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For your modern avatar au What if spider has some sort of respiratory diseases, or other chronic inflammatory lung or obstructive lung diseases. Because he has to were a oxygen mask in the movie.
Alright here is my answer finally @peachycrime
Okay, unfortunately my first thought was the fucking 2001 comedy/romance Bubble Boy, so that's cool.
Luckily for you I've been in the reddie fandom hardcore since 2016 so WE KNOW ABOUT ASTHMATIC HEADCANONS IN THIS HOUSE.
I think I'd pick like severe asthma because it just jives for me, but if you wanna go crazy we could really have a fucking Fault in our Stars/Five Feet Apart moment here. Really lean into locorro or spiri here.
-Spider lived with Norm for years because he was the foster parent they had with the most medical experience, but eventually he just was LIVING with Jake and Neytiri .
-Stay at home wheelchair dad Jake Sully with his three little kids under three had none of the attention or free time to dedicate to a kid with medical issues, but him and work from home Norm become a seamless team in the kids toddler years.
-Neytiri had just finished her residency so she was simply flawless with him. He's pretty much a normal kid, he's just got bad asthma. He does all physical activity he can, but he gets out of breath quickly and has to stop for a puff or two before he can get back out there.
-Neteyam is younger but they're in the same grade because Spider got held back because he was so lil because he was a sick kid before Neytiri and Norm got a hold of him.
-He carries around an inhaler and Neteyam also carries around an inhaler because Neteyam may be younger but he is so protective of Spider and so worried about him losing his breath when they are at school and their parents aren't around.
-Tonowari and Jake meet at the playground on a Saturday and all of a sudden Jake is an after-school care, watching his own four kids and Ao'nung and Tsireya (and neighborhood latchkey kid Rotxo who Spider loves because he was also a latchkey kid).
-Ao'nung gets mad at Spider during a game of pickle where they are both the taggers because Spider stops to tag a puff. Ao'nung insists he has to keep going and Spider does and ends up passing out.
-He's not allowed to run or do anything strenuous for two days and Ao'nung is grounded by Ronal for a week. Neteyam and Kiri don't talk to him for a day. He feels really bad though and after that he yells at any kid who tries to get Spider to do anything physical at school until a teacher has to call home and they all have to have a chat lol.
-Neytiri and Norm we're absolutely unbearable for days, hovering over him and making him drink water, while Jake was treating Spider exactly the same. They are disability buddies and Jake would never treat Spider as fragile because he isn't. In fact, they played catch later that night even though Spider was sitting down and it gave Neteyam an aneurysm.
-Lo'ak always explains to strangers that his brother is cool he just has "shit lungs" because he heard Jake say that one time.
-Reddie moment: "Spider Sully Blasts Off!" every time he uses his inhaler.
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teabutmakeitazure · 2 months
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told my mom I don't feel like her daughter or blood because of the way she treats my cousin and she told me I'm being ridiculous and petty
#vent#mom tells everyone that (insert cousin name) is her daughter and that she treats her like such and is always talking praises about her#but whenever she talks about me somewhere its always complaints#that i dont take care of her and dont spend time with her and only gove her stress#a few days ago she told everyone that i dont do (insert name of thing that i explicitly do every single day for her) for her and that she's#-unlucky for having a daughter like me whereas my aunt (who she was talking to) is lucky to have such amazing 3 daughters#and then when she sings praises of my cousin (not this aunts daughter) its always everything good#and even when this cousin is staying at our place with her 3 kids uninvited my mom treats her better than me#and when i point that that im suddenly being ridiculous and petty#it hurts worse because this monthly cycle im having 2 depression weeks from the looks of it and it currently a depression week#guess mom will be happy when im gone next month#she can spend all the time she wants with said cousin#for context my mom is cousin's aunt and she kind of raised her and her brother for a couple of years since their mom died when they were-#-little#and my mom keep saying she pities her for her moms death even tho she lives a happier life than us#you cant miss a relationship you never knew so ofc shes fine#i cant belive a 4 year bond is stronger than blood for my mom. guess ill get back to work then#maybe coding is dae wae#zuri rambles#edit: i just cleaned the entire apartment. broomed and mopped all the floors. did the beds and bedsheets. put everything back in place. did#-the dishes and rn mom's outside singing cousin's praises because she made tea for us during breakfast#god when will august come i cant take this anymore
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max-nolastname · 7 months
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I’m watching avatar the last airbender with a 10 year old and what a joy it is to watch them fall in love with it. It reminds me of what atla is really and truly about: laughing at sokka’s struggles and happily yelling, “Appa!!” whenever he appears on screen
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okay but real talk
if m!leven was really, genuinely, unquestionably endgame then there would not be this much doubt and disbelief about it. there would be some, sure, but it would just be a tiny vocal minority like the byler community was before s4. somebody always wants to be contradictory. hundreds of thousands of people don't invest themselves heavily in that contradiction. millions don't feel casually favourable toward it.
