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belladonnafleur · 10 months

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#..........................................................................................................#I feel like I deserve It because my body looks bad and I am Bad and everything about me is Bad #like I had a good fucking day why do I feel bad now #im so jealous of anyone who was born into a normal ass body that doesn't look like mine #I hate!! how effeminate I am!!#I hate!! how im a straight man but I look like a little girl #I am constantly worried that everyone thinks that im gay and that that somehow makes me morally wrong!!#nothing wrong w being gay !! if u are gay !!#im just not gay #and I feel like I should be bc of how effeminate I am/feel #I don't get to choose the way that my body looks #or the personality disorders/mental fuckass disabilities that live in my head and control what I do!!!!!!#I feel so ugly!!! I want to be fixed!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I also don't think that I have adhd I think im making it up for attention and im actually a lazy piece of shit #I want to be medicated so bad!!! im so angry!! that I can't be normal no matter what I do!!!#like in my head adhd is just Lazy Bad Person Disease and ik the ppl ik w adhd #aren't lazy and bad #its just that I Am Lazy And Bad #oversharing on the internet bc I don't see my therapist til Monday and all of my friends are asleep!! teehee #need to escape into the place in my head where I am with Her but it is poisoned now bc ik that she doesn't want me and im running out of #delusions to subsist on #I want to be with her but I hate her at the same time #bc why is she so attractive!!!!! and not with anybody!!#I wish I was attractive and ppl wanted me!!#I am so lonely and angry!!! I want to d13!!

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butchfalin · 10 months

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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churroach · 4 months

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Full of Desires

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi fanart #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #its really just cause of the outfit #farcille #marcille donato #im still surprised this came out of my hands tbh #im not normal about her #curse you dunmeshi for making me fall for the white girl #but god #she looked so good in that fit #i dont understand whyvthe other characters shat on it smh #falin wouldve loved it tho #this drawing is for the gays and theys btw #for the sapphics #lets go lesbians #ok ill shut up now #my art

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tetriminas · 10 months

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dating Miles Edgeworth headcanons (Miles Edgeworth x fem reader)

He leaves you for a man

#tetri.txt #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #miles edgeworth x reader #sorry. no im not actually. make more x readers for men or even just gender neutral #im actually genuinely baffled at thw amount of fem reader miles stuff when 90% of the fandom sees him as gay. its nuts #1k #10k #20k #30k #crazy.

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anticapitalistmongoose · 9 months

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alright boys, girls, neither, both, and those in between we need to clear something up:

if someone says they are queer, they are queer.

no ifs, ands, buts, etc. they are queer.

and if they discover later that they're cishet, great, amazing, wonderful, i'm glad we gave them community when they were figuring themselves out and needed it.

no gatekeeping of queerness here, alright?

because when shit hits the fan queerphobes wont care whether you're a cis gay man who goes by he/him or a bigender aromantic pansexual who goes by it/its

so stop with the respectability politics.

we're a community, fucking act like it.

#im tired of all the shit so id thought id clear this up #if you gatekeep other ppl's identities just shut up #important #queer #queer community #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbtq community #trans #gay #lesbian #bisexual #intersex #asexual #aromantic #pansexual #bigender #genderfluid #genderqueer

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bacchuschucklefuck · 1 month

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no more fan-ta-sizing about it! everything's already changed~

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #figueroth faeth #riz gukgak #adaine abernant #fabian seacaster #gorgug thistlespring #kristen applebees #fh class quangle #my! class swap thing! I guess this is like the poster for it now #got overinvested and finished it properly instead of winging it lol #in closeup order: cleric!gorgug; bard!riz; rogue!fabian; sorcerer!kristen; barbarian!fig; artificer!adaine #this one does have the harpoon gun I'd give fabian during sophomore year but literally only figured out for this piece lol #I like how it looks tho Im glad I hashed it out #thinking abt power armor adaine a lot tbh... she has the transhumanist audacity. she's villain-adjacent enough #to attempt unspeakable acts of body improvement #(its funny bc to wear a rig like that would Also demand a certain level of physical strength from you)#also yeah this is the thing with riz holding a megaphone that got me considering #its fun! it fits the aesthetics! maybe it'd grant him range for bardics #maybe he gets to keep that Im just not sure how he'd carry it around lol #fig gets to have all of her makeup... I like almost never remember to draw it usually kdsjfhdjk listen. I just forgor #I always forget makeup is real #also dont ask me what's in kristen's thermos it Is usually tea but you truly never know #sometimes its soup. it can be lighter fluid. soap perhaps. hot chocolate #also if u come knocking on my door abt kristen's somatic in this piece: I wont be home #she gets to be gross especially bc shes funny and 17yo and gay. we give it to her #okay I. whoo I should lay down. finally I can move on to other things #cheers! wahoo. yahha perhaps

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glassesweirdo · 1 month

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I like that despite being a child abuser, child exploiter, and an emotionally absent father, Reginald draws the line at transphobia.

#the umbrella academy #season 4 #umbrella acedmy #tua #tua s4 #i mean a win is a win #this confirms to me that if klaus ever got outed or something Reginald would be like-#“ok??? can he still run recon on this mission or is the gay killing him???”#doesn't care 😭 like in general either #im sure if viktor as a kid just swapped all his clothes out for boy ones reg would be like “hmm fascinating #reginald hargreeves

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give-grian-rights · 2 months

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reblog if you are a law-abiding citizen who wishes no ill upon former US presidents 😇

#hello fbi i should not be put on the watchlist im not a danger im just gay and disabled haha. haha #donald trump

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wheatormeat · 6 months

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Ms. Mia Fey

#ppl talk alot ab the gay aa lawyers but no one ever tells you how much of the game is just unpacking ab your dead boss' crazy backstory #anyway i lov mia #i like saying her name really fast #it sounds like im meowing #mia fey #aa #ace attorney #gyakuten saiban #my art #illustration #fanart #id by @wright-phoenix

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yuzuuu4 · 6 months

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(post 2.1 quest) unexpected

#they make me so ill i swear to god #im delusional therefore aventurine lives and ratio welcomes him back like this #i need 2.2 yesterday #excuse how messy it is bc i just wanted to get the gay out of my brain #its still there of course #ratiorine #dr ratio #veritas ratio #dr ratio hsr #aventurine #hsr aventurine #honkai star rail #hsr

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foxglove-nymph · 1 year

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cthulhum · 5 months

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does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship