#how can i fix what i did wrong and apologize WHEN YOU WONT TELL ME

[sourquips]

when your closest friends ghost you and completely fuck you over generally speaking are you meant to confront them or live the rest of your life wondering what u did wrong. asking for a friend

[allyymcl]

heyy could i request making up with the guys after a fight please? tysm

—𝗠𝗖𝗟 𝗕𝗢𝗬𝗦 𝗠𝗔𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗨𝗣 𝗔𝗙𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗔 𝗙𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧

—pairing; ot5 x f!reader

—genre; angst, fluff.

—warnings; none.

—a/n; -

—𝗖𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗘𝗟; !!

this stubborn bitchh

i think he doesnt gives you the cold shoulder, because because he thinks it makes him really inmature

but wont talk to you right away

It mostly depends on who ended up being affected the most.

if you ended up more upset, he will give you your space and talk to you when you are ready

but he is the type of person who leaves the room to get some fresh air

he would hit things, yell, and say something he regrets

when he calms down, he will wait for you to approach him first.

however, it won't take him long to forgive you

he loves you, and hates fighting with you

maybe he's tough and you think he doesn't care too much about things

but that doesn't apply to you

believe me, you are everything to this boy

and, i think that if you didn't approach him first, he would end up doing it

cass is not good with words, so when he saw you he would just grab your face and give you a passionate kiss

and then hug you and say sorry for everything

if that doesn't make you forgive him,

girl...😤

—𝗡𝗔𝗧𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗜𝗘𝗟; !!

the most logical, really

personally, i think nathaniel is a pretty calm person after all.

a fight wouldn't be based on yelling, or anything like that

He would listen to you,

 and let you vent

but you would also like the same in return

Actually, 

arguments between you don't happen often.

But when they do,

 he would definitely be the first to go talk to you.

surely he would buy you something that you like, 

and would apologize for everything

but normally,

 yourfights are short and nath doesn't usually get angry for a long time

mostly because he ends up missing you

and even if sometimes you are the one who messed up

he would really stand being away for you too long

—𝗟𝗬𝗦𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥; !!

hater #1 of fighting literally

UPSETS HIM SO MUCH

i also think he is a real mature one

I think that, contrary to what might be thought because he writes songs

lys is not the type of person who can express what he feels easily

he has a lot of difficulties in it but he makes an effort if he knows that he is the one who made a mistake

he probably can't go straight to apologize and take his time

he wouldn't insult or raise his voice one bit, and just try to wait for you to speak and have an opinion on what you say

on very few occasions you would see him REALLY upset

however, after an argument he would just let you go if you want to be alone, but preferably talk about everything in the moment, nothing left unresolved.

however, i feel that for some reason, if you two were to fight, lys would write you a poem so you know that he is really sorry.

or maybe he'll compose you a song in which he talks about how much he wants things to be fixed

however, a part of him is a little stubborn

i feel that if you are the one who did something wrong and you don't accept it, he would hope that you are the one who approaches first.

however, as long as you say "I'm sorry" and really mean it, that's enough.

and even so, it wouldn't get so complicated, the first thing he would do would be to hug you tight and kiss you on the top of your head, relieved that things are fine between you.

—𝗔𝗥𝗠𝗜𝗡; !!

IM SORRY BUT

for some reason i think that armin is really inmature in arguments

he probably tries to get the last word ALWAYS, and usually doesn't really hear what you're telling him

he might get to a point where he would raise my voice to you but no more than that

besides, no matter if it's you or him who was at fault, he wouldn't let you be right.

and then, he would give you the silent treatment until he himself can no longer take fighting with you.

he would surely talk to alexy about it

waiting for his brother to agree with him about it

SO OFFENDED WHEN ALEXY STARTS SUPPORTING YOU (as he should 😡)

alexy would tell him that he is an idiot and that he should stop being childish and apologize to you properly

he probably takes a long time talking to him to think about how to tell you

finally, he just comes over at a moment when you are distracted and hugs you from behind.

whispering in a timid voice that he's sorry

obviously you can't help but give him a soft kiss and he simply lets himself be carried away in your arms, kissing you back.

after, he just keeps smiling and def thanks alexy for his help

—𝗞𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡; !!

😦

i literally can't think of any reason why kentin would be mad at you

however, i think kentin would be quiet throughout the fight, hoping it would end as soon as possible and agreeing with you if necessary.

There's nothing he hates more than knowing you're mad at him and just trying to fix things even if he wasn't the one wrong.

HE DOESN'T DARE SAY YOU'RE WRONG

anyway, he would be SO UPSET

the last thing he wants is for you to be mad at him

if the argument ends he's the first to talk to you and apologize

AND PLS DONT YELL AT HIM OMG

he will literally cry if you raise your voice

and if you try to ignore him, ihe will follow you wherever you go like a lost puppy

also tries to talk things over with you so that nothing remains unresolved

he definitely does something cheesy like buy you flowers and chocolates and take you to your favorite places

if that doesn't soften your heart then...🔪

no but really, he's the sweetest of all, you can't not forgive him 😭

SO RELIEVED when you tell him he's forgiven that he just takes your face in his hands and suffocates you with kisses al over your face

[chiffaust]

can i request prompt 9 (innocently fiddling with the other's finger then trapping them) with rinne please? thank you

— 𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐓. a. rinne

prompt 9 , fiddling w the other person's fingers and then trapping them.

content , rinne amagi (derogatory), he lost your wallet but found it again, wont tell you how tho...

(n.) — i think i shld make a synopsis but my brain is melting... brief synopsis ; he lost your wallet n shit an now you both homeless ! (joke)

You huffed angrily as you continue to mindlessly scroll down your phone, still standing right next to the man who was in all of his glory eating the crêpe he had bought with your money that he had lost.

Rinne glances back at you ever so slightly only to realize that when you said you were pissed off at him, you really did meant it this time because you hadn't talked to him at all in the past 30 minutes.

But, he'll admit — it is his fault this time. He fucked up big time, he should've paid more attention to your wallet but what can he even do now?

You were mad at him for losing your wallet and yourself for even trust him with it in the first place and now you're both stuck there until some kind person finds you your wallet and gives it back to you.

You're just praying that it isn't in someone else's house right now since you had quite a lot of money in there along with important stuffs.

He glances back at you one last time, now feeling a bit guilty for losing your wallet. He knows apologizing will not do anything, but he wants to make you feel better somehow about this.

He leans onto you slightly, his head nearly making contact with yours in a playful manner.

"C'mon, baby. I'm sorry, 'kay? I know I fucked up big time, but this won't happen ever again." He sighed, trying to make himself sound as sad as possible now that he sees you're still ignoring him. "The least you could do is say something t' me, yer so cruel for ignoring me, y'know..." He sobbed out fake tears.

"Rinne Amagi, you lost my fucking wallet!" You snapped back angrily as you tried to push his heavy ass away from you.

"But it was an honest mistake! Even someone like me can make mistakes, y'know?"

"An "honest mistake"...?! You're an honest mistake!" You huffed out angrily one last time before finally pushing him away from you before turning your back on him out of anger.

He sighed quietly, looking at you with a visible frown on his face, the ice cream inside the crêpe soon beginning to melt due to being left out for too long, but he didn't even felt like eating it right now.

He had bought it for you both, thinking it would be kind and romantic for him to share it with you even though he used your money to buy it, but it was clear you wanted nothing to do with him right now. And to think that he bought your favorite flavor too even though he doesn't like it.

He sighs in defeat as he looks away from you and mindlessly ate the last bits of the crêpe while his free hand subconsciously finding its way towards you and fiddled with your fingers innocently, as if he did not just lost your wallet.

You huffed out in annoyance, watching his fingers intertwined with yours. Despite how annoyed you are with him right now, you didn't made any move on pushing his hands away from yours at all.

You don't know what he's trying to do, but he's dead wrong if he thinks he can just fix this whole thing up by holding your hand.

... But still, it's kind of cute. You guess.

Silence enveloped the two of you once again as he quietly finishes off the crêpe all by himself as he fiddles with your fingers innocently before trapping them in his hands — he has no intention of letting go of your hand anytime soon now.

"I'm really sorry for losing your wallet, 'kay? I'll get ya the plush you wanted at the arcade after we find yer wallet." He said, holding onto your hand tightly with a face showing visible guilt for what he had done.

You huffed, squeezing his hand slightly. You were obviously still mad at him, but you couldn't stay mad at him for long either, and it was a change of pace to finally see him taking full responsibility for once.

"You better, dumbass."

He nods as he places a quick kiss on your forehead as an apology while his free hand went to pat at the rear pocket of his pants and felt something familiar to a wallet.

How strange, he swears he didn't bring his wallet with him at all today.

... Or —

He patted on it multiple of times before finally pulling it out of his pocket, and lo and behold — it was your wallet within his hands.

Rinne was more shocked than you were because he was sure that he had lost it and it wasn't with him the whole time. He doesn't even know whether to feel relieved or not right now.

"W-well... Look at that! Our case's solved, ya have your wallet back!"

"Rinne Amagi." You spat out his name in a rather threatening manner as you look at him dead in the eyes.

"Hey, at least we don't hafta waste our time lookin' around for this thing anymore!" He tried to reason with you, but it only leads to him having his ear pulled by you.

"O-ow, ow, ow, ow! hey, quit it! This is not a funny joke anymore, this is a Rinne abuse, I tell ya! Yer abusing your Rinne!"

[farewelln3verland]

Hello can I request 4, 10, and 15 with dom! Jongho 🫶🏽

brattiness never works with the devil himself

pairing: boyfriend!hard dom!choi jongho x gn reader

warnings: dom, smutty, degradation? not too much here actually

authors note: so, here's the thing, i usually write how i think the idol would act in the situation, and you probably wont be too happy with the amount of pure smut, however i think we can agree jongho is kinda bratty himself sooo

Going through the motions of getting ready was something you did daily. For work, for friends, even for yourself to make yourself feel better sometimes. But there was always one person you always actually wanted to dress up for. jongho. jongho- was kind of a hard book to read, sometimes showing no emotion, other times being so enthralled in his emotions that he could barely pull himself out of that space. It’s true…a lot of times you…may or may not purposefully wear things to entice him to show emotion. but it’s healthy to promote emotions. right? At least that’s what you tell yourself. zipping up the zipper to your top you take a final look at yourself in the mirror. not too bad for only thirty minutes of getting ready. The real test is your boyfriend’s reaction. 

“I’m here y/n!” you heard the door slam, and you were about to respond when you had a brilliant idea, unzipping the shirt again. “Just in time jongho. I need your help with this please.” you gesture with your head to the zipper and you swear for a split second you see a glint of something in his eyes. He steps towards you and you can feel his cold, long fingers against your skin, and then it’s gone. 

You turn around and try your best to look innocent at your boyfriend. “So how do I look?” jongho swears he can see your eyelashes batting, but he shakes the thought off. There’s no way-

“Don’t look at me like that, you know what it does to me love.” he takes a step towards the door and turns around and wags a finger “Don’t tempt me. Be down here in five.” and with that he’s gone. You sigh, and realize that even if he wanted to rip your outfit to shreds, he wouldn’t do it to spite you if he found out what you were playing at. Heading towards the door after taking a second to fix your plan, you shriek and fall backward when jongho practically appears out of nowhere. 

“Jongho?? The hell is wrong with you?” you look at him with wide eyes

“You know- i bet this was your plan wasn't it. Get me all riled up? Hmm? Well, I'm trying really hard to hold myself back right now, but I bet you planned that too, didn't you.” His voice has gone down almost two octaves since he appeared for the first time, coming out in almost a growl.

“How'd you know?” you hate that your voice sounds meek, but seeing him like this does things to you. 

“The batting of the eyelashes. You went a little too all-in there, doll. Try not to fuck it up next time.” he walks over to your pristine bed and sits down with his thighs on either side of the bed. “Come here. Sit.” uh-oh. you sit down and look up at him. 

“I apologize baby,” you lean up to kiss him, to maybe make him less irritated, but to your surprise, he pulls away and smirks.

“You wanted this. You instigated a plan to make me have sex with you? For what? For your pleasure?” he scoffs and a sadistic smile curls across his lips.

“You should know me better baby. We’re going to that dinner. We are. And you- aren't going to get anything from me.”

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

honestly i feel like i never talk about the crushing psychological repercussions of anti cheating on jameson with marvin

like. jameson has withstood some pretty frightening and horrific things by anti's hands. he has had bottles smashed over his head and has been slammed into the tile floor in the kitchen until his head started bleeding and has been nearly strangled to death on multiple occasions. hes been beaten to bloody pulps and whipped with belts and sexually abused and screamed at and stabbed and had his bones broken, often times for no real reason.

and he withstands these things for many reasons. but the one thing he always tells himself, constantly, is that deep down, anti loves him. just like he always has, anti still, still loves him. they are married forever, to have and to hold, and jameson is anti's one and only. jameson gives so, so much of himself, body and soul and even any scraps left over to anti. he gives everything he possibly can, so much love and attention and forgiveness for everything anti does to him.

and so when jameson finds that anti fell for someone else, that anti decided to lie to jameson's face that he was working late when in reality he was out partying and making out with his new fancy magician partner, well, he was pretty angry. at first.

because of course hes going to feel betrayed and hurt. and for a short time he doesnt talk to anti and anti doesnt talk to him. but after a few days, the sting starts turning into something else. and jameson starts to wonder, well, why did anti go for someone else? was...was i not good enough?

and so he wants to know. he asks anti about marvin. he wants to know how they met and why anti wanted marvin over him. but there is nothing healthy about how anti feels about jameson, and so he just...ignores him. he locks himself in his office or goes out with his rifle to shoot things in the woods.

jameson doesnt get anything. no half-hearted apologies, nothing along the lines of "oh honey, they arent anything like you, i promise it wont happen again," no excuses, no answer.

jameson tries talking to his husband. anti ignores him. he cooks for him. anti doesnt eat it. he tries making any conversation in bed. anti sleeps on the couch.

while anti is busy plotting out where the egos are hiding and how he can have all of them as puppets, jameson is falling apart. what did he do? what did he do that would make the love of his life choose someone else? is he not good enough? anti's mail-order bride, his perfect groom, his everything; its not enough? oh, anti please, please just talk to me, he begs, the motions of his hands being purposefully ignored.

there is an ice pick splitting his chest apart. he cant sleep. he stays awake because of how bad it hurts. he sits on the floor of the shower until the water goes cold, trying not to hyperventilate thinking about how his suffering was for nothing, how anti doesnt love him, how hard he tries, every fucking day, to be good, to be loving. and its not enough for anti.

jameson catches him in the hall and asks, over and over, am i not enough? am i not enough? what did i do wrong? i try very hard, my love, you are all that i have, i love you so much, please, just tell me how i can fix this, how i can be better for you, please, anti, i love you, im so sorry, please. would hitting me make you feel better? would you like that? i won't cry this time, i promise, i just want you to love me again.

was my cooking stale? was i bad at conversation? am i not good in bed? do you not like how i play our piano for you every day? do you dislike my paintings? is the garden not beautiful enough? is my love for you not to your liking? am i not to your liking? do these wedding rings mean nothing anymore? does the ugly scar on my left thigh that boasts your name not appeal to you? oh please, anti, love, please, tell me, tell me how i can be good, tell me how i can make you happy, i'd do anything for you, anything at all, please, oh, please, i love you, i'm sorry for anything that made you unhappy, please, i love you, i love you, i love you.

jameson sobs on the floor, apologizing for something he didn't do, begging for any scrap of affection or meaning or love that his husband is willing to give. he cries and anti steps over his body and closes the door to his office and there is nothing more that jameson wants in that moment than to die.

theres a reason why he doesn't like talking to marvin.

[jamesvowles]

synth this is stranger anon! I just finished reading you stopped by my house and totally get crazy about it... first i think george should be seeking for helps he's crying and screaming in max's house but then max is getting crazy for him too. theyare so abnormal to each other

at the same time max is just pure loving like?? innocently thinking they had something after spent a week doing george. oh. luckily lando and dan are so nice. damn why they didn't fuck again max must hurt so bad (wondering that as a george fan?). i think the whole thing is george's fault and wanna see how he will handle this between his gf and max. pls tell me it'll be a happy ending!>?!

HEELLO AGAIN ANON I HOPE YOU'RE WELL!!!!!!! I KNOW THIS IS MESSED UP THIS IS HOW I FOUND OUT ALL MY FICS ARE STILL PUBLIC ADSKJHSFDKJFDHJJHJ NOOOOO. i thought i did the privating correctly but i fucked up LOL

BUT IM GLAD YOU LIKE IT SO MUCH <3 AND I APPRECIATE YOU READING IT HAHA

really putting them both thru it all and for what? u know fun fact it was going to end at chapter one with GEORGE JUST WALKING AWAY LOL but a lot of people were like "BRO U CANT LEAVE IT THERE" which is....fair

spoilers under read more

i think theyre both looking to preserve themselves in a way. i think its all good then they fuck and its like. okay so max is looking to get with someone (in my mind its also an ex, but maybe even danny) and uses george as a crutch despite their little interaction. then george thinks too impulsively and also uses max as a temporary solution. then HE GETS WITH THE GIRLFRIEND AGAIN......then he gets scared and doesn't tell max until its too late. so now he's gotta apologize

(im kind of thinking of imola 2021 where george took full responsibility for the incident w valtteri after reflecting for a bit! he made a bad judgement but fixed it immediately!)

then max resents george (because he got attached) but refuses to talk about it with george. george is willing to take accountability but max knows it'll hurt george even more if he doesn't even engage with that idea. smh my head . the pettiness is unreal. he's literally willing to kill them both if it means he "wins"; that george can never feel comfort in his own relationship again, that george is berated for what max thinks is the wrong decision, and that george will stay with max (even if in a way that is so hateful). love makes people crazy.

danny + lando trying to mediate makes me giggle. lando is really like "im sure the week with george will be fine" then comes back to fire and hell on earth. but yeah #dandobesties4eva

ANYWAYS stranger anon it will be happy dont worry i wont say how it resolves but....everything is good in da end ^_^ i drew a picture for it and everything before deleting it haha!! thank you again stranger anon!!! i really do appreciate when people comment and send asks about my stuff <3

[flashwingfox-blog]

Obey me- Unknow place

Unknown Place

Genre: Angst to fluff

Parrings: Taiga x Lucifer(first meet no romance yet) 

Word count: 4070

Characters: Lucifer, Taiga, Mention of Diavolo and the brothers.

Summery: Lucifer teleports into a new place and wants to leave after finding out a god is there. But once he able to leave he wants to stay?

Authors Note: This is the first time I have done this full version of a fic. please tell me if I need to add a warning. took me 4-6 days (I think) to write this. Edit: added masterlists

Warning: n/a atm(At the moment)

Masterlist, Obey me masterlist

Lucifer looks around this unfamiliar place analyzing the room. Something about the atmosphere feels different then devildom, that was clear to him. Then spotted something in the corner of his right eye. The door swung open and a taller entity walked into the room. “How did you get here?” The figure asked. He looked up, making eye contact with them. “I don't know.” He spoke. The figure moved over to a sofa and sat down. Lucifer watched them.

He knew this entity was a god. They could feel it in their energy. Knowing God's can determine that this entity knows he is a Demon. He didn't move a muscle. “No need to be so afraid.” They assured him. He didn't budge or calm down. “Did you send me here somehow?” He inquired. The god only laughed. “No, No I didn't. I didn't even know there was even another devildom.” They smiled, still laughing. “Another Devildom?” Lucifer asked

“Indeed.” They nodded. “There's another one and another Celestial Realm” Lucifer nodded and asked “What is the other Devildom like” he questioned the god. The god shrugged “I don't go to that one so I wouldn't know” they explained. The god got up and walked in front of lucifer. Out of fear he bowed to them. “You're silly.” they laughed “I was just going to shake your hand” He quickly stood up, then reached out his hand. “Names Lucifer” he uttered quickly. “Names Taiga” The god said. They shook hands “What's your pronouns?” They asked. “He/Them” they said. The god nodded in response “My pronouns are They/Zir/His” Taiga mentioned.

Taiga proceeds to show Lucifer around. Explaining that he ended up in zirs office in Balance, a multiverse organization that they created. “So-” Taiga paused. “You're able to get back to your home right?” they inquired. Lucifer stared at them for a minute “Yeah” he says, focusing his magic but no matter how hard he tries it fails. Then he tries again, and again. All of a sudden he blacked out. Then he woke up in a new room again.

Taiga is standing by his bedside. “You passed out from it” He explained “So you have to stay here for a bit, sorry about that.” ze apologies. Lucifer sighs Of course he gets stuck. This was probably his brothers doing. He’ll ask when he gets back. “It's fine Taiga” they say. He looks around the room. They spotted other beds, he was probably in the hospital . Then spotted Taiga talking to the nurse. Honestly I'm quite surprised a human doctor would even know how to deal with my type of magic. He thinks.

He decides to lay down and stare at the ceiling for a bit. What was he going to do now? He Had a meeting in  20 minutes and he wasn’t going to be there for it because of some stupid prank his brotheres decided to pull. He tilted his head to the right and saw Taiga talking to a different doctor. That doctor came over to his bedside and examined him. “Everything is fine other than his magic stamina.” the doctor explained.

The doctor continued talking about what was wrong and how to fix it. All Lucifer heard was he was going to be here for Lord Diavolo knows how long and he wont like it one bit. “Demon magic regenerates slower than human’s magic, it seems” Taiga said. Making Lucifer even more annoyed. He somehow did this to himself. Now that he thinks about it, he is trying to use his magic a lot more now.  

This was perfect, he thought. The Avatar of Pride being stuck in a world he didn't recognize with a god. Just his luck. He finally got up and walked out of the door. Then he saw a bridge to a hole in a tree. “What” he gasped and looked down. Seeing how high he was he took a step back. “Welcome to balance Lucifer.” Taiga laughed. He looked back to the god and saw that zir was 2 feet from him. All the god did was smile.

“I'm sorry, how tall is this place?” He asked. The god thought for a moment. “I dont know.” zir told “It's big and reaches the clouds” they continued. Lucifer blinked at him for a moment. “What?!” they blurted. Taiga nods. The both of them walk onto the bridge and into a new room. “Are we in a-” he gets cut off “Yep, we're in a tree” they assure.

He stares at them for a minute, deadpan. Thinking they were joking. “I'm not joking.” ze signs. Then he looks away and sees a big hourglass on the wall. “Why is there an Hourglass?” he asks. “It's because of Balance” They answer back. Wait he thought to himself he could just ask Taiga to make a portal to Devildom for him.

Once that thought popped into his head the god was explaining about the hourglass on the wall and the one in the middle of the octogonal table. Now that he thinks about it why isn't it oval or a round table considering how round the room is. Damn it he was getting lost in his thoughts. He listened to ze ramble about the history of Balance and forgot the question entirely.

After Taiga explained the history they looked down at Lucifer, noticing he was looking around the room. Zir thought maybe a tour would help him be at ease for a bit. “Would you like a tour?” they inquired. Lucifer stopped looking around the room. “Uh sure.” he agreed. What else was he supposed to do? He thought about asking the god again. But would they even help him? Yeah zir was being nice.

 They probably are doing it to make him fall into a false sense of security. Taiga turned back to Lucifer “You coming?” they ask, He realizes he was in deep thought again. Then catches up with the god. Hoping just hoping that his suspicions are wrong about them. He decides to shake off the thought and take in the place for a bit. It's amazing. It's a tree but also a castle as well. This was a different take on architecture he has seen from both Celestial realm and Devildom.

Walking behind the god down the stairs past a window. He stops for a moment. The outside of this place. Had that similar creepy factor. Staring at it for a moment. Then he heard a voice calling to him. “Are we continuing this tour or what?” he questioned. “right  ahem” He muttered. They continue the tour. He hated this feeling of being scared. But, why has he been spacing out more often? Why in a new place? Ugh, why can't he just get a grip on his thoughts for once.

