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larabar · 1 year ago
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all silliness gone
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obaewankenope · 4 months ago
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Every day of the week I've gone the yard to do stable jobs (rip me and my body lol) annnd every horse in the corridor just fuckin LOVES me. I can't walk more than a few steps without getting affectionately nudged, head bumped, nibbled, or having a heavy ass horse head just thump onto my shoulder so I can give em scritchies and kissies at the same time lmao
One of them gets jelly af of two others, one is super polite and gets bullied away by another bc he always tries to use the other neighs stable door for quicker attention from me, another LIVES to try and eat my hair (William NO) and another is scared of bags but loves me enough to be a Brave Brave Boy and let me give him pets and show him the bag isn't scary see! No no, sweetie, it's not gonna hurt you! Oh no, you can't eat it tho, it's bad for you, here, have some scritchies and nibble my fingers instead because you're so polite and just wanna be babied!
Just- horses, y'all
Horses
#Horse tumblr#Horses#Animals#Kat talks#I live for these babies that could murder me by accident bc they're tanks but are too cute to be angry at#If William could not keep tryna eat my hair tho#I'd appreciate it baby xD#There's another neigh neigh further down the block who nips at everyone#Bc she's very defensive and stressed#And gets stable frustration no matter what her owners try#And she is so visibly CONFUSED when I baby talk and am calm and tell her 'no no that's not nice' and do horse body language#And neigh at her and snortle and head nod etc#And she lets me stroke her and stuff just fine now but goes to fake nip when I try to leave#So like... Mucking out takes 10 times longer bc of the journey to and from the stable lmao#Bc I have like... 8 pitstops to make each time haha#She's a darling tho the nippy lady#I call her Nibbles#And I have to fend her off from my travel mug bc I drink mint green t3a#And she LIKES IT#And like NO SWEETIE YOU CAN'T HAVE MY MUG I NEED THAT NO NO NO NIBBLING IT PLS#Yes I have to disinfect it every day lmao#But she delights in being able to snuffle it at least lmao#Ngl I've been so stressed and unhappy that seeing these neigh neighs has been really important for my mental health#Like... Other than Bean herself I seldom smile or feel anything other than sad and tired except around animals#So like. William can eat my hair all day long#The block of neighs can make mucking out 10 times longer#Nibbles can be a nibbler#And I shall forever thank em for it#Horseblr
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agentsnickers · 1 year ago
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hear me out. davey post-rally i never planned reprise interspersed w an stbi instrumental to transition from stbi to oafa
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yandere-yearnings · 2 months ago
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do u have any writing tips dar??? Ur stories are immaculate
nonnie?? that's so sweet of you to say, thank you😭🩷 in general, a lot comes to mind bc there's so many different components to writing (i.e dialogue, characterisation, structure,, even mindset!!) so if you want to hear abt anything specific pls lmk🥺 for now tho, i've summarised a few across the subject that i think are helpful, and they will be below the cut bc i'm shit at explaining things, so i ended up writing a lot hhh
i also wanna point out that these are just things that i've personally made note of over the years from my own experiences + being friends w/ other writers, but that doesn't mean they will apply to everyone!! more than anything, i always believe that you shouldn't let other ppl dictate how you do and enjoy things, so if smth works for you and you like it, there's nothing wrong w/ that even if it contradicts an opinion you got from some rando on the internet (a.k.a. me😔💔)
Know your game
I'd like to say that in writing, there's a vein of liberty that isn't echoed in very many other creative fields; a lot of the times you can go in blind, and still make something of it because the nature of fiction is liquid — if you can imagine it, it can work. So to say, I find that nine times out of ten, room for improvement doesn't necessarily lie in the content of someone's writing, and more so its execution.
You could play a desultory game of chess without knowing all the rules, but if you wanted it to be your best match, you'd have to be aware of every move you could make, no? What you do from there then becomes a matter of choice, and choice is a landmark divider between doing something and being good at doing something. There's a difference in omissions due to lacking the technical knowledge, and omissions made because you are aware they are optimal.
