#/that/ was my genderfluid awakening lmao

[didderd]

@tic-loud-tic-proud here they are! the good husbands! :3

(i still need to watch the second season, so no one spoil anything in the tags/comments please <3)

[nonbinarymoon]

It's honestly hilarious to me how new age spiritualist cishets will say the concept masculine and feminine energy has no affiliation with gender whatsoever but in the next breath they'll enforce gender onto it all the fuckin time and use it as a synonym for male and female.

[our-transmasculine-experience]

I went through a bunch of genders since I was really tryna figure myself out

If I can remember correctly, I went from:

Cis female, demigirl, genderfluid, non-binary/neopronouns, and finally trans/non-binary/neopronouns

I am counting it/its as a neopronoun btw (I use he/they/it pronouns)

Even as a 'demigirl/cis girl' I was like "man I'd do anything to have a flat chest" which is already kinda a sign I'd turn out trans lmao

Tumblr moots helped out my trans awakening so shout out to them

awesome! sometimes it takes a while but i’m glad you figured it out!

[theicarusconstellation]

zelda tangled au anyone?

genderfluid link. runaway princess zelda.

imagine ganon knows only link can defeat him so he kidnaps him as a six year old and takes him to an abandoned tower in hyrule forest with the intention of corrupting him and the master sword to get them on his side. zelda has been told all her life that the power of hylia is in her, but she hasn't unlocked it yet, and the pressure is getting too much so she sets off to find the "legendary future swordswoman" who went missing years ago because "if i can't unlock my powers, maybe she can help me."

one day, she finds the master sword (which ganondorf has been hiding near the tower because he's saving it for when he finally figures out a way to corrupt it, harness its power, and take over hyrule). she's like "oh my god what if the swordswoman is around here somewhere😱."

MEANWHILE link is in the tower with their gorgeous long hair (and maybe wolf link as a sidekick instead of pascal?), and every year on his birthday, the leaders of all the villages get together and hold a little mourning/prayer ceremony for her bc signs of the calamity are approaching fast, and they're hoping link shows up soon, especially with zelda's power not being awakened yet. link desperately wants to go see the ceremony (they don't know what it's for, just that there are a lot of beautiful lights and the dragons of hyrule all come together as well), but obviously ganondorf won't let him.

THEN zelda finds the tower and scales it. link is all "HYAH!!!!!!" and the scene where eugene is trapped in the chair with rapunzel's hair plays out between the two of them except it's just a lot of link being like 😡😡and zelda being like 🤭omg this guy's reallly good with a weapon...looks a lot like the descriptions of...WAIT OMG ITS THE LEGENDARY SWORDSWOMAN🤭 link is like "i mean 1/3 woman i guess."

eventually, zelda convinces link to leave the tower with a bargain like "if i take you to the swordswoman ceremony, will you tell me about ganondorf?" (she already suspects it's THE ganondorf ykyk), and link is hesitant because zelda is telling them that the person they've been raised by is evil, but he really wants to see the ceremony, so he goes. they cut their hair to its length in totk and it really validates her gender yk? and when zelda sees how happy link is in her newfound freedom and gender expression she's like "well i have to tell him the truth about who he is"

she doesn't want to because it'll shatter link's worldview and newfound peace, and she doesn't want to put a burden on their shoulders (bc hylia knows she knows what that's like), but she does it anyway. at this point, link is beginning to get flashes of memories from his childhood and realize what zelda is trying to tell her is true, so both of them go to kakariko village to talk to impa (and they plan to talk to the champions after), but once they get there, ganondorf is there waiting in front of the desecrated former village like HEY POOKIE. FOUND YOU. MISS ME?

he takes link captive again and accelerates his plans to take over hyrule. link is trying to find a way out, and zelda is trying to find a way to help him, but it's not working out very well lmao. meanwhile zelda goes to the champions and asks for their help, relaying everything she knows, and the champions make a plan to get link and stop ganondorf. they get to the area where the tower is, but ganondorf was expecting this and takes them captive

as this happens, link doesn't know what's going on and is alone in the tower. he finds the master sword and the secret tower staircase, but it's a trap laid by ganondorf to manipulate link into joining him because link escapes the tower only to find zelda and the champions all tied up and stuff. the bargain is like "join me and i won't kill your friends when i rule, but refuse and i'll kill them slowly and make you watch" (i came up with this on the spot i know it's a rough plot WORK WITH ME😭🙏)

link being link challenges ganondorf to a duel, and ganondorf accepts purely out of amusement bc at this point he thinks "link can't defeat me yet since he's been locked in the tower; he's only a danger if he's been trained." link whoops his ass, but ganondorf harnesses the power of the calamity at the last second (which he was planning to do just to teach link a lesson in obedience and whatever). he whoops LINK'S ass, but just as link is about to get killed, zelda's powers Come To Life, and she saves him. then they all work together to defeat ganondorf and they all live happily ever after

[threepoint14art]

HELLOOOO for pride month i wanted to share our headcanons for fnafhs!!!!! coupled with some edits with our designs!!

Under the cut there's individual commentary about all of em!

Freddys afab, and only goes by he/him with the animatronics. He didnt tell them he's male or anything. What happeend was they they were all talking to eachothet, getting to know eachother, when chica realized she forgot to ask his name. Meanwhile freddy had though he heard Fred, so he wss on his own little world and asked to the air ‘Fred?’ so they took that as his name and he hasnt ‘corrected them’. (This is my (loop’s) work around for those twins basicallly having the same name.) Hes called Freddy and not Fred bc Chica gives them all nicknanes , Freddy, Foxy, Goldy, instead of Fred, Fox, and Golden. ( Bonnie… you bastard you already fit…. cannot change his name to Bon without nuking Bons actual name). He hasn't thought about his sexuality because he thinks he's undatable, Dysphoria levels are very high, hes contantly ‘out of it’ in his own body. feels like hes just, piloting it, distant from himself and the now. whenever he does come back doen it feels awful fir a bilion reasons 👍 this makes it hard for him to identify the feelings he has about himself since its all so fuzzy and distant. hes not thinking about his sexuality, he doesn’t think anyone would really date him so, fuck if he knows! Bonnie is cis demironantic and unlabled. Goes by he/him. One of his names is María (Bonnie María) so that plus his longer hair means he gets misgendered as a CIS guy and I think its rlly funny. He's not thinking about romance because "no one would go out with him", enter Bon with a nuke Chica is cis and Bisexual. Goes by She/her. Her bisexual awakening was magnet hatsune miku lmao Fox is afab trans guy, stealth about it, and bisexual. Goes by he/him. He figured out he was trans PRETTY early on so no one but his family really even knows, he practically has no dysphoria. Golden is amab nonbinary and pan (they/them). Being famous is the worst thing ever you could do to them, people know their dead name and sorta treat them as a gay man rather than someone nonbinary and it's really bad!!! Sort of wishes they fell into some binary so something about them would "change" and so that people would realize they have changed, there is no way to "pass" as nonbinary and it drives them a lil crazy Fred has not been born (sorry low blow), but if they were they'd be amab, nonbinary and bisexual. Still figuring stuff out but eventually he will settle for going by He/they Meg is amab, genderfluid and pan, goes by any pronouns, idek what else to say <3 Bon is afab trans guy and gay, goes by he/him. He and Malva (usagi) are twins and just switched names and lives and gender! so he's stealth to everyone EXCEPT his sister, this includes their father! who is awful!! and this makes him super repressed and ill about being gay, yeah. Both he and Malva lied on legal documents to look cis since they exchanged identities and all that joy is amab trans girl and bisexual, goes by she/her, also famous so people also know her deadname </3

