of weird Mando courtship way. Boba was all for kidnapping Luke permanently after the second time, but Din wanted to play the long game and figured if they played their cards right, eventually Luke could be persuaded to stay with them of his own will. But if he didn't, they could always go back to Boba's plan.)

Your thoughts are totally appreciated if you want, but I figured I'd tell you since your reblog of the post inspired it :)

Look...I may have an idea for this (though a lot darker) for the near future. I love this so much truthfully. These two men are monsters alone but together are just an impossible to defeat force and when they find Luke all they want is to throw him on the nearest surface and rail him like the good boy deserves. I honestly LOVE it. I want it. More of these dangerous, possessive men hunting for Luke, keep kidnapping hi, courting him, and will be marrying him pretty soon, kay thanks galaxy, deal with your shit yourself. We're going on our honeymoon.

[mypimpademia]

Shinso x reader, Mina x reader, Kaminari x reader, Kirishima x reader

TW: Swearing

Note: another part of my high school AU! I've been wanting to write for some characters that I dont write too often, and I thought this would be the best way, enjoy!

Thank you to @katsuflossy for helping me w shinso and Kaminaris soccer parts😭

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SHINSO.

He's one of the people that genuinely perfers being alone most of the time

And hes very intimidating to most people, but most realize that he's pretty chill and cool if you just talk to him

Hitoshi would be on the soccer team too

Number 12 baby (Ronaldinho's number)

Hed play midfield, and have insane control over the ball

Hes calm on the field just like he is off it

But he gets a little competitive sometimes, might have to sit down and take a breather for a second

He sometimes ends up talking shit about his opponents, and he is NOT quiet about it

Will look the exact player he's talking about dead in the eye and say that shit

"I'll knock your knees out if you push me again."

And he plays a little dirty, might kick the ball around in away that'll make people fall on their ass just to get a laugh out of it

He steps on and kicks shins too

Hes really the soccer teams MVP, they went one game without him an lost and realized just how much of a key he was to them

Hitoshi sees you as his good luck charm during games, if you're not there he feels like he can't play his absolute best

Good luck kisses before he goes on the field are mandatory, if you dont give him one or forget, youre gonna get a very sweaty hug after the game

Hitoshi has only ever come to school in sweatpants and hoodies, and only wears jeans or something other than his usual once a week just so he can switch it up

He probably comes in with major bags under his eyes and smelling like coffee

And just a little bit late

He normally goes out to eat during lunch, and always takes you with him and let's you choose

You're honestly the most underrated couple in school

The loner boy and his gorgeous s/o, it's basically a real life wattpad story

When people try flirting with you, he tries getting his soccer cleats out on them and you have to stop him before someone gets hurt

Hitoshi is just underrated overall and no one but you and his friens realize, give him more recognition </3

MINA.

The really nice popular girl of course

But one of the popular people whose popularity actually means something for once

Gets along with basically the whole school

And she makes sure everyone knows she belongs to you and you belong to her

"Mhm, I've got a pretty s/o, and I love them soo much."

Probably posts you on all her socials (that the whole school follows) everyday

Mina has been in pretty much every club and team, which is exactly how she got popular

She joins as many as she can every year, but her favorites are dance and volleyball, maybe soccer too

For dance she likes to show you her routines, and maybe even teach you how to do them if you're down for it

"How was that?!"

"You wanna learn it too, babe? I could teach you!"

She's the captain of every team she's been on

It honestly just comes from her being so charismatic and the way she can get along with people and bring everyone together

Mina is 100% best dressed

Best everything honestly

Best dressed, Best hair, all that

She's cool with all the staff members, so sometimes the turn a blind eye if she decides to head out at random even when she's not supposed to

The two of you are Thee School Couple

Everyone wishes they were you guys or at least had a relationship like the one you had

Everyone would be in tears if yall so much as fought

So 10/10 for both of you

KAMINARI.

Certified pretty play boy

Hes a flirt, and friendly, and super popular

But the playboy act dropped once the two of you got together, because that's when everyone saw how much of a simp he was for you

Denki would just constantly fawn and gush over you, it would be annoying if it were anyone else, but it was just so cute to see him be so crazy for someone after he was basically known for never being tied down

Hes on the soccer team with Shinso!

Number 5 <3

Who did you think was calming Shinso down when he got mad??? Definitely not their other teammates

Hes the teams striker, and him an Shinso are so coordinated on the field together it leaves their own teammates in shock everytime

Hes a good sport (unlike Shinso), and is very friendly with his opponents

Wishes them luck before the game, helps them up if they fall, even says 'My bad!' If he accidentally trips someone, and tells the good job if they lose

Like Shinso, good luck kisses are a must

They're more like good luck make outs with him, and he usually ends up getting so wrapped up in them that he only makes it to the field by the skin of his teeth (he gets yelled at by the coach a lot)

He gets so god damn DIRTY on the field

And it doesn't even make sense because he really doesn't slide around or fall too much

He just manages to come out covered in dirt, and the sweat doesn't make it better

Oh, and even if you give him a good luck kiss, he still hugs you after the game

He doesn't do it to be mean, he just gets excited when he's on the field and has a bunch of energy left when games are over

Denki takes you to get ice cream after games. Shinso third wheels sometimes, but it's cool and not awkward at all because you're all besties

Denki is the most popular guy in school, and he'd be most popular overall if it weren't for Mina

You guys get rated cutest couple by all the students because no one had seen Denki simp till you came along and it was just too cute

Everyone wishes they could be yall </3

And half the school has beef with you because you're dating Denki and they're jealous

But you guys are still an adorable and amazing couple so who cares

KIRISHIMA.

The super sweet and popular jock!

Hes the older sibling to all the people younger than him and in lower grades

Hes on the football team of course

The quarterback too

Number 44

Hes that player that the coach is really trying to get a scholarship for

The one the coach pulls off to the side and says "son, let me talk to you..." and then tells him how far he'll go

Colleges are already scouting him

Most of the school is crushing on him honestly

But they all know that he's all for you and only you

Eiji gives you kisses before games, after games and sometimes when there's a long enough break he'll run and kiss you really quick

Hes a vv good sport, always wishes players good luck and says nice job after games, and separates any of his teammates that try to fight w their opponents then say sorry

It's usually Bakugo hes separating because hes on the football team with Eiji when he's not in Boxing

Everyone that's younger than you sees you and kiri as big siblings, and those older see you as cousins

Yall are just that couple that everyone loves

The whole school basically gushes when you walk in wearing his letterman jacket or one of his football jerseys

You're the couple the doesn't disgust everyone when you kiss in the halls <3

[vaspider]

Weird confession(?), but due to this new drama/hate campaign, i've never felt this connected to other transmascs before. I apologize in advance, this got a lil disjointed.

In some ways I'm grateful i'm a nothing blog, since even though i've reblogged a fair amount of posts written by some of the blogs being targeted, i've been left alone. Maybe that'll change, but I suddenly realized i'm ok with that.

Mainly because, this is the most, i dunno, kinship i've felt in such a long time. I feel seen, I guess? I want to add my voice and support, esp as i'm suddenly aware i'm not half as alone as I thought. I hate that you guys are being targeted, but I also love the awareness you're spreading despite it all. You guys are voicing things i've faced and experienced. And I suddenly see that I actually do have a community. People like me are out there.

With the last point, I esp feel that after finding your blog. How you describe your identity closely matches how I'm starting to develop mine. The fact that you're older then me and have things like a family and dogs (things I really want when i'm older), and you're outspoken about who you are simultaneously, really gives me hope.

I've just felt so separated from the transmasc community on a whole. When I was first coming to terms with being trans (when I was 18ish, so 2012/2013) there was generally a lot less support for nonbinary people. And what really discouraged me was to see a lot of that dismissiveness come from binary trans groups. After facing that both IRL and online, I sortof hid from trans spaces. Even after nonbinary folks were getting more acceptance and awareness, i had started medical transition and I suddenly found myself in this weird grey zone. I felt talked over by both other trans folks and cis people alike, telling me I was confused, i needed to reframe my identity, things like that. It was a weird experience, and I sortof excluded myself again from trans spaces. I didn't know how to stand up for my choices, and since these folks talking for me were a lot more, established, I guess, i felt like if i didn't leave, i'd end up changing just to get left alone/more accepted.