Knowledge on the fundamentals of literature will always serve you, and that isn't to say you have to study all forms and contexts, but if you want to write a story, for example, it will always help to know the common elements of one. Grammar, punctuation, structure — brushing up on those things will build your toolkit, and once you've got that, you have the self-autonomy to decide what to use from it. My three favourite writers only use commas and full stops, and their works are, on all levels, spectacular. Still, if you asked them how to use a semi-colon, they'd be able to tell you.
Appreciating the basics will also tie into your creative exploration as a writer, which is a cornerstone in developing your distinctive writing style. I doubt a person in any type of craft hasn't heard a variation of know the rules before you break them, so studying until you do, inside out, remains beneficial to both new and old writers alike.
2. Have a starting point
This tip is fairly applicable to a range of different types of writing, and how one would practice it depends strongly on individual preference and styles of working. Some people like to plan things out thoroughly whilst others, including myself, like to dive in headfirst, and there's nothing wrong with either approach. The commonality between both types of writer is that regardless, they will have at least a vague idea of where to start from — a scene that they've bullet-pointed prior, a lyric that resonated with them, a mental image, an emotion or even just a single word that everything branches from. What all these details achieve is writing that has motion, because you have something of substance to piggyback you to an end point (the establishment of which is also important, but I will not be covering in this post).
3. Decide a structure
Again, this can be done both comprehensively or as simply as just having the thought to adhere to a certain method. As you gain more experience as a writer, you'll begin to understand what works best for you and create a system of your own, but starting out, there are a number of templates that have already been established by writers that you can follow, and find by researching. What matters most is that by using one — whichever it may be — you're turning your text into a story.
As an example, I'll detail two that I use regularly, in their simplest forms for the sake of brevity:
A linear narrative moves from point A to point B, and from point B to point C, etc. and all subsequent points build on the previous ones until your goal is reached. It's a system that works well for shorter pieces because it has a definite structure, like a length of spine and its individual vertebrae (and although we're talking about writing here, I think Newton's Third Law of Motion sums it up very well: every action has a reaction.)
A coalescing narrative considers all points as separate elements that may or may not always interact, but all contribute to the end point to different extremes. It's a useful template for creating depth in a piece, but due to its complexity, is better applied to longer projects.
They are visualised respectively below.
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4. Iterate
If you think of your first draft as a block of clay, everything you do to it will equate to it being moulded and shaped, and if you think of your first draft as a skeleton, everything you do to it will equate to flesh being put on the bones. If you want your piece to be the best it can be, there's a sort of detachment you must have from it, where you won't have the fear of changing it until it is in the image of what you have intended. Write and rewrite, add things, take them away, make a separate copy for every edit if that makes it easier for you, but keep working it until you are happy.
Iteration doesn't just apply to drafts — chapters, paragraphs, sentences and even singular words can be given the same treatment. When you pick up the habit, the process becomes second-nature and you'll find that the first lines you put down are the ones that make it into the final piece, and that is in light of sorting through the renditions unconsciously. Additionally, you don't have to do things in one sitting; sometimes taking a break and coming back to your writing with a fresh outlook is valuable.
5. Analyse and apply
One piece of advice I always see given when someone asks how to improve their writing is to read more, and though it is — at its core — a tip worth acknowledging, it always comes across as unserviceable to me. There is nothing that reading will change for you if you are not actively practicing the things you learn, or even actively learning to begin with. So to address it as a matter of semantics, I feel it's best put as studying the writing of others, as opposed to reading.
If you have a favourite author, go over their works twice — once as a reader to identify what you like about them, and then again as a writer to identify why you like those things. To put it into context, if I read something and decided that I enjoyed how clear and easy to understand it was, I'd do a second pass to figure out the attributing qualities. Perhaps it's the use of punctuation, chosen sentence forms or even the simplicity of words used. My first tip of knowing different literary fundamentals is complementary here, because it makes the analysis and application of isolated features that much more smooth, and also means you'd be able to adapt them into your own style instead of just copying the other writer, which is what you want to avoid.
