#He'd probably very quickly learn that you can't get up when there's a cat on your lap hehe ♪ Those little paws tucking his arm between ah

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Tylo save me...Tylo...save me Tylo...

WHATEVEER leave me alone more ship alphabet garbage 😭😭😭 I'm gonna sleep I got work tomorrow 🫠🫠🫠

Logan Fields

A = Affectionate

A bit reserved. He's never had anybody to be affectionate with besides his grandparents so he doesn't really know where to draw the line. Also, you know. Hes gay in Georgia in 2016, he needs to be careful. A lot more comfortable with verbal affection tho!

B = Best Friend

Logans never had friends so like. If he did have a best friend he would be really loyal to like a concerning degree, probably protective too, but also extremely helpful and encouraging, always trying to teach you new things :D

C = Cuddles

A littleeeee touch starved :< So he does like cuddling with Tyler, especially since they don't get the chance to do it a lot (only at Tyler's house). He's super melty because he has to take off his glasses for it and he gets sleepy quickly. Will probably fall asleep during it...^_^

D = Domestic

He's a little romantic in the sense that he wants to get married and settle down, have a kid, and 3 cats. He's not in a rush or anything but it is something he looks forward to with Ty. He's good at household chores, especially cleaning and taking care of the garden, and he's a pretty good cook. His specialty is still baking tho.

E = Ending

If his relationship with Tyler spiralled (which has a decent chance of happening) :> If the resentment he had with Tyler boiled over and all the bitterness came out, yeah, he'd probably end things, probably in a yelling match. It's hard to see them breaking up amicably ahaha :")

F = Fiancé

He spent a lot of his childhood/early teens thinking he'd never be able to get married, so...it's a big deal for him. Cried when Tyler said yes (and while proposing)

G = Gentle

Generally he's pretty soft spoken. He's not a super physically aggressive person...but he has his moments 🫠 But usually he's pretty light with Tyler, specially since he has like...chronic pain...🤡 Also good at saying super mushy stuff that makes Tyler implode

H = Hugs

A bit awkward about it, but he likes hugging. Always a little hesitant, so waits till Tyler hugs him first, but he's a v good hugger :) very cozy aura. He's a short king so he can snuggle into Ty's chest.

I = I love you

Was so nervous he almost threw up- Got really emotional and cried- he didn't plan it so the whole thing was a mess lmao

J = Jealousy

Tends to manifest as insecurity more than sheer jealousy. Sometimes thinks Tyler will leave him for somebody "better" (him and Tyler are actually pretty similar in that regard) and he might honestly just bring up how he thinks Tyler can do better depending how far they are in the relationship.

K = Kisses

A bit shy. Gets flustered by proper kissing so he's more of a pecker, usually kisses Tyler's cheek or chin because it's hard to reach him with their height gap- he gets all gooey when Tyler asks him to kiss him on the mouth tho (^_^)//

L = Little Ones

He likes children! He finds them more honest than people his age kkkkk. He also likes how children are constantly learning new things and likes teaching them about interesting facts :D gets a bit overwhelmed by hyperactive children though, better with children who have quieter characters like himself.

M = Mornings

Eepy lil guy. So seepy. Big tirremd. Barely coherent in the morning, also he's not wearing his glasses or contacts so he can't even see help him. He needs a shower and like four cups of coffee to even wake up lmao. Tyler be literally dragging him out of bed because otherwise they're GONNA BE LATE-

N = Night

Total night owl, loves staying up late (especially in the summer) to use his telescope. Tyler has to drag him INTO bed otherwise he's gonna stay up till 4am or fall asleep on the balcony :>

O = Open

Honestly pretty closed off, he doesn't like talking about his past unless it's really necessary. Gets anxious if Tyler asks personal questions early in the relationship.

P = Patience

Patience is a virtue he's worked hard to cultivate. He does kind of bottle of his negative emotions so when he *does* lose his patience it tends to be explosive.

Q = Quizzes

Good memory and very detail-oriented, so he knows a lot about Tyler, and he's also good at applying that knowledge. He's better at reading him than most people.

R = Remember

His favourite moments are whenever Tyler is just unapologetically sweet and sappy with him. Makes him forget how mean he used to be :>

S = Security

Way more chill than Tyler, he trusts him to take care of himself, but sometimes he thinks about Tyler stuck on the tree...bleeding out...his organs torn to shreds... and he worries about him 🫠

T = Try

Of course he tries. He's trying so hard. To be brave. To love him unconditionally. To forgive him. He just needs time...hopefully.

