#tw: negative self talk

[zimt-deathnote]

got any angst for us? working on some myself and i want everyone to suffer >:]

does psychotic episode count as angst?

[itspixthecrazybitch]

I. Have. To. Be. A. Good. Partner. And. Not. Ruin. Things. With. My. Stupid. Meaningless. Emotions.

[salemsimss]

just me being mentally ill, will probs delete later

The borderline urge to just disappear off the face of the earth and go no contact with people cos it’s not like anyone will care anyway. I feel like I just annoy people by existing and I can’t help but feel like an intruder in everyone’s lives,, so why not just make everyone’s lives easier and fuck off lol

I really should be asleep cos it’s late and I’ll probably be woken up early for Christmas or whatever, but I just feel so fucking depressed

[angelpuns]

lil hater Leo thinkin thoughts

Lil Hater Masterpost

[longroundaboutpath]

tw// ableism mention!!

Selfshippers with disabled F/Os you do not ever have to put up with people being ableist to your F/O.

It doesn't matter if this person is a family member, a friend, or a stranger. You do not have to put up with it ever.

It's reasonable and fine to stop people from making ableist jokes about your F/O for being in a wheelchair. It's reasonable and fine to stop people from talking about how your F/O isn't "actually disabled". It's reasonable and fine to stop people from calling your F/O lesser for not being abled.

It isn't an "overreaction" or "not that deep". It's a completely fine boundary to set and if what snide jokes and comments people make to you about your F/O upset you, put that boundary in place ASAP.

[generic-sonic-fan]

Shadow and the idea that he thinks he's ruined himself. Shadow and the idea that he had one shot to be perfect and now he's forever broken. Shadow and the idea that if he could just beat back the stupid emotions in his head, he could be the Ultimate Lifeform everyone needs him to be and fix everything and save everyone- but no. Now he's the sick one. Now he's the vulnerable one. Maria gave up her life for this.

And he blew it.

[raviollies]

i watched a playthrough of needy girl overdose

[uncanny-tranny]

If you mess with somebody's mobility/life-preserving aid and all you got was yelled at by the disabled person in question, just know you got off easy. Fucking with somebody's aid can easily become a matter of life-or-death, so you have to understand why somebody would "lash out" about that.

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Are you ever gonna be nice to yourself again or has the world finally convinced you that kindness is weakness?

-the voice inside my head when even it was like whoa dude, chill.

[gass-satation]

Me: No one would ever love me because my autism makes it incredibly tiring to talk to people and my chronic illness makes me incredibly tired all the time. And I doubt people find minmaxing social interactions to take as little effort as possible attractiv- *realizes I just described Jack Townsend* nevermind I'm hot as fuck

[aftgficrec]

Anonymous asked: Is there any new Nicky and or/twinyard centred fics or any Kevin wymack bonding ones?

Or wymack parenting the other foxes?

Here’s part 2, Kevin bonding with Wymack under various circumstances! - S

NB: Nicky/twinyards centered fics here, parental Wymack here

also see…

Kevin & Wymack bonding here

changes by ParkeRose [Rated M, 15588 words, incomplete, last updated July 2024]

After Tetsuji Moriyama gives him up at the age of fourteen, Kevin Day goes to his father with one letter in his pocket and infinite hope in his heart.

dreams fall hard by cloudberrysoda [Rated T, 1979 words, complete, 2024]

Part 2 of human behavior (do as you please)

"You look like shit, kid." Kevin talks to his dad (and accidentally reveals too much). Set during vanilla baby. Read that first

tw: implied/referenced alcohol abuse

These Green Eyes (Hers, Yours) by maydaykevin [Rated G, 1649 words, complete, 2024]

Kevin and David share a quiet moment.

tw: implied/referenced abuse

stamps by mostly_micro (mostly_maudlin) [Rated G, 100 words, complete, 2024]

The first arrives a week after Wymack gets home.

a lot's gonna change by neverlyxox [Rated T, 7347 words, complete, 2023]

Kevin started going to therapy at the beginning of the fall semester. It hadn’t been his idea, nor was he particularly happy about it. He could barely talk to the Foxes about his issues– and when he did, he definitely wasn’t sober– so how was he supposed to talk to a total stranger about it?

tw: alcohol abuse

boiling alive (at least it's what it feels like) by redinmyveins [Rated G, 1031 words, complete, 2023]

Part 2 of by the end of the day, we only have ourselves

Kevin Day is the best, but unfortunately his immunity system isn't and he ends up with the worst flu he ever had. By the way, that's also the first time David Wymack has to deal with the feeling of caring about someone of his kids sick. More specifically, his kid. His son. Or the first time David Wymack experiences one of the first experiences of being a parent: Having to take care of your kid when he's sick.

tw: negative self talk

one is chance, two is coincidence, and three's a pattern, (but let’s stop at two, okay?) by mistyrie [Rated M, 11396 words, complete, 2023]

It's the summer after winning championships when David Wymack gets a rude wake-up call. Apparently, an old acquaintance of his has passed and left behind a son in her wake — a son who may turn out to be David's... Another Kevin, so to say - and just as he and David are starting to figure it out together. – Because if it happened once, then why wouldn't it a second time?

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced alcohol abuse/alcoholism

loveless is no way to live by orphan_account [Rated T, 5934 words, complete, 2021]

just kevin crying, really (+ wymack trying to be a good dad)

tw: anxiety, tw: emotional isolation, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: emotional abuse, tw: ptsd, tw: nervous breakdown

i’m so sorry, dad by grievingfortheliving [Not Rated, 1215 words, complete, 2021, locked]

The missing scene where Wymack learns he has a son

Tapes by Marmeladeskies [Rated G, 781 words, complete, 2019]

Wymack declutters and finds an old VHS tape.

