#my inner thoughts

[myfuchsiadreams]

Seeing Kate and Anthony behave so much alike their book counterparts it’s making my heart soo full right now! 🥰 I just love seeing them being so besotted with one another. 💜

[load-theloading-artist]

Hello, hello, it is i, load!

With something that was a meant to be a response to a reblog chain i hadve with hypnoi...

But I decided to make my response into its own post instead…for I have a lot to say. (I tried to restrain myself but– )

(And in my experience reblog chains that have a lot of reblogs and/or are really long can cause lag. Idk if their device experiences it but just in case i didn't want them to deal with the lag ^^”.)

I also had thoughts about making this type of post before as well. So I additionally took this as an opportunity to finally make it. I hope that's alright.

And now, I just wanna say, I will be going into detail on all my thoughts about almost everything about My Inner Demons. The writing, the story, the worldbuilding, the characters, the scenes, about almost everything.

And additional heads up because despite this show meaning alot to me, and something that I've created related to it has helped me through so much and something I've poured blood, sweat and tears into.

There's going to be sections that may not be pretty. Where I can't hide my feelings when talking about some of these certain points.

Also that I'm not a professional, these are just my personal thoughts, feelings and opinions on Aphmaus show.

But finally getting into it;

My thoughts on Aphmaus’ My Inner Demons.

—- Let's start with a quick recap.

Within an alternate dimension, there is a world known as Daemos. Where a group of 5 individuals take it upon themselves to find a solution to their world's magic-crisis.

Said group consisting of their leader,

a Second-Born Prince known as Asch, Along with his 4 Loyal Knights, an ex-assassin named Leif, an ex-soldier/general of Rhal(the first-born prince)s army named Pierce, an individual who would've been executed just for being considered weak if Asch didn't ‘spare’ him named Noi, and a not very much is known about member named Rhys, who has a student/teacher relationship with Asch's Grandmother.

Said Grandmother helps the five to find a solution to their world's magic-crisis.

A magic-crisis where the source of all their magic, which comes from human souls, is running out. (A crisis caused by not very smart decisions leading to an extinction of humans) (And a Crisis not known to the general populace and other kingdoms. only the royal family and its council from the most powerful kingdom of them all, know of the crisis.)

(Through Lady Grandma) They learn of a possible solution, which leads them to take on a mission to kill the last remaining human for their soul. In order to use it to open up a portal to another world, which they called “ea-urth.”

Here within Ea-urth, is where they temporarily experience utter suffering, And where they meet a human girl named Ava who finds them, and panickedly asks if they need help. Which, they awkwardly stand silently and glare & stare in response instead. (Because Pierce said don't show weakness. *Because Daemos society doesn't allow you to.*)

However she finds Asch collapsed on the ground behind them, quickly realizes he's unaliven’t and performs cpr. Saving his life, and as a show of thanks(/jk) they immediately threaten her. Before then abandoning her by hanging her on a tree by her hood.

They then get traumatized by cosplayers, return to force her to help them. She passes out after Asch turns the tree she was hanging on into ashes, and finds that their horns are real. (he burned the tree down because she didn't believe they were from another world and this in a way pissed him off. :3)

And now with her strangely intelligent cat they mistake as an earth spirit that somehow got outside despite the door being locked. Leads them back to her apartment with them carrying her like a bag of potatoes. Burning said doorknob off because locked and COULDN'T GET IN. (Johnny how???)

And soon after she wakes up, and tries to escape but fails. they spend HOURS. Literal HOURS. Waiting for her to STOP. SCREAMING. (which damn ava you got some LUNGS in you!)

When they finally get her to stop. Conversation and LIEing happens. Both sides. And a police station is involved until Ava dips out on that idea because they start threatening a police officer.

And this leads to her finally accepting she'll teach them how to live on earth!

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… (*deep sigh*) …

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The show is then quickly mostly about (forcibly) romantically pairing the boys with Ava.