Toddy is afab and cis, she's NOT aware of either of her flags, comphet queen, "dating" bon because it helps them both feel so normal but its not working out and it never will! Seeing the nigthmares all date eachother made her think "oh wow not being monogamous is a thing" and if she thinks of malva and joy thats HER BUSINESS and her business only. Also fun fact her parents are divorced not because they hate eachother but because they realized they were both aroace, epic. Goes by she/her Deuz is amab bigender gay and poly, the nightmares are a polycule. She is not that dysphoric most of the time and goes by He/she Maggie is afab trans guy, bi and poly, Femenine trans guy are epic and he is one, gets misgendered a lot because he doesn't bind and wears makeup and croptops and all that. Goes by he/him Onnie is amab agender, gay and poly, it used to be forced to have really short hair because it's dad is awful (also bon's dad, yay siblings), so when he ran away he grew it out a lot, goes be he/it Onyx (oxy) is afab trans guy, bi and poly, he got kicked out when he came out as trans, he's super happy now tho. Pup(pet) afab demi-boy, his legal name is puppilo i know it sounds dumb thats why they go by pup. He's queer in some way but its impossible to find out given how he experiences feelings and all that (lore tm) so, fuck if i know. Goes by he/they Mai afab demi-girl and sapphic, yay for twins, her legal name is marinette but they go by mai only, she really wants to date but due to how she and pup operate thats kinda impossible and shes super hung up on it. Goes by she/they Lily is afab cis aroace!!! Eak is afab trans guy and gay, he does not really pass that well so he's misgendered quite a bit at school. Goes by he/him Tony is amab cis guy and gay, he's dating Eak, he used to question if he was REALLY gay before eak came out and was super confused about it and then he found out hes a guy and all is well lol Cami is afab aromantic bisexual and nonbinary, though she has not thought about the whole nonbinary thing that deeply at all. Eventually she will use all pronouns but currently she goes by She/her Loon is amab bigender bisexual and poly, is super dysphoric and hates dressing too femenine because it "doesn't fit her", "not cute enough to be a girl and not handsome enough to be a guy", goes by loon when masc and jj when fem. Goes by he/she Malva is trans and lesbian! Unlike Bon she's normal about being lesbian, mostly because their dad thinks she "doesn't look like one" and because generally girls just get an easier pass to be mushy and close to eachother (eugh), goes by she/her Owynn is afab trans guy, demiromantic, ace and poly. Damn share some flags dude you are hogging them. Stealth at school but percieved as a femenine guy and therefore called gay (as an insult) a lot, lied in legal documents to be seen as a guy! he's dysphoric despite passing really well because of very minor things people don't really notice, female scorpions are taller than male ones and he's tall, female scorpions have bigger hands than male ones and his hands are big, etc etc. He goes by he/him Background character jumpscare! Mesero who is named Vincent here, Owynn's older brother who is amab cis pan and poly, he thought he was straight for a LONG while and hated people calling him gay as an insult because he had long hair, sorry to burst your bubble but you are not straight, he eventually became normal about it but it did hurt that people were "right about him" Spring!!! Is amab cis unlabeled and poly, he never thought about labels or anything for the longest time because he thought he was undatable and also was busy with ten trillion jobs, fly low, goes by he/him Bg character again! Novia (ghghg) who is named Leticia here! She is afab cis straight and poly!

Also sorry for not having any of the funtimes, we haven't really thought about them aside from lily, so we have nothing ToT. Any funtime lovers please share what you think about them we really need it

[jiabeewrites]

ATLA Pride Headcanons, but cleaned up a bit/updated from this post

stan the cabbage man

AANG 😇 - hoo boy - i still stand by my position that this smol child is aroace - but he's in a qpr with katara - bc yeah they're kinda cute - probably pan in terms of attraction - cisn't - genderflux. yes yes yes genderflux aang - probably doesn't give a shit about pronouns - and literally glows whenever someone calls him they/them, esp on days where the male-ness is low - because yay! ur right! - he's so precious aghsklfdjslk

KATARA 🌊 - she's also aroace - stfu - *proceeds to aroace the entire atla crew* - qpr with aang - they are very cute but not in the romantic sense - i feel like she'd be bi in terms of attraction tho - pan aang 🤝 bi katara - cisn't - genderfluid! all waterbenders are now genderfluid, change my fucking mind - any/all pronouns :)

SOKKA ⚔ - my friend said that he was the straightest one there - I DISAGREE - he's so BI - BISEXUAL DISASTER SOKKA MY BELOVED - i ship sokka and zuko so hard it's not even funny - but sokka and suki are also very cute so i kinda can't choose - extra heapings of internalized homophobia - bc he thinks it makes him less manly or some shit - i like to think that toph smacked it outta him - i said before that i was waiting for him to get smacked in the face with gay panic when he sees zuko, and like i mean get an ACTUAL GOOD LOOK AT HIM - sadly it didn't happen - anyways - cisn't, i think he's also genderfluid - genderfluid sokka would be so FUN omfg - pronouns change depending on the gender

ZUKO 🔥 - he's so GAY OH MY GODDDD - but i still feel like he'd be asexual - massive ace vibes throughout the entire fucking show - also demiromantic - sokka was his gay awakening fucking FIGHT ME ON THIS - bc you will see my corpse on that hill - and you'll realize that i was right - cis(n't) - i feel like he doesn't care enough to figure it out or put a label on it

TOPH 🪨 - I FUCKING LOVE HER OMG OMG - that being said - her favorite color is green how can she not be aro - giving me aroallo vibes tbh - probably sapphic oriented - cisn't - i headcanon that she's enby as well as transmasc - probably she/they pronouns

AZULA ⚡ - oh dear - i love her sm - she's a lesbian - like how can she not be smh - she's so gay - asexual in the "fuck you but not literally" sense - cis - azula and zuko are the perfect example of wlw & mlm hostility and i love them - they're like this

MAI 🔪 - aroallo mai aroallo mai AROALLO MAI - mai is aroallo and i will DIE ON THIS HILL - probably omnisexual if i hafta specify - prefers females - cisn't - agender. mai has no gender. fuck you.