Kevin’s call to Wymack at thanksgiving by @ninyard [tumblr, 2024]

it’s such a good reason as to why i could put him on the stand. like perfect kevin day trying to explain why he’d seen a dead body and called wymack before anything else? and how that phone call went as well? what if they played it?

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced murder

NB: this is on ao3 as ‘i'll call you back’ by minyard03, recced here

When team USA wins Olympic Gold for the first time… by @exy-shmexy [tumblr, 2023]

Art

like father, like son 🫶 by @deklo

wymack and lil kevin 🫶 by @deklo

Wymack and Kevin’s first Christmas by @jojen-hewitt

[itspixthecrazybitch]

Long vent:

So I’m a clingy codependent mess. I essentially don’t feel okay unless I’m talking to my fp (partner.) I kinda get mad/passive aggressive/hurt whenever they try to do anything but talk to me, especially if it’s talking to someone else, I’m trying I promise but it’s just a really hard habit to break because there’s nothing I want more than their attention.

So just now I was splitting over it (still am), and pretty much panicking over how I’m scared to ruin things by being suffocating and they were comforting me but it wasn’t working and they just. Left. Said they had to go to sleep and left..

It hurts so bad and I don’t know what to do I don’t want to be angry but I’m so hurt and I’m still so scared and I want to fucking die and they must be upset with me it’s all my fucking fault I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to do.

[thatsveryvortex]

When we talk about projection, we often think about someone being jealous or mean to others due to personal insecurity. While that is a form of projection, there is another we don't talk about enough.

When "I hate myself" turns into "Everyone hates me, including you," this form of projection takes your personal dislike towards yourself and assumes others have to feel the same, much to your detriment.

This causes a lot of turmoil in both friendships and romantic relationships. This is because you create what is called cognitive dissonance [I promise this is not just a buzzword and is actually important] which is when something you believe does not aline with what you are hearing/seeing.

So when you believe "Everyone hates me," and someone around you subverts that belief by saying "I love you," [or any form of compliment] you experience cognitive dissonance, which in turn will make you feel uncomfortable, frustrated, guilty, and maybe even hopeless, which is called adverse arousal.

Adverse arousal can make you defensive or it can cause you to shut down. In these moments you may tell your friend/partner that they don't mean what they are saying, are just saying that, or just flat out refuse to believe them.

This then becomes a disagreement, even if it doesn't escalate. With you believing what they are saying is untrue and them trying to convince you otherwise. The thing is that most people don't feel good after a disagreement and the chances are that at least one of you is going to walk away from the conversation feeling like you lost. The more often this happens, the more tension there will be. We obviously don't want that, so what do we do?

The best way for you to cut through the projection is to pause when you are experiencing adverse arousal and take some deep breaths. Then remind yourself that you trust this person not to lie to you or play with your feelings, they aren't that type of person. That at the very least, this person believes what they are telling you to be true even if you disagree with their personal opinion.

This is not easy to do, or something you are instantly going to be able to always do and believe, but it is a baby step in the right direction. Take your time and practice those steps. Unfortunately, you have to work towards healing, your friends, partners, and family can't heal you alone, I believe in you, good luck.

[klarsynt]

reading the reblogs of my gifsets and seeing “wanted opposites” tags

[greenokapi]

So… after the sort of positive last update things have just gotten negative again so, sorry, please skip this if you need.

So to recap: Coughing fits started around two months ago-ish, kept getting worse until I broke a rib from coughing. After breaking the rib I developed a mysterious kind of pneumonia that no one knew what to do with and ended up in the hospital for a couple of days with an oxygen tube.

Due to all this I also had to cancel the trip to Japan I’d been planning, it was, you know, a thing to look forward to in those times where it’s hard to see a point in … anything? So, very not happy about that.

But now the cause for all this trouble has apparently been found, and the doctor told me the only thing I could do is get rid of it.

The ‘cause’ I should get rid of apparently:

Now… you might say ‘damn that really sucks but it’s just a pet bird at the end of the day’

And sure, she’s just a pet bird at the end of the day but she’s also a companion I’ve had with me for more than a decade. When I got her I was in a terrible mental space, you know the kind when you sometimes just wanna not… ‘be?’

But with her, in those times I could get out of those thoughts by reminding myself that I need to be around cause I have to take care of my lil baby. The thought of losing her is just… a lot…

I know that at least I’m not losing her to death, she’s fine and happy, and I am so incredibly happy she is.

But idk… just, the little companion you love more than the world and has helped keep you going for more than a decade suddenly being ‘potentially deadly’ to be around just kinda hurts.

So yeah, that’s the tea I guess

I’m not sure if I should take some kinda hiatus on here because I don’t want to be super negative on here if I can avoid it but at the same time maybe I should continue drawing and posting stuff to distract myself?

I dunno, for now at least I just need to be a lil bitch baby and cry a lot, then I can try to decide something I guess.

[eyesofcuriosity]

/Maybe it's the season because you know cold and whatnot gloomier thoughts seep into my mind.

Just feel like....waste of space, or a parasite living off someone who is much more hardworking than myself. I'm ashamed and disappointed in myself.

I am trying to change that, it's really slow and I'm worried once I reach the point of change and growth....Will I be able to do that?

Or will I just, cover in fear and take a step back and go back to the unhealthy lifestyle.