#neruodivergent

[drchucktingle]

Something I’ve been curious about if it wouldn’t break the bit: are you one buckaroo or several sharing a name and persona?

greetings bud thank you for asking FIRST OF ALL want to say to you or anyone reading this post that i am not upset over this question and i am not upset with you. you have kindness in your trot and i know you are just asking to prove love in your own way. buds reading this please do not harass this person in fact maybe give them a follow or a like, they are trying their best.

OKAY NOW THAT IS OUT OF THE WAY i will talk on my feelings of this with simple statement:

this is not a bit.

i understand it can be difficult to accept this for some, especially in world where absurdity and cynical humor is so popular, but i am very sincere. even though i make jokerman jokes sometimes, even in my writing, tinglers are not supposed to be funny as a concept. if you laugh at them that is TOTALLY OKAY i understand this way when confronted with something out of the box but that is not the point of them at all. the point is that LOVE IS REAL for everyone (there are other points but that is a broad one)

now on to why i trot my trot in this way. first off is to protect my privacy this is simple enough. when i talk on son jon or sweet barbara or any other way i am adding a layer of secrets by changing names or relations or towns but that is just a fancy outfit for the real truth. i am NOT creating a character, i am protecting myself.

second and more important is that when i TALK IN MY UNIQUE WAY i am expressing myself without masking, which is something old chuck does every single day out there in the world as someone on the autism spectrum. i am VERY GOOD AT MASKING you would probably not know chuck was autistic when talking to me unless you were a close bud. but unfortunately this masking way creates very real tension in my body. i have trotted with CHRONIC PAIN for most of my life heading to emergency rooms where kind and handsome t-rex doctors could not figure out what the heck was goin on. basically LIVED in the dang emergency room. eventually chuck learned i carried my body TOO TIGHT from masking all the time, but what i realized is that allowing myself a space to type freely without way of punctuation or other restrictions and LETTING MY HEART SING to just be myself without masking made this tension release. pain started going away. GRAND IRONY of course is that when im trotting as chuck i wear a pink mask to take off my OTHER MASK of a neurotypical bud.

that is why i protect my way of speaking freely as well. if someone says 'well you need to talk like this right now' i stand tall and say NO BUD THIS IS MY SPACE AND I WILL EXPRESS MYSELF IN THIS WAY AND YOU AN TROT ON IF YOU WANT. this is firm boundary for me and my health.

anyway buckaroo to sum that up again: yes i am one person and this is not a bit

if you want to know more about my way on the autism spectrum i wrote a tingler about how it feels to have others say you are 'playing a character' and not actually neurodivergent. i think tumblr buds might enjoy so i will add it down here LOVE IS REAL thank you for your question

NOT POUNDED BY THE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION OF SOMEONE ELSE'S DOUBT IN MY PLACE ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM BECAUSE DENYING SOMEONE'S PERSONAL JOURNEY AND IDENTITY LIKE THAT IS INCREDIBLY RUDE SO NO THANKS

[greykolla-art]

Drawing Weyoun is a very slippery slope to just drawing Herbert West.

My focus wanders like you wouldn’t believe!

[chaos-pancakes]

I'm tired of feeling like my accomplishments make me "less disabled".

Yes I do have chronic pain.

Yes I do have severe mental health issues.

Yes I am neurodivergent.

Yes I do need help a lot of the time.

But I'm also an athlete. I pour hours of work into physical activity AND I manage all of these things. I'm also a good student. I CAN do these things and I LOVE doing them and I am so tired of feeling like it isn't an accomplishment.

I struggle everyday and still do things that most people without disabilities couldn't do. I want to be proud of that. I also want my needs to be met when I need them to be. My triumph does not make me less deserving of care and support when I need it most. Just because I pour so much of my limited energy into the things that I love, and I completely change my habits just so I can manage my disabilities, does not mean that it is easy for me. I don't want to grieve the life I could have led. I want to celebrate the one that I manage to lead and love.

[mikubilliards]

Length is a measure of brain…

[kazoosandfannypacks]

reddit user: here's some sound thinking as to why I headcanon this fictional character as neurodivergent

the rest of reddit: NO WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU ALL OF THOSE POINTS CAN BE REFUTED YOU'RE AN IDIOT AND MUST DIE OF SHAME THAT'S JUST A NORMAL DUDE

tumblr user: i think this character is neurodivergent because. the vibe.

the rest of tumblr: OH MY GOSH BESTIE YOU'RE SO RIGHT LOOK AT MY LITTLE NEURODIVERGENT SON I'M NEVER GONNA STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM

[fandomohana]

More than I can put into words. 🫤

[flishthedragon]

the executive is not functioning

[derangedgoldenretreiver]

writing this down more for self-documentation than anything, but maybe others can relate.

it has been so hard for me to understand and come to terms with my orientation because i'm so constantly told that anything out of the norm is something i need to "get over" or heal from. so when i noticed all of my relationships felt weird, my crushes didn't seem to line up with those of my peers, and i never understood modern "courting" as i referred to it, i just assumed i was experiencing some form of trust issues or didn't understand myself enough.

i have never understood the term "dating for marriage." not because i don't understand why people would want to get married, but because ever since i started "dating" at 12, i consider each relationship to be a potential life partnership and could not understand why else anyone would want to date. i finally think i understand why people have purposefully short-term relationships or "flings." it's because they don't want partnership. they want physical, sexual fulfillment. which is fine! just not something i can relate to.

what i crave is someone to care and provide for. someone to experience life with. someone to build a life with. to raise kids with. to build a house with. to grow old and die with.

but i don't want to have sex with them. i simply do not look at people that way. i don't even particularly like on-the-mouth kissing. i would LOVE to have a partner that i can give forehead kisses and hold hands with. in the same way i show love to my little sisters.

what i want is someone to be my person, my partner in life that i can bring into my family and love unconditionally. but i don't think that looks like what most people think i should want.