And I still haven't gone back, even though I see the times changing again. I know I'm older and a lot more assertive than I was, I know I can speak up a lot better than I used to be able to, and be heard. In speaking up for myself, i can also show to others like me that they can be heard as well. And I think this is esp important as I'm heading into a profession that'll involve a lot of advocacy work (or at least that's how I plan to use my child and youth care diploma). I'm starting to learn that I'm worth that advocacy work as well, I can do it for myself, too.

All that said, I feel like i'm advocating for myself blind? I don't really know how to explain what I mean by that. I think part of this feeling of bindness, is that I've never really known anyone like me. I don't know who to use as an example for what I can be, I don't have any backup. So, I don't really talk about it, and almost pretend like i've never faced hardship. i can talk about the misogyny i've faced if i don't talk about how masc aligned I am. Not to mention all the fuckery i faced seeking medical care, or how much bullshit i've faced in terms of people not even trying to give me the bare minimum of respect, just for being trans. 'cus those groups just tell me to not be visibly trans anymore. and i can talk about transphobia i faced if i don't talk about how "passing" isn't really my end goal (as I'm getting a lot firmer that i'm not a man, so passing as a man isn't really passimg), but how not "passing" (i.e, being read as a women) still gives me all the bullshit i faced pre-transition, as well as the dysphoria of being read as something i 100% am not. Cus those groups just tell me to ham up the male stuff so i can go stealth.

And I did try the latter, because at least I felt more connected to trans people that way (tho still knowing very few other transmasc people), and i thought being stealth might make cis people easier to deal with. that turned out to be very untrue, esp without a legal name change yet and still with all my existing parts I was born with, and not feeling safe in men's washrooms. Not to mention that it opened a different can of dysphoria that I wasn't expecting. And then i almost considered de-transitioning, but the idea of going off T fills me with so much dread cus in a lot of ways I've never been this happy. I feel more physically well than ever. I finally feel like me. But, i just wish I knew more people that'd be happy for that with me??

It's a rather upsetting balance that I haven't been able to describe to anyone, as I don't really have anyone in my life that can relate. Due to being disabled and rent sucking in my city, i'm stuck with my family, and with covid, their impact on my life is even greater as I don't really have any spaces out of the family. So i feel even more in the dark.

But now with seeing all ya'll give your voices (and also following some folks from that block list, heh), i just... Ya. Feel seen, is the only way I can describe it.

Whoops, apologies, that got long.

It's okay. That sounds like a lot of feelings that you haven't had or been given the space to voice very often, and you probably just needed to get that all out to someone who you knew wouldn't look down on you or shut you out for expressing it. That's pretty common among transmascs, especially non-binary transmascs, in my experience. The first time I came out to anybody in any sort of way (I told a bi dude friend of mine in '97 or '98 that I wanted a 'dimmer switch for my gender' and he gave me a funny look and said "... okay... " and that was the end of that for like... years.) It's really common for us -- especially those of us on the Boomer/Gen X/Xennial end of the spectrum -- to really feel like all of these words we've wanted to say for years get stuck on our tongues and just won't come out because the rejection we receive from across the community spectrum is just so high.

All of your feelings are valid and understandable. I'm sorry that you're mired in so much dysphoria and that living with your family right now is really difficult for you.

If I may offer you a little unsolicited advice? Right now, a lot of programs are online through queer centers. I don't know what major metropolitan area is closest to you, but you might look into LGBTQ/queer/gay centers and see what support groups and programs you can join in via Zoom, if that's an option for you. I know that there are multiple transmasc groups through The Q Center in Portland, as well as more general trans groups. Distance and physical access won't currently be an issue, if you're not actually in a major metro area, and you can meet other transmasc folx and get the RL support that it really sounds like you need. <3

I'm so glad that you are finding support and comfort in our online solidarity, and I wish you the ability to find any and all solutions to alleviate your dysphoria and help you feel more comfortable in your skin. We all deserve that.

[babygirldennis]

This shit is fake bby!!!

Here she is.. My masterpost of all the dumb, illogical bits of info contained within these s15 “leaks” that make me fairly confident they are complete bullshit. It also includes my little tinhat theories that have absolutely no evidence.

I will be putting it all under a Readmore in case you don't want to risk it or if you simply Do Not Care

First up, I'd like to point out that these call sheets repeatedly give very detailed backstories to characters that have few lines which conveniently paints a picture of each episode's plot. And I'm not an expert so correct me if I'm wrong, but after looking at other similar casting calls, they only ever include the demographic and necessary skills.

Basically who in their right mind would write up casting calls that give away so many spoilers? Seems like that could cause and issue if they were leaked lol. But anyway that's my 1st point. But onto the actual content

So the conceit of this episode as a whole is that during the pandemic, the gang "gamed the system" and received three (3!) Loans to start businesses that went bankrupt. One of these businesses is implied to be the one started by dee and charlie who end up selling to Qanon shaman. Already this is so impossible baby.

1. We've already seen the gang try to get a loan and it didn't work. They don't have good ideas. Ur telling me, they managed to finagle 3 separate loans for 3 separate business ideas from an actual bank?

2. Maybe I just have bad reading comprehension but how does one have a business that is both fictitious and bankrupt?

3. If the customer is supposed to be Qanon shaman, an actual real life guy, why are the only descriptors white and male? They say he's shirtless so are they going to paint on all of the tattoos he has? And if so, doesn't that kind of ruin the dramatic reveal when charlie "throws in" the viking helmet? Why would he do that anyways? Sus.

Moving on

Alright this episode would fucking blow for obvious reasons but im going to refrain from looking at this through my gay dennis thruther lens because im biased.

Purely from a narrative standpoint, a woman hasn't been shown to be interested in dennis in nearly 5 years during the wade boggs episode. Ever since, every single woman he approaches has been actively creeped out by him. And now I'm supposed to believe that 3 "smart, passionate woman" (In Their Twenties!!!!!!) agreed to go on a date with him? And Anna even slept with him! Just because he what? Agreed with her? I'm not buyin it.

Plus the concept of this scenario lacks any potential for comedy. When iasip gets political, they always discuss a very specific topic using hyperbolic situations and flawed metaphors. If this is supposed to be a political episode, what ultimately lukewarm point would rob be trying to make here? So far we know they're ranting about

The patriarchy

Privilege

Socialism

No more personal responsibility(?)

The... nature of power in society(??)

How on earth would an episode like get approved? This shit sounds like a Ted talk. It sounds like it was written specifically to sound like a political episode so boring and pointless it would generate outrage and mile long essay posts from Tumblr users and reddit users alike. Almost like this one lol.

On a completely unrelated note, do not try and convince me that Frank "casual cock ring wearer" Reynolds is unable to perform.

Jeez this is getting out of hand fast. Let's move on

Ok now we're starting to getting into the Ireland of it all. Let me go on a bit of a tangent here about all this.. Now I thinq there are just 3 possibilities. Either this is all a publicity stunt and there is some truth to the Ireland rumors, the entire thing could be bogus from some weirdo fan (ps, if a fan did write this I want you to know I fucking hate you. You did this to me), or it is a publicity stunt but Ireland is just more bullshit.

I am going to assume it was a publicity stunt, otherwise I just wasted my entire evening and I can't have that kind of mentality rn. Additionally, I'm Going to tinhat here for a second and say that the Ireland rumors are true, but the details are different.

I say this because if they were going to do filming in Ireland, they probably figured that that information would be impossible to hide. In essence, my completely unfounded hypothesis is that this leak was their fucked up little way of controlling the situation while simultaneously messing with us.