TY LEE 🌸 - ty lee is a lesbian - like how can she not be tell me now - i kinda ship her with azula (mainly bc of this fic you should def go read it it's so GOOD) - cisn't. - ty lee is genderfluix/fluidflux but never tells anybody her pronouns because she likes to fuck with people that way. - mai always seems to know which ones to use tho

SUKI 🤺 - she is also bi - suki & sokka are bi4bi and i love that for them - pretty sure the kyoshi warriors are just one giant polycule but whatever - suki is trans fucking fight me - transgender suki transgender suki TRANSGENDER SUKI - she's also asexual :D

APPA ☁ - lmao there's nothing for him - i just love appa sm

[aestherians]

Okay, weird question, but I've gone thru a good chunk of your profile links (love them all very much, esp the website btw), but I'd like to know what all the flags listed in your carrd are, in order, if thats okay. I think the only one I recognized was an otherkin variant and the pan flag? (I, too, love to collect colorful little stripey rectangles, and would love to know more of them.)

Very excited to read some of your essays! Im finally getting back in touch (properly) with my kintypes after being awakened in 2013 (im Very Old LMAO), and its good to see that the "kinmunity" as it were is thriving in some places on tumblr!

Thanks again!! Have a great rest of your day, and good luck with all your future ventures!! ♡♡♡

Welcome back to the community! If you have any comments on any of my essays, I'd love to hear them! :D

My flags, from left to right, are:

Xenobinary --- Xenogender --- Non-SAM mspec lesbian

FINsexual --- Bigender --- Kingender

Lesbiangender --- Genderfluid --- Transspecies

Mspec lesbian --- Hyenagender --- Bisexual

Aroallo --- Faunasex --- Alloaro lesbian

Pan lesbian --- Pansexual --- Aroflux

Romance-favorable aro --- Sapphic

[tophat-cy]

It's that time of the year again, huh?

Hello everyone! Here is TopHat_Cy with probably the last Tumblr post of this year. Since 2023 is coming to a close, I'll just put down a little summary of the experiences I had this year. Let's get started ^v^ ✨💗!

⚠️CW/TW since there may possibly be some ranting and/or venting at some points⚠️

To be honest here, 2023 was pretty rough, and I'm not talking about that I had the baccalaureate in June, oh no. I was honestly waiting for that time so I can just do myself after that, right after I supported 4 years in that hellpit people called it high-school (or pedagogic college...whatever 🙄), just to get like over 3 months later on a worse hellpit called college, where all my personal issues has awakened...and felt horrible and lonelier like I've never been.

Despite being in overall horrible, high-school was great because mostly because I wasn't feeling the loneliness and self misery I feel now. Now that I'm at college I get almost hit daily by the fact that 1) I'm lonely and I'll always remain lonely (since who tf wants a little antisocial freak who literally draws all day lmao??) 2) I'm worthless, mostly because my French skills (at least) suck, and a good amount of my marks suck as well in comparison with other students (and honestly I wouldn't be bothered that much about this fact if it wasn't for my mom who haves the great habit to remind me by times to make sure I take big marks only to get the scholarship, hahahaha shut up bitch), which guess what, it makes me feel ✨horrible✨, and 3) Your life is a pure lie. This is sooooooooooo great isn't it :D ??!

*sigh*

I realized within my current college experience that I'm lonely not only in society, but with my own mom. I realized I'm even more of a worst daughter than I ever thought...I realized that I'm getting more horrible as the time goes by, or at least this is how I feel. I feel like losing myself slowly, becoming into nothing but a setinent shell of the former self. With those realizations, I'm getting hit in the face once again by the most saddest fact that I've encountered so far in my life but I always tend to forget it to make myself feel better (but you know how life is...it needs to offer you some lemons in the eyes 👁️👁️)...

...the fact that my life is nothing but a pure LIE.

But hey! Can we look into the bright side of what this year offered for some hot minutes?? It's not all black and misery! I had part of wonderful and fun times with my boyfriend (we did Whiteboards and rambled about our silly stuff like two neurodivergents that we are 😁✨), I had part of several fanart moments from people, I had Art Fight (yeaaaaah, our old pal Art Fight, which kinda started to become a pain in the ass every year when I have to bring my REFs up to date for this event...mmmmmmm 😊/pure af hot sarcasm, but honestly here, do I really care :D ???), I even joined my first Original Characters Tournament, Ressurection, in which I met wonderful people which appreciate my skills and also willing to help and support. And most importantly, I had YOU! All of you! If it wasn't for you guys, I definitely wouldn't been here, sharing this thoughts with YOU. And I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart, once again ❤️!

As a mini conclusion to all of this speech, I'll admit that this year was still decent so far, with all it's ups and downs, along with the fact that I'm returning myself at being genderfluid (hence the Pic at the very beginning of the post lmao :')) )

The latest events from this year at least made me think that being feminine related makes me feel worthless about myself, and I don't want to feel like that anymore. I want to be strong at its full and I want to feel and be free with who I am. I'm not the most social person, yes. I'm far off from being a great daughter, yes of course, and I'm definitely far from being the best person out alive, or at least a great one. But at least I want to do something about it, so I can have the right to say that I tried my best for real.

So, that's it. I'm genderfluid. I go by he/they/cee from now on (although cee/ceer pronouns are most likely optional, like if you want to use them, go ahead, although I'll still be ok if you used the he/they ones, just don't refer to me with she/her or any fem aligned pronouns).

🌙⭐Plans for 2024⭐🌙

(aka my favorite part from this post so far 🤓)

Just like everyone else, I have prepared some future plans for the next year and which I'd like to share with you. Here they are!

I want to make EITHER an OCT or a world-building RP server somewhere around February-March or later (I would've done it sooner, but I have to prepare for the exam session in January). The OCT thing may take a while though since I want it to be good, so this plan might get extended for 2025 as well. As for the world-building RP thing, with some effort, it could be done next year.

Returning on developing some miscellaneous projects - those being Insanity AU and a somewhat game-like concept that my boyfriend made plans about it in this year and which I'd like to develop on. Insanity AU is a thing that I've made with dustyisegg back in 2022 but discontinued it for 9 months due to [DATA EXPUNGED] and resumed it's development, by remaking the characters and their plot entirely. (Dusty if you see this tell me if you still want to work on this, yeah yeah I'm a huge procrastinator lawl 👾✨)

JToH, JToH, JToH projects - my dear and beloved JToH...(I've been in this Fandom for almost 3 years...more than I've been in the Doll Eye one, can you believe that?). Most of those projects will consist on simply designing new towerhumans, respectively redesigning the old ones. Along with that I have a comic project which I will start making it's script soon enough, other side projects that I have in my mind...and JToHVerse, which I don't know when it's that going to be started (earliest date will apparently be around 2025, but let's see how the comic project goes 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Putting some content in Toyhouse - a thing that I should worry about eventually ;v;

GET YOUR ARTFIGHT SPIRIT BACK PSYCHE 😩!!!

The last but not the least...To start developing at least one of my original storylines FOR FUCK'S SAKE 😂😂😂!!!!!! I've been waiting for this for years already hajshshdvbssb :')) I'm not sure which of them is going to come out tho. Definitely not PK though, that one will most likely get an extend to next year.

So...I guess that's it??

I'm going to assure you with two things before I finish. First of them is that, again I think, I'm fine. I'm not upset or anything. I had hard times like everyone else (maybe) this year and I had to left it out somehow. But in rest everything is alright, so don't worry about me. I will keep existing for you and for what I love ^v^.

The second thing that I will say is about this blog. Starting with January 1st, I do not allow anyone below the age of 15 to interact. I have an age now, and at this point I want to entertain people, not to babysit them. So don't get upset if you possibly get blocked, that would be one of the reasons (I hope to remember to unblock you after you get the age hhgjgjfjf 😅)

That's it guys! If you read til here, thank you very much for the attention and time spent on reading this. Hope everyone haves a wonderful 2024 and nice days! See ya around 💗💗💗!

[byesexualsatan]

OTPS/SHIP LIST

i feel like you get to know people better when you know what they ship so... here’s a list of my past & current ships ?? im bored, can u tell?

also if u know me, ignore this ty 

MILEVEN aka LITERAL KIDS PLS😭

mike wheeler and eleven/jane hopper from stranger things

otp in late 2017

personal hcs: they’re queer/bi. 

eleven def uses they/them pronouns

tbh i prefer byler and elmax now

background ships i like: joyce/hopper, jonathan/nancy... steve being bi and robin being the iconic lesbian that she is

DAMONA aka simonte

... simona and dante from the argentinian series simona

LMAO this one is from when i thought i was straight

otp in 2018

uhh bi dante and pan simona bc why not

literally forgot they existed until now

please don’t bully me

i truly thought i was straight

background ships: marisiena, junior/ailín

i was one of THE FOUNDERS of this ship istg... i was THERE when we were deciding the ship name (i voted for simonte but damona won smh)

SIMBAR aka bi awakening 

simón and ambar from the disney tv show soy luna 

yeah... sorry

otp in mid 2018

they’re gay!!! 

bi she/they punk ambar yesyesyes

totally forgot about them but they’re sexc af

so glad they were endgame

background ships: idk but luna is pan 

STEVEBUCKY aka stucky aka the end of the line

so... steve rogers (captain america) and bucky barnes (the winter soldier) 

otp in late 2018/early 2019? 

personal hcs: trans steve, bi bucky 

favourite fanfic trope: found family, high school smau

fuck endgame, all my homies hate endgame

background ships i like: thorbruce, scotthope, nat/sharon

im with u til the end of the line, pal :c

PERALTIAGO aka jamy 

jake peralta and amy santiago from brooklyn nine nine

started shipping them in 2018/2019 (i have no idea)

personal hcs: bi jake

favourite fanfic trope: casefics, pretend marriage 

(THEY’RE FUCKING MARRIED WITH CHILD NOW,,, BUT IN THOSE FICS IT WASN’T REAL YET)

background ships i like: gina and rosa, holt and kevin

PETERMJ aka spideychelle

peter parker (spider-man) and michelle mj jones !!1! from the mcu

otp in 2019

personal hcs: they’re both bi, mj is demisexual too

he/they & she/they solidarity

... trans/demiboy peter and demigirl mj🥺 

fav fanfic trope: school trip to stark tower, meeting the parents/avengers, smau 

obviously let’s ignore infinity war and endgame

background ships i like: ironstrange, pepperony, shuri/any woman

THORBRUCE aka gammahammer aka gays in space

thor odinson and bruce banner (hulk) from the mcu

started shipping them in 2019

personal hcs: thor also likes women

they both use they/them and neopronouns too 

fav fanfic trope: university au, smau, no civil war, no infinity war

this one is from my stan twitter era

background ships: stucky, tony/strange, nat/sharon, scotthope

CARMUEL aka spanish sexiest couple

carla rosón and samuel garcía from élite

otp in late 2019

...they’re bi. bc yes. and he/they samuel. 

she/vers carla sounds very sexc to me

i ‘shipped’ them in s1 simply bc they were both very hot and when it became canon in s2 i SCREAMED

deserved so much better.

INEFFABLE HUSBANDS aka i almost forgot about this one, sorry

crowley and aziraphale from good omens

uhh started shipping them in 2019/2020 ?

bi genderfluid crowley, non-binary aziraphale

idk they’re being anyways

fav trope: raising children!! confusing ppl bc crowley is sometimes a snake!!

background ships: uhh anathema & newton ig?

WOLFSTAR aka the one true way (and... puppies, too??)

sirius black and remus lupin from the harry potter saga

otp since 2020 (thank u, @aretheygayvideos​)

personal hcs: he/they gay sirius, he/they bi remus 

also love nonbinary remus and genderqueer sirius

fav fanfic trope: getting together !!!! FLUFF!!!!

background ships i like: jegulus, regulus/barty jr, dorlene, jily

VILLANEVE aka murdering wlw

villanelle and eve polastri from killing eve

s.s.t in 2020

she/they bisexual villanelle and pansexual eve

fav fanfic trope: flower/coffee shop :)

ty tumblr for spaming my dashboard when s3 came out bc that forced me to watch it to understand all the posts

sandra oh is the love of my life

ANDERPERRY aka this one is for the depressed dark academia folk

neil perry and todd anderson from dead poets society 

started shipping them in 2020

personal hcs: nonbinary neil, trans todd, both gay/androsexual

demiboy/nonbinary todd has a special place in my heart

fav fanfic trope: ALIVE!NEIL, roommates

background ships i like: charlie/knox, meeks/pitts

ZUKKA aka my favourite blue/red gays

sokka and zuko from avatar the last airbender < 3

started shipping them in 2020

personal hcs: gay zuko, genderfluid and bisexual sokka

sokka has adhd !! zuko is autistic !

favourite fanfic trope: fake dating

background ships i like: suki/yue*, ty lee/azula/mai, kataang

* please go check out s4pphos’ ig edit of them 

CASMUND aka royal pirate gays !!

caspian x and edmund pevensie from the chronicles of narnia

started shipping them in dec. 2020

personal hcs: bi caspian, mlm edmund 

love bisexual and nonbinary edmund too bc 👉projecting👈

fav fanfic trope: just. the plot of the movies but gay.

background ships: the dawn treader (ha-ha, get it? bc ship? im so funny)

tbh i don’t REALLY ship them that hard i just hate caspian/susan lmao

(susan is a lesbian)

BELLARKE aka m/f sexual tension™

bellamy blake and clarke griffin from the 100

started shipping them in 2021

personal hcs: she/they/xe bi clarke, he/ze omni bellamy

favourite fanfic trope: single parent bellamy, modern au (college, roommates)

i saw 2 seasons with my mom and then moved so,,, fuck i gotta finish it

EXTRAS

the “i don’t really ship them but if they’re together it’s better”

ty lee and mai

john watson and sherlock holmes

suki and yue

regulus black and james potter

azula and katara

regulus black and barty crouch jr

bugs bunny and daffy duck

emma and mr knightley

carol danvers and maria rambeau 

valkyrie and carol danvers

natasha romanoff and sharon carter

sam wilson and bucky barnes !!! (post endgame)

charlie “nuwanda” dalton and knox overstreet

dorcas meadowes and marlene mckinnon

azula, ty lee and mai

klaus hargreeves and dave

paul coates and alec hardy

cassie and maddy

jules and rue 

rue and lexi

fleabag and the hot priest

. . . more to add, probably

[clearsky]