He shook his head and continued following the god. When they got to the entrance of this place both stopped for a moment. Not saying anything, just pure silence. Lucifer glanced at zir once and a while but nothing was said. Looking around he saw portraits of the Slender brothers? How in Devildom is that even possible. They spend time here. It was interesting to lucifer. Than again he hasn't met with them in ages  

Lucifer almost got lost in his thoughts again but caught it. Shaking his head. Looks over to Taiga who glances over to him and they make eye contact. “Yes?” they ask. He looks away quickly. Coughing, he tries and musters something to say but can't really think of anything. Then just stare at the ground. Cursing himself out for not answering quickly.

Then he mustered up something but he mumbled it the whole thing. Realizing that he did that he says it again but louder. Still barely audible to hear. He tries again. “It's fine, take your time.” zir assured. Lucifer signed. “ It wasn't important anyway.”  he sighed. Of course he is failing at talking to a god, but he speaks to authority all the time. Why is it acting up now?  

No matter, he needs to focus on getting back to devildom. Even if his magic wasn't able to make a portal at the moment. He didn't want to be stuck with a god. Not even if he had to go back to father. He hated him, making him do all the work for just a minute of his time and praise. He wouldn't dare go back to even confront him.

“Well I guess that's it for the tour of the inside.” Taiga spoke up, breaking the silence. “Unless you want a tour of the outside.” ze asked. Looking over to the demon. The demon thought for a moment. I mean why not, the outside looked nice. He nodded, deciding words were hard to say again and followed them. Once outside they crossed a bridge over a lake. Looking around he saw buildings of all types of architecture, but all had one thing in common. They all looked rather creepy and had a steampunk vibe.

It was an interesting combination of styles. He thought to himself. Looking around, then he looked up. He saw how tall the tree was. Its leaves and branches seemed to cover the sky of this place. But it still was bright. They walked past a bar, a theater that had both movies and plays. A market was happening. It was interesting to see all these different humans, and not attacking them, or making them fear him.

These humans seemed different, some seemed to have animal ears and a tail. He spotted an angel. He was shocked, maybe that angle was from the other Celestial realm. He then focused back on Taiga who stopped. They were talking with the people here. Waiting for them to stop talking he decided to look around, not moving from where the god was. Sometimes glancing at them to see if they were done.

He sighed they were not done talking. He decided to move closer to Taiga. Trying to listen in to their conversation, maybe he would be able to tell if they are done. After a while it got boring listening to the conversation. “Can we continue the tour please” he finally spoke. Taiga his head around. “Sure, well see you Stella.”  They waved goodbye. “See ya too.” Stella responded back.

Continuing the tour Taiga talked about the history of the place. “So what is this place called?” they inquired. Taiga laughed. “Oh I forgot, huh” they continued “This place is called The Kingdom of Freaks.” they explained. Huh Kingdom of Freaks. An interesting name Lucifer thought to himself.

The day turned to night. The two headed into Balance for the night. Going to a new floor with a bunch of doors. “Well this is where you’ll be staying for tonight” the god told the demon. “The ones that are empty don't have names on them.” they pointed to an unnamed dorm room and then to one with a name on it. “ Alright, thank you for your hospitality.” Lucifer bowed. Trying to be as formal as possible.

Taiga reassured the demon that he didn't need to bow. Then they both said good night and Lucifer walked into the room. Taiga, using magic, put a sign on the door that said guest on it. Then went up the elevator. Lucifer entered the room. Looking around the room.

In front of him was a double bed. On the right of him there was a door he assumes is to the bathroom. He turns to his left and sees windows on a curved wall. A desk and a chair. Then in the corner of his left eye he sees the kitchen. He looks back to the bed, and spots something. On the table next to the bed it has something piled on it.

Going over there, they realize that it's a pile of clothes for him. It's even the right size that would fit him. Well he guesses he can wear those clothes to bed. He openes the curtain. Looking out the window he sees the lake and then sees the buildings. Then spotted in the distance walls. He closed the blinds.

His belly rumbled. Damit he was hungry. Walked over to the fridge to see if there was something. But of course nothing. He looked around the room. Then sighed. He was going to have to find food. Outside somewhere. He walked over to the door and opened it.

Leaving the room. Closing the door, releasing his room now says, guest on it. Looked around for a minute. He heard the elevator ding and out came Taiga again. “Hi again, I forgot to tell you where you can get food.” Taiga huffed. They showed Lucifer down to the dining room floor of Balance.

“So, do I need, pay for food?” He questioned the god. Said god shakes zirs head and assures him about him not needing to pay. Walking over to a table he sits down and looks at the menu on the table's screen. Surprisingly there are some devildom cuisine on the menu. He decides to go with what humans usually eat, interested to try some of their dishes.

He orders and waits for the food to arrive. He takes out his DDD and sees that there are a lot of messages from his brothers. He answers them, assuring them that he will be back. He went to do some research in another realm. Which was a lie, he wasn't doing that. He hoped no one would contact Lord Diavolo about what he said. But he was wrong. Once his food arrived his DDD notified him he had a text from the Prince himself. Great, just great he thought to himself.

He read the text. Ah you decided to go to a realm without telling me? Diavolo texted. Lucifer texted back explaining the situation. You can't really lie to the demon prince. Diavolo assures him that it's fine to take his time there and treat it like a break. Putting his DDD down he thought to themself. How was he going to have a break? He was stuck in a whole new world. Wanting to get back to Devildom. After finishing the food and throwing it away he goes back to his room and continues texting his brothers.

Getting annoyed that it was Mammon who told the Prince about it. Mammon didn't need to ask the Prince but he did now Lucifer is stuck having this so-called vacation. He finally decides to change into the clothes on the table and go to bed. When they woke up, they took a shower and put on his normal clothes. He leaves the room and goes to the dining room. Orders breakfast to go and goes back to his room.

He opens the curtains. Sitting down at the desk he starts eating. It was weird to not have his brothers, but it was also weird that being here wasn't a dream. He looked outside. He saw birds flying past. Later he tried again, nothing. He couldn't get this damn portal to open. The only other one who would be able to get the portal open would be Lord Diavolo.

Oh that would not be happening. The avatar of Pride asking the Prince to open a portal is not going to happen. Never will he do that. He doesn't ask for help. He sighs. Going out the door and into the elevator he presses a random floor number and ends up at the library. Walking out of it he takes a couple of books that seem to be magic related and sit down and read them.

Hours go by and he can't seem to find anything on his type of magic. Of course it's not common. He sighed putting the books back. He looks at the time on his DDD and then to the clock. It was late, like after dinner late. Did they really just try and figure this out? They spent hours here forgetting to eat the other two meals. He sighed again, now annoyed he did that. At least Demons can go longer without eating but that is a new low for him.

He goes up to his room, changes and goes to bed. But he didn't fall asleep. He just stared at the wall. He forgot to eat and now he probably won't sleep. He knows he shouldn't be doing this. He really does. But they aren't going to give up on finding a way home out without help. This cycle continued for two more days, Lucifer not realizing. That his magic is still draining because he is using it. He eventually realizes this and gets annoyed at himself.

He sighed and went back to his room and sat on the bed. Cupped his hands and plumped his face in his hands. Then finally he just cries. Annoyed that he did this, he caused all of his own problems. Magic is weak because of using it too much. Now it's going to take even longer to get to devildom. Flopping on the bed looking up at the ceiling cursing at himself. Of course some how he fucks himself over.

He really didn't want to ask the god. No way are they going to ask a god for help. Nope never, right? Then he notices something about himself. He feels weaker. Maybe he should have just asked for help when he had the chance. But all he wanted to do now was lay in bed and rest. Then he heard a knock on the door. “Come in.” he hissed. The door opened and the god walked in. Came over to the bed.

Oh no he thought this was his end. Turning his head to the wall, he closed his eyes shut. Waiting for them to kill him or do something. But nothing happens. All he hears the god say is “You need help Lucifer” they sigh. “I understand you're scared but can I please help?” zir asks lucifer. Taking a deep breath, Lucifer loosens up a bit and nods.

Turning to face the god, seeing magic flow from out of their hands. He tenses up, maybe this was it. Well he was wrong he was feeling calmer. All his thoughts were saying, don't trust them, why did you trust them. You should of never trusted them.

The more magic was flowing around him, his thoughts kept racing. But soon he fell asleep. “He worries too much.” Taiga sighs. Deciding that they would make the bed cozy enough for Lucifer to rest and get better. Put pillows around him and also put many blankets on the bed. Sighing they were about to leave when Lucifer woke up.

“Mhm” They said waking up. The god decided to walk back over to his bed side and answer any questions he had. Which was a lot. They spent hours in that room answering all of his questions. “Is that all you wanted to ask about?” Taiga questioned the demon. “One more thing.” He exclaimed. “Why are you being so nice to me?”

The god was taken aback. They understand why he is asking this, zir knows the other version of him had issues with his version of his father. But this one was afraid of the god. Surprisingly he didn't try to hurt them but it was weird to the god. Seeing a version of Lucifer scared of a god was weird.

“Well you can go back now” The god said. Lucifer sat up quickly. He could finally go back home. Where no god was going to hurt him. All though it seems like this god was nice. Plus the Lord Diavolo did say to have a vacation. Maybe he would take it just this once.

“Actually I am willing to stay for a bit more” He smiled. This was a first for the god. To see this lucifer smile and him being fine with staying? That was weird, but Taiga was fine with it. “Alright” ze nodded. They sat in silence for a minute or two. Sometimes just glancing at each other. Lucifer coughed, breaking the silence. “So are you implying you want to hang with me or?” he asked, looking at Taiga.

“Only if you want to” they answer, looking away quickly. Forgetting they were staring at him. Why did he have to look like a piece of art? They thought to themselves while Lucifer got up from the bed. Shaking off the thought, Taiga's eyes followed lucifer. “You ok?” Lucifer asks. Taiga laughs and says they're fine.

They both sit in silence again. Both staring at each other. They are curious about one another. Longing to know more. Both of them ask each other to hang out. Both got awkward and a bit tense. “Yeah lets” taiga spoke up, breaking the silence. They go down to the castle floor and leave through the door. Lucifer hasn't been outside since his first two tours of the place. Getting distracted every now and again.

It was unlikely for Lucifer to have a break. But taking the break to actually enjoy the place he has been staying at was surprisingly peaceful. Taiga took him to some shops showing him more of the kingdom. He spotted a sign that said what currency can be used here. He was surprised to spot Grimm, Devildom’s currency here. He didn't have any Grimm anyway but he spotted things his brothers would love.

Walking around the shops he spotted a crow figurine, a stack of Levi’s favorite manga. Some makeup and clothes he knows Asmo would adore if he saw them, some books about cats Satan would want. Then spotted a figure of twins immediately thinking of Beel and Belphi.

He would have loved to get things for his brothers. But he didn't have enough Grimm. When leaving that store he saw that Taiga was already outside. He made a god wait, oh he hopes he doesn’t get scolded. But surprised when he doesn't and they are happy with him enjoying himself. A sigh of relief comes from Lucifer.

They continue going to stores and looking at stuff. Taiga usually gets stopped to talk with someone but that's alright Lucifer is staring at something he knows one of his brothers would like. Being out of Devildom and free from work was rare for him. What's worse about that is he never catches a break anyway. Always dealing with his brothers.

But now Lucifer doesn't have those stressing him on his shoulder. He does actually want to know more about this place. After a while walking around got tiring so they went to a restaurant. Sitting down he looked around. Taiga was watching his eyes move around from corner to corner. Taiga understands that feeling of a new place and looking around it to take enough information in as possible.

They order food and talk for a bit. Talking about what happens in both realms. Lucifer rants about his brother's antics and Taiga laughs. “They seem like a handful huh.” They continue laughing. Lucifer sighs, stares at Taiga, annoyed that they would laugh about that. “Yeah but they do it everyday. It gets annoying when I want to work and get papers done” Lucifer rants.

 Taiga nods, listening to his ranting. They have seen other Devildoms. Knowing almost all the time Lucifer is always dealing with his brothers. They chime in here and there to give some advice on how to deal with the paperwork. Something in Lucifer tells him to agree with Taiga and apply it when he gets back.