Ok tangent is over, returning to the casting calls. From the looks of it, dee starts a "scam" acting class and has some very devoted students (Note that Tony was also the name of the porn shop owner. Seems weird!) Presumably after the gang replaces her with a monkey as the title suggests.

Honestly, there isn't too much here that's a red flag to me... seems like a nice little dee-centric episode that is the link to the Dublin angle. Assuming I am At All right, this could be a genuine plotline for Dee. However, the monkey could be a red herring and there could be a whole different side plot with the guys. who's to say. Next one!

Ah yes this is the dennis we all know and despise.. no red flags for me here really, I'm also running out of steam because idk if it shows, but I am majorly sleep deprived atm. Anyway I'm going to the next one

Okay this is where things start getting weird again ough a migraine just hit, anyway back to my earlier point about how casting calls would never contains major spoilers bc the people who see these wont be under any kind of NDA..

These ones reveal that bonnie dies. Again, that info wouldn't be in a casting call.

But also they suggest charlie has a irish penpal named Shelley who is his biological father. First off charlie is illiterate, although as pointed out by @undeadbreeze shelley could also be communicating in symbols. However, this scenario is still unbelievable to me for a couple reasons:

1. Bonnie's last name is Kelly obviously, and we know it's her maiden name because Jack's last name is also Kelly. But Shelley's last name is... also Kelly? In the context of this big ol hoax, it feels like it was written to show that look! his last name is the same as charlie's! That's how you know that's his dad! But It would be way too big of a coincidence if charlie's dad happened to have the same last name bonnie.

And 2. There's the whole mystery of charlie's long-lost sister from 'charlie got molested' but never any mention of a brother which according to this, shelley has been pretending to be his brother for years. And we all know how much rcg loves their continuity, it seems uncharacteristically lazy to just tack this on without any prior buildup.

And finally let me talk about mac for a second and specifically the line in gus's summary "both are gay men who are attracted to the priesthood for all the wrong reasons"

Iasip has commented on pedophilia in the priesthood many times in the past which leads me to believe that they are implying that mac is a pedophile? Please let me know if I completely misread the implications of that statement, but if not, then that is completely insane and one of the biggest indictators that this is fake. Mac is awful, just like everyone in the gang but he is definitely not a pedophile.

However even if i did completely misread that, it's still proof this is fake.. For all his faults, Rob put a surprising amount of care and effort into mac's coming-out. It hasn't been perfect, but Mfhp in particular firmly established that mac's faith is integral to his identity so Its unlikely that rob would throw all of that away for a cheap shot at priests.

Ok my brain is irradiated sludge at this point, but in conclusion. I hope that 1. I'm right, at least about it being fake (Otherwise damb that'll be so humiliating for me) And 2. This eases ur fears a bit. I don't want to lose all faith in future seasons bc I love iasip and miss the gang. If you read this far youre insane but I literally love you so goddamn much because I spent so so long tapping this out on my silly little phone

Please feel free to add on or message me your thoughts and opinions I need to know I'm not the only one who uhhh went a bit insane. And finally: whoever made these is a cunt. Mwah.

[ftm-radio]

I try to keep this blog mostly positive, because for the most part being trans is great and I want to spread the joy of self discovery and self realization and everything, but man.. there are some really rough bits that stick with ya when you spend half your life (or most of it, in my case!) feeling just that vague sense of something is not right and I don't know what's wrong and I'm definitely not okay with this but I don't know how to make it better

so with that in mind, I have some thoughts & feelings I wanna get out there, so there will be some good ol' trans angst under the cut 👉🏻👉🏻

cw: angst, depression, dysphoria, you know how it is. a couple chest mentions in there too. also it's long and pretty ramble-y, probably some level of melodramatic.

if you read all this, it's fine if you wanna reply or send me an ask with your thoughts or w/e. I know I can't be the only one feeling all this...