U = Ugly Habit

Kind of a grudge holder and he's one of those people who will be kinda salty after you apologize for smth even tho he accepted the apology. Passive aggressive ngl. Tyler is always "..." whenever Logan is annoyed with him even tho he prolly deserves it 🤡

V = Vanity

He doesn't *not* care about his appearance but he doesn't care a loooot. Was raised to be well-groomed so he is very clean and proper but fashion-wise he's kinda...y'all know 😔 (he can look like a nerd and still be fashionable BUT he isn't just look at him 😭)

W = Whole

They got that trauma bond so no, not really, he wouldn't feel "whole" without Tyler. But I think he would be able to move on at some point.

X = Xtra

Very serious about learning Spanish! Tyler's kinda "...bro I don't even know it that well" about it but Logan wants to make an effort. He's really smart including in languages so eventually he starts speaking more proper Spanish than Tyler (but with a horrible accent) which Ty's just dead over. He can have a full on convo with Marianna and everything.

Y = Yuck

HATEEEES how protective Tyler is. Like he understands where he's coming from but OMFG he feels SO infantilized by it sometimes. And also Tyler is constantly trying to help him and Logan just feels like Ty doesn't trust him to do things by himself. He hates people who let their anger control them too, if Tyler is mad he will just walk away from the argument and hang out in his room.

Z = ZZZ

Looks like an absolute angel while sleeping, it's ridiculous. He just looks so goddamn peaceful and serene, Tyler is just "?!!?!?" and wants to combust 🫠

Tyler Hernández

A = Affection

His way of showing affection is like. Annoying. He's that kind of guy who shows his care by teasing the crap out of you 🤡👌🏽 Logan was kinda intimidated at first but now he's like. So over him because he knows his bf is dumb. He understands the chalequeo.

B = Best Friend

He your RIDE OR DIE FR. Omg...THAT WASNT ON PURPOSE, I just meant that he's really loyal even though he's kind of a "tough love" kind of guy 😭 would tell you if your bf sucked ngl

C = Cuddles

Secretly wants to hug Logan all the time. Logan is very soft and he just kinda...melts when they cuddle. Like its a guaranteed way to relax him, and lord knows he needs to relax.

D = Domestic

King of household chores. Compulsive cleaner. Cooks AND does the laundry. He cannot sit still for five seconds help him 🤡 It would take him a LONG time to be comfy not living with his mom or sister (I think Taylor would move out first) so there might be like. A small period where he and Logan live with Marianna.

E = Ending

He's kinda...reluctant to ever break up with anybody, especially Logan. If he did it'd be like, more on accident after losing his temper, like Logan saying maybe he should leave and Tyler saying he will or whatever. He'd regret it ofc 🤡

F = Fiancé

Oh, he was really surprised when Logan asked him. And happy :). He had gen never thought about it cuz he was so stressed lmao but he was real excited and also lowkey terrified 🫠

G = Gentle

Verbally he's pretty harsh, that's just how he is. But physically, besides the occasional arm/shoulder tug, he's very careful with his loved ones <3 sometimes when he's sad he holds Logans cheeks or rests his head on his lap.

H = Hugs

Ohhhh he loves hugging. If he could, he'd be hugging Logan constantly 😭 his hugs are REALLY long and he kinda does that like. Swaying motion. Also lifts Logan off his feet. Literally shoves his face into his shoulder.

I = I love you

He needs to be really sure of his feelings to say it, and even then he usually says it very quietly or when he thinks Logan won't notice. For some reason has an easier time saying it in Spanish (he just like me fr)

J = Jealousy

Yeaaaaahhhh...worse than Logan. Hate watches people who be getting touchy with Logan :) you know he would get salty/sassy about it he's just Like That TM. And Logan is not putting up with that haha.

K = Kisses

Awkward and makes it way more tense than it needs to be smh. If he's kissing him on the mouth he gets really nervous and squeezes his eyes shut and just HOVERS there waiting for Logan to close the gap 💀 Kisses the top of his head a lot so Logan can't see him blushing cuz he's a loser.

L = Little Ones

Like a beleaguered babysitter. He finds kids annoying and he can be a little Itty bitty bit mean to them sometimes but he's like that annoying older cousin you had that you liked to play with because they were Real with you. Hair ruffler.