A week has finally passed and Lucifer decides it's time to go back to devildom. He goes to Taiga's office and explains that he has to leave but he will try and come back if he can figure out what he did. Taiga hands him a watch, explaining that it will take you to the tree if he needs a break. Lucifer makes a portal and says goodbye to Taiga.

The portal was in his living room where his brothers were arguing. Lucifer sighed and told them off. All six of them were surprised that he was back. After the shock they ran away and when lucifer caught them he told them off. Deciding to spare them from tying them to the ceiling upside down.

[horatioo]

callout post for muy fuckign mom part one: at first i srs'd

welcome to eliot rambling about how much he fucking dreads going home for break this year. i'm your host, the fucked up talloran version of lobotomy corporation adam who keeps getting used as a fucking armrest.

this is my unwilling audience member azarel and my apparently quite amused audience member gregory. they might pipe in.

broad tw for child abuse and stuff. also csa mentions. im going to make a part two that is just me listing out goofy shit

PART ONE: THE BEGINNINGS

picture this. i am like seven years old and crying in the upstairs bathroom in my house. i have been yelled at for stepping on the floor or something i actually don't remember. my mother said she wished i'd never been born. seven year old me agrees with this. this is why i am crying inconsolably in the bathroom.

she apologized later that day but. like. that was a regular occurrence. usually not those words but i got yelled at a lot as a child for weird and relatively minor things, such as...not wanting to eat a vegetable, not knowing our multiplication tables, and other stuff.

but the yelling isn't that bad because it stopped when we were like nine so it doesn't matter + ratio + i don't care. (gregory is informing me i should care, but he's also shoving popcorn in his mouth so i am disregarding his advice.)

now the thing that is BAD in my eyes is how much she like. impresses her worldview on me. which would not be that bad if she didnt STILL DO THIS now that i am EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD. she has done this as long as i remember.

you may ask "what kind of worldview?" WELL,

the world is doomed and we are all going to die of global warming in my lifetime and there is no fixing it but i still need to try because otherwise i am a Horrible Person

even if global warming doesn't kill me, i have zero career options because everything is going to be taken over by machines, and the one option i did have is ALSO being taken over by machines, so fuck you

but don't slack off in school because that's morally wrong

if the global warming and the joblessness doesn't get me, well, the country is going to shit and there's no hope of saving it

oh and if that wasnt bad enough, well, somehow socialism is bad so i cant support that because its bad

also because i was born a woman, everyone will always see me as a woman, and thusly i must Always Be Paranoid that someone is going to rape me and then kill me. i must Always be alert. i must Always be prepared to fight for my life

that last one is probably true tbh

i think you can kind of understand why i have depression given this is ALL I WAS EVER TOLD WAS THE FUTURE. like yeah man. maybe i should die, if this is true!

also she constantly vents to me and talks shit about my little brother to me, but then i will start complaining about one thing and she's like "Okay but [solution based off insane misinterpretation of what i just said"

and i will say "that is not what i said, i said [clearer explanation]"

"yeah so you're saying [exact same misinterpretation]"

"no"

it is frustrating as fuck. she told me there was no way my uncle could have sa'd me as a child because "she never left me alone with him" (blatantly untrue). yeah whatever.

also before my suicide attempt at 13, i got my electronics taken away because i failed latin, and she yelled at me for sneaking them anyway. except. i was homeschooled, and that...was kind of...my only outside connection to the world that wasnt dictated by my mom. so yeah !

also i told her i was depressed before my attempt and she was like "no youre not" lol. lmao

PART TWO: MORE AWFUL SHIT

so i did just mention the venting and complaining. yeah well that is EVERY SINGLE TIME I TALK TO HER.

and this happens with stuff i do, too. like. i am perpetually afraid of fucking up and constantly walking on eggshells around her because if i upset her she wont TELL me. she'll just treat me like a biohazard for the rest of the day while pretending she's not.

and GOD forbid i try to Not Be Sick or not get HER sick. i said "hey i skipped the dead week of class before thanksgiving because we weren't learning anything and i didn't want to bring anything home!" and she said "You know that will affect your grades, right? You have no more absences, you told me. You shouldn't have done that :/" and then pushed me out of the house as soon as she could.

she is a constant wedge between me and my brother because she will snap at my brother for small things like forgetting to move an object, being "too loud" or talking too much, accidentally interrupting, having the GALL to be snarky like a normal teen, etc.

she also makes you ask before you get any food that isnt fruit, which SOUNDS fine but she heavily regulates what my brother eats because hes unhealthy (which. i was too before i moved out!) and not me.. and then she wonders why my brother gets upset about me getting special treatment...

shes also just. so incredibly passive aggressive. i know i said that but like i constantly assume everyone is mad at me because shes ALWAYS mad at me about something but she never SAYS what shes upset about. usually its that i dont tell her things, but when i DO tell her things OH MAN then she pulls out the disappointment.

PART THREE: OH LORD

so. the reason i'm not allowed to post about the. uh. p-word thing happening in the world right now. is because. she told me. i'm not allowed to. because i will ruin my family's life, and even if i don't have a future my family does! and if i even SPEAK of it online on a blog NOT AFFILIATED WITH MY DAD it will be traced to him and ruin his life and we will be homeless and it will be all my fault

that is the actual reason i had to delete my old blog. that is why i cannot reblog the posts. because she has this threat hanging over my head. and you may ask "why not just do it behind her back?" well,

i am kind of scared because when she says it, it sounds reasonable. and it took several people pointing out that its not really reasonable for me to even start looking at the things she says and going wait, thats...not normal

she treats me like a therapist and a family jewel, not a person. she wouldn't speak to me for an entire night when i was around 13 because i said maybe we shouldn't let alt-righters take the ok emoji from us at the dinner table. and its just. yeah. whats the point in trying anymore? the world is ending and im going to die before i hit 30 anyway!

except, like. thats. kind of awful. and its kind of awful that even after a suicide attempt at THIRTEEN my mom kept telling me these things and emphasizing how bad the future will be and how easy and good my life is now

except it isnt because i wasnt allowed to meet my friends without asking her, i wasnt allowed to go OUTSIDE without telling her, i wasnt allowed to go to the corner store or the mall or anywhere without supervision until LAST YEAR, i wasnt allowed to quit classes even when i was being called RACIAL SLURS at the age of SIX, i wasnt allowed to TELL MY THERAPIST THINGS!!

i could not. tell my therapist. about anything she did. because i knew it would come back to her somehow. i would let it slip or cps would be called. the second one is what she told me when she said "dont tell your therapist about your father hitting your brother" (he. hit him lightly with a leaf, by the way, i doubt it was even painful) and then she got angry when i did anyway

so i just stopped telling my therapist things over time because what if this was the thing that got cps called on us? what if i was the reason our life was ruined?

and now i cant start again.

great job mom.

same with meds. she makes it so im afraid to take meds. i dont take my anxiety meds that ARENT HABIT FORMING because im scared i will get addicted and anyway, more meds is more expensive and i dont need that many meds the goal of meds is to get off them someday!

and i shouldnt ask for upped doses of my meds noooo. not unless im suicidal.

god forbid i try a new med. nothing thats even close to a stimulant! nothing habit forming! i cant even do SLEEP MEDS that i DESPERATELY NEED because if she sees them when picking them up i just KNOW im going to get lectured. i cant even get fgucking MIGRAINE MEDS.

she never told me the migraines were medically significant until this year btw. :)

theres a bunch of other things but im tired and ive been typing this for an hour now. so. hitting post and praying

[perfectwastelandparadise]

I never feel like I'm enough. I have a lot of undiagnosed physical limitations. I work with them the best i can daily. Some days are better than others. My partner has a lot of disabilities and some physical limitations and so we usually work together pretty well. Well today i had started organizing some totes. Mind you I'm houseless currently so its not a lot. Two totes, four crates and four buckets plus our bedding and kitchen stuff since i have a butane stove (life saver). I chose to focus more on the crates since we had things really mixed up. I got everything organized from those four crates to three and they are categorized just to make it a little easier. It took about two hours since i kept getting distracted. Heres where the problem lies: i didnt have the energy to stack them. I cleaned a spot for them, did all the organizing, made dinner, and had everything set up. When i asked for help (which i very rarely do because of some trauma shit) my partner bitched and complained because he is hurting. There is very rarely a day where he doesn't hurt so i do 95% of everything daily. He rants when he cleans and it was all about him trying to figure out why i start projects and dont finish them, how he has to clean up after me, how he has to do shit even when he doesn't feel like it. Ive been sick for the last five days! My shoulder is numb on my dominant side, my neck is numb and tingling, my hand that i injured yesterday is swollen and my back is locked and if i asked for a small massage he works on my back for five minutes and then complains about being in pain. I know its petty but ive started withholding massages since i dont get them and i have to be the one to constantly do shit. He sits on his ass 95% of the time smoking weed and/or driving when we have gas to move our van. I smoke weed too but that's so i have the ability to get things cleaned. Tonight he said "i have given up on cleaning because its just going to get dirty again" no shit we live in it. We are having health issues because i deep cleaned it a week ago and he hasnt helped maintain any of it. We have flies, mold and who knows what else because I can't be the one to clean daily. Ive started neglecting my own health because he wont help. Idon't know what else to do. Its a damned if you do and damned if you dont situation and with winter approaching I don't want to break things off and be on the streets in the snow. He never gets what he does wrong, his apologies are empty. Ive talked to him multiple times about what my issues are and he says "ill work on it" but he snips at me over every little thing good or bad. He doesnt understand that by doing that he kicks in my depression and makes me feel like giving up. All he asks at the end of the day is "are we okay?" "What can i do to fix things?" Even if i told him he wouldn't do anything actively to fix it. Im so tired of empty apologies. I tell him "actions speak louder than words" yet nothing changes. I feel like im going insane. I cant keep doing this. My mind keeps circling the drain but i cant let other people win. But fuck...

[bossmahal]

Its been a week. This entire week all I've done is think of you. Last week was terrible, one of the most painful week I ever had my entire life. I thought something was stabbing my chest every minute. I couldnt stop screaming, calling out your name. Questioning why are we here now? It broke my heart to pieces when you said you'd hang with your friends rather than with me. I never felt so unloved and alone. I had no choice but to stomach the fact that I am no longer your priority. I didnt even get anything as to what you've been up to afterwards. Even the following days were hell. Even telling me straight you wont come visit me because you'd feel it will be forced. My stay near your workplace felt like my soul was being crushed to pieces by the minute. I had no choice but to accept your words. I felt so defeated that i could do nothing for you to have a change of heart then you came on my last night of stay.

When I saw you I was confused. Why are you here now? Are you here to end it all? Are you here to tell me you dont love me? Are you going to tell me there's someone else now? All these questions popped in my head. The pain in my chest only felt tighter with the silence we have. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to ask.

Why are you here? You said you had planned to come, you apologized that we couldnt be like we were before where I was your priority. I broke there and then. Asking why? What did I do wrong? Why did it come to this?

All you could say was you don't know. That there's a lot going on with your life. That you dont want anything. You dont want tomorrow. You dont even know what you want for the future. Including me.

I couldnt understand. Why must I disappear from your life? Why am I included on the things you want to disappear? Is there nothing I can do to change your mind? Something. Anything. I love so much I'm willing to try anything just to make us work.

You said you love me. That your feelings never changed. Then why? Why are you doing this? Your answer was you're not ok. That you lost your passion like the time you first met me. I tried to convince you still that of course people change. That we sometimes cant have all the time in the world for 1 person, it doesnt mean we have to give this up. You still said no, telling me I dont deserve that. You feel overwhelmed by my love. That I love you too much yet you cant give back. That you want to fix yourself first. The conversation went on and on till i gave out. Agreed with you that you want out.

I asked you if in the future when you're ok, would you want to get back together? You said yes but you know its impossible.

I swore right then and there that I would wait for you to be back. No matter how long. No matter how many years it would take. I can still hear you say you'd want that, I can still see your face about to cry as if wanting to believe me. I assured you I would wait. That I will love you every single day no matter what. So you'd better come back

You couldn't believe it at first. I reminded her how stubborn i can be. I'll love her for 2? 5? Yrs or till God knows when. I'll wait. I repeated this over and over till I felt you believed me. You promised you'd be back and when you do you'll make sure that nothing can break us apart.