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With the occasional beginning or ending scenes within occasional episodes that portrays what's happening back on Daemos.

Which is about Rhals fiance, Lady Bish, (which one must assume is the (temporary) lead Villain of the season) Who slowly figures out what Lady Grandma has been up to, what's she hiding. And repeated hints & clues to Asch's fated sacrifice with more and more description.

The first season.. the show unfinishedly ends with the boys forcefully being returned to Daemos along with Ava magically disguised as a Daemos.

Got all that? Good, now onto

— what I gathered from My Inner Demons… (pt 1)

The story seems to have wanted to be a Harem rom-com (romantic-comedy) with a serious underlying tone & story. And i think also wanted to be for a more mature audience, at least for teens and up. Due to its inclusion of sexual jokes, (somehow minimal or non-existent) cussing, and… I guess violence?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (listen man i said “wanted”)

In my opinion, the show fails to succeed in what it wanted to be.

– Let's get into the romance first. Shall we?

The romance in this show is not done well. Not at all, To be honest.

The show forces romance onto the main cast whether it fits their character, their inner stories, or if they like it or not. When Ava finally thinks about possible romance, it's because she's being pressured into doing so because of the people in her life. Not just the boys. But adults that she's supposed to trust and be friends with.

And the boys? They don't love Ava. Even if the show tries telling us around the end of the series they do? Also that they suddenly gotten comfortable and adjusted somewhat to daily life on earth that they help do chores now? We didn't see that growth. We saw nothing. This is out of the blue!

If they were intending to be a shojo something jump type of story like ouran host club, this wasn't Previously established, nor does it fit the story (*cough* that could've been told. *cough*) additionally, even if the story was like this, they still needed to show that development!

And for most of the story, the boys only want to marry ava for power, because of a misunderstanding that she is princess of earth (*....Deep sigh…*). But suddenly they all are actually in love with or have a crush on her??

*sigh*

— onto about the comedy

I think, we can all agree… the comedy is atleast a hit or miss, and awkward and uncomfortable at most.

(I'm so sorry for mentioning these scenes 😭) Examples: Like… the bathroom scene with Rhys and Lady Grandma… plus every single… one of those jokes Ms.Oates and Lady Grandma has made.

I'll.. i'll talk about their jokes. Not right now, though.

Anywho,

I personally think the comedy aspect in general doesn't fit the story. Don't get me wrong, every story needs a bit of comedy. But with how serious the ‘underlying’ story is, the comedy is… yikes. Ofc, you could still do an overdramatic(/pos) comedy that ends up transitioning to a more serious tone at times, (Aka Romantic Killer on Netflix, which i think can count as a physiological horror/neu) but i don't think that style fits this story, or at least the story we got.

*deep breath*

– onto the serious tone/underlying story…

The serious underlying tone is overshadowed by the comedy. And the serious underlying story is not just overshadowed, but disconnected from most of the story.

Every. Single. Time. The show gives us what's going on on Daemos, and then goes back to what's going on on earth. Is almost whiplash. Due to the utter tone shift between earth and daemos. Idk how to describe it, but…

When we're on earth, it's a comedy. The way things happen on earth are dramatic, possibly one could even say theatrical and illogical, including the characters themselves. It tries to include serious moments, but again, they're overshadowed by the comedic atmosphere.

But on Daemos? It has a darker atmosphere, it's more serious. The characters on daemos are also taken (somewhat more) seriously. Though comedy tries to coexist within it... but it just feels out of place or doesnt work with what Daemos is described and supposed to be and feel like.

I wouldn't say the shifting of tone between worlds is inherently bad.. in fact it could be used quite cleverly!

In other stories. I personally don't think it works with this story in particular. I'll explain this further, later on.

Additional note; the boys were once treated with this seriousness. In the very first episode, they're in a more serious atmosphere, and treated more seriously! Like, Asch was kinda intimidating when he threatened to kill his loyal knights that respect him if they chose to stay! (... oh, we will talk about Asch.)

