#livingwithdid

[thevulturesys]

System Updates

Hey again, it’s Fati, we went on a little hiatus because life has been very hectic so I haven’t had the time to post and all that jazz. I will not apologize for that, however, because you should NEVER apologize for prioritizing yourself and your mental health. The good news is I’m here to give y’all a few system updates ^_^ For starters, we’re down to.... 16 members...? Idkk that’s what PK (PluralKit) says but I’m assuming this hasn’t been updates as I’ve been,,, frontstuck for a while now @_@

Innerworld:

Our innerworld has also changed since the last time Knives made a post about it (hence why that post has been deleted). I’ll make it as brief as I can for you all though! Our innerworld looks like a huge mansion and we all live in it. Every one of us has their own room; most of the adults’ rooms are on the third floor while most of the younger ones’ is on the second floor. The first floor is a basement which I have no access to so I can’t speak much on it, unfortunately. Though, if you go outside, there’s a huge forest, if you walk further down that forest and move to your right, there’s a lovely barn with plenty horses.

Alters:

Like I stated previously, we’re down to 16-ish members. I say “ish” because I’m not sure as that list hasn’t been updated on PK and I can’t update it myself since I don’t have the proper knowledge to do so. Besides that, our main fronters have changed yet again. It is now me, Evelyn, as host, and Riley and Jeff (roles undefined). In innerworld, I spend the majority of my time playing video games and getting company from my dog, Buddy (who gets lots of cuddles and kisses). Other than that, I draw.

Our system does this thing where we’ll be grouped with different alters to try and get along with each other every month, my current group-mates are Riley and Jeff so I’ve been spending my time with them as well; we play board games at night or watch horror movies since we’ve found that that’s a shared interest between the three of us (though Riley isn’t all as passionate about horror movies as Jeff and I are). 

I’ve found that Riley isn’t as bad as I thought him to be, we are slowly starting to get along, actually. We even make Ghost jokes,, because his name’s Riley. It’s an inside joke so I don’t expect you all to understand it but I found out he also changed his PK pfp to Simon Riley as well which I personally thought was hilarious. 

Jeff, on the other hand, has become calmer; what I mean by that is he’s become less possessive and overprotective which’s good because he used to scare everyone at sight away from me. I don’t intend on fully sharing his reasonings, not only because of privacy reasons, but also out of respect for him, I believe it’s just not my place to speak on it.

Life:

We graduate in 5 months, we’ve also already applied for college,,, *woohoo*! Our birthday’s also coming up which I’m excited for for the first time ever because my partner’s sending me his hoodie (we’re long distance) and I think it’s gonna be our first birthday celebrating without trauma taunting us though I can’t say part of me doesn’t have a bad feeling about this year,,, I guess time will be the judge of that though I’m hoping my gut feeling’s wrong. I will update you after my birthday to let you know, however! I’m taking my IELTS test tomorrow, I’m hoping I do well as it’s part of our college reqs. I’ve already finished my SATs and I’m impatiently waiting for our scores to come out. 

My mental health has been not-so-great and I’ve almost relapsed at least 3 times this past month but I’m holding on. At least I’m alive, hey? I want to end this post at a light note so I'll talk about my mental health on another post on another day but this is the basic gist of it all. If there’s anything y’all want me to talk about, don’t hesitate to leave a comment, I respond to any and all. Have a good day!!

[mooonsystem]

I am currently at this point in life where everyone is beginning to live their life, finding new friends, leaving the old ones, building relationships...

I am not doing that.

I am the friend being left behind.

-C.

[traceyswellnessjourney]

Before Dissociative Identity Disorder (when I danced)

Before Dissociative Identity Disorder (when I danced)

I have just seen a video from 2011 of me dancing with my friends in the ‘Stepsukaz’ crew, full of life, full of energy, full of passion, mentally well. It brought me to tears because it was such a memorable and happy time. I didn’t even know that Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) existed, my head was mine and everything that was in it was fully me. No voices, no hallucinations, yes I still had…

[geekdogsndid]

So my wizard dragon accidentally got burnt whilst baking..... he looks like he cast fireball but rolled a nat 1 🙈. . . . . #wizard #wizarddragon #dnd #dnd5e #rpg #ttrpg #rpgroup #dragon #dragonwizard #dragonbornwizard #polymerclay #ooops #polymerclayartist #polymerclaydragon #wip #dissociativeidentitydisorder #didsystem #livingwithdid #livingdid #multiplepersonalities https://www.instagram.com/p/B0lLBrZHtO_/?igshid=143ajcr964b11

[kcrew8-blog]

Sweapin' snow be like...