M = Mornings

Wakes up right with his alarm and gets straight to work. He goes jogging and does stretches, then comes back home to make breakfast. Logan sleeps through it all help

N = Nights

He goes to bed at like 9pm because he's a dork lmao and he gets tired 🤡 That doesn't mean he'll fall asleep tho! He's super restless and will be tossing and turning and sometimes Logan will spoon him so he'll sit still and relax for a second-

O = Open

...No 💀 HELP NONE OF THESE KIDS ARE OPEN FFS- 😭 naaaah he doesn't feel like telling people his "sob story" or whatever and he doesn't really like talking about it 🫠 He mentions things offhandedly to Logan, who...understands and doesn't ask.

P = Patience

Whatever he loses his temper easy, big deal. Consistently annoyed at the world, and who can blame him? World kinda sucks 🤡 he's been working on not losing his cool so quickly because Logan just doesn't like being around angry people.

Q = Quizzes

He is a detail-oriented guy with a good memory, not to mention being well organized, so he has a space for "important Logan info" that he thinks might be useful at some point. Not at Aiden's level tho (fortunately 🤡)

R = Remember

When Logan confessed, because he was just so...I'm tryna think of the right word here omg. Like, in awe? That this guy he's been crushing on and was honestly not that nice to liked him BACK? And they were so earnest and genuine about it and he was just???? Help???

S = Security

Tyler is overprotective of Logan the same way he's overprotective with all the people he cares (a lot) about. He will put himself in front of him in dangerous situations, remove him from situations if *he* thinks they're dangerous...can get kinda annoying about it...

T = Try

Tyler puts 110% of himself in anything he cares about so yes, he is trying very hard in this relationship. He is very meticulous about helping Logan out whenever possible, planning outings/dates, controlling himself around him, etc etc. Trying to get Logan's forgiveness

U = Ugly

He is overprotective and sometimes doesn't let Logan handle things by himself when Logan totally could. The aforementioned anger issues are also a problem :/ Also can be kinda brash and won't...filter his thoughts before hand when he probably should.

V = Vanity

About as concerned as the average teenage boy is. That is to say, very little- (helpppp I know this isn't the case for everybody LOL). He literally still matches outfits with his sister I don't think he cares about his own style too much LMAO

W = Whole

Nahhhh all of them got that trauma bond for life and would feel incomplete with out each other. I think he'd take it a lot worse than Logan too.

X = Xtra

Sometimes they go to church together as deeply repressed Catholic boys with religious trauma. Tyler thinks he'll go to Hell whenever they kiss but he's gonna do it anyways 😔

Y = Yuck

He doesn't really like, how do I say this, like. "Vapid" people I guess (this is just how he views some people tho). Like for example before knowing him better he thought Aiden was a really shallow person. So he'd never date anybody who he thought had nothing going on under the surface. Needs the relationship to be serious, like, he doesn't want anything casual.

Z = ZZZ

He has bruxism and like, scratches his throat while sleeping (not with his hands like, the swallowing thingy you do) (cuz he just like me fr), and he is literally so loud it will wake Logan up at night even tho he's a deep sleeper 😭

[mentallyshattered]

This is part 5 of the "What if Yuu didn't want to go back?" Series!

(I, the author of this work, do not consent to this work being crossposted/translated without my knowledge or used to train an AI, ever.)

Masterlist

Class starts in 15 minutes. First period is History of Magic- should be easy to find, right? After all, Vil made sure to give all of Pomefiore easy access to a map of the school. First floor, somewhere on the left...is this it? The room numbers match up.

The room is about half full. The paper says we have assigned seats, but it doesn't say where those seats are, so... where the hell do I sit?

"Grim... where's our seat?"

"Says we're in seat 34... so, third row, fourth seat?"

Counting the seats, we take our spot and hope for the best. Soon after we remove our notebook, textbook, pencil case, and folder, a boy with dark blue hair and an upside-down black heart on his face bursts into the room, panting heavily. The red color of his vest indicates that he's a Heartslabyul, but I can't tell if he's in the right room or not.

"Myaah? Hey, are you in class A?"

"Yes," the boy pants out, "seat 24... I'm not late, am I?"

"Nope! You're right in front of us."