But the moment, we see them on earth? Say goodbye to them being treated seriously and as adults!

Oh yeah. Additionally, they are not treated as adults. What do you mean? They act like children! Which doesn't make sense for… their world and culture they're from. They wouldn't.. act like children, even if the show might imply that daemos are cruel and selfish, but if they TRULY were, this stroy wouldn't.. really work. (I'll explain, i promise)

AND that the boys seem to almost fit the group of misfits trope! They all would've been killed for being weak or being who they are because who they are is deemed weak if Asch didn't save them, spare them, or show mercy! They're alive because Asch took them in and his position as a second-born prince, right? (We will talk about Asch…)

--- This is Part 1 of a multi-part series of my thoughts on Aphmau's show because I have an abundance of thoughts, and there's a character limit on posts! 💜💜💜🫶

See you in the next part! (If you choose to, ofc!)

[becauseitskimby]

its lovely to imagine that there are parallel worlds and maybe in one of those parallel worlds, I am genuinely happy....

[angelbabyblog777]

The Scorpio full moon is tomorrow. This is how I’m feeling…

No one is more critical of you , than you. Even if there ARE people who are critical of you, they are reflecting a part of themselves they need to work on & it has nothing to do with you.

Self love isn’t selfish. It’s essential to living a well rounded life. If you didn’t get taught things you want to know, it’s your responsibility now to learn them for your passion, your desire, your verity for life.

No matter what you believe, this life has spiritual essence. Whether it be the singing of the birds, the height of the buildings, the fluffiness of the clouds or the sound of your mother’s voice, it means something. You can’t deny that.

Even if reincarnation is real, your life, in this moment is important. Your choices and decisions are important. What you feed, what you focus on, becomes YOU. What you feed, grows. No matter what it is. No matter how much time you think you have.

I will always stand behind the truth that if you listen close enough, people tell you exactly who they are. If you listen close enough, if you observe with wisdom, you can discover deep truths about people that they may not even know they’re exhibiting.

Love is real. Unconditional love is attainable. Never ever settle.

Live a life that you won’t regret in the end. Or, rather, realize that death isn’t the end. There’s no need to be scared.

Faith is important. It’s okay if it’s blind. Remember your faith when your mind feeds you doubts.

Relationships are IMPORTANT. Including your relationship with your self. Appreciate people. Appreciate the fact that you can still see good in this world. Appreciate your pets. Appreciate the small things that make life good. SHOW your appreciation. Express your feelings, the good and the bad. SERIOUSLY!

There’s a way to train your mind and all it takes is discipline and knowledge. It’s easy to feel cynical when you’re somewhat aware of the workings of this world, but what good can come of cynics? Get your head out of your ass, read a book, touch some grass and will the world to move in your favor. There is such thing as the highest good.

No matter what people say, there is good and there is bad and your spirit knows. Follow your spirit, tune into your intuition. It will guide you in the right direction. If you fail to follow or tap into your intuition, spirit/universe/source WILL take action. You are never hopeless, ESPECIALLY with faith.

“Through grace and faith you will never fail”

Condemnation is never the answer.

SLOW DOWN. YOU HAVE TIME. Life may go by fast but seriously, take your time. Do not rush. Practice trust. Get to know yourself. Laugh, talk too much, stay patient, be patient, love love love, a lot. Kiss, cuddle, lay on the floor, go for a walk, practice magic, hug, open your heart, stretch, eat chocolate, LOVE LOVE LOVE. Say yes, say no, have sex or not, stop drinking too much, maybe smoke some weed, or not. Let yourself be awkward, let people love you, let yourself be seen, let yourself be damaged and loved anyways. Be vulnerable and do wtf you want.