it's an undeniable fact that the way season 4 was structured, on many levels, caused a large (large!!!) amount of people to doubt the stability of m!leven. for SO many people to switch over the course of just a month from either favourable to or actively shipping mike and el, to at the very least disliking their relationship and in many cases actively supporting the idea of mike and will instead??? that doesn't happen. it just. doesn't.
it's also an undeniable fact that, having been given an unfavourable perspective on m!leven's relationship by s4, many people have looked back on the previous seasons and noticed in retrospect how both the flaws of their relationship and the strengths of mike and will's have been present since the beginning. s4 didn't change the core of either relationship. all it did was finally strip back the layers that had always been a little transparent and put those cores on full display.
if m!leven was truly engame that wouldn't just mean that s4 was bad and it did such an inadequate job of making people root for its ship that it turned them away; it would mean that the entire show has been terribly written from the beginning concerning only these specific relationships.
it truly baffles me that so many diehard m!leven supporters (or at least, diehard byler antis, and we all know what that's code for😒😒) will happily take that as an explanation. they WANT their show to be badly written, because if it's well written then it's all too clear that the narrative is no longer in their favour. more than that: it never really was.
think about all the other relationships in the show, that fandom and GA alike concur are well written and compelling. think about jonathan and nancy, how the tension between them was evident from the beginning, but nancy was stuck in an increasingly unhappy relationship with steve. think about joyce and hopper, who have had painfully obvious chemistry for the whole show but took until well into the penultimate season to kiss. think about lucas and max, about the growing pains their relationship has gone through and how they only served to strengthen their connection. lumax in particular is the ultimate anti-m!leven, going through the same motions but with a natural chemistry and genuine connection that mike and el have never quite made believable. both the contrast between all three of these relationships and m!leven and the similarities they share with byler have been painfully clear for at least two seasons, and the elements that clash have been built since s1.
all of these relationships have had broad arcs that span across the seasons, and the dynamics have shifted accordingly every time. but mike and el??? their dynamic is the same as it was in s1, on the surface at least. and that's not cute or romantic, as much as the shippers would like to think it is. that's bad for them on an in-universe level and on a writing level as well. a static relationship is never compelling. the writers know this. they have demonstrated their ability to develop relationship arcs in new directions, that are predictable not because they're badly written and trite, but because they're well written and have been foreshadowed and eased into by the narrative whole seasons ahead of time.
if mike and el were truly meant to be, there wouldn't be this clash between them and every other pairing in the show. if mike and el were truly meant to be, their predictability would be like that of jancy, or jopper, or lumax. we know they'll work it out, we know they'll get together in the end, we know they'll grow closer as they grow up.
but, they don't. they don't work out the issues in their relationship. they argue about them, and then they ignore each other, and then they ignore the problems, and then they argue again. and again. and again. they don't get together in the end. if you count their first kiss as the unofficial beginning of their relationship, then they've been together in some capacity since s1. that's a whole season longer than any other endgame couple in the show. they don't grow up together. they grow up separated while el is hidden away, and then separated by tension from their breakup, and then separated by states' worth of distance and all the lies they build up between each other to lengthen it.
