#trust Issues

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[vexilene]

This is why I don’t trust WIPs!

"holy shit they finally confessed, what comes next--"

[lilac-skies-666]

Being a chronic over thinker is genuinely painful it will have you questioning every part of your life and on the brink of ruining everything for yourself

[ch4nn3l4st4tic]

[bealittlesblog]

Screw it! I would love to have a platonic mama or papa again > w <

Just so ur aware I can be clingy and needy🥺 and always afraid of you leaving mee..♡ hope that doesnt scare anyone away! I'm really nice.

♡ Mooties ♡ - @l1lprincessti @stardewkiddo @sodaslittleplace @sweetsugarpuff @applecider03 @furyyroads @sunni-flutters @sparkle-song-kid @tearyeyedsealpup @hesperiacove @punzie-nini @livvylittle @sleepybby00 @rosiestunicorn @pyjamadbananas @babygeekgoth @mx-owls-crew else!!!

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[dontfeardeath]

When someone lets their walls down for you, do not take it lightly. Walls were put up because they were hurt, and it almost destroyed them. If they lower their walls for you, they're showing you trust, and they're being vulnerable. You could be the one to either allow them to trust again or the 1 that makes them put up walls that will never come down and hide away forever.

[memeshost]

[rdamxq]

I don’t need people to agree with me. I just need them to see what I’m seeing.

[elitemaomaosequanimity]

One of the hardest things I realized after watching The Apothecary Diaries was that just because Maomao had people around her did not mean she was necessarily being cared for. The women of Verdigris weren’t bad, at least not on the surface.

They allowed her to stay, and in some ways, they gave her more independence than most girls typically received during that time.

In The Apothecary Diaries, Maomao didn’t have the luxury of being a child. There wasn’t anyone she could turn to when she was scared when she was lost, when she was hurt. Anyone to wipe away her tears, anyone to tell her she was loved and wanted.

That’s why she is what she is, why she’s become so independent, why she doesn’t turn to other people for comfort, why she uses logic and distance as a defense. Not that she doesn’t feel. It’s just that she learned a long time ago that feelings wouldn’t help her.

So, when we meet Maomao in the present timeline of The Apothecary Diaries, she’s not exactly the kind of person who shows her vulnerability. She’s super smart, very observant, and very skilled, but she kinda keeps an emotional distance from those around her. And honestly, I get it. If you grow up where nobody pays attention to your feelings, you just stop hoping that anyone will care.

Her trauma manifests in subtle ways: her reluctance to depend on others, her tendency to downplay her own suffering, and her deep-rooted self-sufficiency that sometimes borders on self-isolation. It’s not that she doesn’t want to be cared for. She is just accustomed to living in a world where care is a luxury, not a given.

So, it’s all too easy to view Maomao as merely another emotionally withdrawn protagonist, but she’s much more than that. Her trauma is embedded within every aspect of her personality, shaping her behaviors, her interactions, and her perspective.

Her experience has taught her that attachments are conditional, and she naturally keeps people at arm’s length. However, Jinshi’s persistence in treating her with respect and curiosity is something she isn’t used to. While she doesn’t openly express it, the fact that she doesn’t completely push him away speaks volumes about her yearning for connection, even if she won’t admit it.

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[unclaimedbody]

here’s your reminder:

don’t trust anyone.

[blackseafoam]

“Trust Issues”

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