(Some writers I personally recommend studying are @ozzgin, @monstersholygrail, @aayakashii and @urprettylildoe for readability and clarity in execution, @moyazaika, @carnivorousyandeere and @purerae for characterisation and dialogue, @suiana and @unhappy-last-resort for engaging plots and concepts, and @sabotsen and @lirational for word choice.)
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fisheito · 1 year ago
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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS
#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking#my immediate thought was#i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him#bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent#but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally#it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying#the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias#then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought#i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him#AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND#originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went#WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN#BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS#but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it#i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding#so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown#i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said#yakuya#nu carnival yakumo#nu carnival kuya
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tearlessrain · 8 months ago
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I'm so tired of performative social justice that doesn't actually do anything. stop worshiping the concept of a glorious revolution that will fix everything and make an actionable plan while you push for incremental local change. trump winning isn't going to kickstart some YA novel bullshit and save the day it will destroy us and kill any chance we had of stopping the genocide you're claiming to care about so much. just swallow your pride and fucking vote so we have a chance in hell to work toward a better world and achieve any degree of progress/harm reduction. for fucks sake.
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parisoonic · 5 months ago
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HEY I LOVE YOUR ART SO SO MUCH IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY
thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T drawing makes me happy!!! glad i can share that with people 💝
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dummerjan · 2 months ago
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I need to get out of bed and ready for class but there’s a cuddly sleepy dog in my bed and in school there is my very incompetent teacher I want to yell at
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procrastinators-anonymous · 5 months ago
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What is the ADHD equivalent of Adderall? I need something that’s gonna give me the motivation to do stuff that’s not immediate gratification. My meds can help me focus, sure, but they can’t teach me self-discipline. They can’t provide me the sense of urgency needed to meet my deadlines. I feel like I’m missing a crucial piece of the puzzle. How am I meant to function in this society when my brain can’t even function well enough to produce the chemicals I need to work. I’m so frustrated but I can’t even seek help because I don’t have the willpower to seek it. I’m so tired and I haven’t even done anything. I just lounge around, pleading with myself to get up and do, but it seems like nothing works. So I sit, and I self-loath, and I scream out internally, and I yank my hair, and I scratch at my skin, and I hit myself, and I cry, and I beg for my body to move and be productive for hours on end. It’s an inescapable cycle; I’m going mad. I wanna live, but is this all that is life? I need a solution, a solution like Adderall, but for me.
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phatcatphergus · 1 year ago
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While I do think that Tubbo was a bit over the top today in regards to making light of the lore, I think it’s mainly because he’s tired of this arc and how there isn’t a roleplayable response unless the eye workers permit there to be. It’s frustrating on a viewer and player level for sure.
Does that mean he had to be over the top? No, but I do think its good to keep in mind that Mike also was messing around during the lore today and in the dapper kidnapping stream, Phil did not give a shit that dapper was downed and kidnapped even after being told he was. I can find Tubbo making jokes at the eye workers funny and someone else can find it annoying, I personally had a problem when he kept speaking over Bagi today, he’s a human who does annoying things that I don’t like sometimes.
I think we all get a bit too defensive of our favs (absolutely guilty) and forget that we find other people doing the same thing annoying too. People can respond to lore however they want, especially when it’s impromptu lore like today.
We don’t have to be up in arms about everything and you don’t have to hate on someone for acting how another person acted in the past. Streamers do things we don’t like sometime because (surprisingly) they’re individuals! Who have their own reasons for doing the things they do. Sometimes it’s playing a certain game and sometimes it’s taking lore with a grain of salt. Maybe you like foolishs parenting style and hate Phil’s, that’s valid! Just remember that people can dislike foolishs parenting style too!