My Top Comfort Characters/Kins and My Main HCs For Them

(Note, not all my kins/comfort characters are on here, just the ones I have more than 5 hcs for)

CW: Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3), Himiko Yumeno (DRV3), Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA), Kyoko Kirigiri (THH), Tsuyu Asui (BNHA), Entrapta (Spop), Ibuki Mioda (SDR2), Celestia Ludenberg (THH), Funtime Foxy (FNAF), Peril (WOF)

Korekiyo Shinguji (DRV3)

Nonbinary

He/They pronouns

Autistic

Chains and loose accessories are for stimming

Likes the feeling of silk and cotton

Can't stand the feeling of anything rough or bumpy

He likes collecting small trinkets and the bones of small mammals

Can't stand anything salty. He'll eat it but he certainly won't enjoy it

Dating Rantaro

Can flirt, but only if he doesn't try

Petnames are a hell yea

Gets sunburnt really easily

Group dates with Celesnaegiri and Ikuzono

Can't cook for s h i t

Had a scene kid phase in middle school

Went to the same middle school as Celeste and Maki

Knew them when Celeste went through her "I'm not like other girls" phase and Maki was a Band Kid™

Himiko Yumeno (DRV3)

Female

She/Her pronouns

Lesbian

Can force herself to fall asleep within seconds regardless of where she is

100% forces herself to fall asleep when she doesn't wanna listen/talk to someone

Himiko/Angie/Tenko relationship. I'm calling them the Traffic Light Trio

She likes taking naps in the forest

She prefers enclosed/tight spaces more than open ones

Has several hundred stress balls and squishies laying around

She overheats easy

Shinsou Hitoshi (BNHA)

Questioning his gender, but goes by any pronouns

Knows he's Asexual, at least

Has no clue what his romantic orientation is though

The kind of person to carry treats in his pocket just in case he runs into a cat

Will stop to pet literally every cat he comes across

Great at reading people

Doesn't talk unless it's 100% needed

Hangs with Tokoyami, Jirou, and Denki most often

Aizawa has 100% unofficially adopted him

Fosters kittens

Not a big fan of physical touch

He is 100% in the bakusquad. Anyone who says he's in the Dekusquad is a c o w a r d

He and Tsuyu vibe

Knows a bunch of random facts

Dark humour? Dark humour

*skates backwards into his therapist's room slowly sipping from an absurdly huge cup of coffee* Candice you're not gonna BELIEVE the shit I just went through

In case I forgot to mention it, he skates

Kyoko Kirigiri (THH)

Mtf

She/Her

Bi with female preference

Burns go up to her shoulders/collarbone/chest

Prefers to just listen as opposed to saying anything

Knows a ton of random trivia about everyone else in her class

She keeps a notebook she fills with all the trivia

Doesn't celebrate her birthday. She just doesn't see the point of it

Doesn't hate sugar/sweets, but if given the choice she would choose literally everything else

Cuts her own hair

A cat person

Permanent dark circles

T-Tall 😳

Like,,, 6'1 at LEAST

Only person taller than her is Yasuhiro (6'3)

Canon no longer exist

Ahahaha healthy life habits? What are those?

Can't handle horror games

She's the kind of person you'd go to if you needed to rant but didn't want any advice

Polyamourous yo

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

She's a dom yall are just scared to admit it

Tsuyu Asui (BNHA)

They go by They/Them

Lesbian

They and Ochaco are dating

They like to hang with Shinsou

Which mainly just means the two sitting in one of their dorms in near total silence doing whatever

Can speak English and French as well as Japanese

Learned English from cartoons

Picked up French bc they thought it'd be fun

Prefers to stay neutral in the whole Bakusquad / Dekusquad thing

They're invited to all outings/events by/for both squads

They like puns

They're a dumbass but willingly, and for fun

Like "someone says they like dark humour and they'll turn off the lights before telling a joke" kind dumbass for fun

Great at poker

Likes Disney Movies

Very touchy once you get close enough

Not in a sexual way, just likes physical contact

Especially fond of piggyback rides and cuddles

Extreme fear of needles

Entrapta (She-Ra)

She/Her or It/Its

Doesn't bother trying to figure out whether she's cis, trans, nonbinary, or what

Was AMAB though

Short as fuck (4'7)

Strong as fuck though

Cuddle game strong

Physical touch is a fuck yes

Cuddles

Piggyback rides

Hugs

Anything where she's touching someone is wonderful in her book

As long as she's the one that initiates it

Anyone else touching her without her permission makes her freak

Prefers being high up

Makes it harder for anyone to sneak up on her

An ace at video games

When it comes to sexuality she just says she's Questioning

Ibuki Mioda (SDR2)

Any pronouns + Pup/Pupself + It/Its

No idea what their gender is otherwise

Biromantic Asexual

Just likes sexual jokes

Gets distracted easily

Has severe hearing problems

She's plays her instruments as loud as possible, with the amp right next to her, without ANY ear protection

It's caused some damage

She talks so loud bc she has no idea how loud is considered acceptable

Wears hearings aids most of the time

Several piercings and tattoos

Likes hearing things jingle

She has a bracelet with a few bells hanging from it

She'll shake it whenever she's bored

LOVES hair accessories

Ribbons are a particular favourite

Occasionally she'll hang little charms from her hair "horns"

The kind of person who never takes any pills/medicine bc she keeps forgetting she has to

Frequently uses emojis

Skates everywhere but she isn't very good at it

She keeps crashing into everything

Has broken every bone in her body at least 3 times

Most of which was bc she keeps trying to kick in doors and skating down the stairs

Celestia Ludenberg (THH)

Nonbinary

Any pronouns, mainly goes by She/They

Bi, 70:30

Collects mini hand sanitizers and can tabs

Has single handedly gotten Mario Kart, Mario Party, Monopoly, Uno, and Clue banned a grand total of 17 times (and counting)

The kind of person to purposefully target someone regardless of what game was being played

Favourite victim is Byakuya (bc he gets so upset about it and she finds that hilarious)

Mains Waluigi

Celeste/Kyoko/Makoto

Has several banned Twitter accounts bc whenever she's bored she'll start discourse on purpose

Hangs with Korekiyo, Ibuki, Byakuya, Yasuhiro, and Leon most often

It's a weird friend group but everyone's sorta gotten used to it

She and Byakuya gamble together occasionally

She tries to avoid it bc he'll willingly blow his entire fortune in an attempt to beat her

Autustic

Can't stand the feeling of water

Mainly bc she can't swim for shit

Horror movies? Hates them

Gets flustered super easily

Taka is her twin brother

Kotoko, Kokichi, and Gundham are their half siblings (Same father)

Peko and Toko are their cousins

She sucks ass at go fish

Fuck canon she's 4'11 now

C h u b b y

Freckles

Once she gets comfortable enough with herself she dyes her hair in the peekaboo style