I could not give you an accurate estimate for when I started feeling Not Right, but I know it was definitely in full swing right before I started high school. 7th–8th grade was like.. the start of my depression spiral, lmao, but I don't wanna get deep into that in this post.

no, what I keep thinking about is what came after the depression and dysphoria and feeling wrong-ness, like

the discomfort I still have with my body,

the distanced relationships, the loneliness, &

just the years and years that I've missed out on.

I am almost 23 years old, and I'm only just now feeling like this body might be mine and might be a home for me one day. Some days it all fits perfectly and I feel great! Other days these limbs feel alien and disconnected when I try to move, and seeing my face in the mirror hurts.

I feel like I spent 20 years afraid to use this body, afraid to move, afraid to be seen in it. I kept myself coiled up as tight as I could so that I wouldn't attract attention and have anyone else find out how wrong this all was.

Dysmorphia, dysphoria, they blend together so well I still can't separate them. did I stop showering in 8th grade because I didn't want to see my big stomach, or because I couldnt bear the sight of my chest? was I hyper-aware of how often I raised my arms because of the way my upper arms jiggled with fat, or because keeping them down meant that my chest was maybe slightly less prominent? did I feel ugly because I was fat or because I didn't look like a boy? does it even matter now that the damage is done?

I have to learn about my body like it's a stranger's, like I'm a ghost familiarizing myself with the house I have to haunt, and I have to learn how to be okay with it, how to accept the parts I can't change or that'll take a lot of time to change. and I just have to wait (and hope) for the day that I don't have to think about inhabiting this body and I can just be here and live my life and be okay.

and feeling uncomfortable in my body for most of my life was such a distraction! how was I supposed to be a person and do things and interact with the world and everybody in it when my only connection to it felt wrong? I couldn't do anything without worrying about how my body looked when I did it and what people saw or thought.

I had a few friends growing up. I have a few friends now. but I've always kept them at arm's length, pretty literally. I've almost never hugged my friends, never rough-housed, never really experienced casual platonic intimacy. hell, I haven't even had those affections with my family. I've shared a room with two of my sisters my whole life and I'm too awkward to give or accept hugs from them no matter how much I want to.

and I want to. I want to feel connected to the people around me, to touch and be touched, to feel comforted and grounded in this world, to feel human. but I can't because this body just doesn't feel right to me, and what if I hug my friends & family and it doesn't feel right to them either?

I'm alone in a house full of people. I'm here but I'm hollow. I'm a ghost, a phantom, a trick of the light. if you try and touch me your hand might pass right through. if, by chance, you do meet something solid, the shape of it might disturb you. it disturbs me most of the time.

so many years spent starving myself of affection. now that im aching for it and finally ready to let myself know it, I don't know how to ask for it. and of course this isn't the only thing I've missed throughout my life.

there's so much, it's overwhelming. almost 23 years in this body and I feel like I haven't done anything with it. some days I feel like I'm still a teenager because there are so many things I haven't done, so many things I don't know how to do. some days I feel like I'm ancient because I'm so drained, so tired.

so much of my life has been spent waiting for something to appear on the horizon and, idk, give me hope? give me the ability to feel like a person again? I don't know. I don't know what I've been waiting for.

I know exactly what I've been waiting for.

but the things I've been waiting for won't just appear one day. I have to get them myself, and I've been working to do that ever since I found out who I really am. and I'm getting there, I'm making progress, and I am so, so proud of where I've gotten myself.

but if I stop to think about it all, there's just so much despair, and anger, and regret hiding just under the surface. it's a fucking angst volcano that's almost constantly threatening to erupt.

like how much better off would I be if I had figured all of this out years ago? if I had just stopped waiting and tried to find what I needed when I was still a kid, before I just spiraled and became horribly depressed for eight years? what if the people in my life who were supposed to take care of me & look out for me had seen what I couldn't recognize and had helped me figure it out instead of letting me drown in it for eight fucking years? what if I had actually had access to the knowledge that could have given me the answers I needed, could have helped me find the right questions? what if I was one of those kids who knew I wasn't a girl right away and I didn't have to wonder? what if I hadn't let my confusion and discomfort hold me back and I had lived my life instead of letting it all waste away?

what if?

