#rejection sensitive disorder

[strawby-jelli]

You ever just realize mid sentence that nobody cares about what you have to say? It’s horrible with your friends, soul crushingly so, but it’s also pretty bad with like, your family or just random people. You just suddenly become hyper aware that, to everyone around you, whatever you’re saying has absolutely no significance to them. It’s not important, not humorous, just noise they have to tune out. I was just telling my parents how I thought Friday the 13th should have been made into a scary-movie-style musical film where, in every song that Jason appears, there’s just a big gap of silence where he’d be expected to sing, and I suddenly realized nobody thought this was a funny idea.

[dailydivergent]

The fastest way to get over RSD is to make receiving rejections a game.

This year, I'm aiming to get 200 rejections.

These rejections can be anything, by the way. - asking a friend to lunch - someone missing a meeting - not getting that promotion - going on multiple dead-end dates

The beauty in this trick is there’s no longer a “losing” side:

If you get rejected, it’s a win because it’s adding to your game.

If you get accepted, it’s a win because you got the opportunity.

[accidentalslayer]

[bleeditoutx]

No one fucking understands how rejection sensitive dysphoria feels, because I think if they did, they would be less willing to trigger it when people are innocently minding their own business thinking their friendships are okay.

Do you know what it’s like, feeling like your heart’s being ripped out your chest when you go to message a friend, only to find out you’re blocked? Do you have any idea what it’s like, being suddenly unable to breathe as panic rushes through you, as you try to contact the other people to ask if everything’s okay, what might have happened, what you need to fix, only to never get a response? Do you know what it’s like to go to mutual friends to ask for advice, only to be told harshly that you’re “too needy”, or to have that mutual friend block you too?

And on top of all of that, you don’t know what you did wrong. You really don’t. No one came to you beforehand about anything you must have said or did that made them upset. No one gave you that chance to apologize and try to fix whatever went wrong. 

No, they would rather abandon you, knowing that they’ll be triggering this feeling inside of you, and you’re left to sink to the floor in hysterical tears, your mental health spiraling downwards so fast that you wish you were dead. Your whole body hurts, like it’s been trampled, and you can’t stop crying until your head is pounding, and you can’t breathe, and still you don’t know what you did wrong! 

And then the paranoia sets in, wondering who’s next, wishing you knew what to do to prevent this from happening again, desperate to bend over backwards to make sure the people you see as friends won’t abandon you next.

How am I supposed to fix what went wrong if no one is willing to communicate?

[mhamory777]

[melonlthawne]

[cringe-is-inevitable]

constructive criticism? more like. more like if you say anything that even mildly implies I'm wrong I will throw myself off a cliff-icism. #relatable

[psychiatricwarfare]

the best way to take constructive criticism is to remind yourself that this failure mistake is a way to be better. use it to grow. it's a good thing when you're able to grow as a person and be better than you used to be and it makes you even better than you were before. remind yourself how hard it is to change and then congratulate yourself for taking the steps to do so, congratulate yourself for succeeding, and congratulate yourself for continuing to do so. never stop being proud of your growth and never stop growing and improving. criticism is a gateway to being the best person possible

[pageofheartdj]

People being completely normal: I love blocking people for all the reasons like them being annoying or just with not My Vibes.

My RSD ass:

[a-plethera-of-thoughts]

I want to be tied up. No not in some sexy way, to the fucking ceiling left to hang like laundry.

[lonedarling]

so i figured out why i like yanderes

turns out i probably have this this called rsd - rejection sensitive dysphoria

so because of that i think my brain went

"whos the least likely group of people who would hate you for being who you are, who would not care about your mistakes, and would never leave you?"

"uhhhh a stalker maybe"

"be more specific bish"

"... a yandere? I'm not really sure-"

"shush you are a darling now go"

*goes into rabbit hole of yandere community*

which is funny cause the community helped me realize i probably have rsd.

...

cuddle me pls.

[king-wilhelm]

See the thing about rsd is that sometimes, sometimes when you explain it to people who matter to you, they'll understand. And they'll reassure you and tell you they love you and when they do that, believe them. Believe them with your whole heart.

Because yeah maybe if they really care for you, they'll take the time to reassure you multiple times but even that has a limit. Because the demon really, is in your mind. And it's not fair for you to put that on them, not every single time.

You have to find it within you to meet them halfway, my for them, but for you. Because this feeling will eat away at your peace and make you feel fully shattered.

[yantao-enthusiast]

i keep reading RSD as “rejection sensitivity disorder” instead of “record store day” and i think that says a lot about me as a person

[accidentalslayer]

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

I want a big friend group. A friend group where everyone feels safe to be themselves, to be happy and to be sad and to be a chaotic mix in the middle. I want a friend group where being nerodivergent is not only okay but normal. Where we help each other with our impossible tasks where it's okay to not be on top performance, to be struggling to have accommodations. I want a friend group where we can stay up all night and be laughing as we make breakfast the next morning. I want a friend group that feels like what a family is supposed to be. Where everyone is celebrated as they are. Where we're constantly encouraging each other to improve and be better but it's not malignant. Where softness is a strength, where everyone is so comfortable around each other our walls start to fall. where support is a given. Where it's not enmeshed, we still have boundaries, but it's safe. Where we're close not because we have to be but because we want to be. Where we go on chaotic adventures and things are still safe. A group of friends where you forget how lonely you've been. where you run through fields and travel the world and the world is bright and safe.

I just want a group of friends, or even just one. Not a soulmate, but something close. I'm tired of being so lonely. I just want someone to love and care about and someone to love and care for me, someone who feels safe. I'm just so tired of being alone. Of having to shield myself from my family.

I don't want to be lonely anymore.

[femboi-rayne]

What even is the terminology for when you're experiencing RSD? RSD attack? RSD episode? Rejection dysphoria? There aren't any resources on this that I could find because RSD isn't even considered its own thing, just something that happens sometimes with ADHD or anxiety disorders.

It's choose your own adventure every time I want to say I'm having a bad time.