#cdd fragment

[chemicalcarousel]

People say the difference between fragments and alters are that fragments don't feel like "full people" well none of us do what then

[masquerade-flags]

Elaboration flags. Mostly just made these because we like visual aids for organization and such. The design is supposed to like like a crystal.

Shard (transparent and non-transparent)

Fragment (transparent and non-transparent)

Low Elaboration Alter (transparent and non-transparent)

Middle Elaboration Alter

High Elaboration Alter

[plural-affirmations]

Here's to fragments!

Fragments [link] are headmates that are not "fully" formed; they're common in complex dissociative disorders such as DID/OSDD/etc. They're most often present in polyfragmented plurals, though they can technically be in a system of any size/function. Let's talk about them!

Shoutout to:

Fragments that feel they're two-dimensional, or have limited personality/interests

Those who fragmented off of someone else in their system

Introject fragments of any and all kinds, including those who struggle with feeling valid

Fragments that want to develop as a person more, but aren't sure how

The ones who popped up to front once or a handful of times, only to never be heard from again (we have this happen often... we remember and miss you!)

Fragments that aren't in polyfragmented systems

And anyone else I missed

I love you so much. You don't have to be a multifaceted individual to be important or valued in your system. It's ok if you only have one role, one reason to front, one singular thing you know about yourself. We love you not in spite of these things, but in appreciation of all that you are. Always know you're worth it. ❤️

🖤💜💙💚💛

[bethestraysystem]

any systems wanna be friends and chat and stuff? idk much about myself beyond a few interests but i know im a fragment?? uhhh oh yeah my interests! film, noir, horror, wrestling (just found that out tonight lol, i like the story telling and how much fun the camera angles are.)

if you wanna be friends and talk and stuff feel free to pm me or even send an ask if your shy lol

((warning: i am high rn and really chatty apparently))

[dreamdropsystem]

art of our other alter named Bubbles. she is a task alter. a fragment. she's a mermaid - Shane/Bug/Theo/Locket/Angel

[granulesofsand]

Sometimes I get prairie madness lookin out into the collective. I was trying to decide roughly how many of us there are, and I never think bout the implications of infinite. They go further than I can see, further than I can think, just cause I can see it don’t mean I can walk myself over. I want to solidly say there’s enough of us to go by ‘megamultiple’, which just sounds cool, but I get dizzy counting. Maybe it does end somewhere, but not in my view. Better to say fractal, at least three.

[bagaluten-sys]

Cause depending on us, we would answer anything between 3-50.

[fragment-culture-is]

For All The Fragments

What is a fragment?

In short, a fragment is a term used to describe alters that do not have a proper identity and/or are not fully formed. Some fragments may not have roles, source memories, interests, or a personality until they gain an identity, while others may form with part of an identity and even have roles, memories, interests, a personality in development, and some fragments may never gain and identity whatsoever.

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No DNI here except for haters and fakeclaimers. Anyone and everyone else can interact.

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[chemicalcarousel]

how can i tell the difference between a fragment and an alter i just don't know that well yet?

i think there's someone who's been lurking in the background, but i'm not aware if they have any awareness, role, personality, ect. i have a vague feeling of how they look and maybe some personality traits, but i have no idea if i just made up an oc subconsciously to fit with how i was feeling. but maybe she's a fragment/alter who's sometimes influencing the front. and maybe she is a fully formed alter, but we just haven't gained communication with her yet

thank you for reading!

[myceliumforum]

⋆ Demifragter ⋆

⇉ Definition: A demifragter is a dissociated part which doesn't fall into the alter or fragment category because of their formation. This label is a catch-all for all the experiences of being:

In between alter and fragment

A half fragment or alter

A semi fragment or alter

A fragment who's developing to be an alter

Any kind of experience of formation/fragmentation that's not described with alter or fragment

Is important to remark that this label is not to be put above alter or below fragment, it's more a point when isn't neither of them but doesn't break completely the formation rule alter and fragment follows

You can use demifragter with another specification if you like, this can be demifragter alter/fragment, demifragter level 1-Number or any kind of way you prefer

⇉ Alt Names: N/A

Coined by: Me Requested by: N/A

If you want a flag for this term ask it here, don't request another coining blog to make a flag for this term

Please read pinned post and DNI before interacting

[cafedragons]

Different Ways Fusions Can Result

(This post is specifically about fusion in CDD systems. I am open to questions, but I am not open to people shaming others' chosen recovery paths. Keep that off this post, please!)

