#mentally ill alert

[utterdrip]

sorry i’ll love you til the end of time. sorry i want to be with you forever and that i want to learn and love all these versions of you. sorry that i want to find you in every lifetime and love and adore that you as well. sorry that i want to look for you in everything mundane to make it special. sorry that every version of you that ive known is my favorite and sorry that youre all i want

[b1adie]

Choice is eternally entwined in every lost path one walks in life. Down one road, struggle. Another, the way of salvation. A third, life cycles unto death, and a fourth, death cycling back to life… Where, then, might be the “the end?” Such a thing is hard to find.

A MOMENT AMONG THE STARS — “LOST AND ADRIFT”

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)

[incorrectbatfam]

WFA spoilers ahead

Content warning for discussion of mental illness

Can I take a moment to appreciate how they showcased Jason's PTSD in the latest ep? This isn't the first time but I feel like this round struck much closer.

Although this is the website where people are open about mental illness, there's still a reluctance to address the "loud" or "frightening" or "angry" or "messy" side of it. Stuff like bipolar, schizophrenia, addiction, PTSD. It's why I'm extremely hesitant to talk about my own problems even under anonymity.

Conversely, there are mainline comics (and other media) that use this category of mental illness as an excuse for characters to go all-out in their aggression. Even if not intentional, it perpetuates the idea that a trigger will always send the person spiraling until either the worst happens or someone steps in as the "hero." It's basically sending the message to people like me that we're a ticking time bomb.

Then there's WFA. Jason's not fully present during his episode. It leads him into a dangerous situation while at the same time he's unable to grasp things like pain. The adrenaline and the overwhelming sense of fear drives him into fight mode. He gets tunnel vision while he's beating up the bar patrons to try and find the Joker. Without getting into details, I've been in Jason's shoes. I've found myself in risky places doing things I'd later regret. All because of the disconnect from reality that makes me believe what I'm doing is necessary. Not even justified, just necessary. Almost like a survival instinct.

And what's so important is that Jason isn't a villain and Dick isn't a savior. Dick reaffirms Jason's trauma and guides him through tangible steps rather than giving broad sweeping advice. Of course there's no one-size-fits-all coping method, but the biggest thing is having somebody in your corner who sees you beyond this bad episode. Sometimes I have that, sometimes I don't. WFA won't show it since it's all about family, but the times I didn't have someone were exponentially scarier.

At the same time, there are consequences that a simple grounding exercise can't remedy—Jason got hurt, he hurt others, and his appearance at Noonan's definitely put him on someone's radar if not the Joker. And they're just as real as his feelings and (hopefully) he's gonna be held accountable. Because that's how it goes in real life. Something sets me off, I screw up, I get bailed out, and once I come down from it I have to fix the mess I made.

Maybe I'm just reading too much into a fan comic. But I know that if a few panels can resonate so closely with me, then it's worth talking about because someone, somewhere is also feeling the same way.

[may-ihavesome-bubbletea]

[maddiviner]

It's been many, many years since my interactions with Betterhelp. You can read about them, and a bit of other stuff I've posted regarding that dumpster fire of a "service," in my tag about it here.

I received the above email a bit ago; I cropped it a bunch to take out my personal info, but yeah... thanks, I guess? $10 is $10, I suppose, but I'm mostly just curious if other folks got a similar email.

To be fair, back then, I did get a certain (large) amount of my money back from Betterhelp simply by filing a complaint with my credit card company following the incident where the therapist started pushily quoting the Bible and telling me to submit to my husband, but anyways...

[poodle-gutz]

This Friday Molly got to meet a robot! The local junior high robotics team dedicated some time to come to the nursing home where I work so the patients could see their robot and learn about how it works! Me and my coworkers agreed it was a great opportunity for Molly to learn how to function around unexpected things, she did VERY well considering you don't see robots everyday. The team was nice enough to let me get a photo of the bot with Molly, and she thoroughly enjoyed watching it wander around the floor (I let her watch the bot for awhile since it was a new experience and expecting her to focus right away was just completely unrealistic). She was able to effectively task and listen to commands even while watching her environment which is exactly what I hoped for. Great job Molly!

[hampterguts]

forever amazed and confused at how often transformers franchise just straight up depicts suicide attempts. like not even considering the superhero trope of "i have to save everyone!!! by choosing to die!!!!!" thing. like. non-allow-yourself-to-die-to-stop-a-thing-from-killing-everyone-immediately type situations. which tbh i wish more ppl talked about but not the point here

like. sure mtmte, a comic abt mentall illness and war, i expected it to be aware of the concept. but its not handled well and mostly used for shock value or "im better now i swear! i have a husband and everything" BUT ITS IN THE KIDS SHOWS TOO??? MY BESTIE G1 RODIMUS?? BEAST WARS DINOBOT???

[the-kipsabian]

[train-fans-anonymous]

(Probably Lukewarm) Hot Take: I fucking hate it when people infantilize Red Alert, there is something so 😬 about it..

[starstruckodysseys]

i’m excited for tomorrow’s nsbu ep in a way i can’t recall the last time i experienced

[pzycideo]

Comic thing

angst comic i made a while ago. I ahevn’t posted it here. Happy eatings

Hopefully, the quality is okay. This is of my own storyline in Undernight in birth, so it’s noncanon.

[ilovecryoffearsm]

I don't like being me. It really isn't nice.

I wany ro be i want something done to me but icant sqy it so i shuuuusdshhhhh

Im not an

[unhinged-nymph]

A smattering of RandL screenshots from the last month or so presented with no context

[agreatdarkwind]

surely rewatching Coven will fix me this time

[mirpkechi]

/p :3

oh kairos :(( thank you 💗 i love you more <3 /p :33