Dealing with loss...
Part 4
Simon Petrikov x reader
Warnings - mentions of Suicide, SH, Depression, ED, and Alcohol
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A few hours later, Simon came back. He had doctor princess with him. He walked over to the bed and gently shook you.
"Hey wake up.."
You didn't even move when he tried to wake you up. He shook you harder, but it didn't work.
"They must be in a deep sleep.."
Doctor Princess told Simon. He nodded and moved away. Doctor princess started to examine you. She lifted your shirt and saw how malnourished you were. She grabbed your arms, lifting your sleeves. There were cuts all over your arms, some old, some fresh.
Simon covered his mouth, he knew you were upset but he didn't know about this. He backed away slightly, he was shocked to see this. You started to grumble in your sleep, mumbling incoherently, you where having another nightmare. You shot up in the bed and woke up, you grabbed at your chest. You didn't notice the people in the room.
"Y/N?"
Simon's voice was shakey. You looked up and saw him and the doctor. You moved away from them.
"What the fuck? Get away from me!"
You got angry and Simon walked closer to the bed.
"We're just trying to help.. please.. let us help"
"No.. No.. leave.. get out now! I don't want your help.."
You shook your head and tucked your legs to your chest. Doctor princess sighed.
"If you don't get help, you might die.."
"I don't care! I.. I don't.... I've lost everything.. what does it matter...? I have no one.."
You started to cry, and your body trembled. Simon sat on the bed next to you.
"I'm here.... please just let me help you.."
He turned to face you, he reached his hand out to hold your hand. You flinched at his movement. You looked at him. There was a long silence in the room.
"Alright.. F-Fine..."
He smiled at you and squeezed your hand.
"Can I continue examining you?"
Doctor princess sighed. Simon got up, letting you lay back down. Doctor princess continued to examine you. When she was done, she walked over to Simon.
"They'll be ok, but they need something to eat, nothing too much. They're body isn't used to eating anymore so they need small meals. They could die if they eat too much. They also need a lot of rest."
Doctor princess put a hand on Simon's shoulder and left. You sat up and grumbled.
"Why didn't she tell this to me?"
You mumbled and sighed loudly. Simon rushed over to you and pulled you into a hug.
"You worried me so much. What were you thinking?! Why aren't you taking care of yourself?"
He scolded you and squeezed you a bit.
You let out a sigh. You tried to move away from him, but he held you tightly.
"Let me go.."
You grumbled.
"You could have died, you know?! Died! You hear me?"
He continued to scold you. You sighed and reached up to his face, and you put your hand over his mouth.
"Simon, let me go.."
You huffed and moved your hand away from him.
"Right... right.."
Simon quickly let go of you.
"I'm going to sleep.. go home, Simon.."
"I can't trust you to take care of yourself!"
You grumbled and laid down pulling the covers over you.
"I'm a fucking adult.."
You mumbled and fell asleep quickly. Simon left the room so you could sleep. Simon came into your room to check on you throughout the day. You slept for two days straight.
He came in to check on you. He sat on the bed next to you, hoping you'd wake up soon.
You were asleep still, snoring slightly. You sat up in your sleep and rested your head on his shoulder. You put your arms around him.
"Come to bed Icy..."
You mumbled and leaned over to lay down.
He tried to get up, but your grip tightened.
"Nooo.. you need to sleep."
You mumbled and nuzzled your head in his neck. His face turned red, and he tried to get up again. You pulled him closer towards you and he let out a long sigh.
"I guess I'm staying.."
He took his glasses off and put them on the table. He grabbed the covers and pulled them over the both of you.
"I love you.."
You mumbled and kissed his neck.
"Alright, no! I can't do this!"
Simon grabbed your hands and pryed them off of him. He got out of bed quickly. His face was bright red. You whined in your sleep and rolled over. You curled up into a ball and made quiet noises. He looked back at you and grabbed his glasses, putting them on so he could see.
"Icy.. I'm sorry.."
You mumbled in your sleep. He leaned over on the bed and put a hand on your sholder.
"It's just a dream.. it's ok.."
You moved away from him and whimpered in your sleep. Simon sighed and sat on the bed. He put a hand on your sholder and squeezed it slightly.
"It's just a dream..."
He repeated. Your body relaxed a bit and you stopped making noise. He got up and sighed. He left the room and went to the living room. You slept for another whole day.
