#Psych special interest

[avalovesindie]

it’s always “you need to get a job” and “why aren’t you in college?” And never “Ava what are the 5 DSM-5 criteria for autism, why don’t you tell me all about your opinions and theories on it?”

[macksartblock]

sketches of the s1 kiddads bc i miss them

doomed children of all time

[koyot1]

I'm building a wall, everyday it's getting higher. This time I won't end up another victim of love! 🎶

[prince-liest]

read through your answer to an ask about alastor's touch aversion and as someone who is in the process of getting diagnosed with ASD it is SO VALIDATING. being totally cool and normal with touch one second and then being absolutely appalled by it a moment later. what also shines through about his characterization in this context is the slow acceptance towards the ordeal of Using Your Words when you want/no longer want to be touched. unfortunately vox cant read your mind bud

i dont know if you've mentioned this anywhere but do you see alastor (or your version of him) as an autistic character? since that flavor of touch aversion, though not exclusive to asd, is definitely a common experience

Ahhh, I'm glad that it rings so true! Yeah, it's just one of those things that I think is really malleable and depends on the circumstance! Even for folks that aren't touch-averse, specifically, there's still variety in the people and circumstances involved with being accepting of touch - and being generally touch-averse just adds layers and levels to the experience. Thank you!

As for Alastor potentially being autistic in how I write him... two aspects to that answer:

With the singular exception of Lucifer (or any other character who has an existing, canon diagnosis) I don't tend to have specific diagnoses in mind ahead of time for characters when I write them. A lot of them end up very obviously anxious, or ADHD, or autistic, or most commonly C-PTSD, etc, but it's kind of an "I write this character how I see them and you can definitely accurately infer" situation! You're not the first person to see that in how I write him, so probably the answer is 'yes'!

That said, I've been told by pretty reliable peer review that I have a touch of the 'tism to the point that it's a running joke, so there's a good chance that's also leaking in, HAH.

[psycheofaphaggot]

stupid rant dont mind me.

its almost definitely the autism in me, but oh my god if theres one thing i hate its when people misunderstand characters or situations in media. i don’t know what it is but it just angers me to no end.

i don’t expect everyone to be a huge psychology nerd like me, or to even be interested in seeing all possible sides to a situation. but its just…you really cannot make an informed decision, or even have an opinion on certain things without the right information. humans are multi-facted, and if you’re dealing with actual complex media that showcases this, you need to make sure you fully understand something (or someone) to have a valid take.

maybe im too critical, but honestly imo this goes for real life as well.

i mean it’s perfectly fine to have a negative opinion on anything, feelings are valid regardless of what caused them. but jesus christ. isn’t it better to know all of the facts first? even if it doesn’t change your opinion?

its just so annoying i don’t even have the words for it.

anyways, rant over. byebye

[shitty-goose-quack]

older sister -> tomboy -> lesbian -> she/they (i'm an ally!) -> she/they (im not a woman) -> 🤔🫠🤨🧐 (im 14 and edgy) -> gender fluid (my crush said she was) -> gender fluid (im indecisive) -> some complicated bullshit about genderfae/genderfawnet -> gender fluid -> it would really just be easier if i was a guy ->🤔🫠🤨🧐 (im depressed) ->

🔥NAME CHANGE🔥

"it's like the ocean or something (xenogender) (micro labels are fun) -> 🤔🫠🤨🧐 -> gender fluid but in an ocean way -> oh i like this agender shit -> nah fuck it gender fluid (you can be all of it) -> pan gender -> you're a woman you fucking trender -> nope that was just a woman day you're gender fluid ->

🔥MERCH TIME🔥

✅ gender fluid hair tie

✅ gender fluid earrings

✅ gender fluid picrews

✅ binder that isn't actually a binder cause you're bad at online shopping

✅ long tumblr rant that is still your most popular post

🤔🫠🤨🧐-> you're a straight girl who's looking for attention -> genderfuck (micro labels will make me happy) -> ocean gender (micro labels will make me happy) -> genderfae (micro labels will make me happy) -> micro labels will make mehappymicrolabelswillmakemehappymicrolabelswillmakemehappymicrolabelswillmakemehappymicrolabelswillmakemehappymicrolabelswillmakemehappy -> fuck it gender fluid (part 2) -> oh whats this? people in my head? that are different genders? making me feel like different genders? -> quinn is a hot mess and nigel is a man and x is nothing and thea uses she/they...

and years go by and felt like hours or however that poem goes but also the background music box shit off of lovely ladies playing

-> hello im your chest dysphoria and i would like to *punching noises* -> so. here me out. we dissociate from the dissociative disorder so bad that all the people get repressed and you feel like your friends died can we not? nah it's fine. (neutral gender??) -> 📞 hello we have been trying to reach you about your chest's extended warranty for some time now. would you like to return your tits? -> like nonbinary i guess just use they/them and don't be weird -> but girl. ew. he/they -> no one said he so ig just back to they/them

and years went by but felt like hours

oh god but trans guys are so relatable -> what if i just went on t for a little bit for the bottom growth and the voice and then came back from it -> what if top surgery but no too scary -> what if little boob reduction so binder work -> shit i taped the bitches down and i feel alive maybe i do want top surgery -> down the rabbit hole of ftm youtubers and fuck you im a guy -> yes -> no -> yes -> no -> tiddy look good tiddy feel bad -> well you see i only wear men's clothes and never do makeup and bind my chest and sleep with a packer and get kinda giddy when someone calls me he and i dressed up as my brother for halloween and i cut my hair off and i don't wear earrings anymore but im not like,,, a guy what are you talking about that's crazy anyway how do you grow a beard without taking T asking for a friend

