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eepy baby a mimir <- on her third cup of coffee <- just woke up like half an hour ago <- still brewing more
#random#i hate research projects fuck#why did i even pick robotics#losing my patience rn#lemme go back to my oc babies T^T#shitpost
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hopelessly romantic over the concept of information
#the ancient is a design i made up for someone that srs could talk to#just wanted to explore a robots love thru computation and physicality 😇#and how the extent of this is deranged when not literally a supercomputer#how would the ancient even hold wnough pearls to contain the entirety of their structure 😭#srs rain world#seven red suns#iterator rain world#rain world iterator#rain world#why did i pick srs? nsh too busy fucking around lttm doesnt really care for the ancients and 5p isnt capable of love. hope this helps💛
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Slept on it and I feel a bit better about the SRWY roster even if it still has issues in the old series it choose to bring back minus like 3 and there not being enough new series to make up for it which is sad how the truth of the factor of “this started development in 2022-2023” since they literally could NOT use anything coming out since this same thing happened to arc in 30-it couldn’t even be dlc be planned ahead of time, so no new series will be dlc for this game either even if they didn’t reuse 30 dlc so it might actually be the safest route-and why Gwitch is only season 1, next SRW that won’t come out until 2029 AT MOST will have the newer stuff we got from 2023-2024 but I worry if it falls into the same issue as Y:
If too many new things come out in the span of time between games, which is a high possibility, we will be missing out on new shows either way and once more have to WAIT again. Bravern and Grendizer U are gonna have to wait for the next game, Bravern gonna be in gacha hell UNTIL then which who knows if it’ll still be popular by the time it’s add to SRW unless they make a sequel? With said sequel also likely NOT being able to be in the next game if it comes out within the span of the next few years? And this isn’t accounting for new stuff that’s come out or is yet to come: Aquarion new series wrapped up, Gquuuucks is a thing yet likely won’t be in if Gwitch needs to get its second season, there was a new Rayearth and Eureka seven project tease with the latter likely happening sooner rather then later, and overall more reboots will come out, but nothing from 2025 to 2029 when that will be FOUR years of content is going to be considered until the SRW in the next coming decade if this is how Y roster turns out.
It’s kinda a shame cause of release cycles SRW is legit falling behind on what the hot topics in mecha circles are simply due to when they were developed, while stuff like Gwitch, Dynanzenon and Arc were expected and people are happy about and are occasionally mention, they are slightly older topics in comparison to stuff like Bravern, Grendizer U and Gquuucks. (The last one is still airing even) It might’ve been better if this SRW was delayed but they were also backed into a corner of they needed to get this out within the normal cycle time to KEEP interest, yet they made it at the worst possible time in terms of mecha rep.
I don’t think Y will damage the series heavily, there’s still stuff in this game to be excited for but man it sucks how getting newbies into officially translated SRW games it still better to pick 30 despite the flaws it has- it still has a better roster in comparison to this game despite having the Zeta/CCA and arma problem.
#meg text#super robot wars y#rants#I’m sure my saltiness while fade soon as nothing even deeply annoyed me about it#even if this roster is still not worth enough for me to get on launch but I also don’t expect to have much money by august 💀#also there’s a lot of reasons I wanna skip to 2029 but now your telling me the next SRW will be by then? Fuck dude#I care for like half the roster overall but the problem still is most of their Gundam picks both dunbines and all returning 30 units#besides MP and CG I expected THOSE but why the fuck did you bring back Combattler but not voltus#literally if the dlc units are never gonna be used again I DONT want any 2023-2024 shows to be dlc#they already showed some dlc at the end so I hope it sticks to just whatever that stuff was (it was mostly VXT ocs)#your not wrong for wanting the shows in of course! But I think if this is how dlc works unless they change it it’s not a wise move#even if man Bravern needing to wait until fucking 2029 will literally anyone care about it then??#im sure it’ll always be a classic but I don’t know if Japan gonna have it be a hot topic for that long#(and speaking of- no braves in this game? Seriously)#overall I can only hope the next SRW is better and doesn’t suffer from these issues but I can unfortunately see the same happening#if 30 is where modern roster peeks- that would be sad as fuck 😭
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I am cursed with the absolute inability to even reference a thing that I don't know enough about, because someone could see me being wrong and I don't want to disappoint them, which is why I am watching the original Godzilla (1954, subtitled) on one screen and doing some pixel art on the other and doing some writing under that (days when my ADHD meds work are very strange to me. Who is this Motherfucker Unlimited who can multitask like this and how is he possibly me), and I am like, ridiculously pleased with how much I do not need the subtitles for any of this.
#yes this is writing research. don't worry about it. sometimes the funny little robot guys might wanna watch a movie. it's fine#but I haven't seen it so that's gonna be a problem and I guess I also have to see it now. okay#very good so far tho actually. dunno why I didn't expect that. I guess I have seen too much of the goofy-ass later ones#and forgot the original is *dead fucking serious* about the whole business#also for a movie I've never seen or been interested in I sure did somehow pick one with relevant themes what the heck.#I say 'pick' but like everything else that happens this was just what the little movie in my brain dictated and I'm just going with it.#strangely canon now that quite a few reploids just have a surprising interest in old media#(tho the tokusatsu/kaiju angle absolutely makes sense from a real world perspective since that's where a ton of the inspo is even from)
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You're curious,well in this AU the planet of algebra was created by someone,and he created its inhabitants(the algebralians, like the zeros,15,2763 and others),making large stuffed animals and with an AI he gives them life,but with the main algebralians it's special
He made an artifact that is a white box in which CERTAIN souls are kept,with this box he transfers the souls to the stuffed animals and they come to life
With the other post you know that im talkong about:3
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#oooohh. ooooohhh#I wanna put this au under a microscope and study it and I mean that in the best way I can#so they’re all just. plushies made by some guy in this. I think that’s really neat#makes me wonder how this guy got the souls of the mephones though. why even the mephones in particular??#was it just some odd coincidence or did he specifically pick them for. some reason???#wait oh my god. is. is the guy who made them cobs. is that it#that’d make sense but also the fact u aren’t mentioning this guy by name. makes me really curious as to who he is#and if i’m even right by saying it’s cobs. GAAAH this is so interesting#I am also curious about how the mephones have souls considering they’re. well. robots. but I digress#i’ve yapped for too long… i’ll stop#this ask doesn’t even mention ii or the meeples at all. do I even maintag this#I mean. sure why not! I might aswell maintag this if I maintagged the first post about this au#inanimate insanity#ii meeple#meeple confession#the queue-ture is so yesterday
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ooc. i'd like to interact with more people so if u wanna let me know. i should continue sending v day asks but for tomorrow cuz brain melts. if u want one for a specific muse i haven't send to yet let me know. looks at your muses lists and mass send to all because sharing is caring weeee.
#ooc.|| faty speaks#[gonna go poke the boys in LnD and then sleep#[woes of long day of tiny gremlins jumping around and calling your name at 20mach speed and u have to run to separate two kids WWE style a#[at each other before the headmistress and school owner see them on the camera.#[yes classes now have cameras. wow. sugio. if u sneeze the school owner is like “why did u sneeze?”#[yesterday my friend kept calling me and it frightened me to no end#[i was in class and i couldn't pick up unless i want to be fired.#[i had to wait for the students to start writing things down and turned a little bit ot the side to listen to her voice notes#[anyway. they expect us to work like robots take all the shit from kids and say nothing back#[and then if a student went and told them A said something they will come at us like WHY DIDNT U SAY ANYTHING#[me who was told to not say anything: ..............ye...u said not to say anything#[and thats why school owner does not like me XDDDD#[she says something and i just nod and walk away.#[aint got no time for her bitching early in the morning man#[she wants theparents to be happy because they pay so whatever happens gotta be the teacher's fault always#[last year she blamed a teacher who was not even in the room when the event happened#[like she is willing to blame all of us if it means the parents will be pleased.#[all i want is a nice job.#[when?#[anyway honks lets change and say love wars~
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Emergency shift, tonight.
Another step by step guide, but this time it's mainly focused on how to shift when you'd do anything rather than stay in this wicked reality, perfect for permashifters or anyone frustrated with their current living situation in general.
OK, so I made this method in my WR, since I can't possibly "shift" here (I can switch realities on command by intending, so shifting isn't an activity for me anymore, I don't need to do methods), so last night i went to my WR, with as much skills I had before my first shift, I had an infinite time to figure out the perfect I need to get the hell out of here shifting method.
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Step 1, Morning: (divide this into four parts, morning, afternoon, evening and night)
Yes, you woke back in your CR, but don't think about that, get into the mindset that you're happy and you'll shift tonight.
First of all, drop all tasks from the CR, stop, don't do assignments or anything, don't focus on your CR.
Afterwards, what you need to do now is relax yourself, go ahead and pick something to do that you enjoy, so you can divert yourself from overthinking about shifting (personal recommendation, Sims 1 :) listens to subliminals in the background, don't worry about them if you think you have a strong enough mindset.
Don't completely abandon your CR body, don't just become a robot, eat, talk with your family (don't if you're not a fan of them). Avoid shifting forums as much as you can, mainly because there is always something irrational on there which could possibly discourage you.
Quick tldr for this step: relax, calm yourself down, listen to subliminals.
Step 2, Afternoon:
If you're developing a headache or feeling light-headedness due to the excessive subliminal listening then that's good, it means your brain is absorbing the affirmations.
Now, trick your human brain by listening to subliminal boosters, but only those ones which repeat playlists by million, billion, trillion, or zillion or something, it won't matter how effective the subliminal is, as long as you believe the title to be truth, then trust me, it'll work like promised.
After you're finished with your subliminal run, top it off with one of wrath's seal and you're good to go, you're now mentally prepared to shift, and you are in a perfect mindset. (wrath, the subliminal creator, in my opinion their subliminals, especially the boosters are the strongest; search wrath's second seal, in my opinion it's the strongest one in the series).
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Now you have eye strain or something, get up, go sit outside for a moment, stare at the trees, birds, skies, and start daydreaming-!
(Don't worry, I didn't tell you to touch grass, you can stay indoors, but, daydream :)
Daydream about your sweet sweet DR, if you're going to your WR, just imagine all the fun things you'll get to do there, or visualize your WR (or script; meaning revise how you made your WR to be like)
OK, back to the DR part, daydreaming can be done in many ways, perhaps you'd like to zone out and fall into deep contemplation about your actions in your DR, kind of like a case study (for me, bringing up old events from my teenage years or something, specific memories arise which didn't make sense; like me ignoring someone I like, and try to figure out why I did it, this all strengthens your bond with your DR)
Or you could simply rewind your memories in your DR, or what you've planned for the upcoming days, what you were doing before shifting, my recommendation would be to kind of add lots of "too much information" like, where did you place the honey after you had finished baking that cake? Didn't you had to put a new bar of soap in the bathroom? Didn't you broke the button of your favorite coat yesterday?