Find out what you really want, not what the world wants from you !!!! WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

I hope you all have a full moon that feels especially right for you. I hope you remember there’s still love left in this world. I hope you know that there’s a lot of courage in remaining hopeful and trying to live life to the fullest after being through a lot of hard shit. I hope you know someone’s proud of you , so be it only yourself. That’s still someone. I hope you wake up one day really proud of how far you’ve come. I hope you wake up one day feeling lighter. I hope you let go of the things that are way too heavy to keep carrying. I love you.

xx Kaylee

[caramella120]

I miss how Fandom culture used to be. I hate how there's always this pressure to be perfect. The pressure to constantly create content. I don't understand why fandoms have to die so quickly, if there isn't immediately the next pice of media to consume. And at the same time people get scared to even join the Fandom because the initial hype was to much. Why does everything end so quickly? Have we gotten so used to fast-paced media that our brains simply cannot hang on to something for a long time? Isn't it enough to love something? Why do we have to feel like everything is a competition?

I miss just putting out every idea I had. Now I often scrap things because it's not good enough, it doesn't fit what people expect of me. I miss being able to feed of of others creativity and being motivated by them.

Sometimes I miss how it used to be.

[heartoflesh]

When will I have traversed enough time to put enough distance between me and these emotions that tear through my muscle and bone. I have never known so much anguish. I have never known this much grief.

Excerpt from a book I'll never write, William

[swanmittens]

˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

things i like 🦢

🎀carrie bradshaw’s angel fridge magnet

🧃wearing pink and green together

🤍putting on pretty clothes and pearls just to sit in my room

✝️praying to my gods

🍒say yes to heaven on spotify

[monsterohnenamen]

[whats-that-red-button-do]

[tattoorue]

[myfuchsiadreams]

So, AO3 is down for maintenance! That’s alright! I am completely fine! I can deal with that, as the functional adult that I am! Cool, cool, cool….

….🥲🙃😟😞😣😭😭😭😭😭

[dillydeitydally]

dear, me #1

i wonder if you regret wishing to grow up fast now that you're twenty and have discovered that the life of grownups you saw when you were a child is far from the fantasy you imagined when you were nine

[becauseitskimby]

I notice everything,I notice how you look at me... I notice even the slightest changes on your face and tone of voice... I notice them and I know what they all mean. ....

[yoursrelatably]

The thing I would most want is to understand what people feeling. I know I can't live for others but I can be there for them. The worst thing one could experience not being able make sense of what or why they're feeling the way they're feeling and having no one to understand them. So I want to be able to understand people and do my best to make them feel better.

[sxrxshaws]

Hello Everyone!

It’s been a while. How are you doing today? I took a little break from social media because my life has been a little hectic lately. I’ve got some more sereshaw content just give me a few days. 🥰

[sleepy-teacup]

Hello my lovely geeky peeps, Hearts here with some words that I wanted to get off my chest.

For those who watch me on either DA or Discord know that FNAF isn't the only thing I'm into. And for a while now, I have been delving into writing here and there because the holiday season is practically here. But thanks to some good friends of mine over on Discord, my old itch for drawing more rubber hose style hit me harder than the flu and I have been sketching like crazy! As well as slowly getting back into writing short stories for AUs that I had been doing. And none of them hit me harder than doing more AU and OC art.

I even recently posted a Cuphead themed Christmas story back on DA not too long ago because I wished for more of my work to get out into the world. And maybe make others around me happy when reading wholesome stuff. (I have dipped my toes into dark aspects before, but I'm horrible at writing those.) And our world seems dark and bleak with what has been happening around us irl. So, I thought what's the harm in producing content that is warm and sweet?

Will I make more art on Sun, Moon and Lunar? Yes, I will. ☀️🌙⭐

Do I know when it will be? No, I don't. Whenever inspiration strikes me, I guess. 🤷‍♀️

Will I make and post more art of other stuff? I want to, but I'm always a nervous wreck. 😣💦

Excuse my rambling, I feel better getting this all off my chest, so others may get to know me a bit more than before. If anyone wishes to see my writing, go check out my DA that has the same username or I can post things here, as well.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Stay safe, stay warm and I hope y'all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holiday. ^u^ 🎄🎁