#Bipolar 1 Disorder

[psycheblog-uk]

Mental disorders and criminal legal involvement: Evidence from a national diagnostic epidemiological survey

Open Access Peer-reviewed Research Article Jeffrey W. Swanson , Madeline Stenger, Michele M. Easter, Natalie Bareis, Lydia Chwastiak, Lisa B. Dixon, Mark J. Edlund, Scott Graupensperger, Heidi Guyer, Maria  Monroe-DeVita, Mark Olfson, T. Scott Stroup, Katherine S. Winans, Marvin S. Swartz Published: April 9, 2025 https://doi.org/10.1371/journal.pmen.0000257 Abstract Large numbers of adults…

[tezriaetho]

fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)

[lullxbyblue]

I want to cut off the parts of my body I hate but then there would be nothing left

[asadgirlwithaprettymind]

a fine gentleman: very demure, very mindful 🐈‍⬛

[xvelvetcoffinx]

"Edging" now refers to when you are on the verge of tears all day but don't cry

[red-truck]

This is Roller in G1.

And this is him now in IDW.

Folks, Oppy's little drone son, Roller, is hella sexy now.

He's been Alex Milne-fied. And JRoberts made him addicted to whatever C32 is in human version.

That little gun he's carrying around as a drone make him look like a mini Megatron too. Can he be Megs's and Oppy's son? Pleaaaase?

[glacierruler]

Should I write a fic where the main character has bipolar 1 disorder like I do? /gq

[bpdarlingx]

I’m lost.

[nightingaleatdawnwrites]

Life Is Beautiful: Hopes and Dreams

Hi! I’m Ally and my alias is Nightingale At Dawn Writes. I have a mood condition and I was first diagnosed with Major Depression in 2000. I had a life changing situation then that I wasn’t able to handle, hence, I had severe depression. Different psychological tests were done. I had consultations then with a psychiatrist until 2001.

In 2001, I studied the Basic Course and the Advance Course in Interior Design at the Philippine School of Interior Design. During this time, I stopped seeing a psychiatrist. I believe studying this course greatly helped in diverting my attention and I had an “outlet” then. I’ve always wanted to study Interior Design. This was my second choice for the courses to study when I took up the entrance exam in U.P. Los Baños.

Everything was going well until 2006. This was the time that we had to seek help again with a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder with Major Depression. I had monthly consultations then with my psychiatrist and I was taking medications.

Then sometime in 2015, I wasn’t taking my medications and I was planning to commit suicide. An Angel told me not to do that and think of the family I will leave behind if I do this. I don’t need to name names but you know who you are!

Then in 2019, I started having consultations with a psychiatrist in Los Baños. I have been in her care ever since then and I must say she’s one of the best psychiatrists we have known.

In March 2022, I was admitted in a medical facility for two months. That’s just a few weeks away and I’m writing this as it will be almost two years since then. I wasn’t taking my medications then, hence, I had to be admitted in a medical facility.

I know there’s a stigma in the Philippines for people like me who have mental illnesses. That’s the reason why I’m here in Canada and being with the people who love me unconditionally.

Moving forward, I have promised myself to do better and be a better version of myself. To love myself first before others. I will always be a work in progress as I don’t believe in perfection.

I have also been closer to God. He will always be my “flashlight”. I know that any struggles I will have moving forward, He will help me get through them. I trust His plans for me.

I will also serve as the light to those in darkness. I will lead them to the righteous path and have purpose driven lives. It’s an amazing journey and I believe that life is beautiful… It will always be!

I will forever chase my dreams. Like what I have mentioned, I have big dreams not only for myself but also for my family.

I know that the next chapter in my story will be amazing! I’ll always be counting my blessings as I am gifted and blessed!

[tezriaetho]

the voices are getting loud. they keep yelling at me making me feel guilty and scared. i wish they would just leave me alone

[gazniet]

idk who needs to hear this but your manic episodes are valid even if you don’t think your actions were “crazy” enough

[asadgirlwithaprettymind]

my handy helper 📘

[traumakid-hideout]

An episode of mania almost always always always starts out so euphorically, makes you feel like you’re on the perfect drug, makes your confidence and motivation sky rocket and has you romanticizing all the fun it baits you with. It feels so amazing, you feel like nothing can hurt you or get to you.

Then the irritability comes, genuine rage, such an uncomfortable and overwhelming increase in libido, dangerous impulses, social behavior to be humiliated from by the time you crash, severe sleep deprivation that disorients the fuck out of you the longer you go without it, without even feeling tired at all. But feeling completely out of control. And if it escalates, Lord help you. Hallucinations, bad paranoia, black outs, substance abuse (or relapse if you happen to be recovering), delusions, everything that could get you into a psych ward. It isn’t fun at the end and any pleasure you feel is completely illusionary.

The worst part is I still normally never want it to stop. Because the depression after, which gets so ugly and terrible the longer, more intense the mania is, is something I’m not looking forward to at all. That, and mania can really sometimes convince you that you love it. I’m not wanting to go there though, because I have a lot to lose. Even if I don’t lose anything, I’m tired of this cycle and just can’t afford to desire it anymore. So I’m managing where I can, but wow it’s just scary to watch it take you higher and higher into it, and further and further away from yourself.

This is precisely why I despise any sort of stigma toward bipolar disorder. It’s so misunderstood, misquoted, and mistreated. I just really want and need some help. My hands are so sweaty and shaky, my heart and my mind are racing, I can’t stop talking, I can’t eat. I can’t focus, I can only fixate. And it’s just so overwhelming already.

[lullxbyblue]

I deactivated my Facebook and my instagram because I just hate seeing people living their lives.

[psychotic-tbh]

Does anyone else’s mental illness mess with their spiritual beliefs, and if so, how?

Not looking to be converted or debated. :0

[wheelie-sick]

had the most profound realization about being bipolar that I can't quite put into words

I exist in multiple realities as multiple different people. every mood episode is a different reality, they're never quite the same. bipolar is such a misnomer because it implies two but really it's an endless array of poles, poles that other people can't even imagine exist because they can only exist in our heads as our experiences. our experiences are so internal that even the best attempts to externalize them will never quite make it through. every mood episode creates a different person, I change with the flow of my realities, adapting to each different one in different ways. my friends describe me as being a different person when I'm manic, I think that extends to every time I swing in any direction. I used to complain that when I was manic or depressed I wasn't me but I am me throughout all of it I just exist in multitudes.

my realities are not less real than other people's. other people might not experience the same reality but that doesn't make mine false and it doesn't make mine lesser. my reality is intangible to others but incredibly tangible to me. my realities are medicalized as "mania" and "depression" they are put in these boxes implying they are false. there is this belief that there is one correct way to experience reality. that there is one correct reality. but my realities are correct to me, I live in them, how could they not be real?

my realities and my multitudes are beautiful, it's okay that my medication doesn't work perfectly because there is beauty in my bipolar existence.