Either black and red or black and blonde

Haven't decided yet

I'll be doing Celesnaegiri hcs as a seperate post but I just feel it's important for you to know that she expresses her affection verbally and is a very touchy person

Went to middle school with Maki and Korekiyo

Has horrible eyesight

She wears contacts most of the time but she always puts off buying more

After the 5th or so time she ended up blindly stumbling around a week after her contacts ran out Kyoko convinced her to buy glasses as well

Religious accessories yo

Like chokers and dangly earrings with crosses and pentagrams and shit

Likes wearing wacky earrings

Can run and do all sorts of tricks in heels

She and Mukuro are exes yo

Keeps her hair short so it's easier to manage

Hair never gets longer than her shoulders if she can help it

She seems like the kind of person who'd keep her bangs grown past her eyes regardless of how frustrating or inconvenient it is

She's a sub yall just don't wanna admit it

Funtime Foxy (FNAF)

I'm going on the record to say this

Funtime Foxy is genderfluid and that is that

Goes by Funtime

Any pronouns, They/Them most commonly

Plays music (keyboard and guitar mainly)

They and Funtime Freddy (Freds) mainly play with the kids

Freds mainly tells stories with Bonbon while Funtime more so plays one-on-one

Has nicknames for everyone

Circus Baby - Ringleader

Ballora - Bells

Funtime Freddy - Partner

Bon Bon - Bun

Peril (WOF)

I like both Nonbinary She/They Peril and Mtf She/Her Peril

They're both such good concepts

She's a lesbian, Harold

She only had a crush on Clay bc he was pretty much everything she was supposed to like in a guy

Gimme a moment while I force all my mental disorders onto this poor child

Autistic, Anxiety (Social anxiety, mainly, but she has most types), Adhd, PTSD

I'd like to reiterate yet again that She's a lesbian

Sunny and Glory were her gay awakening

Peril in Book 1: Damn, Sunny and Glory sure are pretty. Anyone would be lucky to date them. Clay would probably go for them over me. He would be stupid if he didn't. I myself would willingly date them over someone like me. They're just so pretty :(

Peril waking up in a cold sweat in the middle of arc 2: WAIT-

Rarepair alert but Peril/Sora

Peril meeting Sora: "Hmmm She's attractive. I would love to date her. Too bad I'm straight and in love with her brother lmao :P"

Peril, a mere month later, waiting for Ruby to leave Jade Mountain, pacing in her cave, running face first into a wall: WAIT-

I remember reading this one amazing story where Sora taught Peril to read/write and Peril found out she set off the bomb and comforted her/convinced her her run so that's canon now

Btw if anyone can remember what that story was called/what platform it was on and could tell me I'd appreciate it very much

I'd even be willing to draw a character of your's or make you an icon or something

I usually don't accept requests bc I get burnt out easy but this is a special case

She runs into Sora again sometime between the beginning of TOP and the end

I like to imagine she just goes wandering around

Anyway she confesses like a mere few minutes after running into her again bc Peril is just subtle like that

The actual confession takes 15 minutes and the entire time Sora is just sitting here like "👁👄👁 sure"

Bam Peril/Sora

Peril plans to keep it a secret for a little while longer but she spends 3 seconds around Clay and pretty much blurts it out

Clay, who wasn't even aware that Peril was a lesbian, is just "👁👄👁"

I wanna say Clay doesn't know what a lesbian is but in my canon Sunny is a lesbian so Starflight has already told him

Anyway he's super supportive

From that point Peril is sorta open about her sexuality?

Like, she gives Clay permission to tell the rest of the D.O.D bc she isn't about to risk being in front of them when they hear the news

(When Sunny starts actively seeking her out as a hang out buddy and Tsunami, Glory, and Starflight appear to tolerate her presence just a bit more afterwards she pretends she isn't confused by the change)

She's pink, white, and blue bc I said so

If you look at a certain angle in the right lighting her eyes, mouth, fire, and under her scales all look purple

But her fire is normally white and blue bc I said so

Also she pale as fuck bc in my canon their fire just sorta burns their colour away

You know how you leave something outside for too long and it gets sunbleached? Where it gets all washed out?

Like that but more extreme

By the age of 10-12 firescale dragons are just white with pale eyes

That's right not even the eyes are safe

Ram horns :P

I'm also fond of Peril/Sunny

Or maybe Peril/Sora/Sunny

But Peril/Sora is the main thing

On the topic of that bringing in my hc that if one sib in a sib group is fire resistant all of them are

She,,, She can change her scale colour

But only slightly and only if her emotions are strong enough

Bc I don't give a fuck about Darkstalker's scroll we were robbed of hybrid Peril

Unfortunately all of Peril's emotions are strong

Rainwing ruff along her head and neck

It's like a hood

It's mainly smoothed to her sides but when she's startled it flares out

RAINWING PUPILS

Y'all will know what those look like as soon as I get off my ass :P

She,,, She can mimic bird cries

Hates the summer

She has more than enough body heat already and the outside is just hot enough to add on and make her feel sick

She can somewhat control her heat but most of the time it's based on her emotions

It can go from standing-in-the-middle-of-a-burning-building-cant-see-your-nose-smoke-is-so-thick heat (Strong emotion) to Hey-thats-a-nice-cozy-campfire heat (Calm/"weak" emotion/Sleeping)

I'm just gonna make a different post with all my Peril hcs cuz there isnt enough room for all of them here

[whiskeyote]

hmm Maybe I'm Genderfluid

I've been having some feels of that nature lately and idk if it's truly my core personality or just the "make babies" demon awakening again lmao

[rgstrm]

Rant time bcs i cant talk about this to anyone in my real life lmao

(tw: sexual assault)

So just recently I identify as a she/they genderfluid. There’s a lot i need to learn about gender expression and all the spectrums of self-identification, but ever since i was little i never really settle in only femme or masc way to present myself. I always altered between the two. These days I tend to dress and present myself as a masc tho. I don’t mean that gender expression is only limited to the way one dresses, but to rant about this recent traumatizing experience it does have something to do with how i dress.

So i live in a place where majority of people still blame victims of sexual assault because of what they wear, how they behave in public, etc. And as a female bodied person, I have numbers of experience being sexually assaulted since i was a minor, from being catcalled to being groped in a fucking public transportation. I had to deal with that trauma all by myself since i was just afraid and ashamed to talk to my parents or any adult at that time, in fear of being blamed or humiliated.

Every time a person opens their mouth about how women have to cover their bodies in order to protect themselves from perpetrators, i feel so angry that i want to pull all my hair out. But as i grew up, i found many other communities who educate others about the concept of consent and how a sexual assault is never about what the victims wear. And i feel at ease as there are people who understand my feeling as a victim.

So, many years have passed since my most traumatic experience being groped in a public transportation as a minor. TWO DAYS AGO, i had just another experience being groped. This time, i was fucking asleep and it was by someone i fucking know. Luckily, it didn’t happen for too long before i was immediately awakened, jumped out of the bed and exited the room in a blink of an eye. But still i couldn’t tell anyone as i feel so disgusted and just plain traumatized. And im just so fucking angry at myself as the first thing i thought about was what did i wear to sleep.

