#trauma symptoms

[furiousgoldfish]

Dealing with my fear of rejection by never asking for anything, and my fear of being a burden by never doing anything that involves other people. Foolproof.

[warm-autumn-evenings]

*through tears* I BELONG HERE. ON THIS EARTH AMONG OTHERS. I BELONG JUST AS MUCH AS THE NEXT PERSON. I DESERVE TO BE ALIVE. I AM JUST AS GOOD AND BAD AS EVERYONE ELSE. I DESERVE TO BE LOVED. I DESERVE TO BE FREE.

[unwelcome-ozian]

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Friendly reminder…you don’t ever have to publicly specify the “self” part of self-diagnosed. if you don’t want to. because I know it can sometimes feel like a caveat that you’re obligated to disclose but the thing is, you’re not even obligated to disclose your diagnoses in the first place, much less the source. so you can just say diagnosed. if you prefer. to feel safe and avoid scrutiny or fake-claims or for any other reason. because it’s the truth, it’s not even a lie. self-diagnosed is diagnosed

[mycptsdstory]

So I found something out about trauma and how it affects us physically, not just mentally.

FND and fibromyalgia CAN BE caused from trauma.

It's not well studied FND and fibromyalgia, but people from Reddit, on here and the people who I talked to in person, all had trauma in some way.

I don't have both, but it is real.

Just because you can't see it, doesn't mean it's not there.

[exodusx]

Why I can’t remember happy memories of my childhood?

[dilatedtipsy]

It’s an unfortunate reality that symptoms that make other people uncomfortable are more likely to receive treatment than ones that don’t.

[invalid-request]

A clearly-traumatized kid got transferred over to my department. His old boss had made a very mild sexual joke and the kid literally broke down crying behind the deli counter.

I noticed he was always super quiet and aloof, kinda struggled with even basic tasks. People tried to be gentle with him. I didn't treat him as fragile, I just treated him like a normal person and with genuine acceptance and kindness. I don't know his story, but I've been through some deep trauma myself, so I genuinely cared and wanted him to feel comfortable around me. (I wonder if anyone else noticed the subtle signs that he wasn't sober at work - a coping mechanism?)

But if anything, it seemed like he was repelled by my kindness toward him, and he instead gravitated toward the other two guys in my department. The guys who would give a halfhearted smile to him and then turn around and give each other a look behind his back. When he wasn't around, they'd always make scathing comments and jokes about how lazy and incompetent he was. I tried to defend him, but it seemed to fall on deaf ears. 

But I watched with a kind of curious amazement as he kept gravitating toward them and thinking they were his friends, all the while not really paying any attention to my genuine acceptance.

Funny how trauma works.

[maurnjy]

Screaming inside every time they do something that triggers my past traumas, but I can't defend myself because if I do, I'll be too much.

[furiousgoldfish]

abused kids daydreaming: but what if there was a situation where I got hurt... and someone cared and comforted me? what then??

abused kids: oh no I'm selfish and stupid for imagining this! How could I think my pain would matter enough for someone to comfort me, I need to get over myself and start living in the real life! Comfort doesn't exist and if I'm not tough I'm not going to make it!

[dkniade]

Is it a thing to have intrusive thoughts of events that never actually happened but are (thematically) similar to a traumatic event?

[unwelcome-ozian]

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

930pm will hit and well-adjusted neurotypicals will be like Yawn oh gosh I’ve been u p since six a m can y ou believ it

[mycptsdstory]

You don't have to have PTSD or CPTSD to have trauma.

Read that again.

[toubledrouble]

I love the random shit trauma makes you do. Some uqiz just wanted me to pick a photo of a house and one of them reminded me of a trauma related place - not even by looks, by vibes only - and my pulse quickened, my breathing was shallow and also quickened, I started sweating, etc. Full on panic. Because of a photo of a house that gave off a vibe that was bad in a familiar way. This is absolute bullshit I am so done with myself honestly.

[xx-pixiegutz-xx]

When you stop seeing my body as “cute, small, tiny, skinny, boney, and desirable” and as “diseased, depressed, dysfunctional, and suffering” you’ve finally seen through me, into me, the real me.