We are Multiple/Showing insight of our system/ Daily activities. 😄: Hey how goes it? 😜:Well it be snowin' as if we ain't be seein' snow this year... 😄why are you sweeping it? 😜cos we ain't got a shovel... 😄whoa look! Animal prints! (Stares at ground broom in hands) 😁they look like a bunny!!! 😜maybe be a bobcat/Linx ain't sure if bunnies be rockin' here. 😄maybe a cougar.😮 😁Ahhhh Cougars scarey!! 😜nah prints be way small to be a cougar rockin' it. But I best be finishin' this. (Realizes still starring at prints continues to sweep) 😄hey it's still snowing.. So what's the point... 😜cos a broom ain't be handlin' the weight of lots of snow. So best be doin' it more often, then when life already be fully down crashin' 😄Whoa!!! Just like life... Your right... Easier to deal with little by little. Then taking it all on at once!! 😒I dislike it when you do that.. Can't you just shovel the snow... Sorry sweap. So I can have my smoke...

[whatismeta-blog]

Ever have those moments

When you forget about or it just slips your mind that you have a mental disorder. Then it affects you and awhile later you remember and it all makes sense on what happened

[mooonsystem]

Is not telling the truth automatically lying?

Being not completely honest?

[mooonsystem]

When there were like 10 000 switches a day and the whole system is like: Who am I...? Do I know me...?

[mooonsystem]

We thought we could expect a little bit more sensitivity and understanding from the nurses in the psychiatry ward. Even though it's not our first stay there we still had hope.

"Slowly you should really understand that there is no point in cutting yourself? You are going to regret it and think to yourself why you made yourself ugly."

Wow, thank you.

First of all; yes, they are still not getting it and saying the body's name and using the singular 'you'.

Does she think we don't know that? Why are there people like that working in the psychiatry ward? We don't get it.

[mooonsystem]

We decided to attend a stress management workshop over the weekend. It's kind of cool but our Han-ie co-fronted so that was kind of awkward experience...

~Nuri

[mooonsystem]

This thing on our middle finger is actually a barcode thingy of one of our pens... Yes, class's was very boring😂😂😂😂😂

~Namiii

[mooonsystem]

*Moonbunnys going shopping*

Nuri: Wow, I really think this is going to work, guys. We can do it, let me jus...

*already dissociating*

Nami: OH MY, I NEED this! It's PINK and so FLUFFY! I really, really need this!

Haku: Look at that! These frying pans look awesome!

Yu: No, bye bitches! I'm in the males section!

*back home*

Hazel: *unpacking* Jeez, I am going to kill y'all...

[geekdogsndid]

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[geekdogsndid]

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[geekdogsndid]

We’re a work in progress; just like everyone else. We share our journey to help others know they’re not alone & we’re so grateful for the feedback from our videos. Living with DID is weird but it’s our normal and it’s ok. We find new ways of coping and healing and like to share those. Connection is vital and we’re grateful for all the great connections we have made during this journey 😍 . . . #connections #valid #youarebeautiful #youarevalid #selfcare #selflove #gettingtoknowyou #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalillness #livingDID #livingwithdid #livingwithpain #instagood #instajoy #wellbeing #adulting #therapy #coping #healing #healingfromabuse #healingfromtrauma #didsystem #dissociativeidentitydisorder #multiplepersonalitydisorder #plural #lgtbq https://www.instagram.com/p/BzfrCBZHV3r/?igshid=1f5aic1x1hlmv

[geekdogsndid]

really can’t afford this guys, like I know the art therapy is really helping but tubes & plantpots? 🤦🏼‍♀️ The only thing I knew I bought was #sentinelsofthemultiverse for my partner to run in our #rpgroup 😃 . . . . #livingwithDID #DID #DIDChat #SickNotWeak #help #stuffmyaltersbuyme #geek #boxopening #crafting #whatsthis #gettingtoknowyou #chronicillnessmemes #feelinggood #dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociativedisorder #dissociation #alters #multiplepersonalitydisorder #multiple #geekgirl #instafunny #youtuber #linkinbio https://www.instagram.com/p/BygKB9cH9a_/?igshid=1iw8t34hu7x01