If this story ever be known to public, im pretty sure i would be the one in the spotlight with a headline “wears too revealing sleeping attire” even tho what i wore was just a boxer short and a tshirt

But the truth is I didn’t do anything wrong, and even if i went to sleep naked, there is no justification for that fucking predator to disrespect my boundary and did what he did.

As for now, im still trying to recover from that and thinking about reaching out to someone abt this.

If you read this until the end thank you, and im sorry if it’s a little confusing, english is not my first language 😂 and i hope you’re safe wherever you are.

And if you have similar experiences or even worse, i want you to know that it’s never your fault. And im here if you want to speak to someone about it.

[pldubrahs]

Several things: one, I hope you don't mind I called you dude like five times in my tma ask, two what's you header I'm curious, and three your blog titles Killed Me On Impact and I hate that ☆titanias-stolen-shoes☆

1. Yeah no its all good! I'm Ambiguously genderfluid and trans masc but I'm cool with all forms of address most of the time (my students, back when I worked with preschoolers and not infants, called me "Miss [Last name]" and I loved it)

2. My header is a old screenshot from a pre-broadway runthrough of the song Touch Me from Deaf West's Spring Awakening. Spring Awakening is a musical I... Like, for lack of a better word, and Deaf West is an LA based d/Deaf theater company that did a version of it that remains to this day the best piece of theater I've ever seen

3. Good! Lmao but seriously, I love Lucretia a Lot and the whole section of her trying to find good temporary homes for her family hurt me but "You're Taako, from TV, and you are so, so loved" made me start crying

[oliveebraanch]

Bard melaina aodh Nicolas solluru and feyri!

ask me about my oc’s

ALI. GIRL. I LOVE YOU. also u kno about bard already lmao

Bard

Full Name: BardGender and Sexuality: cisgender male, heterosexualPronouns: he/himEthnicity/Species: he’s not technically humanBirthplace and Birthdate: modern day germany, nov 13 roughly 80 BCEGuilty Pleasures: none b/c he has no shamePhobias: attachment, lossWhat They Would Be Famous For: murderWhat They Would Get Arrested For: murderOC You Ship Them With: @alimarie747​‘s oc roryOC Most Likely To Murder Them: melainaFavorite Movie/Book Genre: horrorLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: “___ is my middle name”Talents and/or Powers: very powerful warlock with an affinity for fireWhy Someone Might Love Them: why would anyone love him he’s evil?Why Someone Might Hate Them: why wouldn’t anyone hate him he’s evil?How They Change: he very stubbornly refuses to change actually, although in the case of rory I suppose he does end up falling in loveWhy You Love Them: god idk why I do but like. he’s my trash son

Melaina

Full Name: Melaina KokinosGender and Sexuality: cis female, heterosexualPronouns: she/herEthnicity/Species: dragonBirthplace and Birthdate: I haven’t named her planet yet or actually decided on her birthday BUT she’s not from earthGuilty Pleasures: I mean in her culture it’s not really something to feel guilt over but hoarding opalsPhobias: drowningWhat They Would Be Famous For: probably for being a war heroWhat They Would Get Arrested For: starting a fight in public lmaoOC You Ship Them With: @tennobi’s oc cain and also excelsior (her husband)OC Most Likely To Murder Them: bardFavorite Movie/Book Genre: fantasyLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: cat jump scares in horror moviesTalents and/or Powers: shadow manipulation, can shift between “human” and dragon forms, flight in dragon formWhy Someone Might Love Them: she’s basically the epitome of “do no harm but take no shit”Why Someone Might Hate Them: she can be a little shit sometimesHow They Change: growing up she really figures out who she is and what she stands forWhy You Love Them: I love her b/c like? she’s a v good mom and determined and just Good

Aodh

Full Name: Aodh (I haven’t picked a last name)Gender and Sexuality: cisgender male, bisexualPronouns: he/himEthnicity/Species: dragonBirthplace and Birthdate: from the same planet as melaina, no birthday yetGuilty Pleasures: spending time with melaina lmaoPhobias: powerlessnessWhat They Would Be Famous For: being in love with melaina lmaoWhat They Would Get Arrested For: joining the fight melaina startsOC You Ship Them With: I’d say melaina but also like it’s very unrequitedOC Most Likely To Murder Them: bardFavorite Movie/Book Genre: sci-fiLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: “I gotta get me one of these” when someone sees something coolTalents and/or Powers: fire manipulation, can shift between “human” and dragon forms, flight in dragon formWhy Someone Might Love Them: he’s incredibly loyalWhy Someone Might Hate Them: he can have a bit of a temper and tends to judge people before he really knows themHow They Change: he learns how to stick up for not just himself and his immediate loved ones, but for those who can’t stand up for themselvesWhy You Love Them: HE’S JUST GOOD OKAY LIKE HE KNOWS WHAT’S RIGHT AND STICKS TO IT

Nicolas

Full Name: Nicolas Bellamy is actually an alias but names have power so no one gets to know his real name except me muahahahaGender and Sexuality: cisgender male, pansexualPronouns: he/himEthnicity/Species: faeBirthplace and Birthdate: bold of you to assume he was born and didn’t just come into being in the otherworldGuilty Pleasures: none he can do what he wantPhobias: iron, not being able to go homeWhat They Would Be Famous For: his circusWhat They Would Get Arrested For: alleged kidnappingOC You Ship Them With: his wife veronica (which is also an alias)OC Most Likely To Murder Them: also bard lmaoFavorite Movie/Book Genre: romanceLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: 0 to sex in thirty secondsTalents and/or Powers: immortality, higher than average strength/speed, silver tongue, flight (conditional), master of illusions and manipulation of perception, general magic-y thingsWhy Someone Might Love Them: he is very kind and upliftingWhy Someone Might Hate Them: can also be very ArrogantHow They Change: he used to be kind of like? reserved but then snatches up some confidence hell yeahWhy You Love Them: can he adopt me and let me join his circus please and thank you?