The boy looks up, seemingly suprised at the sound of my voice. Our eyes meet- his are a beautiful, bright cyan. He'd fit right in at Pomefiore, at least visually.

"Wh...what?"

"We're in seat 34. Your seat is right in front of ours."

"Oh, okay." He looks grateful now, jogging to his seat and turning around to reach us.

"Ah, Deuce Spade- it's a pleasure to meet you!"

He sticks out his hand. I shake it.

"I'm Yuu- Y-u-u, not y-o-u."

Grim follows suit and sticks out his paw. Deuce takes a moment to catch on, but he does.

"And I'm Grim! Pleasure to make your acquaintance. "

Deuce looks relived, but that look soon turns to panic when he hears someone much older behind him.

"We are still missing someone."

A panicking #24 sits down quickly and puts his stuff down. The man- who is probably Professor Trein- lets the door shut behind him, but someone catches it. Another Heartslabyul, by the looks of it.

"Hey, teach! I'm on time, right?"

"Hey, Yuu! That's Trappola, from the entrance ceremony," Grim whispers. "He's claustrophobic. "

I laugh quietly. "That he is, Grim. That he is."

To Spade's horror, Trappola plops down right next to him, in seat 25.

"Heya! Nice to meet'cha. I'm Ace."

Deuce is visibly horrified. "I'm Deuce Spade. Please try not to be late in the future. "

Entrance Ceremony Claustrophobe scoffs. "What's up your ass this morning?"

Grim raises his paw. Trein calls on him. "Yes, Grim?"

"Trappola just asked Spade what's- and pardon my language- 'up his ass this morning.' It's distracting."

Now it's Trappola's turn to look horrified. Deuce, taking the opportunity, raises his hand. "I can confirm that. I can also add that he said that in response to me asking him to try to be on time more."

Trein looks pissed. Trappola looks terrified. I raise my hand, ready to put the final nail in the claustrophobe's coffin-box. Trein calls on me.

"I can confirm that both Spade and Grim are telling the truth." Trappola is very pale. He should get more sun. And more time management skills, but that's been pretty obvious for a few minutes at this point.

Trein's cat meows, and Claustrophobe's fate is sealed.

"Trappola, see me after class."

Deuce, Grim and I smile. Time to learn.

The rest of class goes by without a hitch. Ace's detention is that he has to wash all of the chairs in the classroom after school. Fitting, I think.

Deuce walks with me and Grim to alchemy. Crewel seems strict, but kind, so long as you stay in line. We don't brew anything just yet- big whoop, first day- but we do get a lot of notes. Deuce is turning out to be e great friend, too! He's an honor student, recovering delinquent, and generally great guy- Vil would approve. He doesn't look like he has much of a skincare routine, though.

The big thing happens during Phys Ed. Grim and I faint during the laps- Vil is going to be pissed when he hears about the lack of water- and Deuce is the one to single-handedly carry us both to safety, and then the nurse's office. Apparently, we already lacked energy. Oh, well. Nothing eventful occurs until lunch.

Back at Pomefiore dorm, where lunch is free, Rook stops to talk to us.

"Monseur Mystery, Monseur Chat! I heard you fainted today?" The concern in his voice sounds real.

"Yeah... the nurse says we already lacked energy."

"And we weren't drinking enough water. There's that too, Grim. "

"Why weren't you?" Vil sounds rather intimidating right now.

"Myaah, no water bottle."

Vil just sighs.

[ghoulsbian]

001 with Mutsaura for the ask thing?

heavy breathing

you got it!! i'm happy to answer this!! i never get to talk about them except for with my friend allan (@holyhounddog, follow him! he makes amazing art.)

HERE WE GO!! mutsaura:

- when i started shipping it: i started shipping it back when the :re chapters were still coming out, specifically when mucchan and sanny started to team up. i immediately fell in love with the pairing. it very quickly replaced mutsurie as my favorite mutsuki pairing and has remained as my number one. there's something so spicy about them that just piques my interest. toxic yaoi to healthy yaoi (in the epilogue). DELICIOUS.

- my thoughts: probably in my top five tokyo ghoul ships. not exactly sure where but yeah. they have so much going for them- size difference, mutual understanding of each other, making each other worse, going from toxic to healthy, etc. (fun fact: my crush and i have the same exact size difference as mutsaura, though we are both girls). they're both really hot. they also stayed close with each other after the events of the final arc too and that makes me sooo happy. they really grew together and found wellness together.