Integration is the process of breaking down dissociative barriers between alters. The alters fuse when they accept and integrate with each other to such a degree that they function as one. This can end up several different ways! I'd love to show you some, using my own system/alters to explain & conceptualize.

#1: The "New Guy" (with traits from both)

Jayden, a 17 year old verbal protector, and Glyph, an ageless dragon soother/protector, fused to make Marcus, who became our system's primary caretaker. The alters both balanced each other out, with Jayden's "chill unless pissed" mixing neatly with Glyph's strong need to keep things in order/safe to make one responsible, organized, and laid-back alter.

#2: The "Old Guy With An Update"

Gemini, our co-host, fused with a bunch of memory-holding fragments. Nothing fundamental about Gemini changed, but he did have access to more memories and some skills.

#3: The "New Guy" (that mostly seems like an old guy)

Echo, our nonhuman shadow being of a gatekeeper, fused with Zeke, an avenger and anger holder who was also the host of his subsystem. Echo kept the name Echo and mostly seems the same at first glance, but sometimes Zeke's bluntness and habitual swearing come through. Zeke has found a lot of peace and healing by fusing with Echo, and Echo gained the perspective of "hot" emotions.

#4: The "Lava Lamp"

Finn, a happiness/energy holder, and Jukebox, a trauma holder, fused to who became Jukebox 2.0. Sometimes, this new alter is a lot more like Finn or a lot more like Jukebox or a perfect mix of the two. The ratio varies and he is ever-shifting. Consistently, he loves dinosaurs, orange juice, and gummy bears.

Overall, fusion can look different for everybody, and it can even look different in the same system! Fusion is a very diverse experience.

While fusion is a good thing, sometimes people do need to grieve it, just like any other large change. That's okay and it doesn't make you a bad person, nor does it make you "anti-recovery". Big changes can be very hard.

In my opinion, the most important thing to keep in mind about fusion, for those who seek it, is being kind to yourself throughout the whole process.

Sometimes, fusions don't work out too well. Sometimes, two alters aren't a good match yet. Sometimes, it takes a few tries. Ultimately, it's up to you and your system how or if you go about it - there's no "wrong way". Just don't rush things, trust yourself, and take it easy. It'll all settle in the end, I promise!

[chaos-in-one]

"Alters aren't their own people they're all just parts of you, alters are you!!!"

If you want to see your own alters that way, that's fine. But for fucks stake, stop pushing it onto every other system. Stop acting like it's inherently bad for any other system to view their alters as people rather than 'fragments of ourselves'.

Me wanting to be seen as my own person, and other alters in my system wanting to be seen as their own people? It isn't about you. It is not saying anything about you, or the way you see yourself and your disorder. It isn't even a commentary on how CDDs work in general- I am aware of how they work. This is about my sense of self and personhood, my systems senses of self and personhood. This is about viewing our system in the way that is BEST FOR US. That I have already worked through with a therapist to figure out it is what works to minimize dissociation for us the most.

Stop getting into complete strangers business and commenting on how they handle their own fucking disorder just because you have the same or a similar disorder.

[hiiragi7]

How Many Was I, Anyway?

Some reflections on the system I used to be.

To this day, I don't know how many selves I was. I don't know how many parts, how many "not-me"s, existed in my system. I never will.

We never got an exact count.

And... that's for the best.

My system was very, very polyfragmented and complex. A lot of therapists, including dissociative specialists, dropped me because of it. A member of the ISSTD even retired after working with me for a few weeks. My system was always in conflict with itself and my parts were always fighting, a lot of us resented each other.

It was really overwhelming.

Trying to get any kind of sense of how many parts of me there were was an impossible task. And one that proved to be, well... counterproductive at best.

Fixating on the numbers made my system more and more distressed. It felt like we would never recover, there were too many parts, too many fragments and little pieces to pick up.

So we stopped counting.

We worked with every part as they came, worked really hard at improving our communication and self-calming skills, wrote down tons of notes about how to notice what we're feeling and what triggers symptoms and switches, read a lot of clinical books on dissociative disorders to better understand what we were dealing with and learn new skills, shared info with a lot of others with CDDs, and did a lot of mood tracking and journaling and setting reminders to help spot patterns and work around the amnesia better.