Solluru

Full Name: Solluru. Sol is an acceptable nicknameGender and Sexuality: genderfluid, pansexualPronouns: he/him, she/her, they/themEthnicity/Species: AlteanBirthplace and Birthdate: Altean Colony, birthday tbdGuilty Pleasures: they like Knowing Things (as in like the Drama and the Gossip) but not spreading itPhobias: large open spaces where they feel exposed, additionally very dense crowds of peopleWhat They Would Be Famous For: assisting in the voltron coalitionWhat They Would Get Arrested For: assisting in the voltron coalitionOC You Ship Them With: atm they’re my only vld oc so none?OC Most Likely To Murder Them: noneFavorite Movie/Book Genre: fantasy/adventureLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: unnecessary villain powerupsTalents and/or Powers: altean mimicry, altean strength, pretty decent at hand-to-hand combatWhy Someone Might Love Them: they are actually the Mom FriendWhy Someone Might Hate Them: probably b/c they can be overbearingHow They Change: they start out sort of naive bUT THEY’RE IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENINGWhy You Love Them: they are My Child and also fuckin’ hate lotor so I mean

Feyri

Full Name: Feyri (they don’t have last names where she’s from okay)Gender and Sexuality: cisgender female, heterosexualPronouns: she/herEthnicity/Species: did I ever actually come up with a name for her species? fUCK. anyway she’s not humanBirthplace and Birthdate: an alternate dimension that I ALSO DON’T THINK I NAMED FUCKGuilty Pleasures: world jumping when she’s not fucking supposed toPhobias: having her wings cut offWhat They Would Be Famous For: nothing reallyWhat They Would Get Arrested For: also nothingOC You Ship Them With: none of themOC Most Likely To Murder Them: bard.... againFavorite Movie/Book Genre: fantasyLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: “don’t you die on me!”Talents and/or Powers: world jumping, takes on the form of a butterfly when doing soWhy Someone Might Love Them: she’s very innocent and sweetWhy Someone Might Hate Them: she can be something of a BratHow They Change: it’s not really her story so her change is really just basic maturingWhy You Love Them: she loves her brother (feyndis) SO MUCH and she’s just very kind

[ao3feed-lokiangst]

in the end, my love, we have no choice. we have to find.

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3kVKnuC

by junee_bee

Here was his routine: breakfast, coffee, paperwork, bourbon, paperwork, pruning, coffee, dinner, paperwork, sleep. No, here was his routine: breakfast, coffee, paperwork, Loki, bourbon, Loki, paperwork, pruning, coffee, Loki, Loki, Loki, dinner, paperwork, Loki, sleep, have a nightmare in which he only saw Loki’s broken face, forget but awaken with a pit in his stomach.

He would not fall. He would not fail.

***

Loki, season 1, episode 6, with a better ending, from Mobius’s perspective. I fixed the hill scene. You’re welcome.

Words: 1894, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Loki (TV 2021)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Characters: Loki (Marvel), Loki, Mobius M. Mobius, Sylvie (Loki TV)

Relationships: Loki/Mobius M. Mobius

Additional Tags: Fluff and Angst, Purple Prose, idk what to tag this as honestly, One Shot, Fix-It, episode 6 did not exist past the hill scene lol, i wrote this for my friends halmey and crispy. Love you guys <3, also for me lmao, ummmm, Eventual Happy Ending, Episode Fix-it, Genderfluid Loki (Marvel), genderfluid sylvie also, Bisexual Loki (Marvel), gay mobius >:), nblm/mlm solidarity, Spoilers, This whole fic is basically the line ‘I’m going down with you hand in unloveable hand’, Sad with a Happy Ending, Memory Related, Memory Loss, sigh, i might add more idk this is just a lil. it’s just a lil Fluff, enjoy, Not Beta Read

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3kVKnuC

[starredphantom]

Gender shit

Just trying to come to terms with a few things. It'd be nice to have them written down somewhere, especially somewhere no one I knew irl would have access to.

I've been struggling with my gender identity for a while now. Most recently, I started seriously coming to terms with my gender back in March of this year. The questioning became really... stressful, for lack of a better word. Anxiety-producing maybe? I ended up having an actual anxiety attack and it took me days to recover once I realized I just really didn't feel as if I was female.

For a while I've struggled with a few things: whether I was bi, a full on lesbian, or even being asexual. My sexuality just didn't seem to make sense. I couldn't figure it out! I thought it was maybe a version of the "bi cycle," but honestly it just felt as if I found people physically attractive but could not see myself engaging in any sexual activity with anyone at all. It's not that I found sex disgusting, it was just... I didn't think I could actually enjoy it or give actual pleasure to someone else.

I didn't understand what the fuck was going on. And something that's always felt off is really enjoying mlm stories/relationships. I've even been called out on it for fetishizing these relationships (which, fucking fair, I know that is something that happens and not knowing what was happening myself means I'm sure it seemed at least cringe if not fully gross from an outsider's perspective), but it was never about the sex for me.

I wasn't out here seeking mlm shit because it was my kink or something. Most of the media I consumed surrounding mlm relationships wasn't sexual in nature.

Then, enter Yuri!!! On Ice. Yes, goddamn YOI.

It kind of made it click in my head. It's like I've always been attracted to men, but not as a woman. With YOI, it made me realize that if that's the case, it's also not a lost cause for me because it's okay to be feminine even while being/presenting as masc? The flash of Victor's genderfluidity with long hair helped me understand. I've never wanted to chop my hair off, but I'd like to grow out a beard. I like feminine looks, but I'd also like to cut my tits off. It's okay to be both. Actually, it's okay to be neither. It's a goddamn spectrum, not black and white. Despite knowing and accepting the spectrum, it just didn't feel accessible to me until YOI.

I'm unsure if I'm explaining this logically, but the show made things click for me. I don't know if it's just the roles I've been brought up thinking about, but when I try to envision myself with a guy I don't like it. But now I kind of do if I'm thinking of it in terms of... Al.

Al, Alphonse, the name I've given my more masculine presenting form. And Al becoming partners with women also makes sense to me. Me, Melissa, the woman, with romantic partners? Gross. Me, as Alphonse, with romantic partners? Hell yes. It makes sense now.

While Victor's outward presentation with long hair was the visual I needed, Yuri's journey on YOI helped me understand this the most. Yuri, the ice skating champion who just absolutely sucked during his last competition and goes home defeated. He chalks it up to his anxiety, saying he let the pressure get to him. Yuri, gentle and goofy and lovely. He goes back home where everyone is proud of him but he's feeling so defeated.

The skater he most looks up to decides to coach him. He gives him the task of performing on "love: eros", sexual love. Yuri struggles; he's never really had a lover before and gets flustered and feels like there's no way he can understand the assignment. He tries to use how pork cutlet rice bowls make him feel as the source of his desire (and uh lmao same bro), but he still doesn't feel super confident. He then comes to the conclusion that he can't perform as the playboy; that's never been his style or his personality. For this performance, he has to play as the woman who tries to seduce the playboy. He lets himself tap into his femininity and focuses on mimicking what he feels how a woman may use seduction. I think what resonated with me the most (other than feeling like Yuri even before the gender stuff was incredibly relatable, from his weight gain to his insecurity about college/work, etc.) was that he didn't really understand nor explore nor even care about his sexuality until he tapped into his feminine side. It's only then that we see him start to open up to Victor and tune into his feelings.

Just to wrap up a little bit...

While I've always known this was a possibility (and have accepted others who are this way), YOI awakened a part of me that accepted myself as fluid. It's okay to keep my long hair but still want the beard and a flat chest. It's okay to like floral prints but hate wearing dresses. It's okay to want to be called Alphonse but still find myself yearning for semblances of femininity. It's okay, because all of these "it's okay ... but ..." statements don't need the word "but" in them. It's not either/or. This fluidity can be me. This fluidity is me. And that's okay.