#absolute fucking dogshit year

[kirby-dalziel]

I learned some pretty horrifying things about my mom’s side of the family and the. My mom died in her sleep last night

Her parents’ reaction? You’re her next of kin you worry about it.

I’m broke as shit. So I guess her fiancée is in charge. I know deep in my fucking heart she’d want her body donated for medical school training. She’s stated as much to me. But I guess her fiancée wins because I’m too fucking broke to fight it and I can’t even attend a funeral IF one happens because if my uncle shows, I’m going to make his life a living hell.

[theonewhowails]

silly stuff i drew while reading Feel No Evil by @payasita , in which the Lamb does not know how to propose, Narinder does not know how to be alive, and neither of them knows what an obligate carnivore is

bonus? lmao

[nebquerna]

15.2-

[rightous-int]

AND THATS THE END OF MY TODAYS MEMES! YOU CAN SEE HOW WITH TIME I STARTED SLOWLY LOOSING MY MIND

[deadpettyrainbow]

we're pretending like i'm not insane right? yeah okay.

[serendipitous-mage]

pie story

>be me

>know that roomie/friennds dinner day is after actual thanksgiving and thats its the 26th, but unsure what day of the week thhat is (zero time concept) and even tho know its always the thursday regardless of date, have in mind that thanksgivingn is on the 24th or 25th, so not far away from our dinner day

>thing that has been designated to make is ✨pumpkin pie✨

>remember that other roommate who is doing lot of the cooking said they were doing their pies on weds

>think 'hmhm ok, i will also make my pie on weds:3'

>make the pie

>it is. SO delicious looking 😭😭 (important: have a years-decades long obsession wiith pie)

>y e a r n

>cannot have the pie yet

>exercise more restraiint than god herself and wait for it to cool, then wrap and put in fridge

>Realize. that the pies roommate were making were for other roommate to bring with them to their parents on actual thanksgiving the next day. and our dinner day(when the my pie can be eaten) is not.. until…… saturday……….

>DESPAIR

>absolute devastation no breathing only deepest desire to eat the pie

>torturous sleep

>awaken

>halfway through next day(thanksgiving) while roommates with families are at theiir places, receive a picture of a pie. say they are lucky bastards to have their pie now😭

>get told😳can have a piece of pumpkin pi-

>rUN upstaiirs and once aagain exercise More Restraint Than God Herself when cutting a piece so that it isnt a whole half-

>eat🥰😋💞

>… want more 🤭😖

>canNot have more, attempt to be sated, return downstairs

>be Proper Exhausted TM from other things

>roommate has made more pies that can have.. but….. too tired… to get up………

>pass out at 8pm

>wake up at 8am to a bunch of messages in groupchats, including one with the other roommate, who has sent a picture of pecan pie and said we could have some of that early also

>send "is this👀here??👀👀👀"

>receive a YES and YOU CAN HAVE and rACE INTO HAL-

>cat

>kitty cat cat right outside door who is now rolling adorably on the rug

>task impeded, sidequest activated: remove roadblock(pet kitty)

>pet kitty

>kitty is being ohsocute and rolling and rubbing up against the radiator-oH ATTACKED

>KITTY KICK KICKS

>kitty runs upstairs

>sidequest complete! road is clear

>race upstairs

>have not one but TWO pieces of TWO different pies for breakfast!!

>happy little jiig

>the beast (pie obsession) has been sated (for now)

[radlegowaffle]

some toram online avatars ive seen in game part 1 ft. friend

[maretriarch]

these were going to be before photos of me trying those goddamn tiktok heatless robe tie curls but i never braided my hair (or did anything to my appearance) as a child so its literally rocket science and impossible its like trying to learn a new language past the age of like 5 anyways heres a photo i accidentally took of me not trusting the process at all even a little bit

[gayemeralds]

the thing is splinter is genuinely a dogshit ninja. that’s part of the reason he was never interested in it, and being the leader of the clan- he was bad at it. absolutely dreadful. the worst ninja in the entire clan. but now he’s the only ninja left of his clan, and a teacher to the turtles, so he’s gotta hype himself up as a great fighter. but unlike other iterations, splinter never spars against his own kids- he shows them the moves and then has them fight against themselves and calls it good. because if he did fight his kids, he’d get his ass absolutely handed back to him on a silver platter and he is NOT going to have that happen. he might be a coward but he’s still got an inkling of pride left.

[talkorsomething]

...well, i now officially know i've lost weight.