[a-bit-of-tism]

I love my friends but they got to stop assuming the meaning behind my words and action. What I'm saying is what I mean!

[sol-draws-sometimes]

Maybe it’s my fear of not being believed but I literally can’t do comedy where the other person isn’t being believed. Straight up, at first I would get stressed when the Human Centipede clip was going around. Like, do you know how terrifying it is to be in a wild ass date where you think you’re in danger and the waiter notices but has they have to open their mouth so now you have lie. Or the Elmo Rocko memes like, OF COURSE ELMO’S DISTRESSED! I WOULD BE TOO! LIKE EVERYONE IS TELLING YOU THIS ROCK IS REAL WHEN IT’S NOT(and like yah I’m sure there’s nuance to the situation but like COME ON).

Or Bibi from La Familia Peluche, I remember liking the show as kid and I still do but like, fuck man, the borderline emotional abuse than girl goes through IS WILD. LIKE EVERYONE FUCKING TELLING YOU THAT YOU’RE NOT NORMAL AND FEELING LIKE YOU’RE GOING CRAZY. I remember rewatching La Familia Peluche in Highschool and like fuck man, that period episode. Or to this day I remember the scene where they were serving food and she started to eat first and her family chastised her so she stops but then they make her feel back cause she already started so now she just continue to eat it and like I’ve literally been in a similar situation. And for those who haven’t watched the show, the whole shitck is that this is an absurd world where everyone works on a different level and Bibi’s the only who reacts normally to our eyes(the comedic straight man to alot of the jokes), which leads to the iconic line “Bibi porque no eres una niña normal”(Bibi why aren’t you a normal girl) that is said in every episode. Which from a dramatic irony perspective that we the audience know she’s the only normal person, makes it a funny joke, but if you think about it too hard, it’s so fucking sad, I just can’t help but not fully enjoy the show cause I just constantly feel bad for her.

Fuck even watching HALF LIFE VR BUT THE AI IS SELF AWARE FUCKS WITH ME! Like yes I very much enjoy the series! But, most of the time I’m just feeling bad for Gordon, like fuck man, I’d react the same way, wouldn’t you. Like ESPECIALLY BENRY! MAN DID HE STRESS ME OUT! I genuinely felt so bad for Gordon!

And then this slides into how I can’t enjoy alot of comedy(especially cringe humor) cause even though I understand the joke and think it funny on paper, I just end up feeling too bad for the character to actually enjoy. And it’s awful because I’ll STILL watch the shows because I’m invested in the characters not the humor if that makes sense??? (Oh, Community/The Office, the hate love relationship I have with you).

Anyway, yes I’m so fun to watch comedy with, I literally can’t be in the same room from some scenes. And yes, all my favorite characters follow the Only Sane Man trope, why’d you ask?

[oscar-red-main]

Art

my girlfriend and I (im the furry)

[braindamaged007]

Got it 🤡🤝😔

[91vaults]

Self Diagnosis for Autism is totally valid

Diagnosis is ultimately an imperfect set of parameters we use to determine treatment. It's not a big gold stamp of approval that says "the way you experience the world and your struggles is valid and not a moral failing" but unfortunately society treats it like one and I totally understand people for whom an official diagnosis was the thing that brought it all together and gave them that understanding and validation they never got their whole lives (diagnosis as a barrier to support and treatment is another topic).

I was diagnosed as kid. I have a twin brother who has always been a bit of "quirky" guy, it never even occurred to me (or anyone else) until it suddenly did. Honestly I reckon a lot of people would be like "oh yeah...that checks out". I once asked him on the phone "You know, have you ever considered you might be on the spectrum?" his answer?

"I really don't care. It would mean absolutely nothing to me if I went and got a diagnosis"

But he often refers to himself as "a bit autistic". To him I don't think it's an identity thing, rather he explained it as a useful shorthand to describe himself, more so to other people, where he fears he comes off as perhaps a little emotionally distant or cold, and a bit awkward, among other quirks.

As for me, who does have the golden stamp of validity (which is hilarious given girls rarely ever got diagnosed back then) I don't really identify with it as an identity. I don't really tell people cause I don't see the need. I don't consider myself as part of the Autistic community (for a multitude of reasons) and I never have and don't refer to myself as Autistic. rather I say "I have ASD" because that clinical label and the distance it implies feels most true to my experience. Especially now when many people are reclaiming the label as an identity.

I know self diagnosis can be controversial and I have a lot of....thoughts about neurodivergent tik tok. But if someone feels it is true to their experience and they find comfort and community in it...If it's something they find helpful to understand themselves and in turn help other people understand them. Then why not? to use a clumsy analogy it's a bit like how physical and biological characteristics are relevant in some contexts when it comes to gender...but gender is so much more than that, its not just about chromosomes or whats in your pants its about how you experience and move through the world, how the world responds to you and how you understand yourself and relate to others. Medical definitions aren't everything.

[owrgen]

I swear, I can’t believe today this was the day I learned Alex Brightman, plays Scales in Lego Nimjago, Beetlejuice in the broadway show, and Sir Pentious. bro is doing wonders for the neurodivergent community.