Or If you're good at visualising, you can simply live an entire day in your DR (perhaps not an entire day, just visualise your morning routine)
Another good one, if you can't visualise or don't feel like it, open Pinterest, scroll through your home feed, and try to relate the pins you see to your DR (I was just about to buy that shirt; I swear I saw that exact same house somewhere; that cat looks exactly like my sister's cat)
Feel like your DR self now? If not you're definitely getting excited and prepared by now.
Step 3, Evening:
Now it's time to attach yourself firmly to your DR self.
Consume media which remind you of your DR self, try your luck with Character ai, maybe it'll make sense for once (make your own bots, add a little description of your DR self within the character details, the bot will remember your details, ask ill share a template :) your spotify playlist + pinterest, remind yourself, your DR is very much real, if it's possible, close your eyes periodically for a few minutes, imagine making decisions like your DR self, and facing the consequences right after; or you can have a small conversation with your loved ones, keep it related to your DR.
Eventually, you'll be led to nightfall, it's time to go home.
Step 4, Night:
Listen to the subliminals you've listened to during the day, again, for an hour at least, if you're doubting yourself, or feeling like you won't be able to do it, try to distract yourself by a memory from your DR or something, or simply, already get into you're DR self's mindset, say "affirmations" like these:
"What the heck is going on in my mind? Why am I thinking about shifting, I've already got so much work to do." (That was an example, get creative :)
If you're ready to start shifting, lay down in a comfortable position (or sit up but lean back on comfy pillows if you're in fear of falling asleep) take a few deep breaths, if you like meditation then do so, but it's not at all necessary, just relax.
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Now shift (just kidding, use my method which I've explained thoroughly in my first post, follow it and no doubt you'll shift, you're invincible.)
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I am very self assured in my method btw. Also I'll try not to be lazy and answer the questions in my inbox dw.
I'll also upload my script, since for once I've finally stopped crying about permashifting in every post.
Good luck, you'll shift tonight, no doubt.
Remember to look at shrimp colors at least once in your waiting room.
#reality shifting#shiftblr#shifting#shifting blog#shifting antis dni#shifting motivation#shifters#shifting community#shifting tips#shift#shifting advice#shifting attempt#permashifting#respawning#desired reality
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can you write the batfam going to amity due to *reasons* and alls well until Jason feels like he SHOULDNT go near since it’s Danny’s Haunt? Like how Crime Alley is ‘his’ Haunt? And batfam thinks he’s just being dramatic but uh, yeah he isn’t.
"I'm not going in there," Jason repeated, standing on the side of the highway, arms crossed over his chest and a stubborn scowl on his face.
"Jay, please get back in the van," Bruce sighed while the rest of the Waynes stared from their seats. They had originally all gotten off, but when the second eldest had started yelling, Bruce herded everyone back inside, including Dick.
No one knows why Jason was acting like this.
A few minutes earlier, he had napped comfortably in the far back of the large van Bruce had rented. The family had been on a cross-country road trip, where they all piled in together and let the GPA lead them to their final destination- Wayne Mountain Hotsprings. Alfred had the idea to practically kick everyone out of the manor to bond.
Members of their various teams would watch Gotham for the three weeks they would be gone. This week, Kon and Bart texted Tim updates. At first, the Waynes were not entirely up for the trip, but after a few hours of driving, they all enjoyed singing random songs and researching their vacation pick.
They each got to pick one random spot they wanted to stop at one the way- tourist trap or not- and Damian had been excited to go to "America's most haunted town." He had even been able to contact local ghost hunters who were excited to give them a tour. The Waynes would spend the night at the only hotel in the city and leave tomorrow morning.
That was the plan until Jason woke up screaming at the top of his lungs, "Pull over! Pull over! I can't go in there!"
It gave everyone a heart attack. Bruce had nearly driven into the other lane as Jason had been attempting to unbuckle himself and- were it not for Cass's quick reflection- fling himself from the moving vehicle. As soon as they found a safe spot to pull over, Jason leaped from the van and placed himself in front of the Welcome to Amity Park sign
A little up the road, they could see the city's outskirts. The Fentons, the acclaimed ghost hunters, were expecting them in twenty minutes. Damian was getting angsty.
"Can you explain why you can't go into Amity Park?" Bruce questions, stepping closer. "I won't make you go in there. I just need to know what's going on."
"Don't you feel that?" Jason asks, gesturing to the air around them. "It feels unsafe."
"What does?"
"The vibes," Jason said straightly, and Bruce's left eyebrow was spammed. "The vibes are choking."
Bruce takes another step closer, voice lowering into the familiar tone of comforting a scared civilian. "Jay what do you mean by that."
Jason opened his mouth only to snap his head upwards with a scream. "He's here!"
Everyone looked up—or at least those in the van by a window—only to see nothing. There was nothing there that could have freaked out Jason so much. The sun, maybe? Gotham wasn't known for its sunlight, and perhaps the fact that he grew up without it made it extra terrifying to the Gothamite.
Jason leaped behind Bruce, hiding like he did as a child. Now that Jay was taller than his father and buckler, it was a strange sight. "I'm sorry! I swear I wasn't going in!"
"Jaylad, what-"
"Ghost detected." The robotic voice of Damian's official ghost-hunting equipment made everyone freeze. The boy had opened the door of the van, escaping Duke's attempted grasp, but whatever he was going to say was cut off by the little machine in his hand.
It came from the Fentons' online store, and although it didn't work, Damian enjoyed walking around with it, searching for the paranormal. The rest of the family saw it as an age-appropriate make-believe, sighing in relief when he waved his little box around before deeming the area safe.
As it were, Damian waved the box again, letting the machine hum and bling as it landed on a particular spot in the sky. "Ghost detected. Ghost detected. Ghost located. Ghost is ten feet before you."
"Oh wow," An unknown voice said over the sound of rushing cars on the highway. Damian's eyes widen. "Haven't seen that design of the Fenton Finder in years. First edition, isn't it?"
Damian eyes are practilly sparkling as he puffs out his chest "It is! Are you a ghost?"
"Yeah." Suddently a glowing flouting transparent boy pops into thin air. No sound, no portal, not rush of air. Just one second he's there. He offers Damian a wide warm smile, that somehow makes his glowing green eyes menecing. "I'm Danny Phantom."
He turns his eyes back to Jason as Damian gapes at him. The boy had thought Phantom was a local urban legend. He has been decorating his room with "captured" images of Phantom for years. He turns to Tim, hissing for a pen and his photo binder.
"You." Phantom points at the cowering man. "Feel strange. You're overshadowed, but at the same time, there is no foreign soul in your body. What are you?"
"Um, I'm just here on vacation with my family-oh!" Jason words are cut off as Phantom flings himself at the pair. Before Bruce or Jason can react the ghost has his hands inside of Jason chest, ramaging around like it's a bag. Oddly enough, this makes Jason blush.
"Hmm. Yeah, there is no other ghost here. Are you haunting your own corpse?" Phantom floats upwards to stare into Jason's eyes. "Or are you a Halfa?"
"My own corpse," Jason gasps, but Bruce decides he's not about to let whoever this bothers his son, pushing Phantom back. Only somewhat surprised by the fact he made contact the hero's grunts
"Kindly keep your hands to yourself."
"Sorry," Phantom mutters, flouting back. He fidgets with his glowing white hair while shifting his feet. "I just wanted to be sure he was safe. You may enter."
And with another pop, he's gone.
Damian makes a sad whine in the back of his throat, holding a picture of a blurred image of Phantom and a pen. He flipped through the binder, attempting to find the clearest one while the ghost chatted with his father and brother. "I didn't get an autograph."
"There's always next time," Tim offered, patting the boy back as he led him towards his seat in the van again. You should keep that on your person so if you run into him again, we can get it signed for you quickly."
"Okay"
"Phew," Jason breathed, wiping the cold sweat from his forehead. "That was terrifying. Anyway, we should get going, I don't want to be late for the Fentons."
He ignored Bruce's look, walking back as if he hadn't held them up for nearly forty minutes because the vibes were bad.
Bruce stared as Jason skipped back to the van, feeling very old and single. Maybe he should try calling the blind date Alfred had attempted to set up for him. He needs some support in raising his children. He has too many white hairs as it were.
#dcxdpdabbles#Access Granted#Part 1#Jason feels off to Danny#It's because he was dead for months before coming back#The others just dipped in the pit and didn't come back on their own#Bruce is a tired dad'#Phantom is Damian's version of a celebrity
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POV: You spend time with a guy "behind their back." (Part 2/4)
(reader is NOT cheating!!)
ft. Jealousy, fluff,
Sylus
Your phone buzzed, interrupting your conversation with your friend.
"And then, it started charging up it's attack-"
"Ugh, sorry. Somebody's spamming me." you mumbled, rolling your eyes, reaching to turn your phone over on the table, screen face down so you wouldn't have to look at the relentless messages.
"As I was saying-"
You tried to continue, only to hear your notifications blow up even faster, the buzzing incessant. You were convinced that if you didn't reply, your phone would combust in the middle of the café.
"Sorry. I've got to check this," you sighed, picking up your phone, lazily going to see who was the contact spamming you relentlessly.
"Sweetie who is that." "Is he bothering you?" "sweetie?" "Are you hurt? is he threatening you." "Y/N." "If u dont reply im coming over" "Why did you turn ur phone around." "Kitten who is he?"
Scrolling through the barrage of texts, your brows furrowed, immediately becoming suspicious. Sylus? How did...
You looked up, gazing intently at any pipes on the ceiling or dark corners a certain mechanical spy could be hiding. Knowing Sylus, and what to look for, it made finding the problematic Mephisto a lot easier. Your frown deepened, as the bird noticed you glaring at it. As if sensing your glare, the robot flapped its wings, cawing loudly. A customer walked into the café at that moment, and the bird cawed a final time, making it's presence known, returning your glare before taking the chance to fly out the open door before the owner chased it out. Poor man who walked in had to duck the diving 'bird' as it soared into whatever shadows outside.
After witnessing that 'spectacle', you turned your attention back to the phone in your hands, immediately tapping your thumbs on the screen, sending a reply to the spammer.
"Sylus? Why are you suddenly spying on me- in Linkon??" "I saw Mephisto. How long have you been watching me?" "No! Don't come!! I'm fine!"