You woke up in the afternoon, thinking only a few hours had passed since doctor princess came, but it had been three days. You sat up in bed and got up, walking to the living room. Simon had fallen asleep watching tv on your couch. You sighed and tried to pick him up. Your body felt too weak. You gave up and just grabbed a blanket for him. You put it around him and turned the tv off. You sat next to him and fell asleep, falling over onto him.
He woke up when you fell on him.
"Huh.. oh, I fell asleep.."
He rubbed his eyes and looked at the blanket on him, then over to you.
"Even when you're feeling bad, you're nice.."
He mumbled and put a hand on your head, brushing the hair out of your face. He looked at the time and figured since you had woken up, he should make you something to eat. He slowly got up so he wouldn't wake you up. He gently laid you down on the couch. He walked to your kitchen and opened the fridge. He went grocery shopping while you were asleep, so there was plenty of food.
"Hmm.. I don't know what you'd like.."
He mumbled to himself and tried to remember as he looked in the fridge, but he couldn't, so he just grabbed something random. He made you a small portion of food and walked back to the couch. He sat the plate down on the table and tried to wake you up.
"Hey.. I got you something, wake up."
You grumbled and put your hand on his face.
"Five more minutes.."
Simon chuckled and grabbed your wrist, moving it back down.
"Hmm.. well, alright, but your food might get cold.."
You opened your eyes and rubbed your face.
"What? You made me food? Why?"
Simon grabbed the plate on the table and handed it to you.
"Because you wouldn't do it on your own, would you?"
You looked down at your plate and felt embarrassed that you had to be taken care of.
"I'm not a child.."
You said as you started to eat, it felt weird to eat again and you felt slightly nauseous, but you ignored the feeling.
"Of course not.. I'm just trying to help you get better.."
You let out a loud sigh, feeling bad that you were being mean to him.
"I know.. I'm..I'm sorry.. I'm not used to, uh.. all of this...."
You finished your food, it was a bit difficult for you but you did it. You looked up at him and put the plate down.
"When... um, he was still alive.. I ate when he did.. I guess it's easier to remember to take care of yourself when someone needs you.."
Simon nodded. He knew exactly what you meant. He put a hand on your sholder and squeezed it slightly.
"Simon.. um... I can't believe you're so patient with me.. so.. uh... thank you.."
You let out a sigh and leaned forward, putting your hands on your face. You felt tears forming in your eyes.
"Grod, I'm such a shitty person.. I'm so mean to you, I push you away so much.. why... why are you still here? Stop being so nice! I deserve to be yelled at.. or.. or something.. I..."
Simon put his arm around you and pulled you close to him. You started to sob and tried to stay quiet. You were ashamed of crying so much in front of him.
"I'm sorry, Simon.. don't look at me.. I'm a mess.. I.. I cry too much.. I'm too emotional.. why do you even try to help me?"
Simon held you tighter and you put your hands off of your face, letting your arms go limp.
"Stop being so hard on yourself... you're so kind and sweet and caring.. you're such a good person, you think of others even when you're feeling bad. You.. You took care of me when I was The Ice King.. it takes a special kind of person to put up with him.."
His words comforted you till the last part. It made you a bit mad.
"Simon.. I love....."
You paused and clenched your teeth. It was difficult to use love in the past tense. It made you admit he was actually gone.
"I loved him.. I didn't just put up with him.. he cared for me.. I know you didn't like him but.."
You started to feel frustrated. It made you mad when people talked about him like he was some kind of unlovable monster.
"Sorry.. I meant that not many people cared for him.. "
You sighed and nodded.
"Yeah.. I don't really understand why.. he had his moments, sure, but he was so kind to me.."
You paused for a second
"Simon..I.. I'm sorry I brought up the Ice King so much.. I know how it bothers you.."
"It's alright.. the way you talk about him makes him seem like an amazing person.. you know.. I.."
Simon paused, feeling a bit embarrassed to admit what he was about to say.
"I.. I used to dress up like him.. and try to get as cold as possible.. I thought it would help me cope.. but I think it made it worse.."
You looked up at him and felt embarrassed. You did the same thing.
"I.. I.. I still wear his clothes.."
You and Simon chuckled a bit at how similar you two were. You started to feel tired again, and you sighed.
"I've been sleeping all day.. I don't want to sleep more."
You mumbled and rubbed your eyes.
"It's alright.. go to sleep, you need it"
You sighed again. You really didn't want to go to bed. You wanted to continue to talk to him. It was nice.
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