#toxic friendship

[peterokii]

high school trauma or why i cant make friends

[chaosmagicwanda]

No matter how good you could be to somebody, no matter how much you love them, they can and will turn their backs on you.

[robinsnestwoutrest]

How I’ve Been Feeling // A Friendship is Burning To Ashes (And I’m Not Sure If I’m Angry Or Just Tired)

Be Nice To Me - The Front Bottoms // Tired - beabadoobee // ritikajyala // Tucker Edwards // aidashakur // Best Friend - Lauren Aquilina

[it-was-yxu]

[dontknowwhyiam]

i don’t know if it hurt more to know you or to let you go

// pinterest // phoebe bridgers, waiting room // pinterest // audrey emmett // pinterest // vladimir nabokov // pinterest // steven espada dawson, elegy for the four chambers of my brother’s heart //

[unwashedace]

Hey friends!

I’m excited to announce the call for submissions for the first issue of my new zine, Ask Philia!

I’m looking for your stories and questions about friendship. Whether it’s a heartfelt tale of a friend break-up, supporting a pal during tough times, long-distance friendships, misunderstandings, or even a platonic love letter—Ask Philia is the perfect place to share it all. 💖

Your submissions will help make this zine something truly lovely, so don’t be shy! 🌈💌

Click here for the submission form!

SUBMISSION FORM CLOSES SEPTEMBER 5TH

[cherriblossumsblog]

[hsgrace]

not to be dramatic but i’m really upset and unhappy today.

all those words and i still don’t feel like i got this feeling out or even really managed to say anything of value about it at all.

[landmine-doll-annabelle]

Running into your toxic friends, standing up to them, and cutting them out of your life be like:

[coolmaycroft]

It didn't scare me enough back then... It does now.

[chaosmagicwanda]

“Sometimes self-love shows up as the willingness to release people who have no interest in learning how to love you. You deserve to be handled with care.”

- Michell C. Clark

[lunebordeauxpoetry]

and remember

you'll come into my life

and I'll accept you as you are

because nobody accepted me as I was

and you can tell me whatever story you want to tell me

and I'll believe you

because nobody believed me

and I hope you'll like glitter and laughters

like I do

so you won't call me superficial

when I'll obsess over my makeup and my smile

and if you'll hit me

don't worry, I won't get mad

because that's how people showed me love

and if you'll caress me

I won't understand

and please, don't expect anything from me

they said I'm selfish so I must be

that means I want everything and I can't give

and I'll show you only smiles

because I don't want to be a burden to you

but you can come crying to me

and I won't complain

you can tell me that you love me

and that you admire me

that'll boost my ego for a while

I will admit that

but don't touch my shoulder

and don't call me friend

because I'm just waiting

for the next knife planted in my back.

– I'll understand.

lunebordeaux, 08/06/23.

[starlightsweetheart]

Some friendship... (also I'm fucking up past and present tenses, but idgaf)

You know I just realized how absolutely humongous a crock of shit the whole Maya turning into Riley because she's getting better grades thing is, and that Riley only was accusing her of that because of Lucas. I mean, I knew it was bullshit before, but I never really though of how gigantic a 💩 it was until today.

Girl Meets Father is the fourth episode of season one. In that episode, Cory gives Maya an F on her test. Maya gets upset that she failed the test.

Maya tells Riley that "sometimes, I'm not so proud of who I am".

Maya tells Riley and Cory that she "tried to write like I was smart", Riley responds that Maya is smart.

Cory corrects Maya on one answer of the test saying "it's a tiny difference but an important one. Because if you know it, Maya, you don't fail". Maya then replies "I want to not fail".

Riley was encouraging Maya, while Cory was quizzing her on the subject of the test.

Maya says to Cory: "I just don't wanna fail, Mr. Matthews.

We go from that (Riley encouraging Maya to grow and better herself) to season three, Girl Meets Triangle, where Riley accuses Maya that the person that Maya has grown into is not who she really is.

Riley tell the art teacher that "Maya's a rebel". That Maya dances on teachers' desks, is the queen of detention and the president of Mayaville.

Riley is saying that Maya needs to be fixed because "she's been getting good grades, she's behaving all over the place".

Maya tells Riley, "I'm me! I've always been me, I'm always gonna be me! Nothings going to change that!", Riley retorts with"you haven't stood on a teachers desk or been in detention for a long time. You sold your house in Mayaville and you moved to Rileytown."

No matter what Maya says, Riley keeps insisting that Maya turned into her, blah blah blah.

Riley goes on about how Maya's style has changed towards Riley's style.

So, in the beginning of the series Riley was encouraging Maya to grow and do better. Maya even told Riley that she's not proud of who she is. Maya does mature and grow...

THEN Riley finds out that Maya likes the same guy as her. That can't happen, she can't have Lucas choosing Maya; so she accuses Maya of becoming her and wants Maya to become that failure that Maya thought she was in the beginning of the series (plus telling Maya that while Riley will have one husband, Maya will go through 5 husbands and that Lucas won't be one of them). Riley accuses Maya pulling the fire alarm, of stealing from the cafe (for me, that kind of accusation is something that a friendship can never bounce back from) and she basically forces Maya to revert back to the person she wasn't proud of being, to believe that she doesn't deserve good things or good guys... all because they like the same guy.

Thus, by the end of the series; Riley destroyed all of Maya's growth and forced Maya's regression and Riley became a hypocrite.

[it-was-yxu]

How the fuck do you have absolutely no self-awareness about how you treat other people, even your closest friends?

[moonlightsapphic]

wait wait wait wait so are we just not gonna talk about Nimona’s homoerotic childhood best friendship with Gloreth who turned out to be a brainwashed terf and then how it all ended with a traumatic breakup ooorrrrr

[hatefilledsuggestions]

Interesting to see those manipulative posts making rounds blaming people for their own low self esteem and claiming that their traumatic life filled with abuse and loneliness is their own fault, comparing it to having “main character syndrome”.

Just feels like op hates trauma victims and finds them annoying, and not wanting to feel guilty for feeling this way, has passed the blame onto the victims saying it’s their own fault they feel unloved and hurt. Real abuser type shit.

Anyway, if you feel unloved and hurt and lonely, you’re valid. If you have a low self esteem and feel like the world is crumbling around you, you’re valid. If your whole life has felt like a tragedy because of all the pain that’s been inflicted upon you, you’re valid.

It’s not your “ego” it’s not feeling “special” it’s genuine traumatic events sculpting your perception of yourself. We are only a reflection of what others have done to us. Our brain chemistry is literally fucked all to hell because of the massive amounts of trauma and abuse.

If people around you have made you feel unloved or unloveable through abuse and manipulation, that’s not your fault. If people around you have traumatized you and made you feel like the scum of the earth, it’s not your fault. And it’s ableist to insinuate otherwise.

We can’t just magically erase life long trauma that has literally influenced absolutely every aspect of our lives, and we shouldn’t be expected to do so just because some neurotypical fuck thinks we’re annoying for being justifiably upset and hurt.