#healing for myself

[recoveringpsychotic]

Healing for my Ivy

I've been on my Harleen to Harley journey. I'm freeing myself from the Joker and now I guess I need to heal for myself to prepare for my Ivy.

[sunlitsoil]

there is always tomorrow

[therapythoughtstogether]

So glad you got out 💕 it will take time but you will heal. Maybe you're best staying in your own little house for your own protection rather than living with a partner again and putting yourself at their mercy like with your ex. The way there is no stability nowadays in society if your relationship goes wrong and it's basically you end up in the streets. If you have stability I wouldn't risk it for a person again tbh, but it's your choice. Just in future if that was an option in terms of a healthy romance, you might be best just dating them or you keep your own place and not move in with them. That's what I do and if it falls apart, then I don't have to worry about losing everything again or being homeless once more.

I hope you get your cat back 💕

Thank you so much!!! 🥺 That's exactly what I've been craving. Just my little space to heal on my own, with my cat and many plants 🪴🪴🪴.

First I need time to heal for myself. And then, I don't want to carry so much trauma to my next relationship. I know I will be always traumatised, but I want to do my best to heal and not to repeat past mistakes. Most importantly, to stay safe.

And thank you for remembering about my cat!!! 🥺😭🐈‍⬛

Sending love 💞

[killjoyfem]

women and girls, here’s a reminder that you deserve to eat. your goal in life isn’t to be skinny. the world is a happier place when you nurture your body and your mind so they can function properly. enjoy all the different foods and flavors out there without guilt. i love you

[sweeterontheoutside]

10/16/2023

Suspension without suspense.

WC Library with G. Friends, friendships, I find them both frightening and euphoric. Like doing drugs. Perhaps that's too much of a broad comparison or actually, it may not even compare the entirety of effects friendships have on one's self. Maybe I can start out with what frightens me about friends. I fear that they may talk about me and my mistakes and flaws behind my back.

Where really did this fear come from? Originate? The source?

[slfcare]

every time you assume that others are thinking negatively of you or judging you behind your back, you are bullying yourself through them. at the end of the day, you don't know what thoughts are running through their heads unless they verbally express them to you. until then, every one of 'their' opinions about you is nothing more than your fear, and whatever assumption is born from your fear is yours to let go - not theirs to disprove.

[z-mizcellaneous-z]

Everyone seemed to really need/appreciate this last time I did it so I'm doing it again:

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The dog days are over.

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[the-jesus-pill]

You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.

[enii]

Today, I did everything for myself💕

[lovecorrin]

the reason why you haven’t had a ‘glow up’ yet is because you’re focusing on your appearance. the way you look naturally improves when you make healthier lifestyle choices and put your happiness and peace above everything ♡

[eggsdoodz]

ily <333

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[pangur-and-grim]

I am so excited for Belphegor to join your family, how much longer do we wait?

I know your healing was a similar timeframe so I hope that’s going well

not long at all!

most likely I'm picking him up May 7th, which is exactly 2 weeks from today

[angel-dustblgs]

You are your best thing

[landofmoa]

Do what’s best for your soul. Fuck anything else.