if they were "true love" then not only would these issues be either addressed and resolved in a satisfying manner or clearly primed for resolution in the next season, as is the case with the other ships, they wouldn't have been included in the first place. they wouldn't have been strewn throughout the early seasons for later consideration. they wouldn't have been overwhelmingly present in s3, but brushed off as comedy. they wouldn't have been put on full blast in s4 and shown for just what they truly are.
but coming up to s5, the show truly is reaching its climax. none of the relationships have been fully resolved yet. jonathan still needs to come clean to nancy, and nancy needs to let steve down. joyce and hopper still need to have their date at enzo's, and properly establish their relationship. max still needs to wake up, and i'm sure lucas will be responsible in some way for finding her. all of these relationships, however, have mirrored the main plot in their progression toward a climax. they're on the tipping point. if mike's monologue is to be taken at face value and the tension that follows it for the remaining runtime is ignored, el and mike have already reached the climax of their arc. never mind that their problems only continue to fester, unaddressed. never mind that mike and will sit on the same tipping point as the rest: half-addressed, with will's confession hidden in plain sight in the same way his feelings have been all along.
the last points to resolve in both relationships are obvious to us, not because we are "geniuses" for noticing them, but because they should be obvious, just like they are with every other relationship. not now in s4, when they aren't the focus and frankly shouldn't be, when the writers want to preserve one last layer of transparent mystery for the sake of an unbeatable talking point. it will be obvious in s5, when your dad and screenrant and the myriad reaction youtubers will all see as much as they always do: the surface level. and then they'll think back, remember the scenes that flashed by in the season recap. they won't feel decieved then, or even particularly subverted. they'll just see the story that has been told since the beginning. they'll feel satisfied, and if they don't then it has nothing to do with the quality of the writing and everything to do with their own prejudice.
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cuntwrap--supreme · 21 days
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Someone's tiny child drew a Something and they put it in their box saying the kid drew it for me. Which is cute, I guess. My mom did stuff like this when I was a small child who was obsessed with the arrival of mail. It's in the route's case to be immortalized forever.
Now to figure out how to read the drawing so I can find what I assume is treasure beyond my wildest imagination.
#girl if this isn't a treasure map i don't know what is#Lucas knows something i don't know. but he's three so he can't tell me in words.#i just have to interpret the drawing. somehow. at least it's color coded. that helps.#the back of the page says something about how he asks where the mail is every day#she wrote that he watches for my truck but they're in the woods so i know they can't see me approach#maybe she meant he listens for the truck. it's definitely loud enough to hear from a ways away.#whatever the case. little guy tried.#i always keep drawings from kids. even though i don't like kids. there's just something raw about what they draw.#no talent. no knowledge of fundamentals. but also no fear of being cringe or failing. just vibes.#i have so many things my brother and sister drew as little littles in a drawer with my art stuff and my sister wants me to toss it all#like. no dude. you drew a 'flower' when you were 4 and I'll have it until that paper crumbles to dust.#it's from a time before you could do anything to show you appreciate the people in your life in the same way you can now#a time when a shitty drawing was the best way to say 'hey. we're cool. i appreciate your presence'#i have one from my brother from when i broke up with my hogh school boyfriend that's a transformer (i think?)#and it says - in kid spelling - i hope you aren't so sad soon#like. he was 5 or 6 when he made that. guy didn't know what i was going through. he just wanted me to feel better.#something something humans find a way to communicate with one another despite language barriers and shit
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clownprince · 1 year
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"you can't just ignore massive narratively consequential chunks of a characters' story that you don't like or disagree with" actually i can. and i do. and it's very easy ^_^
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saintofpride201 · 3 months
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Thoughts on cheating in video games? I mean in general, with codes, exploits, cheat engine, etc.
Actually have words about this. Ironically this was just on my mind earlier yesterday.
So for single player games, I'd say that's fair game, so long as you're not cheesing leaderboards and shit with it. Games are meant to be fun, and breaking the rules in a non-competitive game is fun for a lot of people, myself included. Also helps people who have issues completing said games, whether they're disabled or just not really good at games but want to play them anyway. Glitches & exploits are also fair game there too.
Multiplayer games is a no-no for me. Unless it's a non-live game that specifically allows you to cheat with your co-op partners, it's wrong af. If it's anything like an MMO or anything with competitive elements, it gives you an unfair advantage over everyone else. Glitches however i think are fair game, again, so long as you're not cheesing them to get a 1-up on other players.
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Side note: I think it's dumb for games to punish you for cheating, outside of cutting off your achievements & not saving your records. Doing things like making everything in the game shame you for using the cheats that the devs built into the game for you to use, making certain things abnormally harder to do, etc. It's a dick move. If you didn't want us to cheat, why did you make a damn cheat menu in the game?
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steakout-05 · 2 months
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for months now i have had this little story idea bouncing around in my head for an AU of Jetpack Joyride where Barry is stuck inside a big expermental time loop conducted by Legitimate Research to create an army of randomly selected time-travelling soldiers. the idea is very much still rough and i dunno if and when i'll develop it into a bigger thing, but it's a pretty cool idea and it's a twist on the JJ game that i've never really seen much exploration on.
basically, it focuses on Barry, who is the sort of Patient Zero of an experimental concentrated time-fuckery technology LR is working on. every single day, at exactly the same time, Barry goes out to work his salesman job, discovers the jetpack, breaks into the laboratory, takes it for a joyride, eventually gets hit by an obstacle and dies. the next day, Barry goes out to work his salesman job, discovers the jetpack, breaks into the lab, takes it for a joyride and dies. and he does the same exact thing the next day, and the next day, and the next day, and the next day... he's pretty much stuck in a loop of the exact same events happening repeatedly every single day, and he has absolutely no idea about it. that is, until there's a glitch in the system, and Barry progressively becomes a lot more suspicious and paranoid about the situation he's in. the rest of this post is gonna be REALLY spoilery (like i literally just explain big important chunks of the story for several paragraphs) if i ever make this into a full-fledged fanfic, so i'm gonna put it under a keep reading thingy. also it is... quite long and convoluted lol.
as the story goes on, it focuses more on the mental degredation of Barry as he starts uncovering all these weird clues, slowly trying to piece together what's going on and driving himself insane, because every time a reset occurs, his memory of the previous loop ever happening is completely wiped and everything he did that day goes all the way back to square one. since the malfunctioning of LR's technology though, Barry has been getting little nuggets of deja vu and half-remembered fragments of dying before a reset. this eventually becomes him repeating things to himself, little phrases and codes over and over and over in hopes that it will persist into the next reset. this eventually becomes symbols stuck up on the walls of his room and then progresses to entire rituals to help him remember and little behaviourisms like tics and stims to let him know he's in another loop. he becomes more and more panicked and unsettled, paranoid that someone - or something - is watching him closely. additionally, he keeps having disturbing dreams in the early hours of the morning before he gets up to go to work, ones that are symbolic and prophetic, as if they're trying to warn him about something. i've had concepts of him waking up on top of a pile of millions of mangled carcasses that all look exactly like Barry, and having on them them forcefully grab onto his leg and pull him down with the rest of them. it's kinda like the nightmare Woody has in Toy Story 2, but like, dead guys everywhere, lol.
the backstory of this whole thing is kinda insane. basically, Legitimate Research is a sketchy government funded facility that's doing secret time experiments to create the strongest beings for a purpose that's somewhat similar to Brains' Zomb Bomb plan from AOZ (i haven't fully decided yet). Barry is someone who has been randomly selected for their newest version of the concentrated time loop experiment, where patients will be put under looping tests to extract data about their strength, agility and performance and decide what they need to supplement them with in order to create the perfect soldier.
Barry was 22 years old when he was selected. he was actually a relatively normal local Fish N' Chips vendor living in New South Wales, but one day, when he recieved an exciting letter in the mail about a new ambitious job opportunity, he completely disappeared without a trace and seemed to have been entirely erased from the minds of everyone he had ever known. Barry had actually been kidnapped and ensnared into a mind-experiments facility of the laboratory, where they proceeded to wipe his mind, proof of his existence and his entire personhood up to this point, and replaced all of it with fake memories to fill in the gaps. he was then placed in stasis and to be injected with high doses of strength drugs as they crafted a new life for him behind the scenes. a new house, in a new state, all with new stories and memorabilia meant to be lived out by new person. now, he was Barry Steakfries in Queensland, a rough-around-the-edges guy with a passion for action movies and destruction. he was a revel with a thirst for chaos and freedom, but he just didn't have the means to achieve it yet. it was all according to plan.
a big part of the story i want to tell that involves him is that at some point, Barry tries to break free from the time loop by doing something different. this takes a lot of pre-planning, memory rituals and repeating details to himself, but after he wakes up from a reset and gets out of bed, he hesitates, choosing to go to a different place to sell his gramophones that day. he deliberately tries his best to avoid Legitimate Research's headquarters as much as he can, and while he doesn't completely remember why he's doing it, he has a deep gut feeling that he should stay away from them at all costs. so he does. and at first, it goes well. the day is different, his choices seem to actually matter and for once, the feeling of deja vu isn't tearing him apart... until a crazy freak accident happens that forces Barry to die and reset the time loop again, wiping away everything he had done that day. Legitimate Research is now forcefully trying to stop him from knowing what the hell is going on by forcing him to die with each now discovery he makes, and Barry has to figure out more and more creative solutions to averting their surveillance and trying to get the hell out of the loop.
Craig will also be involved with the story too!! i'm not exactly sure what exactly the events leading up to Barry discovering and meeting him would be, but it'd be kinda halfway-late-ish into the story where Barry manages to cut off LR's surveillance of him, breaks into the laboratory and searches through its archives for anything relating to time. during this raid, he accidentally discovers the true Patient Zero to this time experiment: a broken, decrepit shell of a man who has been hooked up to a set of wires and locked away deep into the laboratory, never meant to be discovered by anyone, only known simply as #000 'Craig'. Craig was the very first human they used to run an early prototype of these experiments, but through malfunctions in the threads of LR's technology, he ended up knowing too much and tried to break free from his time loop, which resulted in him being dragged out of reality and becoming completely detached from his own time, stopping his aging process completely and practically allowing him to exist forever and persistently through every reset unaffected. LR relocated him and considered him a catastrophic failure, locking him away in a cell deep in the bowels of the laboratory before destroying and erasing every archive of him ever having existed in any point in time. and now, the same thing is about to happen to Barry if he doesn't figure out a way to stop what's happening quickly. Barry, outisde of LR, is the only one who is aware of Craig's existence in this timeline. Barry makes a vow to make sure that he will never ever forget Craig, no matter what happens to him, no matter how many times his timeline gets reset, because he is the only other person on the whole world who truly understands what he's going through.
at the very end of the story, when Barry finally escapes the time loop and is about to enter into a new reality where none of this ever happened, he reaches out a hand to Craig and offers he come with him to live. Craig, however, rejects the offer, sadly confessing to Barry that because of his disconect from the threads of time progression itself, Craig must stay behind and be erased along with everything inside this one and let Barry live his life. Barry protests, insisting that his life wouldn't be complete without him and that they've already gone through so much together, but Craig assures him that this is the best for the both of them, and that Barry must leave him soon before the window to escape closes. Barry gives Craig once last goodbye, holding him close and basking in his presence for the final time. he closes his eyes, presses his head against Craig's and whispers "I promise I'll never forget you." before he slowly lets him go, not breaking their locked gaze on each other for even a second as he steps into the portal and ventures into an entirely new reality, never to return.
i want there to be an epilogue part where Barry starts his new life and goes looking for a place to stay, and he comes across the place where LR used to be, which is instead occupied with a big square fence plot and a sign that says "UNDER CONSTRUCTION: NEW RESTAURANT TO BE BUILT". Barry stares at it for a moment and reflects on everything that has happened. all the hellish experiments that were once held inside this very plot of land, all the trauma he went through to get to this point, Craig's sacrifice, everything has lead up to him standing here, in the right place, at the right time, to finally live the life he should've had to begin with. eventually, he turns away, continuing to walk down the street. he should go check that place out sometime.
(insert "what a fucked up dream for a baby to have" ending from 'then what' here)
#barry steakfries#jetpack joyride#fanfic idea#alternate universe#this is really just an idea dump post. y'know just throwing eggs everywhere and hoping one sticks to something#also i like how every au idea i've had for jetpack joyride always involves a deep queer-coded relationship between barry and craig#the aoz total apocalypse au has them go through hell together and become closer bfs who would die for each other as a result#the timeloop au has barry and craig destined to find each other but are separated from each others' timelines and must eventually let go-#-of their bond with each other and have barry sacrifice the existence of craig so he can go on and live a normal life without him#the toni/revenge au is literally just barry and craig/toni having a messy breakup ffs lmaooo#every au i'm making for this game is so unequivocally gay and i love that#we got the 'i'd kill for u' gay. we got the tragic destiny love story gay. we got the bad blood by taylor swift gay. it's all here#now that i think about it the relationship that barry and craig have in timeloop kinda reminds me of kirk and spock always being destined-#-to find each other across space and time.....#i will make sure every au i make deliberately goes out of its way to have something so very gay in it and you can trust my word on that#i wanna draw all three of my au barrys at group therapy with each other sharing their traumas#and canon barry is just there looking at them like ''what the fuck happened to you people....'' lmaoo#toni/revenge au barry: my bf turned evil and broke up with me...#timeloop barry: my bf literally got erased from existence for me...#total apocalypse barry: .... my bf is a hardened professional zombie hunter. wtf is happening in your universes???#canon barry: *taking a slow sip of coffee with an extremely concerned look on his face*#anyway yeah. barry is stuck inside a timeloop and that's why jj always starts the same way after you die#not even kidding this whole au was spawned from me playing the game again in late 2022 and thinking ''hey isn't it interesting-#-how barry always dies at the end but then bursts through the wall again just fine when you start again? like a loop? hmmm''#i'm gonna sleep now. it is. 11 pm and i have been writing this for god knows how long. good night snoorrrkk mimimimj
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j-esbian · 4 months
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sometimes i really do want to study the flavor of intense misogyny from older folks, especially when it comes from older women, that assumes all women and girls are sluts and deviants because (checks notes) fashion trends, which the individual consumer has no control over, means that most people’s only options, especially in summer, are to wear somewhat revealing clothing. because it’s hot.
#how have you gotten to this age and gone clothes shopping and not realized the landscape#like i first became aware of this problem at age 12#i didn’t want to wear short shorts and honestly COULDNT bc of school dress code. but it was hard to find another option#enter those plaid bermuda shorts#and i can only imagine it’s 100x worse now in an instagram tiktok age than it was when i was that age#bc god knows I was embarrassed to wear those. felt like they were actively trying to be as ugly as possible#but for swim suits it’s a whole other can of worms#i currently do not own one bc i don’t want to get a wedgie every 30 seconds#two piece bottoms are all advertised as Cheeky. and i already know i have more ass than expected for my waist size#and the other option is. board shorts#but you’re going to blame the 14 year old for wanting to go to the pool??#‘and then they wonder why guys keep staring at them. where are their mothers i can’t believe they’re allowed out like that’#be so for real right now. they’re kids. they should be allowed to have fun and go outside without being creeped on#i always try to meet them halfway with ‘yeah it sucks that there’s not a lot of modest styles of clothes available’ and they’re just like#‘well EYE spent $100 at a specialty online store’ but these kids are going to forever 21 with cash from babysitting or whatever. try again#your single solution does not apply to everyone#like a LOT of it feels like projection. ‘i acted out as a teen so my daughter will do the same’#just not a lot of self awareness. combined with internalized sexism they’re not willing to question#sometimes when my coworker goes on one of her rants about how she’s glad she never had daughters bc of the Way Teenaged Girls Are#i want to be like. i wasn’t like that. your granddaughter isn’t like that.#i genuinely want to study these people. how did you get to this point
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gideonisms · 2 years
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I bet whoever started the church doctrine of never loving anything in the world more than god just had god as a special interest
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pbaintthetb · 1 year
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Jiang Cheng, so "This Be The Verse" coded
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filthforfriends · 2 years
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https://twitter.com/pacinosturner/status/1630988799491670018?s=46&t=s3VaA9nG9G01BKQ55DTbOQ
no thoughts head empty 💀 thomas raggi you are the man of my dreams
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hey btw so many snicketverse characters are polyam. did you guys know that so many snicketverse characters are polyam. well they are. now you know. if you guys even care
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femslashspuffy · 2 years
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So it looks like I left my English teacher's 1st period... she reported me to the office for wearing a crop top.. and they called me down halfway through 2nd.
Ignoring how bullshit dress codes are for just a second, that means that she had a problem with it in 1st but she didn't want to talk to ME to get me to change or put something over it and she didn't want to send me down during her class but of course she was fine with me missing my next class for something that literally no one was concerned about.
Also I think she didn't talk to me because she thought I'd be mad at her but I definitely know she did it because she was the only staff member I had contact with during the school day
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foldingfittedsheets · 6 months
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Something that literally changed my life was working with a friend on a coding thing. He was helping me create an auto rig script and was trying to explain something to me but his words were just turning into static in my brain. I was tired and confused and there was so many new concepts happening.
I could feel myself working toward a crying meltdown and was getting preemptively ashamed of what was about to happen when he said, “Hey, are you someone who benefits from breaks?”
It broke me.
Did I benefit from breaks? I didn’t know. I’d never taken them.
When a problem frustrated or upset me I just gritted my teeth and plowed through the emotional distress because eventually if you batter and flail at something long enough you figure it out. So what if you get bruised on the way.
I viscerally remembered in that moment being forced to sit at the table late into the night with my dad screaming at me, trying to understand math. I remembered taking that with me into adulthood and having breakdowns every week trying to understand coding. I could have taken a break? Would it help? I didn’t know! I’d never taken one!
“Yes,” I told him. We paused our call. I ate lunch. I focused on other stuff for half an hour. I came back in a significantly better state of mind, and the thing he’d been trying to explain had been gently cooking in the back of my head and seemed easier to understand.
Now when I find myself gritting my teeth at problems I can hear his gentle voice asking if I benefit from breaks. Yes, dear god, yes why did I never get taught breaks? Why was the only way I knew to keep suffering until something worked?
I was relating to this same friend recently my roadtrip to the redwoods with my wife. “We stopped every hour or so to get out and stretch our legs and switch drivers. It was really nice. When I was a kid we’d just drive twelve hours straight and not stop for anything, just gas. We’d eat in the car and power through.”
He gave a wry smile, immediately connecting the mindset of my parents on a road trip to what they’d instilled in me about brute forcing through discomfort. “Do you benefit from breaks?” he echoed, drawing my attention to it, making me smile with the same sad acknowledgement.
Take breaks. You’re allowed. You don’t have to slam into problems over and over and over, let yourself rest. It will get easier. Take. Breaks.
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