You started to panic, heart sinking, frantically texting back so Sylus didn't appear and do something drastic-
"It's a bit too late for that, kitten. look up."
'What-?" You didn't get to snap out of the baffled daze before you felt a hand on your shoulder, and a rather threatening, unmistakable presence towering over you. You froze up, embarrassed that he was having this fit in front of your friend.
You glanced up at the Onychinus's big boss, your gaze following his— which was locked dangerously onto the man sitting opposite you.
"Sweetie, let's go." He snapped his eyes back onto you, his voice laced with not-so-subtle possessiveness and suppressed irritation, not leaving much room for argument. Sylus was obviously in one of his 'fits'.
Sighing, you shook your head in exasperation, getting up. You quickly apologised to your friend, shooting him a "sorry about him" glance. Sylus didn't wait for your pleasantries to be exchanged. In his eyes, getting you away from the other man was something to be done immediately.
Once outside the café, pulled by the hand, you confronted Sylus for his abrupt interruption of your peaceful lunch. "Seriously? You couldn't have waited for my answer? I replied in less than 5 minutes..."
"You turned the phone over." He asserted, like it was some important evidence. He crossed his arms over his chest, raising an eyebrow, not a hint of any teasing smirk on his face. This was serious, you noted mentally. In your head, it wasn't a big deal– he'd seen you flip the phone over multiple times when notifications became too annoying– but if he actually felt that this situation was significant...
"I did. Still, you know it's nothing- I do it all the time."
"Not to me. You always answer."
That.. was true. You never did ignore his messages.
"But you turned me away. For him." He continued, and you could swear you've never seen him so serious. Never.. not since your first meeting. "I thought something happened." his voice was low, however, it couldn't hide the trace of vulnerability. Like he was trying to pretend he was this concerned because he thought you were unsafe with an unarmed man, rather than just afraid of losing you.
"Nothing happened, I'm fine, Sylus." you murmured, putting your hand over his, uncrossing his arms for him. You gently squeezed his hand, not really wanting to let him off the hook yet. "He's my friend. Just a friend,"
"Friend or not. He can't have what's mine.'
Your cheeks flushed, not expecting him to express or even acknowledge his own feelings so openly. You didn't look up at him, and he was glad for that- so he could hide his red ears.
"Overprotective, much?"
His solemn eyes raised, missing their usual glimmer of mirth, meeting yours, tilting his head, and a piece of his hair bobbed against his forehead.
“Call it what you want, sweetie. I'll always be here to watch over you.”
Despite yourself, you couldn’t help but smile. As infuriating as Sylus could be, his unwavering devotion had a way of making you feel safe—even when he went overboard.
“Fine, fine,” you gave in with a sigh. “But next time, just call me instead of sending your creepy bird, or yourself.”
Sylus’ smirk came back faintly, more like a relieved smile. “No promises.”
"I'm proud of you, though, kitten. You spotted Mephisto faster than I thought you would. How'd you learn that?"
"Yeah.. because all pipes have glowing red eyes.." you said, sarcasm slipping out.
"...Wait. Did you say next time?" His gaze grew more intense, eyeing you down.
"No next time. I'll snap his neck." He hissed, gripping your hand tighter in his.
"You keep those sharp eyes on me, sweetie. Where they belong."
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A/N: I don't know if this is too long lmao
Tags: @cordidy @liz9898 @crystalfay
#lads#love and deepspace#x reader#female reader#sylus#lads sylus#love and deepspace sylus#jealousy#fluff#fanfic#sylus x reader#sylus x mc#i believe in insecure sylus#you spend time with a guy behind their back#jealous sylus
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How i mastered the art of persisting & how yall can too
hello my luvs, lemme tell u, its been a rlly eventful last 2 weeks in terms of me undergo a drastic shift in my mindset and WHEWWWWW, i thought it was time to share with yall
storytime
this past year i told myself i would adopt a strict mental diet where i wouldn't let doubts stop me or anything and lemme tell you, it was such a rocky road. There would be periods of me affirming that i was a master shifter, seek validation from the 3D and then start dwelling in my old state again. This cycle of giving up continued until i came across these posts. I then deeped how i've been overcomplicating manifesting & shifting to the point where i would give up so easily on my new states because "persisting was too hard” when it rlly wasn't. Anyways, lemme share my favourite tips & advice i learnt.
THE ADVICE & TIPS
stop associating emotions w/ states
Once i stopped associating me doubting, being frustrated, etc with my state, i found stuff x10000 EASIER!! I be affirming when i'm sad/frustrated because my emotions do NAWT define me. If something happens in my life, i allow myself to acknowledge it then i affirm on loop that "everything gets better" and the very fact i am a master manifestor.
manifesting will exist whether u like it or not
whenever i feel like "giving up", i remember that no matter if i "give up" on my desires or not, the law of assumption will still operate in the same principle of dominant thoughts materialising ur reality. So that really made me think, why would i not take advantage of knowing about the loa and manifesting everything i want? Like once you find out about the law of assumption, there is no turning back so u might aswell utilise it.
you can never lose your "manifestation powers"
Sometimes i be having thoughts "what if i lose my manifestation powers" and its like?? i will always be able to manifest easily & so will you. You can never "lose" the ability to manifest. Its a LAW. Meaning you will always be able to do it
pick a staple affirmation & loop it no matter what
After utilising robotic affirming, i've felt so much more FULFILLED then i ever did. Trust me when i say, pick one affirmation (e.g. "i am a master shifter") and keep affirming through your doubts, random thoughts, etc. Litreally when you deep it, affirming is basically thinking and thinking is super duper easy. So picking one affirmation and continuously repeating it is so easy even when you feel like your having sm doubts (trust me, once u get in the habit of js affirming, things feel sm easier).
you don't need to believe to manifest
Before some of yall come at me, lemme tell yall something. When i got more serious about the loa this year, i overconsumed a sh!t ton of loa content stating in order to manifest your desires and it made me feel so frustrated whenever i felt doubts/overwhelmed when affirming for my desire. The belief bit will follow natrually while persisting, dont focus on beliving in ur manifestation, keep repeating you have it & your belief of it will feel more natrual as you keep repeating it (if that makes sense)
the 3D isn't the end, keep persisting
I made a post about this but to keep it short & simple, your 3D circumstances aren't permanent. Just because you may be experiencing the opposite of what you want in the 3D, doesn't mean it will stay like that forever and your manifestation "won't work". Keep affirming bb <3
okie that's it for the post <3 i'll probs make a pt2 if i got anymore advice?? but hope yall liked it ;3
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I had a funny thought
What if the Blue Lock boys had a gf who was super into chiropractics, and every time they complained about a sore neck or something, she just activated like a sleeper agent ready to crack some bones into place?
Maybe Bachira, Sae, Rin, Barou, and anyone else you wanted to add (or remove)
Feel free to ignore if you're not interested! (Or you closed your requests and I didn't notice)
“𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 🙏”
a/n: NO THIS IS GENIUS
ft. bachira meguru, itoshi sae, itoshi rin, barou shoei, isagi yoichi, nagi seishiro, kaiser michael, shidou ryusei
bachira meguru
“babe, my shoulder hurts.”
five seconds later, he’s lying facedown on the carpet with your knee on his spine and your hands twisted like you’re about to do a fatality move from mortal kombat.
“okay, but don’t make it worse–” CRACKKK
“i saw god,” he whispers.
starts intentionally walking into walls and sleeping in the worst positions possible just to “accidentally” need your services.
"what do you mean you dislocated your knee dancing to baby shark?"
“you’ll fix it, right? 🥺”
you have to stop practicing on his toes because he got too into it and now thinks he can crack other people's joints too.
"meguru, no. that’s a stranger. that’s a grandma."
once asked you to do a couple’s adjustment video with him for his tiktok. he titled it: “my chiropractor gf cracked me so good 😳💦”
you are banned from the comments section.
itoshi sae
mentions his neck hurts just once. once.
now you follow him around the apartment like a chiropractor on a stakeout.
he sits down, and suddenly your hands are on his shoulders like “you rang?” “i didn’t.” “but you thought it.”
he's always giving you the most deadpan “i’m tolerating this” expression as you twist him up like a pretzel and drop him on your knee like WWE.
meanwhile, his spine is out here singing the hallelujah chorus.
one time you adjusted his shoulder mid-conversation and he flinched so hard he almost roundhouse kicked you by accident.
“warn me next time, chiropractor gremlin.”
but lowkey? starts calling you “doc” under his breath. even sends you anatomy memes.
his love language is letting you fix him, but pretending he’s not enjoying it.
itoshi rin
acts like he doesn’t need you.
“i stretch. i don’t slouch. i’m fine.”
oh? then why did you hear his spine scream when he picked up a dropped sock.
rin freezes when you approach. like a cat being stalked.
“i’m not doing this right now.”
“your pelvis says otherwise.”
he finally lets you do it. and when his back cracks so loud it echoes through the apartment, he lets out this shameful little whimper.
and you catch him… smiling?
“did you just smile?”
“no. that was pain. deep pain.”
now you keep finding him in suspicious poses. like doing yoga near doorways. twisting his neck near you on purpose.
“need help?”
“… no.” (yes.)
he tries to resist, but his spine is in shambles and your chiropractic powers are like a siren song.
next thing you know, he's asking you to come over. “bring your little elbow move or whatever.”
barou shoei
"i don't need your weird crack therapy. i'm built like a god."
okay hercules. but your shoulder literally snapped when you opened a jar of peanut butter.
he tries to tough it out, but the noises his back makes sound like a car wreck in slow motion.
finally caves when you threaten to record him walking around like a malfunctioning robot.
he lies down and braces for death.
the first crack sends him to heaven and back. the second one? full body exorcism.
“i feel… reborn.”
“you’re welcome, broken toy.”
you’d think that’s the end, right? nope.
next morning he’s like “so when’s my next session” like it’s a scheduled business transaction.
turns into your #1 hater if you offer to crack someone else. “i’m your only client. don’t touch anyone else’s bones.”
insanely possessive about it.
one time you adjusted bachira and barou refused to speak to you for 24 hours. spine jealousy is real.
isagi yoichi
the first time you cracked his neck, he thought he was dying.
“OH MY GOSH, was that my soul???”
you had to calm him down like a panicked toddler. “yoichi, you’re fine.” “i saw my grandma.”
BUT THEN… the pain was gone. and the look he gave you was pure worship.
“what else can you crack?”
now this boy pulls out a list. like a shopping list. “right shoulder, left ankle, spine quadrant 3…”
always makes you do it right before a game for “luck.”
once had you crack his fingers and then blew a kiss to the sky like a k-drama character.
you caught him trying to adjust his own back by hanging upside down from the couch.
“yoichi, no–”
“yoichi, YES.”
0 self-preservation. 10/10 chiropractic enthusiasm. 100/10 in love with you and your magical bone-snapping hands.
nagi seishiro
he didn’t even ask. you just bent him over and heard the spine snap.
“sei.”
“yeah?”
“you’re gonna die before 25.”
he shrugs. which makes it worse. his shoulder popped. again.
the first time you cracked his back, he fell asleep mid-session.
“bro, you are SO lucky i’m licensed in fake chiropractor energy.”
now it’s a routine. he lies down, you sit on him like a couch, crack his entire skeleton, and then tuck him into bed like a 6'4 baby.
never complains. in fact, he starts calling it his “daily maintenance.”
“hey babe, oil me up and break me in like ikea furniture.”
refuses to stretch himself. “that’s what i have you for.”
gets so spoiled he doesn’t even get up anymore. just lifts a hand and goes, “crack, please.”
accidentally calls you “chiro-bae” and now you refuse to let it go.
kaiser michael
“ugh. my neck hurts.”
he says it like a prince awaiting servants. not knowing you just heard the bat signal.
you turn around in full chiropractor mode.
he flinches. “no. you’re doing the eyes again.”
“you complained. that’s a cry for help.”
“it’s not! i was being sexy about it!”
too late. he’s already lying flat on the bed like a human pretzel while you prep your hands like you're about to summon a demon.
“this won’t kill me, right?” CRACK. michael.exe has stopped responding.
he genuinely short-circuits. lays there, blinking. lips parted. hair a mess.
“… holy shit i think i saw jesus in a ferrari.”
immediately becomes obsessed. starts calling you “mein kleiner bonebreaker.”
now he fakes injuries during arguments.
“you’re mad at me? fine. crack me. punish me with alignment.”
sir, this is a medical service.
jealous when you offer to crack anyone else. he literally pouts. “you can’t go around giving your healing hands to the peasants.”
shidou ryusei
oh he loves this. too much.
“ryu, your posture’s awful.”
“wanna bend me? ;)”
he lies down too fast. no hesitation. he’s already shirtless and probably screaming “HIT ME WITH YOUR BEST SHOT.”
you try adjusting his back once and he moans.
“ryusei, WHAT–”
“sorry! reflex! wanna do it again? louder this time?”
you’re 90% sure he’s weaponizing the chiropractor roleplay.
starts calling you “my little spinal sorceress.”
at some point you have to start locking your door because he’ll barge in at 2 AM like “my kneecap popped funny. quick, do the thing!”
starts cracking your joints and insists it’s foreplay. you nearly deck him.
100% would fake an injury in the middle of a date just to get adjusted in public.
© 𝐤𝐱𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐢

#blue lock#blue lock x reader#bllk#bllk x reader#blue lock headcanons#isagi yoichi x reader#yoichi isagi x reader#rin itoshi x reader#itoshi rin x reader#itoshi sae x reader#sae itoshi x reader#bachira meguru x reader#meguru bachira x reader#barou shoei x reader#shoei barou x reader#nagi seishiro x reader#seishiro nagi x reader#kaiser michael x reader#michael kaiser x reader#shidou ryusei x reader#ryusei shidou x reader#cracking that 🙏
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Marvel and Wonder Woman
@actuel-idiot is a major reason I’m writing this! They gave me the idea so the credit goes to them.
Diana has a special relationship with Captain Marvel. They’re family. Technically. But they’re family! The man has no problem treating her like one of his own, and it’s not like Diana has any of her other family in man’s world so she’ll take what she can get. The only downside is that no one knows his actual identity, including Diana. Half the people in the JL don’t even believe he has one, but when Diana asked, he confirmed he did. She hoped that one day he would share his identity with her, but for the meantime, she’d just continue to enjoy their bond.
Like, for example, Diana talks to Marvel whenever she misses Themyscira. The very first time she started missing her home was about a few weeks after the JL formed. (Marvel’s a founding member in this post)
WW: “Captain, do you ever miss home?”
Marvel: “Hm? I guess so?” *confused*
WW: “You guess so? Do you not miss Olympus? I assume that’s where you grew up.”
Marvel: “Oh, no. I’ve never been to Olympus. If that’s what you mean by home. It isn’t.”
WW: “Then where is your home?”
Marvel: “Well, I haven’t had a home in a long time. So, I can’t particularly say. All I know is that I can’t go back, and as the years go by, I hate to say it but I barely remember it.” He only knows what his dad looks like due to his Marvel form, and he only remembers his mom due to Mary’s form. As for what they were like? A lot of the memories are fuzzy. “So, unfortunately… there isn’t really much to miss.”
WW: “Do you think I’ll forget about Themyscira?”
Marvel: “I don’t know. But that’s why it’s important to make a home wherever you go. That, and if you really don’t wanna forget, you can always try and find people who used to call your home theirs.” *shrugs*
WW: “I don’t believe there are any other Amazonians and man’s world.”
Marvel: “Well… not technically.” *little smile* “You know, a few thousand years ago I was an Amazonian at some point.”
WW: “What…?”
Marvel: “Shocking. I know.” *little laugh*
WW: “But you’re a man?” *dumbfounded expression*
Marvel: “Yeah, I know, but I wasn’t always. If you want, I could tell you some stuff about the first island.”
WW: “The first Themyscira? You were alive back then?”
Marvel: “Yup.”
WW: *stares for a bit* “I’d… I’d like that a lot. Please share.”
The two spend the rest of the evening talking about all the lore about Themyscira, Diana’s mother, Diana’s aunts, the culture back then, the dialects, and so on.
Then, there was the incident with Circe. She had cast a spell on Diana, turning her into a child. After it had happened, she left and soon a mini Diana was swarmed by the leaguers.
Marvel: “Wait, so she still knows who we all are, she’s just a little kid?”
Batman: *nods head* “Correct.”
WW: *looking around as the other leaguers fawn over her cause she’s adorable*
Batman: “It also altered her mindset, making her more childish.”
WW: *spots Marvel and her eyes sparkle* “Big brother!” *runs over to Marvel and crashes into his legs hugging them*
Marvel: “Woah!” *slightly startled at her running over* “Wow, Diana, you’re still so strong.” *takes on the tone he uses to talk to Darla (aka big brother/father tone) as he leans down to pick her up*
WW: *nods head* “Yeah!”
Marvel: *moves to carry her like she’s his own daughter*
The two proceed to talk about whatever as the other JL members coo at the two looking like father and daughter. Same black hair and blue eyes. Also, Zeus was gnawing at the bars of his metaphorical cage when he saw this. His daughter was too precious. As soon as the other leaguers blinked, he took little Diana and they proceeded to go fight Mr.Mind together. They then went for ice cream afterwords. Now, they’re eating their respective cones while sitting on the edge of a building.
Marvel: “You did such a good job, Diana. That one punch at that one robot that sent it flying into three other ones was amazing.” *smiles and ruffles Diana’s hair*
WW: *giggles and licks ice cream* “Thanks, dad.”
Marvel: *pauses mid bite of ice cream* (Yes, I’m making Billy bite his ice cream)
WW: *doesn’t even realize she said that*
Zeus: “You… YOU STOLE MY DAUGHTER?!” *thunderclouds in the distance*
Billy proceeded to have to make many offerings to Zeus to make him calm down after the incident. For a week straight, he kept getting little shocks whenever he touched stuff.
#billy batson#captain marvel dc#dc captain marvel#shazam#fawcett#fawcett city#fawcett comics#diana prince#wonder woman
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All I've Wanted Was You
Main Masterlist - Bucky Masterlist
Read on A03!
Tags: Bucky Barnes/Female Reader, smut (fingering, oral f!receiving, p in v sex), angst, light fluff, humor, no use of y/n, friends with benefits, love confessions
Summary: You have an arrangement with Bucky. You sleep together, and nothing more. Every time is supposed to be the last time. You love him too much keep this up and pretend it's not killing you.
But it might be killing him too.
Author's Note: Request from @wintersoldierchronicles! I had SO much fun with it, and it got (as expected) emotional. I am what I am. Enjoy!
Word Count: 5.7k
He’s giving you the look again. The one that he’s promised not to give you anymore, because it makes you both break promises, and shatters your heart into a million little, glowing pieces every time.
And Bucky always picks up the pieces, after. He doesn’t know what he’s doing—or that he’s the one who broke you in the first place—but he’s good at cleaning up after himself. He makes his bed every morning. His guns and knives are always polished and well-cared for, and his plates are cleaned with his hands before he puts them in the dishwasher, because that’s how his ma raised him. He folds all his laundry, never has dust on his floor, and never wears boxer two days in a row. All his trash finds it’s way into the can, and then the bag gets taken out over his shoulder because no matter how many times Tony tells him he has robots and people to do that instead, Bucky insists on doing it himself.
It’s one of the reasons you love him.
And that’s exactly why he can’t give you that look. He promised he’d stop it. You’d promised you’d stop indulging it.
But if Bucky’s good at cleaning up, you’re good at making messes. There’s always a little wrapper empty can on your desk—Bucky always throws it out for you—and you tend to wait until you can smell it to change your sheets. You’ve been wearing the same bra for two weeks, and you have one pair of heeled boots where the sole is coming apart, but they still work, so you’re still using them. You had to throw out your last laptop, because five coffee spills were apparently too much for it to handle. People don’t hand you weapons anymore, after Nat gave you a dart gun for safety and you ended up shooting yourself in the thigh. Tony has an extra robot for your apartment.
But Bucky cleans it anyway, whenever he gives you the look, and finds his way back into your bed.
“Don’t know how it’s this bad every time,” he’d muttered a few weeks back, folding your towels with a small frown.
He didn’t need to do that. You wish he wouldn’t. It’s domestic, and it makes this—you and Bucky, though there isn’t really a you and Bucky—feel far too real.
You’d shrugged, watching him move around from the bed. “I spend every day cleaning up your messes, Barnes. That’s where all the energy for this,” You’d mad a sweeping gesture around the room. “Goes.”
“Hey.” Bucky had given you a mockingly stern look and pointed finger. “I haven’t done anything, for like a month.”
“Steve hasn’t done anything in three years.”
“Yeah, but the last thing he did was become a war criminal, doll. That had you on overtime.”
“And who did he become a war criminal for?”
Bucky had rolled his eyes. “Shut up. And the last thing I did wasn’t even that bad.”
“You punched the governor.”
“He called you a whore.” Bucky had glared down at your trash. “I woulda done worse, if I didn’t know it would come back to bite your ass.”
You’d sighed. “Bucky-“
“And I never mean to make mess for you.” He’d muttered, giving you an almost puppy-like look, and you’d wanted to vault off the bed so you could wrap yourself around him and never let go. “Just happens. If I was in charge, we’d all be on perfect fuckin’ behavior, all the time.”
“Well, thank you.” You’d given him a soft, gentle smile, and he’d relaxed slightly. “And I’m not mad about it, Bucky. It’s my job. And I’m good at it.”
“You are.” He’d said under his breath, his tongue flicking out between his lips, and his words had sounded like they were mostly for himself. “Use a lot of pretty words, when you do it. Could make a man jump off a cliff just by asking him to believe the wind would catch him.”
You’d blinked at him, having no fucking idea what that meant, but Bucky just continued, his voice raising back up.
“But I make it harder-“
“No, you don’t. It’s not your fault people are dumb and don’t understand how brainwashing works.” You’d given him a pointed look. “And nothing you do could be worse than the Nat Burrito-Stripper-Arson incident. And she never cleans up my room for me.”
Bucky’s lip had twitched. You’d counted it as a victory. “I’m gonna do your laundry too.”
“What a gentleman.”
“Only for you, doll.” He’d shrugged, and gone back to his self-inflicted mission.
That was one of the ways he picks up the pieces. Even if he doesn’t love you, Bucky really does care about you. So much. It’s one of the reasons this can’t happen. You don’t know what you’ll do if you lose him forever.
But the look is getting more pleading. Shining blue eyes on yours, raised brows that have a question and a promise, something dangerously close to hope all over his handsome features.
You don’t know how to say no to him. You’ve been trying to get better at it, but you also love him, and want him always. So you’re not quite there yet.
When you smile at him, the recognition flashes over Bucky as his jaw clenches, he blinks once—which, for Bucky, is basically jumping with joy—and turns back to his conversation with Steve and Sam.
You both have to get through the rest of the night. One of Tony’s dumb little cocktail parties that’s mandatory, for a united front, and neither of you will be able to escape. You’d tried once, and that’s the only time you’d almost gotten caught. Steve had gone looking for Bucky because it was Steve, and Tony had gone looking for you because apparently the head of PR needed to be easily accessible.
You and Bucky had made promises that time, too.
“That was…” He’d looked at you over the kitchen counter that morning, his words slow and measured. “Close. Last night.”
You’d hummed, staring down at the coffee in your mug. It had long gone cold. You’d been clinging to it and pretending to drink it for an hour, because it gave you a good excuse to wait for Bucky. But it was bitter. And a little shitty, because Tony had been fucking with the machine again.
“We shouldn’t do that again.” Bucky had muttered, and you’d only nodded. “I don’t want to get caught, and then have Steve and Stark down our necks-“
“I know.” You’d whispered, forcing your gaze onto his. And that was a different look, in his eyes. Further away. Untouchable.
Reminding you that, at the end of the day, Bucky’s not yours to touch or have or wait for. Just like you don’t have a good enough reason to be his.
“That was the last time.” You’d said it like it didn’t rip you in half, and Bucky had nodded.
“Alright. Good.” He hadn’t walked away. You’d wish he would.
You could’ve fallen apart again in peace, if he had.
“Are we still good for the whole aquarium thing tomorrow?” He’d asked, and you’d shrugged.
“It’s a team event. I organized it. You have to be there.”
“Yeah, but, uh-“ Bucky had cleared his throat, his tongue flicking out between his lips, his gaze dropping to the kitchen counter. “I was kind of plannin’ on just following you around.”
God. He kept saying things like that. All the fucking time, and it was a little cruel, but you know he didn’t mean it be. He had—has—no idea that you dream about him and feel colder when he’s not there and look for him in every room, even when you know he’s not going to be there. Just in case, you always look.
He’d muttered your name, and you’d just given him a small smile.
“As long as we look at the jellyfish.”
Bucky had nodded slowly. “Jellyfish. Got it.” Then he’d smiled. A wide, toothy, real smile that so few people got to see. You don’t know how you earned Bucky’s smile-list.
You know you’re never going to risk your spot on it. So you’d smiled back, and said nothing else because the words might transform into I love you.
After he’d left the kitchen, you’d dumped the coffee down the sink, and sworn to yourself that that, the close call, was really the last time.
It’s been six more last times since then. There had been the last time at the aquarium, and the last time after a meeting, three last times on random days where nothing had happened, but you’d caved anyway, and the last time when he’d shown up at your door after a mission, and you’d taken him in without a question.
And now it’s seven last times.
But this one, this one for certain, will be the real last time. To save yourself, this has to be the real last time.
So you might as well make it count.
You drift through the rest of the party, smiling at the people Tony tells you to smile at, shaking hands and making soft-edged jokes about your job, keeping Bucky in your periphery because you can’t fucking help yourself. You tell yourself it’s to see when he gives the signal, but in reality, it’s because you need to see him. Need to torture yourself every time a pretty woman glides over to his side and touches his arm—never the metal one, they never touch the metal arm and it makes you hate them—because maybe he’ll change his mind and want her instead.
It would be a mercy, in a way. Take away the torment of knowing you’re going to have him, then need to leave before morning.
You always leave before morning. The only time you’re allowed to linger is when you’ve fucked in the daylight, and you start talking like nothing’s happened at all. It breaks you a little more every time.
But you still go. You love him, and you don’t have the strength of all the gods and heroes around you, so you always go.
The night starts to die down. Couples drift off with their hands tangled together, or they drop onto the couch and give each other little smiles—the kind that tells you that, to them, they’re the only two people into the world—and you stand in the corner, alone.
Bucky gives you the signal, as he moves to the door. Two hands casually behind his back one gloved palm splayed open.
Five minutes, before you can follow him.
They’re the longest five minutes of your life. You chew on the ice at the bottom of your glass until your fingers are sort of numb, but you don’t really care.
Bucky will warm them up.
It’s hard not to run to his room, when you know he’s waiting. For you.
Bucky’s waiting for you.
You’ve barely even knocked on the door when it swings open, and Bucky pulls you inside.
There’s no foreplay. There’s never foreplay, because that would imply something intimate and sacred.
But this is sacred. Only to you, but all the same. Every single second Bucky offers you is holy. To him it’s just hunger. A god starved, asking you to leave him an offering while you’re still in his favor.
That’s what this is supposed to be. You’re supposed to kiss with teeth for a minute, then you’ll fall to your knees to please him. He’ll take a fist full of your hair and guide you up and down his cock, fucking your mouth until you’re choking on him and moaning, before he pulls almost all the way out, and cums.
He never settles for only cumming in your mouth or on your tits. He has a habit of angling himself perfectly so that you swallow half of it, and the rest spreads everywhere. Then he’s supposed to drag up into another violent kiss, and fuck you however he wants.
But that’s not what’s happening.
This kiss is longer. Deeper. Bucky’s mouth almost fully overtakes yours, his tongue pressing on you lower lip until you open for him, and then he’s running it over your teeth and down your throat, like he’s trying to plant himself into you. His hands are handling you softly. Holding you at the curve of your back and pressing your body right into his, until all you can sense is Bucky. All you can hear are his slow grunts rolling through you—born from only kissing you—and all you can taste is the whiskey on his breath, that he probably only drank because Nat handed it to him, and he’s scared of her. And you can smell his cologne, and when your eyes flutter open for half a second you can watch his nose bump yours, and feel-
You can feel Bucky everywhere. The hand that’s not holding you is starting to trail over your thighs, closer to where you’re aching for him, and-
This isn’t right. You’re supposed to get on your knees, and then earn him fingering you back. And you try to pull away and sink down, but Bucky just tugs you right back up, and slams his lips back over yours.
“Bucky,” you gasp, pushing a little on his chest because this isn’t supposed to be about you. “Wait-“
He stops immediately, his furrowing in concern. “Are you o-“
“I’m okay.” You mumble, playing with the fabric of his shirt. “You didn’t do anything, Buck, I just- I’m-“ Supposed to isn’t right. That makes it sound like he makes you, and he doesn’t. “What about you?”
Bucky frowns, his hand still resting on your thigh. “What about me?”
“You’re- You know.” You flush, keeping your gaze firmly fixed on your hands as your voice drops to a whisper. “Blowjob.”
He relaxes against you immediately, and you don’t get it. You’ve done something wrong. You’re supposed to be serving him.
And you definitely don’t get his low chuckle, or why his expression is so soft when he tugs your hair back, forcing your gaze onto his.
“We can skip the blowjob tonight, babygirl.”
That’s not fair. He can’t babygirl you right now. “But-“
“Look, I-“ He sighs, shaking his head at something you don’t understand. “I know you wanna, and I don’t not want it, you’re- Jesus, you’re so fucking good at that, but tonight, lemme take care of you. Please.”
That’s not what this is about. And he said tonight like there will be more nights, and there will be, but you’re not supposed to acknowledge that.
But he said please.
And he pulled out the babygirl.
You nod, the movement smaller than you want it to be, and Bucky grins.
“Good. Alright- Yeah.” He presses another perfect, too-soft kiss to your lips. “Tell me what you want.”
Whatever he wants. As long as Bucky’s offering it, you want it.
You don’t think he’ll care for that answer.
“I- I dunno-“
“Yeah, you do.” He’s kissing a line down your throat as he speaks. That’s not fair either, because it makes your head fuzzy, and you forget how to lie. “C’mon, doll. Tell me what you want.”
“You.”
Your answer slips out without thought, and you’re lucky. Bucky doesn’t read into it. He just groans, and you feel his bulge twitch slightly against you.
His hand slides up to cup your pussy, right over your underwear, and you moan lewdly into his ear.
“So fucking wet already.” He mutters against your neck, and you nod a little stupidly in agreement. “C’mon. Be creative. Tell me what you want me to do to you.”
He slaps your cunt once, and your nails dig into his shoulders as you try to stay upright. “Bucky-“
“You can do it, babygirl. Anythin’ you want, just tell me and I’ll get it for you.” Bucky starts to rub his palm back and forth, and you might fly out of your skin. “Use all those pretty words you’ve got, tell me.”
That’s his Sargent voice.
You don’t know how to disobey his Sargent voice.
“I want you to touch me.” You whisper, and Bucky’s eyes shoot back up to yours. “With the metal arm. Until I can’t fucking stand. Then toss me around. And catch me. And taste me, fuck-“ You’re turning yourself on, and Bucky’s blown-out, lustful gaze isn’t helping. “I want you to taste me, Bucky, you- you do this fucking thing with your tongue all the time and I love it and I want it on me and shit-“
Bucky mutters your name in a low warning, but you’re on a roll, and you don’t know how to stop.
“I was to cum on your face, because sometimes it- Fuck, it gets caught in your beard and that’s so hot, and then I was you to fuck me stupid and hard and rough, and keep touching me, don’t stop touching me, Bucky, please. I want to feel it, baby, I need to feel you tomorrow, please.”
You take a long, heavy breath, and maybe you pushed it too far. He’s just staring at you. What if he’d expected you to say something gentle, and you said that. What if that was a test, and you failed it. And Bucky wouldn’t test you like that, but he’s still staring at you, and it’s a hungry, borderline animalistic stare, but he’s not moving or speaking or-
“Tell me if it’s too much.” He mutters, and it’s almost a growl. “I need you to promise me you’ll tell me if it’s too much.”
You nod, trying not to show your eager desperation on your face. “I promise. Please, Bucky. Please.”
His throat bobs, his metal fingers slowly hooking around your panties. “Hold on.”
Your arms wrap around Bucky’s neck right as his fingers shove into your cunt, and he hadn’t lied.
He’s giving you exactly what you asked for.
Not a single part of your instructions gets neglected or ignore. Bucky seems to have given himself a mission to follow them, and he already knows what you like, and this might kill you.
He starts with the touching. Your underwear is ripped off with your entire dress, and tossed into a far, unimportant corner of the room. A metal finger pushes right into your cunt, pumping in and out, faster and faster until you’re moaning. His palm still rubbing right against your clit, his fingers never slowing, and you can feel it, already you can feel the pleasure in your core-
“Want more, doll?”
You moan at Bucky’s voice, right in your ear, and grind down onto his hand.
His chuckle is dark, and you know he understands. “Yes, ma’am.”
Two fingers. You’re so fucking full and it’s only two fingers, but he’s moving so fast and your knees feel weak, your nails scratching and clawing at Bucky’s neck to remain on your feet-
“Let go,” Bucky mutters your name in your ear, and you’re a little worried he can read your mind. “I’ve got you.”
He’s got you. Bucky’s got you.
Your orgasm hits you with a heady warmth that spreads everywhere, over your nerves and into your mouth as a you moan, right to your fingers as you cling to Bucky, and your legs give out.
He catches you. He’s got you, and his touch is so gentle as he continues to roll your clit between his thumb and forefinger, pushing you right back up to the edge.
“Bucky,” you whine, shivering slightly as he kisses over your collarbone. “I- I’m gonna cum again-“
“Hold it.” He mutters, and you squeak as he fucking pinches your clit. “You’re cumming on my face next, babygirl, and you need to be ready-“
“I am ready-“
“Nah.” He draws back up, giving you a grin that can only be described as wicked. “Not for what I’m plannin’ with you.”
Your eyes widen, but Bucky’s already moving on.
Tossing you down onto the bed, barely giving you a second to settle before he’s prowling over you, shoving your thighs apart and looking at your dripping pussy with something impossibly close to awe.
“So fucking wet for me, doll.” He mutters, shaking his head. “I can’t- You’re a damn angel, letting me taste you-“
“Bucky,” you whine again. It’s dangerous, how easy he does this to you. “Please-“
His grip on your thighs tightens, as you start to grind up into the air. “Need you to stay still. Can you be good for me and stay still?”
Oh, God. “Yes,” you whisper, and his grin is dangerous.
“Yes, what?”
You hate it when he does that. There’s nothing in the world that’s going to stop you from giving him what he wants, and he fucking knows it, too.
Asshole. Handsome, perfect, stupid James Barnes is an asshole, and you’re going to give him exactly what he wants.
“Yes, sir.”
“There you go.” Bucky hums, running two fingers between the puffy lips of your cunt. “Good girl.”
He dives down before you can think of something smart to say. Then thinking flies out the window all together, because he’s going to make you fly out of your skin and fucking ascend.
He’s doing the tongue thing. Bucky’s doing the tongue thing, right against you, over and over as he eats you out like it’s the end of the fucking world if he doesn’t. Working you into a frenzy on your clit before dropping to your cunt and tongue-fucking you until you’re humping his face. He’s not trying to restrain your movements. Given how he’s groaning, and his hips are jerking against the bed, he’s liking how your thighs are squeezing his head and you’re writhing below him.
And you’re so close. So fast, you’re right back on the edge, and the heat building is a little different, and fuck, he’s so fucking good at this, why is he so fucking good at this-
You make a high sound that’s supposed to be a warning, but just comes out a raw sound of need.
Bucky understands.
And he doubles down.
A new coil in your stomach snaps, when Bucky’s tongue presses flat on your clit, rolling it, and this orgasm is hot and wet. You’ve never been this wet in your fucking life, and never been the wet from before until you met Bucky, but this is different. This like a flood between your legs, and your back is arching off the bed as Bucky keeps his face pressed right against your sex, and you feel a little molten and gooey as it fades, and you’re not sure what just happened, but it felt good.
“You squirted.” Bucky’s voice is low as he rises back up, and he has to be reading your mind. “Shit, I fucking knew it- You’re always so wet, and- That was beautiful, babygirl, tasted to fucking good, wait-“
His lips crash right over yours, and you moan a little stupidly as you taste yourself on his tongue. You’re already limp on the bed, and it feels like heaven, but Bucky notices and draws away.
“You sure you want more?” His question is genuine. And if you tell him to stop there, he will.
But you can see your release, glinting on his dark stubble.
You’re this far gone anyway.
“More.” You whisper, and Bucky’s eyes flash. “Please, Bucky. Need more. I can take it, please-“
It’s a good thing he kisses you when he does. You were embarrassingly close to crying.
It’s another long, slow, fucking passionate kiss. You’re pretty sure this night is a dream. You don’t want to wake up.
“Still got you, babygirl.” He murmurs against your lips. “Gonna take good care of you. You still want it, uh, rough?”
You nod, your head already clear of all thoughts but Bucky, and he lets out a long breath, pressing one last kiss to the space between your eyes as he draws back up.
You don’t know why, but you thought he’d flip you over. Maybe spank you a little before spreading your ass cheeks open and fucking you like an animal from behind.
He doesn’t move from about you. Bucky strokes himself a few times—his own clothing long joined yours in rags on the floor—lining up at your entrance with a deep breath.
You’re getting one last chance to push him away.
You don’t want it.
And when he sees that, something in Bucky seems to snap. You ask for rough. He promised it.
Rough is what you get.
Bucky slams into you with one movement, not bothering to give you time to adjust before he’s fucking you at a brutal pace, his cock driving deep enough to hit your cervix and press right against your g-spot, setting you on fucking fire. He’s holding himself over you with the metal arm, his gaze locked on yours as he watches himself cleave you open, and you have to close your eyes, or you’ll lose your mind. There’s something too deep in his gaze, and it’s going to drive you insane. Being filled up and fucked until you’re drooling, all while Bucky groan pure filth above you, is more than enough.
“Taking my cock so fucking well, you were made for me, doll, made to be fucked so good- Look at me.” Bucky growls, grabbing your jaw, and there’s no more hiding. Bucky’s eyes are dark and hungry on yours, and you can feel him everywhere as he splits you open. “Open.”
It takes one squeeze of your jaw for you to understand, but then you’re obeying without thought.
“Let me hear you.” Bucky groans, his dick slamming right into that deep part of you. “C’mon, make all your pretty fuckin’ sounds for me babydoll-“
You let out a high, loud whine, and Bucky grins, the bed squeaking as his pace picks up.
“Good girl.”
You were already sensitive from his mouth and fingers. And that’s enough. You fly back over the edge with a weak sound, your pussy squeezing and fluttering around Bucky’s cock, and somewhere far in the distance you can hear him roar your name as he slams home.
It sends another, smaller aftershock orgasm through you again. It’s going to hurt to sit tomorrow.
Good.
Bucky has the same habit when he cums in your pussy that he does with your mouth. Pulling just far enough out that he’s still pumping you full of him, all while allowing the rest of it to dribble down your thighs and onto your ass. The only difference is that with this, he’ll roll his cock right back into you, letting out a long groan as his brow drops to your shoulder.
You don’t know how long you both lay there. Bucky’s cock still filling you up, everything about him everywhere around you, your head lost in a daze of Bucky. So fucking good, and warm, and—in this stolen moment—yours.
Bucky takes a long, ragged breath, and slowly pulls out, leaving you a little aching and empty.
“Stay here, baby.” He mutters, and you hum. You’ll have to go soon.
For now, you’re indulging yourself.
Bucky’s cleaning up after himself, just like he always does. A warm, wet washcloth between your legs, and a kiss to your inner thigh that’s far too gentle. A little water and chocolate that he sits you up to eat, holding it out and glaring until you take it.
You sigh. “Bucky-“
“You need it.” He grunts. “You know you need it.”
He wasn’t wrong. You’re still a little lightheaded, and he’s left bruises on your hips that you love, and you know Bucky hates. He thinks they’re hurting you. It doesn’t matter that you asked him for it, he’s still going to hate them.
He doesn’t know you fucking cry, like some pathetic, lovesick idiot, whenever they fade. To you, they’re proof he touched you.
But you still take the water and food. Bucky wants you to, and you’ll do anything for him.
You’ll even participate in the dance where he crawls back into bed, pulls you into his body with his arms around your stomach, and presses a kiss to your shoulder. The game you both play where you pretend this is really the last time, and that you’re not going to be gone the moment Bucky’s asleep. It’s an odd game. He’s holding you because he’s pretending he’ll care if you go. You’re letting him because you want him to make you stay. You leave because you have to, if you want to survive. Bucky doesn’t stop you, because right now—if you ask either of you—that was the last time.
It won’t be. You always say it is, and you both know you’re far from the last time, but you also know that one day, there will be a last time. And it will break you, and Bucky won’t clean you up, and then you’ll just have to… Keep going.
And this is the worst part.
Bucky’s breathing is even behind you, and his body is relaxed. He’s done his part, and fallen asleep. Now you have to do yours, and leave. This was the last time—and even as you think it, you know it’s not the truth, but you have to pretend it is—and now you have to leave.
You start by trying to squirm away from him, but Bucky’s muscles flex, and suddenly you’re pinned tighter to his chest. Then you try to roll, and his legs tangle into yours. Prying arms away just makes him drag you closer. Trying to scramble quickly ends with him half on top of you.
