#post breakup thoughts

[thefirstlivingart]

all this love i have refuses to die inside of me

pinterest / vonko magno on flickr / troye sivan, one of your girls / virginia woolf, a letter to vanessa bell, august 1908 / @hannahlockillustration on tumblr / sara luisa kirk, begin here / fyodor dostoevsky, a letter to anna gregorevna dostoevsky, may 1880 / archbudzar on instagram / jeanette winterson, lighthousekeeping (transcript under the cut) / caitlyn siehl / @wormbus-art on tumblr / jonathan safran foer, extremely loud and incredibly close / lidia yuknavitch, the chronology of water: a memoir / sleepy.corvid on instagram / @froody on tumblr / @borderlinejackiee on tumblr / always together 2, frrrankkky_art on instagram / andsome4747 on tiktok / arthur miller, the crucible / cheryl strayed, tiny beautiful things: advice on love and life from dear sugar

[free-my-mindd]

That breakup saved you.

[slavhew]

jakey + dirkjake sandwiched between my organic chem notes. a poem in there somewhere

[rumpled]

[s1ckstrwbrry]

[cheesecakethots]

i LIVE for the angst of a yandere initially being fucking awful to their darling after taking them, and overtime changing and becoming more loving, as well has having newfound and immense regret for what they’ve done. it is literally my fave yan scenario.

tw // pretty heavy angst, mentions of noncon

i specifically imagine it for shigaraki, going from being this disgusting manbaby who treats his darling like they’re nothing but a toy for him to use, only to later realise how much he loves them and mature in how he treats them, making his regret for the past even stronger.

him trying to coax his darling into coming out on a date with him - they can go anywhere, he doesn’t mind, darling has free reign to choose what they do. he tries to be so soft and quiet in his tone, as though not to startle them.

it’s only when tears start forming in their eyes and they mumble, “have i been bad?” that he realises how badly his past self fucked up.

the only other time he really took them out was when he’d decided they needed a punishment, and had made them stand and watch as he disintegrated the first group of people they saw out. he had then fucked them against the alleyway wall, bodies still around them both, just to really get the point across.

he wishes he could take back everything, but he can’t. as of now, he needs to take baby steps in order to bring you out of the very same hole he once caved into your mind.

(i love regretful yans urm send me some thots about them pretty please)

[prosebyday]

the spark never died the fire grew and engulfed us both in flames

grazia curcuru

[pink-heart-writes]

[chaosmagicwanda]

No matter how good you could be to somebody, no matter how much you love them, they can and will turn their backs on you.

[kellycorin]

peace and quiet

you’ve got your peace and quiet now

no more having to hear me beg you for handwritten notes

no more having to listen to me hound you over helping around the house

no more having to feel me crying beside you while you’re trying to fall asleep

no more having to hear little 8-year-old feet running around the kitchen above you

          or down the stairs to hug you good night

no more having to be interrupted mid-game to hear “I love you daddy”

you’ve got your peace and quiet now

you’ve never had to hear me asking God why I’m not good enough for you to love

you’ve never had to listen to my racing thoughts tell me I’m not pretty enough for you to hold

you’ve never had to feel a little girl hyperventilating in your arms as she’s screaming for daddy

        to come back home

you’ve never had to hear a 9-year-old girl ask if she did something to make daddy leave and offer to

          “be better” if he came back,

                   but I have, and those sounds echo in my head every second of every day

you’ve got your peace and quiet now,

while I have the sound of her sobs harmonizing behind your voice saying,

          “No, I haven’t cried over this”

I hope you drown in all the tears you haven’t cried

you’ve got your peace and quiet now, and I hope it haunts you

kellycorin_

[soul-from-another-era]

Blinded by love, shattered by reality...

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

[toby-vents]

I hate having bpd I hate still revolving my entire world around someone who left I hate feeling like a shit person or a stalker just for asking people what they’re up to while being no contact I hate that I couldn’t be what they wanted I hate that they don’t want me I hate that I can’t move on I hate that I know they still love me I hate that I keep dreaming about them coming back or having a life with them and then waking up to nothing I hate when my phone says texts are delivered when they didn’t actually deliver i hate thinking about them in everything I see I hate that I talk about them to other people as if they were still my partner and best friend and in my life I hate that I can’t get myself to call them my ex I hate that they won’t tell me why they left I hate that I have to act as if the world is completely fine when my entire world feels like it’s still falling apart when I should be rebuilding by now I hate that I’ve just been drowning myself in hyperfixation media to ignore the void in my schedule and life I hate that I see us in every romantic video or couple in a media I like I hate that i want to grow old with them and they can’t even stand to talk to our best friend about it I hate that everyone thinks they’re the bad guy I hate that there isn’t a bad guy in this situation cause it makes it harder to deal with and I hate that their comfort is all I want and it’s the one thing I can’t have

[mytendermind]

as cliche as it is, i am curious about you. yes, please, tell me your favorite color. why is it your favorite? what do you do in your free time? what keeps you awake? what're the thoughts you think about that sound so silly you don't speak them? what are the answers to the questions you yearn for someone to ask? and do tell what your favorite pastry is, i have quite the sweet tooth myself. what silly connection do you feel to the world? do you yearn for the sea like air? or perhaps hiking in the woods feels more like home? indulge me in my questions, and forgive me, i only ache to know your soul. what is the thing you feel you can never completely explain in depth about yourself that you wish someone would listen to? im right here, my joy, and my ears work perfectly. i believe the exchange of information is one of the most intimate forms of care. please, let me speak to the unrefined you. i crave to meet him.

[heuffopla]

I don't even want to think about Hunter's feelings once Luz's Palisman hatches, the bittersweetness of a new Palisman being made while his sacrificed himself for him. Plus Luz might feel bad showing her joy when her friend is still grieving the same thing she's celebrating

[the-hurt-soul]

I think this is the most empty I've ever felt.