- what makes me happy about them: i think that shinsanpei could offer mutsuki some sort of safety that no one else could. sanny is a man who accepted all of mutsuki, all of his faults and flaws and errors. he wasn't someone mutsuki had to hide even a portion of himself from. sanny accepted him at his craziest and unhealthiest, though sanchan was pretty crazy and unhealthy himself, and stayed with him as he got better too. i think they could be true soulmates. maybe they had a period of time where they thought it was only their craziness that brought them together, but they realized it was so much more than that.

- what makes me sad about them: i think that during their healing processes, there was a LOT of unraveling of the poor ways in which they treated each other during their dual insanity. it was a very emotional period of time for the both of them. i think that mutsuki also had to learn to love in a new way that wasn't pure obsession. i think he offered himself in that way to sanny but sanny downright refused, and it made mutsuki lash out cuz he felt unloved, but he came to understand shinsanpei's reasoning for doing so.

(i'm skipping over the fanfic questions bc i don't really read fanfic at all anymore, whoops)

- who i'd be comfortable with them ending up with if not each other: for mutsuki, definitely urie. though, i don't really see anyone else for sanchan. i know people ship him with touma but i feel indifferent towards that.

- my happily ever after for them: they ultimately leave anything related to ghouls and travel the world together. they end up with a cat that they carry around in one of those pet backpacks as they travel too. they end up living somewhere by the ocean, by a beach. they live a calm and unassuming life, not forgetting the people they used to be but forgiving themselves for it. they send postcards to the old quinx members and the kaneki family periodically too. AAGGHH!!

- who is the big/little spoon: i think mutsuki would feel emasculated for a bit if sanny tried to be the big spoon for him. so mutsuki was the big spoon at all times for a while. but mutsuki eventually caved, tentatively allowing sanny to be the big spoon. they agreed that if mutsuki felt too uncomfortable they would stop immediately. mutsuki was very tense at first, but slowly relaxed into shinsanpei's arms. it felt very nice for him. he'd never allowed anyone to hold him like that. he can't get enough afterwards. nowadays sanchan is the usual big spoon.

- what is their favorite non-sexual activity: bathing and showering together. mutsuki was very averse to the bathtub for a long time, because of his childhood trauma. he got extremely triggered and broke down the first time they tried the bathtub together, so they kind of worked up to it more gradually after that. it's now a fun activity they like doing a lot.

hope these are good :3

[viscerax]

You asked for requests, soooooo I am going to give you two!

Jam reunion or Jay gets eeby deebied back in time after he died, you choose when

Go crazy!!!

Reunion

Tim stares out the window while his hands absent-mindedly fidget with Jay's old camera. It had been awhile since he needed to use it. Who's counting?

Tim was. It had been 457 days since Jay died. Tim never moved away. He wanted to so badly, but it turns out being a minimum wage stock clerk doesn't exactly provide him with enough funds to move out. So he's stuck in that miserable house, with those miserable memories, and that miserable feeling in his gut.

He was tempted to sell Jay's camera, get some extra cash. But he couldn't. Anytime he opened Craigslist or e-bay, he stared at the web page for a moment before closing it. He couldn't bring himself to do it. The camera was the last proof that any of it happened, its scuffed edges and cracked lens. Without it, he might as well have just been crazy. No one else believed him. He knew damn well telling his therapist would just land him in another facility and numbed up on so many meds that he probably wouldn't even be able to remember his own name. He's been through that, and he wasn't going to do it again.

He sighs, setting the camera down again. He's about to get up when he feels something rub against his leg. He flinched a bit, looking down and finding a furry face staring back up at him, his new cat, affectionately named "Jay". He reached down, scratching her chin and earning a satisfied purr. It wasn't much, it certainly wasn't a replacement for Jay, but it was better than nothing.

He pulls his hand away, earning a needy chirp from the feline. Tim sighs, standing up with a grunt. "I know, i know. You're hungry, I get it." Tim makes his way to his kitchen, reaching up to the top cabinet and grabbing a bag of kibble for the feline.

He's standing on his tiptoes, and curses himself for putting the bag so out of reach. Normally he'd keep it on the floor, but he learned very quickly that wasn't an option with Jay, lest he wishes that she tear the bag open and feast upon it's contents in a single night.

He has the bag just barely pinched in his fingers and dragging it over the edge, when a sudden barrage of knocking at his front door catches him off guard, and the bag comes falling down, spilling open over his head.