[viscerast]

man i think its kinda funyn that tim/masky is some of the better DID rep i've seen out there bc i dont even think that was what troy was going for + he actively tried to make all his characters morally gray so it wasnt like masky was the Evil Alter he was just a guy in situations (that also kinda wanted a guy dead)

like bro wasnt even trying but i see him and go "oh it me :)"

[thesockwhisperer]

I was so damn stressed about this test. My Adhd meds wore off mid test and I wasn't able to finish the second half of the test (I had to leave one of the frqs blank because i didnt have time). It felt so icky because Biology and related sciences are kinda my special interest but apparently I was panicked for no reason because I still (somehow) got the 5!!!!

[trans-axolotl]

How did you learn embroidery?

taught myself! looked up some guides online on how to cross stitch when i was 14, and then checked out some books from the library to learn how to do surface embroidery. mostly learned through practicing and figuring out what works and what doesn't!

[griponthenews]

no because that meme of someone watching a streamer play their favourite game but they misunderstand it horrendously. That’s literally me with Not for Broadcast. I have yet to see a streamer play it and use like their actual brain and critical thinking skills when choosing whether to side with Advance vs Disrupt. Like the point of the game is nuance and the grey morality of both sides but these people will just assume everything Advance do is bad while supporting Disrupt without questioning any of their actions because Advance are the government and therefore automatically pure evil? Say what you will about Julia’s government, but early game Advance genuinely have some stellar policies. But every streamer I’ve seen play this game always goes fully pro-Disrupt as soon as they have the option to do so, without considering the actual good things Advance are doing at that point, like the Menu Centres or the Assets and Wealth Act. I’m not forgetting about their inexcusable actions later on in the game (if you’ve played it then you’ll know what I’m talking about), but even then that was mainly Julia’s decision rather than Advance’s (can’t remember which ending it is but there’s that tape where Peter is very clearly against what Julia did). Arguably the best epilogue of the game happens when the public is in favour of Advance over Disrupt. But because typically in dystopian fiction the rebel faction is the morally better choice I guess people assume Disrupt must be too? Despite all this the most annoyed I’ve ever been watching someone play this game was when at the end the guy said (in a roundabout way of complimenting her I guess??) that Megan’s actor did a good job at making you hate her. How someone can come out of this game hating MEGAN WOLFE of all characters is beyond me.

sorry for how incoherent and badly formatted this post is I just have to rant about Not for Broadcast or I’ll explode.

[prince-liest]

I have to say, I now crave the way you write unreliable narrators - where the reader doesn't know that the narrator is unreliable until its hitting them in face. Every limited narrator is unreliable (when done well) by virtue of them being a person, but its quite a treat to have a character gaslight themselves so hard they genuinely seem honest in their reasonings. Your way of getting into a characters head and viewing the world from their perspective is very apparent throughout your fics. I recently re-read your old atla and hawks-centric fics, and you have such a unique and recognizable flavor to your writing :)

I love your writing, been re-reading your stuff every so often since I first discovered you

Thank you so much! It is, firstly, an absolute delight to me that people are still dipping back and reading (rereading!!) things of mine that are a few years old now.

Secondly, I think the biggest part of writing an unreliable narrator is that, like... most people, no matter who they are or what they're doing, are generally convinced that they're doing the right thing on some level. Almost nobody is sitting there going, "I'm going to make a series of bad choices on purpose!" even if the choices are clearly awful from the outside. The way you describe my writing, where as a reader you're not quite hit in the face with what's been spiraling on until the character is - that's so lovely for me to hear, because that means I'm doing a good job convincingly writing that "I'm behaving in a way that makes sense to me" mindset!

Which is my favorite thing to do in writing, hahaha. Even in my fantroll RP days, all of my OCs were designed Like That (TM).

So I'm really glad that you're enjoying the ride! I had a lot of fun building the theme park with funhouse mirrors plastered everywhere. >:)

[designernishiki]

finally wrote up my majima background conspiracy theory in a post and its a long ass mess and makes me sound insane but. i mean. that’s exactly what i predicted so

[koravelliumavast]

Me explaining why I like a character:

[nururu]

Id v is so crazy for making a big lizard man hunter with braided rows and then make him a survivor persona and they made him a skinny white man with rows.. not just that but he's a redhead too......... There's like only 2 genuinely poc characters in this game.... And one of them the devs are constantly drawing as a white man for no reason. the one guy who's supposed to be native American is just a white cowboy who was adopted by a tribe.

[arosebyan0thername]

Idk man something they cooked into doctor who is a different level, shit links directly into my autism like bluetooth, it's automatic