#self hate and stuff

[crows-talking-place]

(109 spoilers!! tw for all stuff related to that, check the tags for more specific tws if unsure - stay safe :] )

Still not over 109

Chip died.

Like, say it how you want, he died. He was dead. There was a moment when he was no longer alive.

Chip is 19 years old.

He's a kid. 19 is still a kid. Yet he was dead, through no fault of his own.

He went to the Black Sea to find his father, or rather the closest thing he'd ever had.

But now he's dead.

Because technically, he still is. Undead is still dead.

What was it Ollie said, when he was corrupted? "My mom can't see me like this."

History is doomed to repeat itself.

Would Arlen even recognise him? Or would he just see what Chip sees? What Gillion sees? What Jay sees? What everyone must see, because what else would they see?

A monster.

Because that's what he is, isn't he? How else could this be described?

How is he meant to live, now that he's dead?

Maybe that's why he flips open the compass. What else could it possibly do? He's already stopped breathing.

Maybe that's why he slips into the sack. What could he lose? He's already lost his heart.

Maybe that's why he meets Niklaus' eyes What could he want? What could he take?

He's got nothing to give He's got nothing He's got nothing He's got nothing He's got nothing

He's already dead.

[injuredsoullessfrog]

[vebokki]

they're judging you unfortunately

[vixensofdeath]

the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day

[pinklavenderdoll]

[fucklife101]

I don’t know how many “just make it through today”s I’ve got left.

[llsadgirl]

-from Pinterest

[leonorasthings]

Sh, masturbate, or sleep? That’s what’s really about…..

[sanniolodio]

Why am I not allowed to hurt myself, while everyone else can?

[muzgozjeb]

[shuaaflower]

What it's like not to feel like shit every day? I really want to know

[squidflavoredsoup]

pony homelander

also this doodle i did of him n my sona

[injuredsoullessfrog]

[xunknownxbrokenxgodx]

they should invent a way that makes suicide fucking easy

[endlessmidnights]

I hate that everywhere I go and everything I see, involves me thinking of a way to kill myself

[ihatethisapp-gs]

I don't deserve a family I don't deserve friends I'm the worst friend ever I'm the worst child ever