"God damnit!" He shouts, allowing the now half-empty bag to fall to the floor. He turns to his cat, eyeing the pile with a look that could only be described as gluttony. "Jay, don't you fucking dare." He mutters to the cat, before picking the bits of cat food from his hair and off the front of his shirt.

"Just a moment!" He shouts to whoever is knocking at the door as he does his best to shake the kibble from the inside of his shirt.

"Tim?"

Tim freezes at the voice. He thinks its got to be another auditory hallucination. After all, there was no way it was him. He saw Jay's dead body. He buried him himself in the woods, mainly because no one else even knew who "Jay" was. His parents said they only had a daughter, not a son named Jay.

Except, it can't be a hallucination, because it catches his cat's attention too.

Tim takes a shaking breath. Maybe he just heard it wrong. Maybe it was just the mail man. Or a neighbor. Or one of those missionaries. Yes, that must be it.

Still, he trudged towards the door, hand shaking as he reaches for the knob. What if it's the Operator, back again. Playing tricks on him?

Tim slowly unlocks the door, slowly turning the door knob. He squeezes his eyes shut, not worrying about how he might look crazy to whoever is on the other side.

"Tim? Timothy?" The voice is there again. Tim can't take it anymore. He opens his eyes. He sees both his best dream and worst nightmare.

Jay Merrick standing at his doorstep.

He wants to speak, move, but he can't. He doesn't know what to do. Jay, Really Jay, is standing there, staring at Tim like he was the walking corpse.

"Tim, oh my god." Jay breaks the silence, and Tim can't stop the choked sob that spills past his lips. He almost falls forward, but catches himself on the doorframe. Jay flinched back a bit, and he can't tell if Tim is still angry or not. Not like he would blame him.

"Tim I didn't- im sorry- I don't know what I was doing and-" Jay starts rambling, tripping over his words and fidgeting with his trembling hands.

Jay almost topples over when suddenly a very heavy weight is crashing against him. But he doesn't fall. Instead, he's enveloped in warm, trembling arms. Tim is hugging him, and Jay is practically stunned.

"I know, Jay. I... I saw the entry. I-" his words are choked off by another sob as squeezes Jay again. "Y-you're here. Y-you can't be. You're not real." Tim is trembling, face buried in Jay's neck. Jay doesn't know what to do, so he just follows Tim's actions, wrapping his own lanky arms around Tim and trying to comfort him.

"I'm... yeah. I'm here. I'm real. I promise." Jay mumbles, a hand tentatively reaching up and petting Tim's hair.

"Jay... I... I buried you, though. I- how are you- I don't get it." Tim rambles as he reluctantly pulls away, partly worried that he'd crush the man if he squeezed him for any longer.

"I don't... I don't know. And for once I don't think I want to find out." Jay lets out an awkward chuckle, and the statement earns a snort from Tim.

"Well thats a first." He takes a step to the side, allowing Jay in. He tries to catch his breath, trying to wipe away his tears but they just keep coming and he can't stop them. This had been the most he cried in... ever. Even during the whole Operator fiasco, he never really shed any tears. He felt emotionally blocked up, and now they were all flowing out of him like a broken dam.

"Tim... I... I missed you- I'm sorry for... coming back and drudging this all up again but I- I couldn't- i didn't know who else to go to and-"

Tim practically slaps a hand over his mouth. "Stop apologizing. I- I want you here, I-" he takes a deep breath, and more tears are spilling again. His voice cracks when he finally speaks again. "For years, I couldn't even shed a tear. And then you showed up. All these emotions that I haven't had a chance to experience or didn't realize I had all came out at once because of you." Tim takes a deep breath, swallowing and hoping it will make speech easier, but it doesn't. His voice still trembles. "I can't stop crying, I'm sorry." He lets out a sarcastic laugh, to which Jay just reaches a hand up and wiped away the tears before cupping Tim's stubbley face in his hands.

Tim had been so numb since Jay's death. He'd been... sad, sure. But he had been doing so good at shoving it all down, focusing on other things and eventually drowning out the world-shattering sadness that was currently flowing out of him like a river. He couldnt stop it now. He couldn't drown it out or focus on anything else because Jay was right there, staring down at him with those big sad eyes, and speaking to him with those cracked lips that Tim sometimes wished would just shut up and kiss him.

