#thoughts of a chaotic mind

[of-a-chaotic-mind]

Just in case anyone is wondering, yes. Watching MHA dub and Fairy Tail dub back to back is trippy. Can't hear Laxus without hearing Endeavor or Elfman without hearing All Might or even Erza without hearing Momo.

[madamemiz]

sad: falling out of a hyperfixation

tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it

[bruciemilf]

Can you please drop some of your oliver queen thoughts for someone dying for more oliver content (can't wait to read for him soon) 🥹🙂‍↕️🥹🥹🥹

OLIVER MY BELOVED—-

Listen.

I’m partially clueless about him as well, BUT. I did start to read more comics and consuming him more from random tumblr posts, which is more than anything DC writers can say for themselves SO—-

Girl dad but for boys. LOOK AT HIS BOYS LOOK AT THEM— have you seen his sons. Now you have.

Roy has to beg him to shut the fuck up about his smallest accomplishments, actually.

Connor is passively accepting this. Yeah, my dad’s cool. Not as cool as me, thought.

Is competitive as fuck. Oh oh, Red Hood drop kicked Bane so hard his knees broke? That’s cute. Roy has a DAUGHTER, BITCH. “You wish that was you, huh”

Clark can hear Bruce’s teeth gritting because yes, yes he does.

I feel like Oliver would embody the “got rich by accident” persona Keanu Reeves has going on. Thus, became Bruce’s first real friend because he was deeply unimpressed with him.

As children, he’d steal Bruce from galas (as in physically pick him up and drag him because Tiny) and make him steal deserts with him. (Alfred would see them and say nothing)

Bruce quietly asking him why he picked him. And he expects “because you’re Bruce Wayne.”

But Oliver shrugs, once, handing Bruce his half eaten pistachio cake. It’s been their tradition.

Bruce only orders it when he knows Ollie will attend. “Because you were a kid. And you were scared. Why else?”

Only one who knows Alfred’s secret cookie recipe.

He and Bruce were not only collage friends, they were ROOMATES. I specifically think Oliver saw his goth turtle of a best friend got accepted into GA and thought I have GOT to watch out for this idiot

Bruce’s comfort clothes include Ollie’s old collage jersey

When Bruce drops out of med school, Oliver’s incredibly pissed off at him. “Do you have any idea how privileged ‘I don’t want to do it’ is?“

And Bruce, shakily, says he does.

“So what the hell are you doing this for?!”

“Because I don’t want them to suffer just to be like me.”

UNCLE OLLIE RIGHTS. Whenever Dick was pissed at Bruce, he’d steal one of his cars and drive to Starr City, fully allowing Bruce to think he was kidnapped.

Convinced Ollie to take pictures of him tied up and send them to Bruce for ransom money.

Bruce and Oliver are “hasn’t seen a single movie since he was 8” bff vs “physically incapable of not quoting his favorite movies all the time” bff

Sends 2000’s memes to the JL group chat and only Clark likes them

He has Dinah’s name tattooed like a trampstamp

[excelsior9173]

the speed at which iii updates his story after the band account and the fact that he’s the one that most consistently posts tour reminders makes me wonder if he’s running the band account too lmao

we all know it can’t be iv (who btw still hasn’t given us the “full rendition” he teased TWO MONTHS AGO) and ii is off in his little drummer world. ves totally gives me the vibe of someone who would still own a flip phone

[peach-and-cherryblossom]

[myanxietydemonaretootired]

Emily: you know what I did? YOUR MOM.

Emily: and you know what else I did? YOUR MOM.

Emily: and you know what I did after?

Henry:

Emily:

Henry:

Emily: YOUR MOM!

[fictionadventurer]

I keep thinking about Lewis' review of The Hobbit, because he claimed that the main thing contemporary reviewers compared it to was Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Was fantasy in that poor of a state that Alice was the closest thing they could think of? Comparing that chaotic fever dream to Tolkien's intricately crafted world? Lewis does specify that the comparison is that both books are by an "Oxford professor at play", but they're otherwise so different that putting the two in the same category baffles me.

[fatedroses]

Many things were used to describe the mad hermit of Amaurot: a drunkard, degenerate, cynical, and even monstrous by those who stirred trouble for the newly appointed Azem. But nothing could prepare Emet-Selch for what he would see for himself, when offered a chance to meet the Sun's Shadow.

[logophilist1982]

Black 🖤

[of-a-chaotic-mind]

Indecision May Kill Me...

I wanna draw fanart for 911 so bad but I can't decide who I want to draw. Even if I could idk if I want to do it in my style or attempt realism. Then, I come to the decision of do I do it digitally or in a sketchbook. Ughhhhhh

[impmansloot]

reading an article on narcissus and goldmund and thinking "this is way too focused on jungian archetypes and not queer enough. also not batshit crazy enough"

[sombra7567]

ASMR RANT Pt. 2: Thoughts after binging Obsidian Lantern's and Mage Bunkshelf's channels

First ~ Next

Please be warned the following rant is very long and chaotic- again-

Listen I need something to keep out the voices-

Obsidian Lantern: Bro is overpowered for real, smh....

Mental state: *currently planning another trip to the bayou. For reasons. Important reasons. Shut up.*

Favorite series: Making a New Home/The Heart, Gator Boys, Vampire Friend

Series I thought I'd dislike but ended up loving: Dating a Zombie

Random notes:

An art GOD. AND MAKES GOOD STORIES. PICK A STAT, OBI, YOU CAN'T HAVE ALL THE TALENT-

See the one thing that I have trouble with is that if I'm watching their channel, I'm WATCHING, I can't really switch to another tab or focus on my crocheting else I'll miss the backgrounds (HEAVEN FORBID I MISS A BACKGROUND TOO LIKE-).