And, slowly... the dissociative barriers came down, and one by one, every part of us fused, until their fusions and all the effort and love that went into each one created me, the fused whole.

I may not know how many I was in the past, but I can comfortably say how many I am now; I am a system of two, myself and Fennel.

I've noticed in our community we tend to focus a lot on the numbers. A lot of plural servers on discord even ask anyone who joins to disclose alter/headmate counts. A lot of folks post their numbers publicly in their bios. Everybody, systems and singlets alike, all seem to want to know - How big is your system? How many of you are there?

It always made me feel very vulnerable to think about - everyone else always seemed so sure of their numbers, or at least had an estimate if not an exact count. I had a lot of internalized shame for a long time over how many parts I had and felt really overwhelmed every time I found more or split more. It also felt like something that should be more private, something I didn't really want to share with strangers.

And, well, that's perfectly alright. I may not be in that same headspace now (pun intended), but I think there should be more acceptance towards not sharing or knowing the exact number of members in a system.

However many you are, I hope you can have a good day today.

[granulesofsand]

Fractal system things of “woah I thought you were femme” and “you were eight years old last week”

[horrorcrew-diary]

I love you systems with lesboys

I love you systems with turigirls

I love you systems with mspec monos

I love you systems with straight gays

I love you afab transfem systems

I love you amab transmasc systems

I love you transfemmasc systems

I love you cistrans systems

I love any other system or alter with a "contradictory" queer label.

Having a CDD fragments your sense of self in a unique way, and if "contradictory" labels make you feel more comfortable in your sense of an already flaky self, I support you.

[sysmedsaresexist]

The "alters aren't separate people" discourse is getting way too nasty. It is really none of anyone's business (except for you and your therapist) how you view the people/parts in your system.

All people need to know is that alters exist in the same body and mind. They do not have separate bodies, thus they are a system and need to learn how to cope and share responsibility as a system.

My therapist literally does not care if I refer to my system members as "parts of me" or "the other people." I do both all the time. I would not care if I had a CDD patient myself and they did the same. Your therapists want you to be able to express yourself authentically. They will help you explore your own beliefs and whether any are exacerbating your symptoms and how to untangle that if necessary.

It's important, as a psychologist, not to treat a CDD patient as separate people with no relation to each other. They are a system. The system is not their own abuser because they have an abuser introject, the system does not need to be enrolled in kindergarten because they have littles, the system is not committing crimes if one of their human alters is in a relationship with their own animal alter or whatever, etc.

Please can we all just be normal about this and let people recover and self-determine at their own pace?

Some additional thoughts on all of this --

Parts vs people language discourse is so interesting to me because I actually see a lot of systems who use people language treating their system as parts of a whole. These things aren't mutually exclusive. I wish people would actually listen to the experiences that others are communicating instead of barely scratching the surface because they got mad at the words the other person was using.

Anyways, years ago I remember another psychologist with DID bringing up how often pwCDDs early on in their recovery are triggered by the idea of being parts of a whole. Think about what that confronts them with. Think about how that puts them face-to-face with all the compartmentalized things that got so thoroughly dissociated away.

Before I was diagnosed, earlier on in my own recovery, I thought that my alters were supernatural in nature. Different parts had their own explanations for it. It ranged from tamer psychic/spiritual belief stuff like telepathy and mediumship, to actual genuine delusions. Some of us thought that we were all real people who existed in different parts of the world, connected mentally. Some of them thought the same thing but that we were all from different universes, somehow interfacing within a single body.

We struggled heavily with the delusions and dissociation. We were just trying to make sense of our fragmented experience.

Even after our diagnosis, even after we realized that alters were not like that, we still struggled. Because dissociation does that. Dissociation carves a divide between all parts of the system. We struggled to see ourselves as parts of a whole until we got far enough into recovery to lessen that dissociation and finally see how we were all interconnected within.

Thank God we discovered our DID before nowadays. We would've been flayed alive by the online community. We would've been attacked for just being Not Recovered enough, for using all the Wrong Words, and for having odd beliefs and genuine delusions about our own mental health.

There's nothing wrong with simply stating that alters are all parts of a whole. We are. Because that's what being a system is. We all share a single body and mind. But taking it further to invalidate the individuality of alters, police the words they use, dismiss their personal/spiritual beliefs, or attack them just because they're triggered or can't see it yet...?

What are we even doing???