#therapy helps but it is exhausting

[hisbucky]

Buck: Hear me out here, Eds. Eddie: Always. Buck: What if we need more therapy? Eddie: I hear you, and I'm electing my take. Buck: Yeah? Eddie: No.

[adrift-in-thyme]

Note to self: never again let it slip to an irl person that I write whump

[nida-qureshi]

I am proud of you because you exist. Because you are breathing. Because you are waking up and making breakfast for yourself. Because you are applying for work you always dreamt about. Because you are trying. Because you drink water when you are stressed. Because you think about yourself. Because you do things that bring you joy. Because you are being kind to yourself. Because you are sleeping on time. Because you listen to your heart. Because you are valuing your time. Because you rest when you are tired. I am proud of you because you exist.

[samanthagbelle]

no one

knows how bad I'm doing and it's

funny because

I'm not even

trying to hide it.

[oatbugs]

i understand being tired of the oppressive systems around us and having to pay for good therapy and the NHS sucks and job market sucks and capitalism sucks etc etc and i understand how shitty it must be to be told that the solution to fix The Ailments caused at least in part by The System is to engage further w the system but i swear to god wallowing in depression and doing absolutely nothing to better yourself or change things for yourself is not the rebellion you think it is !! you're not rejecting the system you're just existing within it doing nothing and being horribly depressed while resigning yourself to horrible depression for life !!!!! being like "yeah well the nhs sucks so i wont even TRY therapy what does talking to someone do anyway. what do meds do anyway." etc etc bc smn on reddit said fluoxetine didn't work for them and not contacting any of the ppl who you ghosted bc you got anxious abt it like 2 yrs ago is not a flex it is not a rejection of the omnipresent system it's not making u special or More Vulnerable Than others at some point u have to choose to get better bro omg.

[asteralien]

richard's relationship with money is so interesting to me despite/because of how vague and nonspecific it is in canon. which only makes sense because the show isn't interested in richard's backstory at ALL and, it being an audio medium, it can't exactly give many context clues like wardrobe/style or what his apartment/house looks like. but it's like......... he doesn't have interests, he dabbles in money-making activities. i am practically forced to assume that his mention of being good at pool also = a side hustle. his estranged dad up and left him a house and a paid ride to college. at this point he's way better off than he's ever been -- after 18 years of living with two separate conmen and a mother who doesn't care about him in mediocre apartments, he's suddenly on his own with his future out in front of him, and....... he STILL takes very risky grade-changing jobs for money? like he bypasses getting a regular college job and goes straight to petty crime? and apparently "far worse" crimes??? it's such an interesting balance between craving the security of Having Money and being pathologically unable to get it in a "normal" "safe" way. he doesn't even do anything with it in canon, he just GETS it. he isn't even buying lucy's drinks himself!!!! obviously even richard has bills to pay (which is. very funny to me. sorry that i think 19-year-old college era richard is the funniest person to ever exist, gremlin who's only ever lived in an apartment with his mother, sister, and mother's rotating cast of boyfriends, suddenly has a whole ass house dumped in his lap on his 18th birthday in exchange for his whole ass father's wholesale abandonment of him, has to figure out how to pay utility bills on his own, maybe thinks about getting a barista job or whatever kids did in the 80s, record shop clerk job?? and then nopes past it and picks "exploiting a child genius" as a career path instead. what a fucking legend. i also think he murdered people for money a couple times but that's just me) sorry i've lost the plot of this post thinking about campbell county community college computers richard. imagine being the people at the 5 Cs in charge of hiring STUDENT COUNSELORS and seeing richard maxwell strut into his interview and thinking "yes this 18-year-old suspiciously home-owning kid who talks like a john hughes movie antagonist and is currently his kid sister's very much illegal guardian is the perfect fit for our emotionally and socially fragile 11-year-old resident genius. what could go wrong" and then they have to pay for nicholas adamsworth's therapy sessions for the next 5 years because richard maxwell was what could go wrong. fuck. "waylaid in the windy city" maybe be my personal favorite richard but pre- and mid-"eugene's dilemma" richard is definitely the weirdest and funniest

[family-trauma]

F@*$% that explains why I'm still sticking around with my emotionally abusive family. Reverse projection combined with guilt. Ughh sometimes I don't like the person I am now because of how accepting I am of the abusive behaviour by my family members. -_-

[buttercupbuck]

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[image description: 4 gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from 9-1-1. the gifs are arranged in two rows, 2 gifs per row. the two gifs in the left column depict a scene from season 5 episode 13, and the two gifs in the right column depict scenes from other episodes of season 5.

gif 1: buck stands outside eddie’s bedroom door. speaking to eddie through the door, he says, “hey, eddie. it’s, uh...it’s me. can i come in?” after he asks if he can come in, he tries during the door knob.

gif 2: from season 5 episode 11. standing in eddie’s kitchen, buck stares at eddie with a bemused expression as eddie dismisses his concern and turns away from him.

gif 3: buck looks around briefly before speaking to eddie again through the door again, warning, “all right, eddie, i-i’m gonna come in, okay?”

gif 4: two gifs. the first is from season 5 episode 14. the camera follows eddie as he walks into his dining room, where buck is standing and putting away christopher’s coloring utensils. the second is from season 5 episode 18. eddie listens to buck as he talks and patches up eddie’s bedroom wall.

/end ID]

[unawakening-float07]

i’m trying VERY hard to not fall back on my old eating disorder habits but it’s kind of hard when people keep mentioning how much weight i’ve gained :/

[passthroughtime]

i hope you don’t mind me not participating in sunday six for so long and not updating my fic... i’m having a bit rough time handling my life irl right now

[therapythoughtstogether]

Splitting is exhausting

I splitted on my best friend (who is also my fp). We were arguing and they raised their voice, which is a trigger for me, because I've experienced so much abuse and violence.

In that moment I lost my mind. I was screaming and yelling at the top of my lungs, saying things that were actually true but in the most hurtful way I could. And I didn't have time to stop myself... It was an immediate reaction to a trigger.

Then we made up and I was all calm again, as if nothing had happened. But I was feeling exhausted, my throat was sore and all my body was aching, as if I had been thrown around by a tornado, like a rag doll.

It is exhausting, and at this point I can hardly control it. I don't want to be this way...

[yeahwhatsorrywhat]

WHY DOES THIS ONE PHOTO HAVE ME IN A CHOKEHOLD WHAT THE FUCK SOMEONE HELP ME IM UNSTABLE MY BRAIN IS SOMEWHERE DEEP AND DARK AND WET AND HONESTLY I LIKE IT BUT NO I SHOULDNT WHAT JEHWHSHAJQ-

[katimorton]

Can you be too compassionate? Can we wear ourselves out by being too compassionate and struggle with emotional burnout? I've been seeing more people talk about compassion fatigue, and to be honest I can find myself also struggling with it - leaving me feeling burnt out, emotionally empty and exhausted. There is such a thing as compassion fatigue. So what is compassion fatigue? Compassion fatigue is the cost of caring for others or for their emotional pain, resulting from the desire to help relieve the suffering of others. It is also known as vicarious or secondary trauma, referencing the way that other people's trauma can become our own. How can compassion fatigue effect us outside of being emotionally exhausted or experiencing burnout? Let's talk through the signs and symptoms but also what to do if you struggle with compassion fatigue.

Learn more about attachment styles and how to build healthy attachment in your relationships: https://katimorton.com/the-shop/p/attachment-workshop Or discover all of my workshops here: https://katimorton.com/the-shop

[trickster-kat]

Feel free to ignore this!

Wanna know something beyond frustrating?

Being disabled, but not disabled enough to qualify for help/ benefits.

Depression, Anxiety, ADHD, and Arthritis. Even chronic pain, though apparently that doesn't count.

But because I have no choice but to force myself to function beyond all of this every day (a learned behavior from no one ever believing me) to make a meager amount of money to help with living expenses, I don't qualify for anything.

Every day, I am mentally, emotionally, and physically drained and in pain and exhausted.

Not to mention the light sensitivity, and my pcp officially diagnosed me as "allergic to the outside." All potential jokes aside, do you know how much it fucking sucks to develop a migraine and nausea every time you step outside your home?

[antisocialxconstruct]

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[samanthagbelle]

Sometimes, this quote is the only thing that keeps me going