"Tim... I... I'm sorry. I didn't know you'd- I don't want you to cry. I'm sorry... shit, I-" his words are interrupted by Tim's lips crashing into his with a kind of ferocity he could only expect from the man.

Tim wasn't thinking straight. So many emotions and chemicals swimming around in his brain is what caused him to do this. He's about to pull away and profusely apologize him for his irrational activity, but Jay is kissing him back and holy shit, Tim doesn't think he could pull away if he wanted to with the way Jay is practically clawing to hold onto him. They're both trying to prove to themselves that this is real, and that this is really happening and that it's not just some dream.

Reluctantly, they pull away, damn the need for air. They stay in silence for a moment before Tim finally breaks it.

"Please... please stay. Just for a while." Tim hates how desperate he sounds but he can't bring himself to change it because he is. He's so desperate for Jay to stay that he can't bring himself to be angry at him in any way.

"I will never leave you behind again, if you'll have me." Its a promise, a promise that means so much to the both of them. Tim is so used to people running once they see all of him. Once they get past his bitchy exterior, once they see the sad man that he is. But Jay's seen it all. He knows so much more about Tim then most. And yet he's staying.

Tim answers him with another kiss, albeit shorter than the last. He pulls away and just holds Jay, hands roaming over his back, to his waist, and up and down his arms, still trying to lock in the fact that Jay us really there.

"Mrowww?" The two men are broken apart as their attention falls to a very needy feline.

Tim sighs and picks the cat up, holding her gently and allowing Jay to pet her.

"What's her name?" Jay looks back to Tim, still scratching behind the ears of the purring feline.

Tim panics. Surely it's not... normal to name your cat after your dead "best friend." But, Tim can't think of any creative lie in the moment, so with a defeated sigh, he mumbles his confession.

"I named her... Jay. After you. It was uhm, a recommendation from my therapist. She was supposed to be a therapy pet, but really she mostly just takes up most of my money and attention." He complains about the cat, although its clear from his tone that he doesn't really mean it. The cat means a lot to him, even if he's too stubborn to admit it.

"That's... cute." Jay chuckles, and Tim would give anything he had to make sure he hears that laugh again, even if it's at the expense of his own embarrassment.

"Yeah, whatever." Tim mutters, which only earns another chuckle from Jay. Tim thinks he's going to die from embarrassment, and very quickly sets the cat down, deciding to change the subject. "I have to uhm, clean up a mess, that she made earlier. Before she eats all of it."

Jay is a bit confused, until he looks over Tim's shoulder and sees cat food spilled all over the floor. He giggles and follows behind Tim, helping him clean it up, despite the others protest.

They're both so tired by the time they're done cleaning. It's not like it was a very difficult task, but Tim's pretty sure he's just worn out from the emotional Rollercoaster. He barely makes it to the bed, and tries to opt for passing out on the couch, but Jay practically drags him away to his bedroom, forcing him to lay down.

Jay is about to turn and take refuge on the couch, but Tim grabs his wrist.

"Don't leave. Please. Just for tonight. We can get you a bed tommorow." Tim groggily requests, and who is Jy to deny him, especially when he's looking up at him with those wide eyes that Jay adores.

Jay kicks off his shoes and crawls in next to Tim, relishing in the way he's practically enveloped in warmth.

"I love you. Welcome home, Jaybird." Tim sleepily mumbles into his neck.

Home. Jay hadn't had a home in so long, and he thinks he wouldn't mind if his home was Tim.

[jklovesfandoms]

This was originally going to be Ricky being touch starved, but idk what it is now, lol.

Cw: not super graphic, but mild description of death/decapitation and the aftermath (wow, wonder who that is)

Ricky knew very well what being touch starved and avoided felt like. When you consider that he started needing crutches and wheelchairs and canes and physical therapy, and a lot more, at the ripe old age of 6, less than a few months into first grade, it makes a bit of sense.

When his peers, who he's going to be around for the next 12 years, see him fall down at recess and come in 2 weeks later after way too many tests, using a pair of crutches, and struggling even more to talk for too long, he doesn't have many, or any, friends to get hugs from. When he can't run, no one is going to invite him to play with them, he can't keep up.

When Ricky can't get a word out at the age of 8, after 2 years of struggling, no one stands around waiting for him to talk on his AAC. Not when they could be playing with their friends. Not when they could be doing their reading. Not when they could be eating.