TLDR: it’s okay to critique tubbo for how he chose to interact with the lore today or how he interacts with sunny so long as you are okay with people saying the same thing about your streamer
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the-kipsabian · 21 days ago
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ooooooooooh they made it woooooooorse
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like. look. listen. im happy for nick he deserves his midcard push
but the levels of kip erasure are insane with this angle alone and im not okay with it actually
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hythlodaes · 6 months ago
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i could scream forever actually
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convexitea · 4 months ago
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it is so frustrating having chronic fatigue/pain, but especially so when my doctors now wont talk to me. i got brushed aside and told i have fibro despite it being something that is diagnosed via exclusion, but no one wants to actually put the effort into doing that. ive asked for appointments to discuss this but no one has gotten back to me and im so close to trying to figure out how to write a formal complaint because im so fucking frustrated, i just want to know whats wrong with me, why im so exhausted.
i keep having to repeat that i dont want medicine, i know i cant get medicine, im not fucking ""drug seeking"" . theyve given me every pain killer theyre allowed and they dont do anything for me anyways. but it feels like no one believes me, everyone thinks im annoying now, the only people who seem to actually understand are other disabled people
im not against being diagnosed with fibro, but its SO OBVIOUS theyre just trying to get me to shut up and go away at this point. its gotten to a poitn where even my therapist doesnt believe me and iw ant to have a fucking breakdown
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lovenliterature · 4 months ago
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Take the hope, take the pain
If I could erase one fucking facet of myself, I’d take this away in a heartbeat
The depression, the panic, the anger - I’ll bear them all
Even the living in a body I cannot mould the way I want, that’s a price I would pay
I would pay anything to take away the fog, the nausea, the days and weeks and months stuck in bed to calm my head
To keep my body fed and alive while wrestling to stop it expelling any nutrients I give it
These wide reaching symptoms, the confusing and changing triggers, the not knowing if this is me sick, or this is me forever
I would cut out parts of me one by one til I could have a life of clearheadedness and a body that doesn’t rebel
I wonder how many incisions it would take
I wonder if there would be anything left at all
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crrreoooo · 2 months ago
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To AI Supporters: If you're gonna try and argue your wrong point of view, don't use strawmen!
I was reading a threat on r/mildlyinfuriating (the comments make me laugh sometimes) and I came across this
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All context, the og commenter said "AI will solve this, no longer will we have to wait" and first of all wrong as fuck, second of all, as the argument continued, it lead to the top image.
...I love researching this shit and loving KNOWING shit. What Kaztiell used in their bottom reply is a strawman argument.
This is when somebody argues someone views something...that they never said, or they bring up something that the argument didn't include from the start. Almost as if they were arguing with...a straw man. It can also be imagined as the phrase "talking to a brick wall" or "old man yelling at the clouds".
For example, let's rephrase the bit above:
"AI should be used as a tool and should not be replacing people."
"So you don't care for the mailmen that lost jobs due to email?"
GravityVsTheFandoms never said that!
This isn't even true, while it may have caused some job loss, it never posed as much a threat as generative ai does when it comes to replacing humans. Mailmen still need to be there for packages and many other factors.
If you're gonna debate your (very wrong) viewpoint on Ai...please don't use strawmen <3!
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Also this isn't a space to debate it! Thank youuuu!~
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psychedelic-charm · 10 months ago
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Hello everyone💖🍉
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After 150 days of leaving Gaza, we arrived in Egypt carrying in our hearts the love of the homeland and hope for the future. 💔 We started a new life, but the road was not easy. I now live with some family members in difficult and complex conditions, 🏠 and I face great challenges in obtaining residency and stability. 📜
We are now facing the pressures of alienation and living without stability, 🌍 and every day that passes is a new test of our steadfastness. 🇵🇸 Despite all this, we continue to struggle to achieve a dignified and safe life. ✊
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We believe that with patience and determination we will reach what we aspire to 🙂💖
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