I asked. Can you see it? In our future? Were together? That we were meant to be? You agreed. Nodding and saying yes.

We made love that night. It was so intense I can still feel it. Your skin to mine. Kissing every part of your body. Making you moan. You making me feel good. Everything is sitll in my mind.

Jan 21. This was the last day I saw and spoke to you. I remember all the things we talked about, specially our promise.

I cant forget that you shed a tear when you ask me to smile and I did. You told me I was beautiful and you'd miss me. I couldn't help myself but cry too while keeping my smile and caressing your face. I wanted to burn your face unto my memory because I dont know when I'll see you again. We talked about the past of how we used to be. We were just happy. As if we weren't breaking up, yet time was almost up. You have to go back to work. You checked your phone and saw my email and messenger message, i saw you cry after reading and told you'd better come back to me. You better message me. I'd answer you right away coz you're the only one I want to receive a message from. The only person I ever want to be with. So come back.

We said our farewells. Even called you till youre at the office. We didnt want the call to end. That call ending would start the silence between us indefinitely. I didnt want to lose you. I was willing to try anything even waiting if it meant having a chance even a 0.01% chance I'll take it coz right now that's the only think I can do. There's nothing I can do. NOTHING I can do for us. I will always love you and I'll always think of you. From a distance.

[choerrypuffs]

HI BAE MY NEW SEM JUST STARTED OGMGMOGMOG

the people are super nice!!!!! and the environment is pretty much way better than my last school which is cool as well!!!!!!!!!! the only thing is that . THEY SPEAK INDONESIAN AND I CANT SPEAK INDONESIAN FOR SHIT

idk there was a time i spoke it and a bunch of people laughed and shat on it and i think tahts why i have such anxiety when speaking it i have a fear of my own language NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

but frrr sometimes i want to break tf down whenever i hear that we have to speak indo BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM JUST SO PISSED AT MYSEL FLIKE ???????? its your language bro. learn it bro. this shouldnt give you anxiety it should be motivating you bro.

BUT HTE OTHER HALF IS LIKE ??????? what if you get everything wrong and you get bad grades and you wont get to a good college huh what happens then

2 sides of me i cant believe this

anw !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my GOD ALL THE CUTE GUYS ARE IN OTHER CLASSES NOT IN MINE LIKE </333 WHY GOD WHYYYY (lowkey moved schools to see the new hotties but . none are in my class what the FUCKCKCK)

AND DUDE OH MY GOD THE MOMENT I START SCHOOL MY WIFI CUTS OFF AND I MISS 3 ANNOUNCMENTS ALR AUUUGHGHGHGH </3333 ITS FIXED NOW BUT I MISSED 3 ANNOUNCMENTS AND 1 TUTOR CLASS :(((((

sorry for completely dumping in your inbox my love!!!!!!!!!!!11 how are you lana gogmgmogomg tell me all abotu your day/week ^^ LOVING THE NEW THEME BTW

-ccsa anon <3

ALSO AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH THE HILICHURLS BEATING YOUR ASS IS DEF NORMAL FOR YOUR LEVEL

frrr traveler supremacy they be the best character

I just pulled for kazuha and got him!!!!!!!!!!!! i was aiming for heizou but got c2 thoma instead T^T

-cssa anon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHH OMFG THIS IS ALMOST A MONTH LATE IM SO SORRY 😭😭😭 congratulations on the brand new semester, my love!!! i’m so happy everyone is nice and they’re making you feel comfortable 🥺omg don’t feel bad about not speaking indonesian well :((( i think those people laughed because they thought you were cute, but i totally get being embarrassed! my relatives laugh all the time at my very americanized chinese 💀 there is nothing wrong with not being able to speak your native language!! i understand that it can make you feel a bit left out but take things at your own pace 💕🥰 you’re super smart so i’m sure you’ll start picking it up in no time 🤩

OMG WAIT CUTE GUYS!?!??!??! 👀👀👀 DOES THIS MEAN YOU’RE GONNA HAVE YOUR OWN FRIENDS TO LOVERS HIGH SCHOOL AU !!!! omg ccsa anon you are literally y/n 🧎🏻‍♀️update me on your future love story <3 it’s ok that they’re not in your class, it’ll be like a star-crossed lovers trope 😍

wtfffff i’m sorry your missed so much :(((( i hope you were excused for all of those since it’s the school’s fault 😡 did you manage to catch up pretty easily? 

NO BC IM SO SCARED OF HILICHURLS AND THE SLIMES I RUN AWAY EVERY TIME I SEE ONE IN THE WILD IM LITERALLY SUCH A LITTLE BITCH 😭😭😭 when i got that domain where you get lisa as a character i died like 10 times i almost had to get cat to log in and clear it for me 💔 but congrats on getting kazuha!! 🥳 i hope you can get heizou next time <3333

omg don’t apologize for updating me!! it makes me super happy when i see you in my inbox 🥰 I apologize for answering so late omg but i just started grad school and i’ve been so busy it’s not even funny 🤧 i’m also a TA so i’ve been trying to balance everything 🥴 ahhhh thank you so much!! i finally did a theme that isn’t pink LMAO but anyways!!! how have you been, my love!! how is school going?

[elaineplayz]

Feels Like I’m Cheating On You

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Pairing: Bakugou x Female Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff (Sorry, I can’t write an Angst without a Fluff, my heart couldn’t take it)

Warning: Slight KiriBaku (No, Kiri and Baku didn’t like each other here, they’re just bros here!), and Heartbroken Izuku (Not physically, but because that he realized that Y/N didn’t love him in a romantical way), Yelling, Cussing, no censor at the bad words, Couple Fight, Broke up, Suicidal attempts.

Word Count: 2102 Words

 About Y/N

Name: Y/N Shinsou

Quirk: Time Manipulation, she could make thing grow older, or younger. It’s also working to living thing, human it’s not an exception so she could heal them, or herself. She also can fix broken thing. She also can make time go to yesterday, or tomorrow, but of course, she cant make people forget about what happened about today just because she reverse the time. She could time teleport, but she can do it just for 4 hours, if more than it, her nose and mouth will started to bleed, and she will feel a very painful dizziness.

Related to: Hitoshi Shinsou (Cousin from F/N’s twin), Todoroki Shoto (Cousin from M/N’s cousin, Rei) and All Might (Uncle from M/N)

Get into U.A. by: Recommendation

Childhood friend of Midoriya and Bakugou

Height: 5'7 (170 cm)

Hobby: Creating songs, play music. Yea, she get along with Jirou very well

Y/N’s POV

Huft, who knows that working at Sir Nighteye’s agency will be this tiring. Saving Eri… Poor girl, she have to be an experiment tool since her childhood. I want to tell Katsuki, Hitoshi or Shoto but we have to keep this secret…

“Shinsou-san!” Iida called me.

“Yes Iida-kun?”

“Can you give this to Aizawa-sensei? If the Class Rep can’t doing his job, of course the Class Deputy is going to do that right?”

I sighed. Who the hell voted me? I didn’t asked to be voted, why do they vote me? There’s Momo that more responsible, I want to hand this job to her, but I realized this will be good for be a leader experience.

I nodded than take the documents.

“Arigatou Shinsou-san!”

“Ah, Douita! Well, gotta go”

After I gave the document, I walked to my dorm, but…

“Y/N!!!” Mina hugged me; she’s shaking.

“Yes, Mina?”

“C-can you help me?” She asked

“About-?”

“I just spill Uraraka’s juice!”

“Uraraka’s? Oh shit, you’re really messed up” I replied, while she dragged me into Momo’s room. I saw Momo shaking, and I look at the juice bottle.

Oh, Momo didn’t know where to buy that juice isn’t she?

I touched the juice and the bottle, then the juice is getting inside the bottle, that are floating. After the juices get all in, the bottle is already on the table.

“Thank you, Y/N!” Momo bowed.

“Hey no problem! Quit that bowing shit!”

“I don’t know how to say thanks, so take this!” Momo started to create something. And when its done, she gave me an… ENERGY BAR? She’s really a ‘Class’s Mom’, I wonder why they didn’t chosen her.

“Thanks, Momo” I walked into my dorm room, take a bath, then I get down waiting for dinner.

“Y/N-Chan, what do you think Lunch Rush’s Chef will cook for us?” Asked Izuku

“I dunno, what I know is I’m hungry, and I just wanna eat” I replied

Izuku chuckled, I’m the only girl that he can talk with normally, cuz he always got all flustered with other girls.

*Bruk*

Kaminari accidentally dropped a mug full of hot tea at my lap.

“WHAT THE FUCK?!” I yelled at Kaminari, seriously?

“I’M SORRY!” Kaminari apologized, while he’s trying to clean the mess.

“Huft, no need to clean this, I reverse this thing’s time” I started to see the mug is go to Kaminari’s hand, when the tea is get into the mug, and my baggy pants started to dry.

-After eating-

What a terrible day. I get into my room; I look at my messy room. Ugh, I’mma clean this room. After I cleaned the room, maybe it takes 15-30 Minutes to clean my mess. I was going to sat at my bed and then…

*Kreet*

Katsuki… I hope he wont make me mad, today is the worst, don’t make it even worser. I look at Katsuki, he look bruised here and there.

“Welcome back, How’s training?” I asked.

“Shitty”

“Oh my, you’re bruised here and there!” I started to take a med kit.

“Shut up” He glared.

“What-?”

“I SAID, SHUT THE FUCK UP!” He yelled.

“I only commented! Let me heal y- “He stitched his hand from me.

“Don’t touch me”

I inhaled.

“I’M JUST WORRIED, OKAY? I’M JUST GOING TO HEAL YOU, WHY DID YOU ALWAYS TAKE IT WITH EGO?!” I yelled.

Katsuki glared daggers at me, his eyes widened, explosion started to form.

I’m really pissed and disappointed right now, because of that, tears started to rush down from my eyes.

“Get out, WE ARE OVER!”

Katsuki’s eyes started to look disappointed, why? I don’t know. “Did you just broke up with me?”

“Yea”

“Goodbye…” “Goodbye… Bakugou”

Bakugou stomped away from my room.

Bakugou’s POV

I started to make explosion using my hand, Y/N looked at me with a disappointed look, tears started to form at her eyes. My expression softened.

“Get out, WE ARE OVER!” She yelled.

My eyes widen, my expression hardened.

“Did you just broke up with me?”

“Yea”

“Goodbye…” “Goodbye… Bakugou”

My heart is broken into pieces, even maybe her quirk couldn’t fix it.

I stomped away from her room, little that she know, I started crying after I get out from her room.

I get into my room, there’s Pinky, Earphone, Soy-Face, Dunce-Face, and Shitty Hair.

“We heard you and Shinsou’s yells. So, you two broken up?” Dunce Face spoke up.

“You should’ve known that she has a bad day, she’s a lil grumpy today. Ofc some of us haven’t noticed, because it’s just a little. She couldn’t stop swearing or mumbling under her breath” Earphone added.

“But Bakugou, I’m sure you two will make up again” Soy face assured.

“I don’t think so- “Pinky mumbled. I choose to ignore it

“Bakubro, if you need a shoulder to cry, you have us!” Shitty Hair grinned with his stupid grin.

I walked to him and cries, and the rest of them started to hugging us.

But why it feels like I’m cheating on Y/N? I’m just hugging Shitty Hair; we even didn’t have any romantic relationship…

Izuku’s POV

Broke up? Kacchan and Y/N?

I don’t know I should be happy or sad…

I liked her since childhood…

Flashback

“Are you alright?” I asked to Kacchan.

“DEKUUU!” Kacchan’s face started to redden because of anger, and he explode my face, hopefully he didn’t draws any blood there.

“Kacchan! What the hell is wrong with you?” Y/N ran to me and Kacchan. She used her quirk to heal me.

“Why did you even be friend with a quirkless useless loser like him?!” Kacchan replied.

“A quirkless people isn’t useless! God is create all of this, and all of them is not useless! His dream is to be a hero, but hero is not as simple as have a cool quirk and fight villains! Our parents is our hero, even if their job isn’t a hero! Even if our parents is a villain, they brought us here! To the world! Even if Izuku is just a Quirkless Useless Loser, I rather be friend with him than with a Quirky Mean Bully like you!” She defended me.