I love being trans. I love knowing who I am.

but I don't love this.

I know I can't change the past. I hope I stop wanting to, someday. but I don't know what to do until that day comes.

how do you heal from heartbreak like this?

the answer is probably "time," right? figures.

I guess that means I'm back to waiting. But at least I have things to do in the meantime.

[butmakeitgayblog]

Hi dropping by for 2 things... I think? I'm so sleepy can't think! 😬

First, thank you for your clexa fic and just had discovered your cruel intentions clexa fic today. Idk why, it blows my mind🤯 I mean i love everything you write about clexa so idk why i'm shooked.

Second, Please don't be scared for my over abundance of ❤️ and reblogged you would see on your notif 😬 I forgot to be discreet on reblogging since I got excited over your CI Clexa.

Also for your ship question game, I would really like to know

Cruel Intentions (Pre relationship)4,5 and 6 and (General) 1,2 and 3

Teach Me (love) 4 and 5, 9 and 10

(domestic) 6,9 and 10

G'night and stay safe you and everyone on here. I might dream CI Clexa thanks to you! ☺️

Hello hello!

Ok listen because I've gotten this a few times within the last couple weeks and I'm not sure what's causing it but let me say without pause, please god do not apologize for liking and reblogging. You don't have to be ~discreet~, I don't think it's cringey, I don't think anything other than "Oh they like it 🥺👉👈"

I have fun writing this stuff and interacting with you guys, but it's still work, so you guys interacting is the whole point! Without likes or reblogs or asks I have no idea if anyone likes a story. Without them I'm sat here wondering if anyone even likes or cares about this extra stuff and in turn that'll make me question if I'm wasting my time 🤷‍♀️. I have a few people who show up every few days and just go through everything and what that tells me is wow, someone took time out of their day to look at my stuff and appreciate the work I put out. That's fuckin awesome. So please, don't apologize. I'd rather hear and see what you guys like than wonder if I'm screaming into a void

Ok I'll put my answers under the cut because this already long cuz I can't shut up 😅

Cruel Intentions

Pre relationship:

4: Oof that's a hard question to answer. You're talking about two woman who really good and living in denial and talking themselves into thinking they're above feelings. But I'd say if push came to shove, the first one to really give in and say "Shit ok I really have genuine feelings for her" would be Lexa.

5: Lexa more than Clakre despite Clarke being more slow in realizing that her feelings went much deeper than attraction and infatuation. I've touched on this in a few asks before and you can kinda see the thought process in that latest installment as well, but for a long time Lexa was intent on keeping Clarke at arm's length. Until she couldn't.

6: If someone had told younger them that they'd end up blissfully married and grow old together like two bickering haughty babies they would've told you to lay off the nose candy

General:

1: Part 1 of that has been posted, sorry can't spoil part 2 😈

2: ask me this again separately and I'll write a snippet for it

3: It's in a snippet so you'll be able to read it🥰

Teach Me

Love:

4: You mean once... everything happens? They're not the biggest on PDAs ironically considering they started out fucking all around campus on anything that would hold still. But once they settle into their relationship and stop feeling like they're living on stolen time? They like holding hands, small hello pecks, sitting close. That kinda stuff. Loving but respectful.

5: Both. Lexa's a big fan of hello kisses, celebratory kisses, still asleep midnight kisses to Clarke's shoulder that neither remember in the morning. Clarke likes forehead kisses and little thank you kisses and goodbye kisses because she wants the feel of Lexa's lips to tie her over for the day.

9: Short answer, Lexa but I'm not getting into it cuz spoilers 😔

10: A healthy mix of both. It does kinda surprise Clarke just how... physical Lexa can be once they start things up tho. Professor Elbow patches wasn't exactly kidding about the wild thing 🥴

Domestic:

6: Lexa, but within reason. She worries about things that are appropriate to worry about whereas Clarke's more of a just roll with it girl.