This isn’t how the dance is supposed to go.
You’re supposed to just leave. Without a fight, or resistance. Bucky’s supposed to stay asleep as you gather your clothing and slip out the door. He’s supposed to bunch all the blankets in his arm to replace where you’d been, and breathe out a little sigh of your name that makes you cry in the shower a few hours later.
He’s not supposed to be looking at you, when you roll over in his arms.
“What are you doing?” You whisper.
“Tried to fuck you good enough you couldn’t walk away.” He mutters, watching you so fucking carefully. Like he’s afraid you’ll turn into nothing but air if he says the wrong thing. “Guess I shoulda known better.”
“Bucky-“
“You never stay.” He scans over your face, something painful in his eyes you don’t want to stare at for too long, or you’ll start crying. “Nothin’ I do is ever enough to make you stop leaving.”
“I leave because you never ask me to stay.” You whisper, and Bucky sighs.
“I never ask you to stay cause I think you want to leave.”
“Oh.”
“Yeah.”
You’re staring at each other, and being the first one to move—away or deeper into Bucky—is the most terrifying thought in the world. You could leave, and this will be the last time. And you’ll lose him. You’ll stay, and he’ll want you now but not later, and you’ll lose him. You’re going to lose him, because there’s no world where something this good just happens, and you want to stay but the most important thing about this has been never losing Bucky-
“If I ask you to stay,” Bucky mutters, tracing metal fingers carefully over your cheekbone. “What would you say? And before you answer,” he adds in a rushed tone. “I want to tell you something.”
You frown at him, your confusion obviously written all over your face, and Bucky sighs.
“I’m not telling you because I’m tryin’ to make you stay. If you wanna go, you’re free. Won’t drag you back, no matter how much I want to.”
“Bucky,” you whisper, and you’re lying down, but you’re still a little dizzy. “I don’t know what you’re talking about-“
“I love you.” His words are soft, but firm. Certain. And the world might have stopped moving. “I don’t know a lot, you know I don’t, but I know I love you. I’d do anythin’ for you, and that includes letting you go. If that’s what you want.”
“Bu-“
“Wait,” he shakes his head, holding your gaze. “I do want you to stay. If that’s what you’ve been waiting for, if that’s all I’ve had to do, then I love you,” he says your name, and the world must have stopped. This can only have happened because the world stopped, and everything dies, and now you’re in heaven.
But Bucky’s warm and strong around you. And he feels real. Looks real. Tastes real, still lingering on your tongue.
You swallow. You have to speak slowly, or this might all slip through your fingers. “Are asking me to stay?”
“Think so.” He gives you a small, slightly nervous grin. “And let me love you. Be my girl. You know, if you’ll have me-“
“Of course I’ll have you.” The words fall out of you like you’re a waterfall, spilling into the river, but that’s just how this is. There’s gravity, so of course the water goes down. You love Bucky, so there’s no world where you don’t have him.
Bucky raises his brows. “Of course?”
You nod, trying to ride the wave of frantic confidence, not allowing yourself to look anywhere but Bucky. “Yeah. I- I love you too.”
It’s good to say. You’ve spent so long choking on it, and now it’s free, and you can breathe so easily. You’d forgotten what it was like, to not be strangling yourself with your own secret. It’s like having a fruit after years of only eating ash.
But Bucky’s just staring at you with wide, deep, blue eyes, his lips parted and fingers still so carefully on your cheek.
He looks a little like an angel.
“You sure?” His voice is hoarse, but there’s something soft under it, and it’s the same thing you can feel in your heart.
Fear. Of losing something you’ve barely even had.
But you want it. And Bucky wants you.
So there’s nowhere else to go. All you have to do is stay here.
“Yeah,” you give him a small smile, and his grin splits his face. “I’m sure.”
You’ll talk later. For now Bucky just pulls you further into his body, and kisses the top of your head. In a way, that was the last time. And the first.
Because you stay.
All through the night, and a long, long, long while after, you stay.
End Note: how many times do I have to write something like this before it happens to me?
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Starved

Summary: Viltrumite!Mark is an eater
Warnings: MDNI🔞, Mentions of cunnilingus, reader is afab, mention of Stockholm syndrome, tiny bit of voyeurism
A/N: I’ve been meaning to put more invincible stuff out but i’m just busy i swear😭
Anyways, I’ve really been wanting to write Viltrumite mark because i literally need him like asap. I’m not the best at writing him tho especially cause this is my first time so sorry abt that.
(Also idk the artist, i tried looking but if anyone finds them let me know!)
As much as you hated him, you loved how he treated you in bed.
Especially, while he ate you out.
The room itself, it was his, was huge and so was the bed. It was bigger than a king size bed on Earth, and it was oddly extremely comfortable and soft.
After this Mark, who wasn’t actually your Mark mind you, literally kidnapped you to make you his wife—very, very long story btw—you had to become accustomed to living here. Viltrum was….intense, but also beautiful, structured and clean. And, so was this guy.
Your Mark on earth was awkward and kind. He hated killing. This one? This guy? He did it like he was blinking, and when he laid eyes on you with that stare you couldn’t put an emotion on you knew it was over. One minute you were running from him and the next you were being carried in space somewhere.
But enough of that.
This Mark was considered royalty here so he could just do….whatever!
Others bowed to him. Conversations hushed when he entered rooms. No one dared to challenge him.
So, that’s why he doesn’t care where, but if he wants to eat you out he will. It doesn’t help that Mark was your ex on earth so you just let him.
The first time was after some weird dinner thing in the dining hall a week after you arrived. You didn’t follow what they were doing well because, well, you were still traumatized from literally everything that happened. Plus, Mark’s hand was on your knee under the table and inched up every other minute.
Everyone left and a viltrumite maid in rags started to clean up, but Mark couldn’t wait anymore so it seemed. His hand left your thigh finally and he stood up slowly. You didn’t move. Part of you was scared for what was to come next. You didn’t expect it when he proceeded to pick you up from your chair and lay you on the long table in front of him and pull your bottoms all the way off.
“What-” You gasp. The maid looked up and made eye contact with a glaring Mark. They promptly left.
“I want to taste the sweetness between your legs.” Mark said in his usual nonchalant way. He stood between your now bare legs with a hand under each knee. “I’ve been wanting to since I found you.”
Shock wasn’t even the beginning to describe how you felt then. This guy has only kissed you like once. Now he’s gonna eat you out? On this fancy table? You hardly registered that your bottom half was just completely bare with only the cold air on your skin bringing you back. It was just so sudden but part of you was thrilled. Excited even.
“Um, okay?” You sighed. What’s the use fighting him? “Are we just gonna….like, here? Now?”
Mark just nods once, expression unmoving.
You hate how he just lacks…personality. Sometimes he’s just a statue and it creeps you out with how he moved just so calculated.
He moves down so his head is between your thighs. His hands are pushing your legs apart so you couldn’t move even if you wanted to, and he immediately got to work. It was like he let himself go. Unraveling from a long day of masking as a strong, poker faced warrior. And you were concerned at first that Viltrumites just lick one long stripe each time like fucking robots but no. Nope.
Dare you say this Mark ate you out better than your own?
The way he used his tongue against you, flicking and dipping inside rhythmically had you on the verge of cumming minutes in. He groaned and moaned into you like he never tasted anything better. His nose brushed against your neglected clit every now and then which didn’t help.
You wondered why he avoided it, but quickly learned he was saving it for the end. When you started twitch and tried to move away from him he held you firmly in place and started sucking on your clit, occasionally letting his tongue flick against it as well.
Then you came like never before. You saw stars. You swore you did. And, the worst part was he didn’t even stop. He just kept going, slurping the juices that came out of you as you shook around him.
And then when you were done, gasping for air and still trembling a bit, he just pulled you up off the table and helped you put your skirt back on.
You couldn’t even speak. He just carried on and helped you to his room like nothing happened, his face still wet and all.
After that night he’d just randomly eat you out. You’d be lying if you said you weren’t excited when he started showing those subtle signs of needing you. Whether it was a hand on your knee again or him just never leaving your side. Even the times he’s just….staring into your soul (you did not like those times at all).
It made sense he ate you out like a god, he was one.
You could almost blame the creeping Stockholm syndrome on loving him and how he ate you. The urge to get away from him slipped away with each tender lick of his tongue.
“Your petals has the exact sweetness of a fruit from this planet i conquered once.”, Mark said one night between your legs. “A rare delicacy.”
You almost didn’t fully register what he said because you were lost in your own world of pleasure.
“Is…is that why, ughh~”, you moaned. You could hardly finish a thought because he just didn’t stop for nothing.
“Why what.” He said before returning to sucking on you.
“Is that why-why you like me so, fuck, much?”
He paused like he was thinking about it. Then he shook his head no.
“There is more to why I “like” you.”
You wanted to say more but that was the end of that conversation because he went right back to work. Part of you believed it was stress relief. Another part now went the planet fruit excuse.
Everything else about him was composed. Regal almost.
Untouchable.
He was respected by many Viltrumites here.
But when he was between your legs like this? His hair was a mess. He made many noises you know no one else has heard from him. His eyes would get watery and filled with lust and need.
Not to mention he loved being drenched when he was done with you. One time his face was literally dripping because he got you to squirt on him. He’d always get up too, like it was nothing.
You still didn’t know how to feel about him. He was your kidnapper after all and not to mention he looked and sounded exactly like your ex. It was a complex situation. Even months later you felt conflicted.
But maybe, just maybe, you could get used to this as long as he stayed just as needy to eat you out.
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everyone deserves a chance
bob reynolds x reader
summary: The last time you had been face to face with Bob, you were convinced this was the last you would ever see of him, because deep down he was just as much. Because despite his glassy and bloodshot eyes looking at you one last time as you begged him not to, you knew this was bigger than you. Bigger than his own will. A desperate attempt at a new start.
tags: fluff, angst, oblivious idiots in love, friends to lovers, mutual pining, mentions of drugs and addiction, mental health, hurt/comfort
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You never thought you would see him again.
The last time you had been face to face with Bob, you were convinced this was the last you would ever see of him, because deep down he was just as much.
Because despite his glassy and bloodshot eyes looking at you one last time as you begged him not to, you knew this was bigger than you. Bigger than his own will.
A desperate attempt at a new start.
His words stuck with you for the next few months he was gone.
They cut deeper than they should have.
You would see him in your dreams repeating that if you hadn’t mattered so much to him, he would have left for Malaysia without a single word, without even letting you know, just the way he did it for everyone else.
That he wanted to say it, owed you as much as a goodbye because you had been the only person that really ever had his back ever since high school.