Flashback End

She also preventing me from suicide.

Flashback

Kacchan walked away with his gank, there’s only me and Y/N left in the classroom. I stared blankly to the window. I walked and thinking about Kacchan’s ‘advice’. I climbed to stand at the window, my feet is going to step forward but-

“IZUKU DON’T!” Y/N pulled me inside the classroom.

“Why do you care?” I asked.

“You’re my only bestfriend, Izu! If you committed suicide, you’ll leave me here! Don’t, don’t do it just because that Meanie Pomeranian said so!” She cried.

“Sorry” I hugged her.

Flashback End

When she said that I can be a hero to All Might

Flashback

“He can be a hero! C’mon Uncle! If you can, why he can’t?”

“Y/N- “All Might looked at Y/N. Wait, he knew Y/N’s name?

“It’s his dream since childhood you know?!”

Flashback End

Maybe I should visit her now-? Or tomorrow? Maybe tomorrow, she hated when someone came at her when she’s absolutely pissed, the only person she’d let to interacting with her is only Todoroki-kun and Shinsou-kun.

Y/N’s POV

After Bakugou left my room, I jumped to my bed then cried…

*Knock knock*

“Get in” I answered.

I saw Shoto and Hitoshi came in, Hitoshi hugged me.

“It’s okay, you don’t need to question how can I came here.” Hitoshi smiled, I hugged him back. I looked at Shoto, he’s only looked at his hand, then hugged me too.

Shoto’s POV

I heard Y/N and Bakugou argued, they never been like this before. And when I heard Y/N’s sobs, I call Shinsou, even if my room is next to her room, I still can’t make people feels better.

“Hello Shinsou?”

“Oh, it’s you, what happen to Y/N?” Shinsou asked.

“How did you know it’s about her?”

“C’mon, it’s obvious. You wouldn’t need me if it’s not ‘bout Y/N.” He chuckled.

“Bakugou and Y/N broke up, I heard her sobs”

“What!? That rude bastard… Since I first met him in front of your class, I already know that he’s the worst! And when I found out that he’s dating Y/N, I already have a bad feeling!” Shinsou started to cuss. Shinsou is very protective about Y/N, not mentioning that I’m protective either.

“Open the front dorm door” Shinsou said.

“Since when you already there?! Ok wait!” I’m surprised, he’s fast.

I walked too 1st Floor, there I saw Iida and Yaoyorozu looked at the door, looking suspicious.

“Oh Todoroki-kun! I’m glad you’re here! I’m kinda suspicious, someone knocked the door! It’s not normal for Aizawa-sensei too go to our dorm at night!” Iida explained.

“No need to be suspicious, it’s just Shinsou” I replied.

“Shinsou-kun? Oh… Yea I understand”

I opened the door, Shinsou stomped in, ignoring Iida and Yaoyorozu.

Next Day

Y/N’s POV

I use my U.A. Uniform, take my suitcase (Hero Suitcase, y’know, that one if we open the suitcase, there’s the hero costume), and I go to the first floor, waiting for Izuku, Kirishima, Uraraka and Tsu.

“Oi Shinsou!” Kirishima called.

“Yeah?”

“Take this” He gave me an energy bar.

“Woah thanks”

“No problem, we have no time to take breakfast after all” He grinned with a sharky tooth grin.

“Guys let’s go!” Uraraka run at us, followed by Izuku and Tsu.

We have a meeting with heroes, plus Aizawa-sensei, after that Izuku asked something to me.

“Umm… Y/N, I have something to say” Izuku’s face redden immediately.

“Okay, what it’s about?” I asked, confused.

“I heard, you and Kacchan broke up yesterday, I’m sorry! I just wanna tell you that I already have feelings for you since childhood! Please date me! I know, it’s like I’m using the situation, but when I wanna confess to you, Kacchan and you already dating! I know you didn’t like me in that way, but please give me a chance!” Izuku’s face being as red as Kirishima’s hair.

I don’t know what makes me give him a chance…

“Okay Izu, I gave you the chance” I answered.

“Really? Thank you!” Izuku hugged me.

but I didn’t know that Kirishima is watching us.

Izuku grab my hand and walked home, I mean to the dorms.

But when he grab my hand its feels like I’m cheating on Bakugou

Everytime Izuku and I talk, my mind is always thinking about Bakugou… Yea I know… I’m still in love with him but I cant handle his anger anymore, I’m DONE. After saving Eri and U.A. School Festival, I write a song script, and then I take my guitar and stated to sing.

 “It started with a kiss

On our dorm’s couch

2012 was nothing serious

And then we caught the feels

It got really real

Too good to be true

I guess I thought you was, yeah”

I sighed, then continued

 “Why did I run away, run away, run away?

Oh, your love was everything, everything, everything

I know it's gettin' late, gettin' late, gettin' late

But can I still be on my way, on my way? Yeah~?”

I sobbed

 “I know I said, ‘Goodbye’, and, baby, you said it too…

But when I touch him, I feel like I'm cheating on you

I thought that I'd be better when I found someone new

But when I touch him, I feel like I'm cheating on you”

Katsuki, do you feel this too?

 “Baby, now, oh, cheating on you

Baby, now

But when I touch him, I feel like I'm cheating on you”

I stopped, because Izuku opened my door.

“Y/N… you know, I already think about this…” Izuku’s voice sounded sad.

“About?”

“I realized that you still loved Kacchan, and Kacchan is always glanced at you, but not with a hateful expression, but missing someone expression.” Izuku started.

“So, I think we should broke up, I didn’t want to hurt myself more seeing this. I’ll try move on and make you two together” He grinned, but his eyes is not smiling.

“I’m sorry Izuku, I’m sorry for trying to use you as tool to get over my love for Bakugou!” I cried.

“It’s okay Y/N-san, love can’t be forced”

“So, you’re still in love with me huh?” I heard a familiar voice, I looked at the door.

“B-Bakugou?”

“Dumbass” He muttered, than hugged me.

“I’m also still in love with you”

“B-“

“Katsuki, now, we’re dating again, right?”

I nodded. I forgot that Izuku is still here, watching me and Katsuki with a heartbroken look.

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Anonymous asked:

Hello! I like your blog and the little comments here and there makes me laugh at times hehe ^^ May I request headcanons for Vil, Leona, Mal, and Floyd reactions and what they'll do to reconcile w/ the reader after a very hearted argument to which Reader may have said "I hate you" before storming out. Would they wait for a bit? A few days or hours? Or would they be upfront with their apology immediately? Reader also apologizes at the end, crying slightly if that's okay. If you notice me, thanks! 

°•°•𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐇𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐌𝐞?•°•°•

HC's with: Leona, Vil, Floyd, and Malleus.

Note: Ofc, I was late yet again. Pls forgive me dear sir... And ofc tumblr hates me so it won't cooperate! Drafts got deleted 3 times.... so if it somehow becomes inconsistent... I DEEPLY APOLOGIZE! STONE ME GENTLY! anyways, i hope you enjoy this, actually no, I beg that you enjoy this?! Idk lololololololololol.

[𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚝𝚎𝚊 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚠𝚎𝚍? 𝙸𝚍𝚔 𝚕𝚘𝚕]

°•°•°•𝙇𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙖 𝙆𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙡𝙖𝙧 •°•°•°

“I HATE YOU!” with bits of tears in your eyes, you slammed the door shut behind you leaving Leona dumbfounded all by himself.

You hate him?You hate him!?!? Is that like for real??? He’ll scratch the back of his head in shame of pushing things too far to the point you were in tears.

But what can he do? His pride caught the best of him and he acted rash in the heat of the moment. This prideful lion just doesn’t know when to shut up smh.ಥ‿ಥ

He’ll try to remember when did everything started to go wrong, but he'll just get more and more guilty the more he thinks about it.

“Tchhhh... I messed up big time...”

It's not his style to give up easily, but his mind was set in a frenzy the moment he thinks about you leaving him.

A day without you started to become dull and boring the moment he grew fond of you. So it somehow became a habit of his to constantly seek you unconsciously. Whether it's a whiff of your scent, your voice ringing in the hallways, even the sound of your footsteps is something he could easily recognize.

But now that the two of you fought, this lion will find any way possible to avoid you seeing him.

Yeah... it will probably take a while for him to apologize...(꒦ິ⌓꒦ີ)

But when the time does come, expect Leona to prepare a simple yet sincere apology.

“Oi herbivore... Sorry about the other day ok? I missed my pillow for a while now...I lose...”

Simple yet sincere :') The prideful arrogant lion somehow learned to apologize despite his ego way ahead of him. He can't stand the thought of loosing you ok? (｡•́︿•̀｡)

°•°•°•°•𝙑𝙞𝙡 𝙎𝙘𝙝𝙤𝙚𝙣𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙩•°•°•°•°•

“VIL STOP IT! I hate this! I hate everything! I hate you!” you quickly ran away to the door as vil stood in his spot stupefied.

You hate him? You hate the Vil Schoenheit himself?Then so be it...

Vil is basically pissed and angry™. Moreover, you had the guts and audacity to tell him you hate him. His pride was shattered in front of him. And he's not happy about that (꒦ິ⌓꒦ີ)

Nope. Nah. Never. He's not apologizing anytime sooner now. He'll be waiting for that spicy well deserved apology you have for him...

He'll try his best to avoid you and give you the sassy cold shoulder treatment™. It will probably last for a few days or maybe a week. He has his pride y’know?

Not until he hears a muffled sob in the hallways and realized it was your voice. You looked visibly upset and sad as you cried your heart out, all alone in the empty hallways.

Oh no... What did he do? Was his nagging that bad? Did he take it too far with the makeovers? Guilt ate his soul away as he tried to sort out his thoughts with the clear image of your crying face embedded in his mind.

“Okay... Maybe I did take it a little too far...”

Making up his mind, Vil will try to make everything set for tomorrow and apologize to you to fix this feud  you both have. ( ╹▽╹ )

When classes are over and the two of you finally get to be alone, Vil will try to straighten this misunderstanding now! ( ꈍᴗꈍ)

“Hey Y/n I just want to tell you... I'm sorry.” “Vil I'm so sorry for the other day!-”

The both of you stared at each other with shock... Did the both of you just say sorry at the same time?

“Pfffttttt-” The both of you laugh from how hilarious this moment was. It felt as if the fight you had didn't happened at all. (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)

“Y/n I'm sorry... I took it too far with what I do without asking your opinion first...”

“Yeah... I'm sorry I lashed out at you too... That was petty...”

Vil will definitely make a million dollar once in a lifetime seen smile, so you better treasure this rare sight!!!(｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

“No more fighting, okay? ”

•°•°•°•°•𝙁𝙡𝙤𝙮𝙙 𝙇𝙚𝙚𝙘𝙝•°•°•°•°•°

“Floyd I hate you!” you slammed your way out of the table, running away from Floyd.

Angering Floyd was not the brightest Idea in the book. His infamous “bad moods” was not something anyone would like to experience. But somehow, he was really pushy and annoying today and you were fed up with it.

“Ahhhh~ Koebi-chan hates me now? what do I do?”

Thankfully, Floyd wasn’t really angry, though he was sad and heart broken that his favorite person said they hated him.(╥╭╮╥)

Floyd is an impulsive boi, so he might secretly follow you to see your face or something lol.

Ofc, Knowing Floyd, he’d definitely skip classes and skip his job at the Mostro Lounge  due to his mood swings. Ofc, a certain octoboi wasn’t really happy with this.

Azul will probs tell Jade to help out his brother or something, lol Azul be secretly worrying for the two of you loooool.

However, with the help of Jade, the mushroom eel himself, he can guide his brother to make up with you!!!

Thank god mushroom eel is here to save the day! ( ´◡‿ゝ◡`)

A fight with Floyd won’t really last long. Because Floyd being Floyd, he’ll naturally come to you like nothing ever happened! That’s why you have to be patient and understanding when it comes to Floyd ok?

With the biggest hug from behind you. There was a cute eel boi that has come to ambush you with love!

“Shrimppy! Don’t avoid meeee! I miss you so much so hang out with me at the Mostro Lounge againnn!”

Floyd is not really good with his words nor his apologies. Though, his blunt and honest demeanor is definitely one of his charming points!!!! (☆▽☆)

“Shrimpy! I have some takoyaki with me! let’s share them together ok?!”

Ugh, Floyd is too cute... It would be a capital sin to not forgive him and decline his offer! Tsk I’m watching you, you better accept that apology!

•°•°•°•𝙈𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙪𝙨 𝘿𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙞𝙖•°•°•°

“MALLEUS I HATE YOU!”

Shock. Pure shock. You hate him? The last thing Malleus wants is to hurt your feelings. In his eyes, humans are delicate and vulnerable beings, so he tries his best to protect you and treat you with utter delicacy. Yet it seems as if he failed to do that...

Just before you slam the door behind you and escape this fight, a hand grabs your wrist in attempts to stop you. Nonetheless you still make your way out, leaving Malleus standing there alone.

Malleus was deeply hurt and sorry for making you sad and angry. His heart was shattered with the thought of you leaving him, someone who made their way this close to his heart, someone he cherishes deeply.

But this fight wont really last long because Malmal would definitely try and apologize as quickly as possible!(ᓀ˵▾˵ᓂ)

Malleus is the soft type of person and I feel like he’d give up easily if it was you lol.(｡•́︿•̀｡)

Even if his apology was heard but not accepted, he’d gladly say his sorry no matter how much time and patience it will take, just for you to forgive him.༎ຶ‿༎ຶ

He’ll try to give you and Hour or two to clear your mind, then he’ll apologize!

Standing in front of your room, he’ll knock lightly at the door in front of him... No answer... So you’re still mad huh?

Leaning his forehead at the door, He’ll try to talk to you in hope for you to come out of your room. But nahhh, no signs of you leaving your room soo (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

He’ll mutter apologies after another just in case you hear them :’D

“Y/n I’m sorry for hurting your feelings earlier... that was rash of me to say, so I truly apologize... I hope my feelings reach you.”

Hearing his voice, it would prolly sound as if he’s ready to cry any moment by now. You’d be a monster if you don’t forgive this fae cutie!!!(┛◉Д◉)┛彡┻━┻

When you finally come out of the door to see him. I bet you he’s moment away from his tear dripping down. Ó╭╮Ò

“You’re not mad now right? Then is it fine to ask if we eat some ice cream later?”

You bet that Malleus would give you the biggest  cheeriest grin in the entire world! oh the things you keep doing to him never surprises him. Pls dont leave this cinnamon roll or else-

That's it cuties! I need to sleep now- my classes are thriving, but I'm not!!!

God, school stuff are taking away my precious freedom and time for writing smh.

Oh god, I'm ranting again... What's new? AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Anyways, I need to woosh now and I hope you enjoyed this one!!!

[bridgyrose]

Heya! If you're up for it, how would Cinder come out to Ruby as ace? Would she even have the words to describe how she is feeling? Just a little something that I thought your writing would do good XD

Cinder paced around the front room of her apartment, running over the words she wanted to tell Ruby. After two years of dating, she was finally ready to fully come out to her. Though, she still feared how Ruby would take everything.

“Cinder, relax, she’s not going to hate you,” Mercury said, trying to reassure Cinder. “I mean, she’s been head over heels for you for a while now. What could possibly go wrong?”

“She could think I’m broken. Or weird. Or… or break up with me.”

Emerald sighed. “And if she does, then she wasnt worth it.”

Cinder frowned at her teammate. “That’s not the point.”

“Then what is it? Because all I see is you fretting over nothing.”

“The point is, she’s going to hate me for this.” Cinder sat down and sighed. The fingers on her prosthetic twitched as she nervously rested her arm on her leg as it bounced. “We’ve been dating long enough that she finally asked when we were going to take our relationship to the next step and I… I havent been able to tell her that I’m just not interested in that stuff. We’ve been intimate in other ways, her fixing my prosthetic after missions and us cuddling and even sharing a bed when we have the opportunity, but… I’m not entirely sure if I’m enough for her.”

“I still think you should just break up with her if she doesnt take it well.”

“Emerald-”

“I’m serious.” Emerald stood up and walked over to Cinder. “If she cant accept you for you, no matter what, then it wasnt worth it. Relationships arent all about sex.”

Cinder raised a brow. “Really? You of all people are going to say that? I hear you every night!”

Mercury shook his head. “What Em is trying to say is that it might be worth seeing if Ruby really does love you. I mean, you guys are always fighting and if she cant accept this part of you-”

“I know she loves me!” Cinder sighed and slumped a bit. “Sure, we get into fights over the little things a lot, but… she never did try to intentionally hurt me. Even after debates get heated, she’s always the first to apologize when she’s in the wrong. And she comes to me when she knows I’m hurt. I just… I just worry that this will be what makes her see me differently.”

“Then just tell her.” Emerald smiled at Cinder. “Go through with your date plans tonight and tell her at the end of the night.”

Cinder nodded. “Alright, but I still need a little help making everything perfect.”

Mercury grinned. “Just tell us what to do.”

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Ruby smiled as she sat across from Cinder, looking at her through the lit candles. “And you did all of this by yourself?”

Cinder shook her head. “I had a bit of help from Emerald and Mercury to make sure everything was perfect. You know me, I… burn most of what I cook.”

“Still, you didnt need to go all out like that.”

“But I wanted to.”

Ruby shook her head and grinned. “We’ve only been together for two years, its not like we’re getting married already.”

“No, but two years is still a feat.” Cinder’s smile faded. “And… I actually had something I wanted to talk to you about.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well… you know how you’ve asked if we can… you know, go farther than what we have?”

“Right…”

Cinder sighed and started playing around with her food. “I… I’m not… I’m not interested in having sex. At all.”

Ruby paused for a moment. “Like… never?”

“I wont say never, I just… I like what we have right now. And sex has never really crossed my mind. I like the small, intimate things we do already. Like cuddling and the way you work on my prosthetic a-and just… the little things we do…”

Ruby nodded and slowly ate her meal, mulling over what Cinder had told her. After a few silent minutes, she finally spoke. “Then we dont need to worry about it.”

Cinder hesitated. “I… I dont…”

“We dont need to worry about sex.” Ruby stood up and walked to Cinder, kissing her cheek. “We’ll be intimate in the ways you want to be. And if we ever find something else we can do that you’re comfortable with, I wouldnt mind trying it out.”

Cinder relaxed a bit and kissed Ruby back. “Thank you.”

“Now that’s over with, can we be done with the fancy dinner and just… cuddle and watch a movie? We really dont need to make today a big deal.”

Cinder rolled her eyes. “You say that like you dont like the fancy things.”

“I can appreciate them, but I’ve been watching you force yourself on behaving for the last couple hours.” Ruby picked up her wine glass and took a sip. “I know you hate this.”

“Am I really that easy to read?”

“Only because I know you so well.”

[fanficmaniatic]

The "Anti-Chat" Theory.

(Which is also why Chat Blanc 2.0 wont work and why Ladybug needs to be akumatized).

This is a turducken on my thoughts for S4 and the future of the show so just roll with it.

So, Season 4 has been wild so far, and if clues given by the writers and people involved in show are any indication, this is only the beginning, we are in for a bumpy ride and things are just going to keep getting worse.

In all the discourse revolving season 4 something that we are all mentioning is how “Chat Blanc” is still a thing and there is no guarantee it won’t happen again. If anything it now seems more likely Chat Noir will get akumatized considering the imminent Ladynoir fallout, and how Adrien is still living with his Father, as his isolation keeps getting worse. And though I am always In for some good Character angst, and I feel like it is necessary for Adrien to know about Chat Blanc, and/or for Chat Blanc to reappear, I don’t think Chat Blanc 2.0 is something Adrien nor the show needs right know.

This theory has many parts, I promise it all ties neatly at the end.

First things first, I may be a little biased, Chat Blanc is an episode I really enjoy. I love Time Travel shenanigans, and I was dying to see Adrien finally find out about his father. The heavy consequences of the episode were obviously erased, but the impact of it all still remains trough Marinette, whom we see in the episode ‘Sentibbubler’ is having nightmares about the whole thing. But still, I love the episode, and I really don’t want an “Stormy Weather 2”… which is an episode I heavily dislike, compared to THE BEST formulaic episode of the Whole show, a.k.a “Stormy Weather” a.k.a My favorite episode. So yeah, this whole first point is just me REALLY not wanting an episode called “Chat Blanc 2.0” But there is more to it, and is the fact that I don’t see how it could work out.

“Chat Blanc 2.0” is unnecessary, and the reason why is that bringing him back wouldn’t actually do anything besides perhaps bringing Ladynoir further apart. Ladybug still CAN’T know Chat noir’s identity, (Let’s be honest and admit that’s prolly s4 finale OR happening during s5) so the show would go out of its way to make his dialogue as plain as possible without mentioning his father being hawkmoth. And yes, I do realize that Chat has been bottling his emotions and it all is likely to come out during THE ladynoir fall out… But people are ignoring the elephant in the room which is that Chat Noir DOES NOT fight Ladybug.

I promise this is relevant.

Chat Noir, unless mind controlled, would never attack Ladybug. The most clear example of this is in “Gamer 2.0” when he straight up says “I could never bring myself to fight you” as he sacrifices himself for her, that added to their classic “Is us against the world, My Lady” every season finale, and Marinette’s “In case something happens to me” In ‘Optygami’, it all could pretty well be a foreshadowing of a Ladynoir fight, where Ladybug is akumatized, and Chat has to willingly fight her. Yes, one could argue that he did fight her during ‘Chat Blanc’, but it could also be read as more of him trying to make her listen.

Where am I going with this? Chat Blanc 2.0 would be unable to bring the nuance the story needs right now. Chat Blanc still wouldn’t fight his father, because I doubt they won’t leave that for season 5. Chat Blanc still doesn’t have a motive to actually fight Ladybug. But the most important part is… What would happen at the end? What would be the change? What conversation are we having? What would be different than what we got in the original Chat Blanc?

To be fair, maybe I am wrong, maybe it can work out, this is just a theory. Maybe all the things I crossed out as impossible will actually happen, but I have been watching the show for 6 years, and If I have learned something about it, is that it is a slow burn, in ALL the aspects.

So yes, I believe Ladybug/Marinette needs to be akumatized, but I also think that Adrien has to learn about Chat Blanc, and that Chat Blanc needs to reappear, having a bigger Role than just a nightmare. So… how does that tie with everything I just said? Easy, the “Anti- Chat” Theory’

So you probably remember “Anti-Bug”, one of the best episodes from season 1, where Chole tries to help Ladybug, she doesn’t listen, and Chloe ends up being akumatized into “Ladybug but evil” … In theory, that is the deal, and is no wonder I am picking Felix Graham De Vanily to fill this role.

From an animation perspective, Felix is the obvious choice, he is identical to Adrien, and if following Anti-bug’s logic in costume desing, that would mean they can reuse Chat Blanc model with no alteration needed.

Now, How would this work? By giving Ladybug a jump scare. She thinks she has to live one of her worst nightmares again, to then find out “Oh… This is not Chat Noir” while still creating enough tension, by looking scared and distraught, that she HAS to tell him that she is scared of him being akumatized WITHOUT actually needing to mention the alternative timeline. This gives Chat noir the chance to lash out, once he realizes this is part of why ladybug is keeping him away, which can lead to Ladybug’s future akumatization.

Why this way? And please hear me out. Chat Noir NEEDS to let his emotions out, and I don’t think lashing out at ladybug is the best way but I see it as necessary. Adrien needs to take on more responsibility while being Chat, but he also needs to learn how to healthy express his emotions, because he is not allowed to do that in his current situation. Ladybug being akumatized because she feels guilty about Chat Noir allows Adrien to do BOTH. Because to save Ladybug he would have to realize “My emotions are valid, and is okey to let them out, but the way I did it was not the right one”, and both Ladybug and Chat Noir would have to apologize because this whole thing is not miscommunication… is a misunderstanding of their partners character. Ladybug needs to relay more on Chat and Chat needs to take on more responsibility… it won’t happen if Ladybug is the one that needs to save Chat Noir.