Another sandwich lover, sandwiches are life ✊🏾

ALSO HERSHEY IS ONE OF THE GOODEST BOIS I WUV HIM

Knows the meaning of slow burn. And knows how to write a good one. I'm going crazy, PLEASE EITHER OBINOA OR SAVELDDREN NEEDS TO GET A MOVE ON, I LOVE THEM SO MUCH, THEY'RE SO CUTE-

That Gator Boys Q&A stream where Obi ended up getting stuck in Timmy's accent is my Roman Empire.

I like the lengths for most of the episodes- like they seem to fall in the 10-15 minute range which is really nice because I can listen to a good portion of a series in between my classes.

The Bloodmoon AU and Betraying your Vampire Friend were sooo good, I love horror AUs and audios.

Mage Bunkshelf: I really, REALLY, need to get away from Tumblr-

Mental state: *distant muffled screaming can be heard, can find her with face shoved into pillow*

Favorite series: Fallen Angel, Rancher & Knight, Introverted Incubus, Respawn (CAY MY LIL TRAUMATIZED MEOW MEOW), Old Vampire, Kitsune, Raccoon Boy- ok there's a lot SUE ME-

Series I thought I'd dislike but ended up loving: "Yandere" Ship AI (NO CUZ YOU KNOW WHAT, FRICK THIS SERIES, I HONESTLY DID NOT EXPECT TO LOVE THIS WHAT THE HECK-)

Random notes:

WHY. ARE. ALL. THEIR. CHARACTERS. SO. FREAKING. CUTE-

JUST THE SOFT BOIS- AND I LOVE THEM

LIKE NEM AND JACKSON AND MITCH FREAKING BROKE MY HEART, THE POOR BABIES-

LURED ME IN WITH THEM, HOW DARE YOU PLAY ON MY FEELINGS LIKE THAT MAGE.

I mean then you got people like David and Llyr who aren't really in the "soft boi" category BUT AAGH- IF THEY'RE NOT CUTE THEY'RE SO FREAKING COOL-

One thing I really liked and can't emphasize enough HOW much I liked were the emotional moments? So like in Episode 1 of Introverted Incubus where Jackson admits exactly what he is/needs and breaks down. Or in Fallen Angel when Nem's telling their story. Also Episode 2 of Neko Listener when the roommate also turns into a neko. I don't know, it felt like Mage made it really easy to feel their pain or shock at the moment through their voice acting... I loved that so much.

Underlying messages... my mother LOVES to analyze movies and books for the hidden meaning behind them and I started to do that with audios lately lol... I felt like there were a few I could see in some of the stories.

Same thing as Obi about the episode length, easy to digest and short enough to listen to between classes.

AND LAUREN CREATES DID ART FOR SOME OF THE CHARACTERS, MY GOATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

*finds out they did a reading of The Raven. Which is my second favorite Poe writing.*

*listening to Respawn* *finds out Obi voiced the latest character*: "Omg Obi, yayyyy!" *realizes that was the latest and last episode in the playlist*: "OMG OBI NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-" 😭😭😭

Psychological horror my beloved aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-

THE TEMPTATIONS OF SATAN KILLED MEEEEEEEEEE

(also I stumbled upon this post... My immediate thought was "THEY JUST LIKE ME FRRRRRRR" over how they struggled with receiving compliments... second thought, in my opinion, MAGE DESERVES ALL THE COMPLIMENTS- seriously, they're one of the best VAs I've listened to so far??? Idk, I've just had such an amazing time on the channel, I've loved SO many of the stories- I just have a happy glowy feeling inside rn-)

MITCH IS MY CHILD NOW. HE'S JUST LIKE ME FR FR OMG- BABY RACCOON BOI I LUV HIM AAAAAA-

Also ah... I need a new channel to devour now SO IF Y'ALL GOT ANY RECS LEMME KNOWWW THANK YOUUUUUUUU-

[submersero]

not me just randomly realizing, one month later, that this was a Truman Show moment lmao right?

[lost-in-time-marie]

I’m a person and I have feelings. I have a heart in this chest, it beats and it breaks and it bleeds like anyone else’s. But nobody really remembers that, between the kindness and good deeds and the giving of myself until there’s nothing left. Between the cleaning and making dinners and don’t forget dessert too. People never really like me, just what I can do, what I can offer, the purpose I serve. Once that purpose runs out, everyone leaves, and when they find a use for me once more, they return. And so the endless cycle goes.

I’m the laborer and caretaker and nurturer, the maid and the mother and the best friend and the tutor. The punching bag that takes the frustration, the vent that lets out all the steam, the level headed problem solver. Here I am playing everyone’s victim again.

The truth is, I make it this way. I don’t have to be a real person, I can just be a role to fill. I won’t risk anyone knowing me, chance it if they’ll love me, so I’ll make them need me instead.

If I can’t be loved, then at least let me be needed. That’s the closest I can feel to love anyways. That’s the problem with being needed instead of loved, nobody needs you all the time and eventually, when you’ve fixed everything, they don’t need you at all.

~K.

[finitalacommediah]

there's microplastic in my body but also useless knowledge, silly scientific facts, curiosity, a need to get to the bottom of things, and a constant search for hidden meanings in everything – and I'm not quite sure which of these is the real cause for concern.

[dg-fragments]

Agonizing to the very core, a pain like no other, takes over, perhaps physical or mental, to submerge him, succumbing him to those writhing hours, spent in absence, of a being, even if only transient, yet whose presence is now one of the utmost needs.

- DG