You knew what he had gone through. You knew it had been foolish and innocent to expect you could just fix him. But you also knew that he did his best and if he figured starting a life in another country would be good for him, then you would let him, no matter how much having him disappear on you left a hollow place inside.
So when you saw him on the television at work when a customer switched it to the news channel, you almost dropped the cup of coffee you were in the middle of preparing. You had set it aside, stepping closer to the television hung on the wall to make sure you weren’t hallucinating it, to make sure it wasn’t your subconscious playing sick jokes on you by making you see him in other people.
But it was him. His hair was just a bit longer than when he faced you on your porch the night he said goodbye.
The first few seconds of realizing he was back in America had you unconsciously smiling, but the next few hours had you properly shattered.
How long had he been back?
Why didn’t he come see you?
Had this trip to Malaysia just been a way to cut you off and never look back on you?
You had done your job for the rest of your shift on autopilot, like a robot programmed to do so. Your mind was somewhere else completely as you were turning it all around in your head, desperately trying to make sense of it all. You had been buried so deep inside your own head that you didn’t even realize that your shift was over until your coworker shook you out of your thoughts and told you to get going.
You took the longest way home, picking the most impractical metro line just so you wouldn’t have to ponder about this back home and drive yourself crazy in your own space.
That didn’t stop you from doing so, but now you knew that you were going to have to come to terms with the fact that Bob doesn’t need you anymore.
—
“Oh, some Bob guy asked for you yesterday”
You glance to the side, your heart skipping a beat and a wave of nervousness filling your torso as you suddenly stop wiping the counter clean. You blink, fazed, and watch as your coworker writes Robert on a cup. “What did he say?” you ask, your voice wavering slightly before you toss the dishcloth aside, lightly clearing your throat as you brace yourself.
She shrugs. “He looked like he didn’t really know what he wanted. Looked around for a bit, asked if you still worked here. Then kinda spaced out when I told him you weren’t here that day”
“Yeah, that would be him,” you mutter under your breath, taking the man’s payment.
“That Bob’s an ex?” she asks lifting an eyebrow as she prepares the man’s order.
You thank the man, tell him his order is coming up and sigh once you turn back to your coworker, scratching your forehead. “Uh, worse,” you joke.
She takes the answer with an amused smile, not asking for more. She calls out for the Robert in question once she’s finished with his order, and turns back to you once the man leaves with his cup. “Well, whatever that was, it seemed important”
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Your friendship with Bob had worsened when you found out he was taking meth, but then again, you knew giving up on him wasn’t the solution.
Bob had been a good man since as long as you had known him, so it would have been unfair.
Then he was the one to give up on you.
But still, you couldn’t even entirely blame him, and even less as he sat in front of you.
Bob's eyes flicker along your face, a beaten expression painted over his own. You’re not sure what to say, or in fact you are just unsure of where to start.
But you’re not the one that is owed an explanation.
“I uh–” he clears his throat. “Do you remember the presentation we did in high school?” he eventually asks, fiddling with the coffee cup in front of him. “The one that made us become friends” he specifies with a nod, a small, weak smile growing over his face as he reflects on it.
You nod slowly, cautious. “Drugs,” you say. “It was on drug abuse” you mutter under your breath.
“Yeah,” he breathes out. “It goes way back so you probably don't remember, but when we were done presenting it some girl raised her hand and said something like ‘Some people just don’t want help, they chose to do drugs, they don’t deserve sympathy’”
The statement makes you grimace, a sour scoff escaping your lips. It stings even more now considering the circumstances, but you wait for him to go on.
“And you said– you didn’t even hesitate and you said, ‘You don’t know what made them turn to drugs, no one chooses to be broken, everyone deserves a chance’” Bob nods, swallowing hard, pinching his lips into a small smile. He looks down at the coffee you made him, nodding again as he smiles before he looks back up at you.
“You don’t know it but it stuck with me for so long, and even more when I became an addict” he confesses with all the sincerity he could convey. You say nothing. Your chest tightens. “I wanted to be better. I really did. That’s why I left.”
Your gaze softens at his words, and it all comes crashing back on you when he dives in and tells you about it all – the lab thing being part of the reason he left for Malaysia, how it all went wrong, Sentry, the Void, his new– friends? Everything. As crazy as it sounds.
You let go of a breath you didn’t realize you had been holding once he’s done telling you all about it.
“This is insane,” you eventually murmur, rubbing a hand over your face. He tilts his head to the side in silent agreement. “But you do look better” you eventually say, granting him a genuine smile.
His mouth twists into a coy smile and he shrugs. “I’m past the meth thing”
“That’s… That’s good for you. I’m glad” you smile.
An ugly, awkward silence falls between the two of you. Charged with the weight of tension.
Way different than the comfortable silence you used to share by just existing within each other’s space.
You don’t know what you should say to him.
You don’t know if you should ask him if there was any chance it would have held him back if you had finally confessed your feelings for him that night on your porch.
You stop wondering when Bob calls out your name. “I’m trying my best. I want to make it right” he explains. “I didn’t reach out sooner because I didn’t know how to do it. I didn’t know how to face you again”
You take a moment to process his words, the effect they have on you. The truth is, you don’t know how to face him again either. Not when everything between you has gotten this hard.
You look around the empty coffee shop just to give you a break from looking at him, from his pleading gaze. “Bob–”
“–I wanted to be someone worthy of you.”
You halt, your eyes fluttering close. The knot inside your throat tightens. You look back at him, tears threatening your eyes. Your hand reaches for his over the table. “I’m proud of you” you whisper.
He exhales sharply, like he had been holding his breath for months just waiting to hear that from someone. His fingers twitch under your hand, then turn gently to hold it. It’s tentative at first, then firm enough to let you know he wants this. Wants you.
Your thumb brushes lightly across his knuckles, gently, and suddenly the air between you is full with all the things you never explicitly told each other. The glances that lingered too long, the late nights you spent on rooftops and porch steps, every time you would hang out in your childhood home because his wasn’t even an option if his parents happened to be here.
“I know I ruined everything for us. I’m sorry. Give me a chance. Please” he pleads, his voice rough and low, his eyes shifting from your linked hands to your face.
You look at him, really look at him, and you know he means it. He means every word he says, never meant to hurt you, only ever tried to save himself.
A weak, tentative grin grows onto your face before you speak again.
“Everyone deserves a chance, right?”
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Finding Batboy
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Phantom
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Fenton
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Batboy
He just wanted to be Danny. Just Danny, nothing else.
But who was Danny anymore?
Danny was a 14-year-old boy who died in a tragic accident. Danny had a decent life with friends and a sister who he loved. Danny wanted to be an astronaut and loved the stars. Danny had an astrology phase that made him so annoying to everyone but Sam. Danny liked dogs and cats hated him for no reason no matter how much he loved them. Danny wanted to join the robotics club with Tucker. Danny still snuck into his sister's room when he was scared to sleep in her bed.
But Danny is dead. Danny has been dead for years now.
He missed being Danny.
Now he was Phantom.
No past.
No home.
No family.
But if that was true, what did that make Dick?
Just another person that he would have to leave behind. It wouldn't be long. History doesn't repeat but it rhymes. It can't last. It won't.
Danny flew to some abandoned factory located somewhere in Gotham. He hadn't really paid much attention. He just needed a desolate place to land. Somewhere even the ghosts have long abandoned.
Truthfully Danny didn't want to be alone. A part of him felt the urge to find that revenant that he had met. Something that felt familiar to him, someone that could understand.
But right now Danny wanted to rest and he wasn't picky about where. He wrapped his wings in a tight cocoon and plopped on the ground. His sleep was deep, more than he ever remembered having before, except once.
Danny walked through the halls of a spiraling tower that overlooked the Ghost Zone. The tower was decorated with stars and moons. Mist hovered just above the floor creating a icy blue carpet. Ghost sheep napped in corners. The scent of poppy and pine filled the air.
As Danny ascended to the top he met with a familiar face. Nocturne the ghost of dreams. The ghost's thick bridged nose reminded Danny of that of a sheep that matched his curled ramhorns. His red eyes with horizontal pupils reminded him of a demonic ram he had seen in a horror movie once. Danny could practically hear that line again: "Would thou like to live deliciously?"
It still gave Danny chills.
"Please refrain from making such comparisons." Nocturne said, his voice deep but soft at the same time.
Danny had gotten to know Nocturne some time ago. Apparently, he and Clockwork were close. They shared a high rank among ghosts as they were abstract manifestations rather then being that were once living like some. The hierarchy of ghosts was complex, and Nocturne was not someone to look down on.
"Nox, why am I here?" Danny said standing before the seven-foot frame of the amorphous ghost.
"You are spending too much time in the material realm. If you don't get time back in the realm to which you belong you'll go mad. It's already starting to happen. I stole your mind away for a bit to give you a mental break but your body is already starting to break down." Nocturne said waving a finger at him.
"My body and brain are fine Nox." Danny said crossing his arms.
Nocturne picked the boy up with one hand and held him at eye level.
"You are having trouble shifting are you not? Its not coming as easily as it should. The more attached you get to a form without the energy from our world to break it up the worse it will be. The Ghost of Time has already told me of the problem. You must stay here for the time being and recover. It is what's best. Mental weakness is the worst one can suffer and the remedy is sleep." Nocturne's breath smelled like warm milk and cinnamon. It calmed Danny's nerves and made his eyes heavy.
Clockwork had put him up to this. That old man...really was....annoying....Zzzz.
Back in the world of the living and awake mass panic has broken out.
Batboy is currently missing and Nightwing is not handling it well. The entirety of the Gotham Vigilantes team has been notified and is searching the cities of Gotham and Bludhaven.
"Have you searched the docks?" Nightwing asked frantically as he searched every rooftop in the city.
"I'm working on it. Do you really think he's here?" Red Robin said scanning every unit on the lot.
Red Hood didn't know what the BatBoy kid looked like other than the whole wings thing. If his little buddy Phantom could help it would help.
Although they had a slight resemblance Jason could see too many differences when looking at the pictures. Phantom had round ears, and silver hair that moved like fire and looked like a human. Batboy had long sharp ears, claws, pointy teeth, blueish-green skin, wings, and a white fluff around his neck. Clearly, they were different.
Batman searched the dark allies of Gotham as Signal and Orphan split up to cover as much ground as possible. Oracle searched every camera from the past few hours for the boy.
The good news was that Batboy was found. The bad news was who found him.
"Poor little Bluebird lost his fledgling and Batsy is looking for the lost pup. I should let them know that the little guy has been found! Ahahahaha!"
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