Adrien needs to realize that he needs to save himself, and that there’s people outside of his father that care for him. Ladybug is this figure that he looks up to and Admires, and is from a side of his life that his father has no control over, (At least from his perspective). So if she forgives him, if they are able to fix their relationship he will realize that things can get better.

Now, going back to Anti-Chat… his deal is way bigger than just bringing The Ladynoir fight… Is about setting up seasons 6 and 7.

What do we know so far? The Love Square and Gabriel’s Hawkmoth is going to come to an end by season 5. Which has left many fans wondering “Then what is happening on seasons 6 and 7?” And the best answer we have so far is in the episode “Timetagger” where Bunnix reveals that there is a whole team of miraculous holders fighting the Hawkmoth of the future, which is by the same episode confirmed to not be Gabriel Agreste. Besides this, I think it is safe to assume that the specials are quietly setting up themes that could come back In seasons 6 and 7.

Now, when speaking about characters that could be future villains the fandom seems to have its collective mind set on two individuals: Lila Rossi, and Felix Graham De Vanily.

Besides ‘Rocketear’, (E17), ‘Wishmaker’ (E18), and the special ’Shadow Moth’s last attack’ (Eps 25&26) we don’t know the names of the episodes of the second half of the season, which is really uncommon for miraculous ladybug, and the reason they gave us as to why is “You would know who is akumatized based on the names”… Which AGAIN, is really uncommon for ML. If you have been in this fandom for a long time you’ll realize that most people working in the show don’t really seem to care about spoilers. Now, this is kinda a conspiracy theory, but If you saw that there was an episode called “Anti-Chat” would you have assume it was any one other than Felix?…. No, right? That’s what I though. Miraculous has proven that it is good at subverting expectations, so when they are pointing at something (like a Chat Blanc 2.0 episode) it may not be as we want or suspected it to be. So I think an Anti-Chat episode makes a lot of sense.

Now, Why am I saying that this can set up future season? Buckle up, pals, here we go. What do we know about Felix?

He is evil, or at the very least seems to be ill-intentioned, if his attitude and look at the end of his episode is anything to go by.

He is after jewelry. Which, yeah, was only shown in that one episode he appeared, but this could pretty much be a foreshadowing of him later on going after the miraculous.

We know that he is bound to appear 3 more times

For this theory to work, I need it to happen in episode 22… Yes, the feared 100th episode of the show. It is not as important why Felix is akumatized, but what is happening WHILE he is akumatized.

Besides what has already been discussed, with Ladybug being scared, Ladynoir should not be able to work together. They are tumbling on each other because Chat Noir feels like she doesn’t trust him, but Ladybug NEEDS his reassurance right now, which he wont give.

This, is directly parallel with what is happening between Anti-Chat and Shadow Moth. Because Felix, even though he wants the miraculous, he won’t let himself be bossed around. He is demanding things from SM, and like in Robustus, Anti-Chat tries to, not just take Ladybug’s and Chat noir’s Miraculous, he wants to destroy Hawkmoth too. Which will lead to Shadow Moth being the reason he gets de-akumatized, instead Ladybug and Chat Noir saving him... bringing more fuel to the Ladynoir fire.

Now, Why should Felix have an attitude with Shadow Moth? Well, my friends… Do you remember, years ago, when the producers of the show said “The peacock miraculous holder will make Hawkmoth look like a baby”…. That’s not Mayura. Nathalie is a great miraculous holder, and she is really clever. But instead of making Gabriel look like a baby, she makes him look smart because he has someone like her on his team. What I am saying with this is that Felix, will suspect/ figure out Gabriel is Hawkmoth at the en of Anti-Chat, and that he will get the peacock miraculous during “The Last attack of Shadow Moth.” Thus, setting up a villain for future seasons.

This makes Felix 3 appearances be: In episode 22 (Anti-Chat), In episode 26 (SM last attack, part 2), and during S5’s finale. Felix situation will be much like Lila’s during s1 and s2 where she was introduced at the end of the first but not used until the end of the second.

Conclusion:

Felix Graham de Vanily has the potential to be a future villain and bring the Ladynoir conflict to finally surface.

And to clarify, The Ladynoir conflict, just like this Felix theory, is not something that will, nor can get resolved in one episode. If anything the fight will be around the end of season 4, and it will get resolved during season 5.

But again, this is just a theory, and I will probably be death wrong, but who knows?

[germvity]

rises the moon

leon s kennedy x reader // 3 // hell's comfort

"come sit down, jill. we'll explain." leon gestures to the cot as you rest your head on his bicep. "sure." jill shrugs, following the two of you in, and settling down on the other end of the makeshift bed. when leon sits with his back against the wall, you curl up into his side, still uncertain of jill's company as the blonde speaks to her about what he's gathered so far.

genre: angst with comfort, fluff <3

tags: leon being a sweetie/protective, he wants to help, jill still may be ooc im sorry :(, big bully david >:(, there will be bullying in this chap, the entity (tm), leon literally being a big puppy, cuddles!, biggie slow burn. the entity literally just vibing. handcuffs 🥵, fighting

warnings: bullying + violence, fighting, crying, angst

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jill had left to think already, leaving the two of you alone. both she and leon wanted to help you, but you don't know how they could when it was you (and leon) against the world here. "c'mon, you must be hungry." leon smiles, offering you his hand when he gets up. "not really.." you mumble, avoiding his soft gaze. "really? you haven't eaten since... well i'm not sure but you haven't eaten yet! let's keep your strength up." leon says, taking your smaller hand in his and leading you in the direction of the campsite. "wait! i don't wanna go there..!" you cry, jerking backwards to your shack, pulling leon with you. "okay, okay." leon grabs your arms to give them soothing rubs as he hushes you incase anyone hears your panic. "you wait in the shack, and i'll go get us some food, yeah?" the officer smiles but you refuse to let him go so easily. "can't we wait a little longer..?" you pout and leon sighs. "no, i'm making it my duty to take care of you, and that includes making sure you eat." he says, letting go of you to take your hands. "i'll keep you safe. i promise." you can't help but give in, following leon towards the campsite reluctantly.

you tense at the sight of the others, but they didn't see you or leon, too busy wrapped up in conversations. "come on whilst they're unaware." leon whispers, leading you to the fake kitchen area the entity had set up. a pot of oatmeal bubbled, and you grimaced at the sight and smell of it. "hmm.. there has to be something around here..." leon hums to himself, letting go of you to search around. "leon.." you whine at the sound of footsteps, grabbing his arm to hide behind him. "what?" he whispers back, turning to the door where claudette stood.

leon's stomach sank as she stared at you. she opened her mouth to say something but leon cut her off. "please, don't tell the others. we're just getting some food and we'll leave." he raises his hand as if claudette was a feral animal, trying to show that neither of you were a threat. claudette hesitates, glancing over her shoulder at the campsite before looking back at the two of you. "david!" she called, and leon cursed under his breath. "i'm sorry..." she whispers before leaving. "what?!" the brit yells, his eyes darkening at the sight of you and leon. "well, well.. look who's in our camp." he spits, crossing his arms. your breathing picks up and you grasp leon's sleeve tightly. "david." leon straightens up his posture, pulling you fully behind him. "what ya got there, rookie?" david taunts, jumping to try and get to you but leon moves with him, hiding you affectively. "leave them alone, king." leon demands, voice harsh.

the fighter laughs loudly, and your stability crumbles at the sight of the whole camp staring at you. "leon.." you whisper, voice wavering. "where've you two been anyway? off fucking somewhere i presume." david sneers, trying to take another lunge at leon, but the officer is quicker, still trying to keep you away from your harasser. "leon..!" you whimper again but it falls on deaf ears as leon argues with david. "you're wrong actually. unlike you i actually care for the people around me. that's why i'm a much better person than you." leon shoots back, and david snaps, swinging for the blonde.

leon ducks, pushing you out the way as he tackles david. the fight escalates as the camp gathers round, some cheering on leon whilst the majority egged on david. "leon!" you yelp, shrinking back with cowardice despite your burning desire to help him. you gasp as arms tighten around your waist, pulling you away from the fight. "leon!" you wail again, catching the blonde's attention as he punches david. "y/n!" leon yells, going to scramble after you but is stopped by david grabbing his ankle and pulling him back for more.

twisting around, leon's boot found david face as he kicks the other man away, turning back around to scramble to get you, but you were already gone. "shit." leon hisses, not seeing how jill was running off in your direction. david's nose poured with blood as he groans, getting up to swing at leon. catching his wrist, the blonde quickly detains the fighter, handcuffing him before stumbling off into the tree line to try and find you.

you whimper as jake sets you down on a fallen tree, letting him ruffle your hair. "you alright?" he asks softly, and you shake your head no. "uhh..." jake glances back at the campsite through the trees. "hold it, asshole!" a female voice snaps, and jill emerges through the brush. "jill!" you yelp, getting up to latch onto your new friend. "cool, i was just leaving." jake shrugs, trudging back to the camp. "are you alright." jill asks as she glares at jake. "leon... where's leon?" you whimper as jill sits you back down. "don't worry about him, are you alright?" jill asks, cupping your face with her hands, wiping away any tears with her thumbs. "y/n! jill! thank god." leon gasps as he hurries to you. "are you alright?" leon asks desperately as he searches you for wounds. "they seem fine, just a bit shaken." jill answers for you. you cling to leon tightly, crying against his neck as he scoops you into his arms. "it's alright. i'm okay. i'm sorry that went down, i should of had you wait in your shack." leon sighs, holding you tight. "i'm gonna go check on everyone, try and keep the peace." jill stands, ruffling leon's hair before leaving. "thanks." leon calls after her and the woman only salutes over her shoulder as she walks away.

"leon.." you whisper, voice hoarse. "i'm here." the blonde assures you, pulling away to wipe your tears. "i'm sorry he did this to you.." you frown, cupping leon's bruised face as shakes his head. "don't apologise for that asshole." leon says sternly. "it wouldn't of happened if i wasn't there! i'm sorry." you whimper, pressing your forehead against leon's for comfort as he sighs. "none of this is your fault. i'm gonna fix all of this, alright?" leon whispers, pulling your head away from him as he looks at you. you look unsure, but nod. you trust him fully and he knows it. he also knows that you both have the same idea, and leon can't help but sneak a glance at your lips as you grow a little closer to him. "leon..?" you mumble, and he smiles, pulling you a closer and closer.

"my sincerest apologies for interrupting, but i have some news." a shadowy voice interrupts and the two of you jump, leon pulling you into his chest protectively. "who's there?" he demands, searching for the voice. "i'm here." the entity purrs, deep voice rumbling in your ears. "no one is in trouble. it was quite amusing to watch your performance but mr. kennedy..." the god trails off as leon looks up at the dark sky. "i'm sorry to say that your handcuffs are being confiscated until i know you wont do this again." it says, dangling leon's cuffs above his head with a sharp claw. "i won't. i was forced to." leon reminds the entity that he started nothing, and you can practically hear the entity thinking. "i suppose so, but it is still unacceptable." the entity says, voice ever so calm. "what, and bullying your teammates isn't?!" leon snaps, standing to try and snatch his handcuffs back. "mr. kennedy..." the voice warns as it raises his handcuffs higher. "you're a monster. an absolute joke. when i figure out how to kill you, i swear-"

"mr. kennedy." the entity silences him with a firm snap and leon falls into silence. you glance at him nervously as more claws descend, grasping leon out of your hold and hauling him up like he weighed nothing.. "might i remind you that nothing can kill me. i am a god. i am your god. your pathetic little threat won't go unnoticed but for now i'm feeling generous as you are new, and most newcomers feel the same way." the entity's voice sends chills down your spine as you stare at leon anxiously. "i will grant you your handcuffs after fifteen successful trials. then you shall receive them. until then, i shall bid you farewell." the entity suddenly drops the blonde who lands on his back with a pained grunt.

"asshole.." leon hisses as the entity takes it's leave. "leon! are you alright." you rush to pamper the blonde as he sits up. "i'm fine, don't worry." leon flushes red, getting up and offering you his hand. "come on, lets get some rest, hm?" he smiles, and you take his hand to follow him into the woods.