Like... a lot? a lot more than i had thought?

Which is. Odd because honestly pretty much everything still feels like it fits about the same...

I guess it explains why i've been more cold?!

+ also i dont know Why it's so much... if i start eating like a normal human being again i don't... really *want* to go over where i started? :/ i guess i'd maybe be fine w/ being about the same because i know it won't be That big of a difference. Or i don't think it will anyways? Hm...

[junkartie]

Ive said it once and ill say it probably a hundred times more, the lack of good males in my life is really getting 2 me. Especially when one of them pop up every once in a while, seem like a decent guy, and then make sure to exhibit some of the vilest, most stomach churning behavior ive ever witnessed. It is genuinely not to sound dramatic, i have not met one man who doesn’t say/do the vilest shit ever or doesnt defend one of his “homeboys” who does. Shit man. I know all of them arent like this but at this point its such a minority that straight up i dont interact with any man ever. Ive given up 😎👍

[lesbianwillbond]

so many fanfiction writers have this mindset of ‘ugh i wanna write xyz but no one will want to read it but me’ which is sooo ???? and foreign to me. i’ve been writing fanfiction pretty regularly since idk 2015/16?? and i don’t think i’ve ever felt insecurity over whether other people will want to read it. either i’m so overconfident in my own abilities that i think it’ll revolutionize the fandom it’s for (and then immediately forget about it once i publish it) or i know that no one is gonna read it and i don’t care at all because the person i primarily write for is ME and the reason i write is for FUN so why should i gaf about anyone else.

[thebibliosphere]

Whenever I talk about the medical neglect and ableism I've encountered as a victim of the healthcare system, there's always some cockwaffle who feels entitled to come into my inbox and make the argument of "not all doctors" while talking about how "people like them" (because it's always someone in a field of medicine who does this) are doing their best and it's really hard because so many people fake being ill to get on welfare (Yikes), but like, yeah, obviously #not all doctors, because if all doctors were negligent, bullying scum bags, I'd be dead.

But here's the thing: while I truly believe that the majority of doctors are doing their best in a system stacked against them and their patients, their presence does not negate the mass harm caused by the bad ones. And there are far more bad ones than you realize.

Fuck, John Oliver literally did a segment on this last week:

Yes, the truly bad, malicious doctors are in the minority. Most are just horrifically burned out and fighting a losing battle against a system, killing both them and their patients through a lack of funding and resources and profound overwork.

But the malicious ones do exist, and they will go out of their way to harm patients who don't kowtow to them.

I almost lost my life because when I was in my early twenties, I told a doctor I didn't think she was listening to me, and I disagreed with her assessment of my mental health (she was not a mental health doctor, and I was there for heart palpitations and chronic pain). She retaliated by putting "non-compliant" in my file.

There was also a fun little "doesn't show respect" note too that lives rent-free in my head because I know I wasn't rude. I was polite. I just didn't agree with her, and my refusal to accept her off-handed comment that "you probably have bipolar or BPD" (again, I was there for heart palpitations and chronic pain) meant I was "refusing care."

I wasn't. I just refused to be slapped with a mood/personality disorder when I was there because I kept fucking fainting when I stood up.

(Spoiler alert: it was dysautonomia)

That "non-compliant" marker followed me around for years. It followed me across an ocean and effectively ensured that any doctor I saw was going to treat me like absolute dogshit because no one wants to help Difficult Patients. It wasn't until I was so undeniably ill, literally on the brink of death, that anyone helped me.

I'm alive because of a good doctor. And all the good ones that came after him because of him.

So, I know they exist. You don't have to tell me that.

But I really fucking need you to acknowledge the bad ones and that you're part of a system with a long, long history of abusing minorities and vulnerable people. I need you to acknowledge that because it's the only way we're going to survive this godforsaken nightmare and make things better.

So yeah, #notalldoctors, but if you feel the need to say that because someone talking about being literally left to die by the medical system hurts your feelings, I'm going to have to ask you to take a step back and ask yourself if you're going into medicine for the right reasons.

Namely: do you want to help people, even the "difficult" ones?

Even the ones who might disagree with you?

Even if they're on welfare?

Even if they'll never get "better" in a way that means "cured"?

Just a thought. But hey, what do I know. I'm just someone who experienced hemolytic anemia because doctors kept telling me I was anxious and needed to exercise more 🤷‍♀️.

[ashtonisvibing]

oh my god it's actually fucking real

[wetpapert0wel]

my sitch sucks orz

[depresseddepot]

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