9: 🤐 they're gonna celebrate Lexa's birthday if that counts so you'll see

10: Both pretty equal. I mean Clarke's 39 and Lexa's 41, they were both married for close to two decades not to mention Clarke has a kid. They've definitely learned their way around a kitchen. The question is, can they not be too controlling to actually allow the other to help them in the kitchen🤔

[darlingbudsofrae]

idk... my issue is that these tweets are about 10 years old. i know i thought and said and posted things over 6 years ago that i wouldn't stand by today, and i too would delete them and ignore them. now, if he still stands by those tweets today, that's a whole separate issue. but 10 years is a long time, and i think if he said anything publicly at this very moment, he might end up fucking over shadow and bone. also, he doesn't seem very active on social media, so he may not feel like he's under any obligation to explain himself to the general public, even though it is in his best interest to do so.

hmmm i didn't consider that tbh,, cuz the criticism against him i'm kind of considering valid is that "he had the time to delete the tweets within seconds but never addressed them" altho i do think it's harsh to say never because for all we know, and thanks for reminding me,, he could be taking the time to collect the words to appropriately address the situation because it is a grave matter. either that, or his management told him to stay put or something. or we have the third option where he does still uphold these views which hopefully isn't the case. one thing i'd disagree on tho is the obligation part, i feel like as a professional slash public figure and feel free to correct me on this but i think he knows he has the obligation to explain himself regardless of how inactive he is in social media. i do wish he could address this really soon because yeah,, it's looking really bad for him the more he puts it out but until then, i hope the fandom can be less toxic and at least reserve their judgments until he addressed the tweets.

i didn't really want to spoke about this but the thing i hate about the internet is how most of the times, the culture and time isn't considered at these cases. i think we've come so far as a society towards this social issues that we easily forget that this wasn't the case at times back. also, a decade and a year is a pretty long time, there's a chance for growth there- lots, i just hope he took it.

i saw a lot of people on twt saying "he was famous for a while now (since he was on a big show or something) and if he really regretted it, he should've apologized long ago". the thing is tho, these tweets only resurfaced because majority of the fans were so unhappy with the casting that they managed to miraculously dig up tweets that he made a decade ago when he was in his early/mid teens. for all we know, he'd probably forgotten about it as he grew up. i honestly felt bad for him on that regard, although it really would be on his best interest to respond asap cuz while there are some of us that can give him the benefit of the doubt like that, most people on the internet aren't really forgiving. of course, again- regardless of the words whatever he has to say there will always be people that'll hate him, but a bit of acknowledgement would be nice.

i am all for holding people accountable but most of the grishaverse fandom, at least on the side i've seen about this issue, confuses accountability with life sentence. everyone is so set on subjecting him to the tweets and not giving him the space to at least clarify himself, and i saw a lot of people sending him death threats and people making fun of his looks and people joking about organizing a murder and it's just so sick?? like,, that's just as low as the tweets he made those years ago, altho i'd push that the condemnation against him now is worse than what they're condemning him for because we're at a time and height of the internet were majority of us know this is wrong, this is vile and sick and it just reeks of performativity. at least give him a chance to explain himself before condemning him completely to his past.

i'd clarify that i think it's valid to be offended and hurt by those tweets, but to stoop down below to the level of decade-old tweets that were likely influenced by his surroundings, this isn't a defense this is to give understanding to what probably made him tweet those things but here's a serious question— what's the excuse of everyone in the fandom jokingly plotting on killing him/sending him death threats/and other insults?

the sad thing is, i honestly don't think those tweets would've resurfaced if most of the fandom didn't hate him so much (or at least they would've resurfaced at a much later time or sum). they just tried to find an opportunity to hate on him and sadly for patrick gibson's part, they found one. i would clarify again that these tweets did offend me, still feels a bit off for me, but as someone who had similar thoughts way back because of my surroundings,, i can't help but feel bad for some of the hate he's receiving rn (we can do both people) and hope that he changed.

this is pretty long and lowkey kinda preachy (also i derailed a lot lol it's the adhd lmao) so sorry for subjecting u to that anon, but thank u for this ask ♥