But Richard Potts was used to it. Complete indifference, that is. And getting ignored. Getting overlooked.

Of course, he isn't fully starved. He has his cats, and his parents. But when he turns 10, and food gets too hard to chew, family dinners suddenly go away, to be replaced with liquid meals. When he's 11 and his physical therapist says that he'd benefit from more therapy, to prevent his condition worsening, family movie nights go away too, as both of his parents take more shifts. His parents have long since taken a vow of silence, but no one's exactly sure how long it's going to last. They said that they'll be silent until he isn't.

Ricky isn't sure if they're wanting him to speak again, or to just pass away quicker.

He does know that one is a lot more likely than the other.

When he's 15, only a few weeks before the end of his sophomore year, Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg approaches him at the end of the school day.

"Hey Ricky! Would you like to join the Chamber Choir? We're trying to join some competitions for next year, but we need more than 3 members, and more than a few weeks of rehearsal." Her voice grates him out of his fantasy world of Zolar. He begins to click, quickly getting out a sentence.

-who is in it?- that jumps the 'Most Successful Girl In Town' into action

"So right now, there's me, Constance, and Noel! But you know, that's only 3 people, and for the Kiwanis International Singing Competition, you need to have at least 4 members to compete, and -" she continues to talk and talk, but as everyone learned very early on in their lives in Uranium City, Ricky tuned her out, and started to consider it. This choir was going to be a train wreck, that's for sure. Everyone knew that Noel and Ocean HATED each other. They couldn't stand in the same room for more than 3 minutes without blowing up on each other. Constance wouldn't be that bad to be around. Her little brother is nonverbal, and autistic like him, so he knows that she won't be like the rest of the people in this town. They could at least watch the chaos together from the sidelines. Ricky tunes back in, in order to agree to join, but suddenly reconsiders it, as Ocean continues. "Plus, I'm sure that Kiwanis won't even care that only 3 out of 4 members can sing! You'll probably give us an automatic first place, due to us being inclusive! Accessibility for all! You'll be our first place guarantee, won't you? Oh you're such a good kid Ricky! Thanks for joining, see you tomorrow after school for the first rehearsal!" She quickly skipped away. Ricky hadn't even agreed. Sure, he had pushed the 'sure' button on his AAC, but he hadn't finished or said a sentence yet. He glared towards Ocean, before deleting the sure from his sentence bar, and continuing on his way outside, in order to get to physical therapy in time.

Ricky was 16 when he was stopped from stepping on stage at the Kiwanis International Singing Competition.

"Hey, no technology on stage" the tech person, dressed in all black, said.

Mischa, who had joined only a few weeks ago, quickly jumped in.

"No, no! That is Ricky's voice, why can't take on stage?"

"The signals will block the choir mics. He can have it back afterwards, jeez." The tech person pushed their hand out, and Ricky quickly unlocked his AAC from its holder. Mischa looked pissed.

"Ricky's voice better come back same as now. Understood?" Mischa said, looking ready to beat up the tech kid

"yeah, it'll be right here, don't lose your balls" they said, setting it on the table just inside of the backstage area.

Ricky was 16 when he won second place in the Kiwanis International Singing Competition, as someone who couldn't physically sing, and as a member of the only choir in competition (at least at their size level)

Ricky was 16 and a half when Mischa Bachinski continued to shock him. After having physical therapy during school (that at least got him out of a test), he walked into choir practice, 15 minutes late. Not that they needed him, since Father Marcus was preparing them for the Winter Concert, where admin didn't want him to be playing piano or tambourine. So he wasn't doing anything anyways.

"Ricky! Why are you late?" Mischa almost yelled out. The formatting of his sentences has definitely gotten better over the last several months, but his accent hasn't faded.

Ricky got to his place in the choir, and started to respond, as Ocean was almost berating Mischa for interrupting the practice.

-physical therapy- Ricky responded

"Physical therapy? Why do you have physical therapy?" Mischa continued, interrupting Ocean.

-same reason for crutches. Muscle disorder-

"Oh shit man. So sorry. Fine, fine. We can continue singing, orphan a-hole." Mischa responds, half towards Ricky, and half towards Ocean. Luckily, he muttered his final two words under his breath, which saved him another lecture about swearing.

Choir practice went by quickly after that, especially since Ricky spent the entirety of it helping to save Zolar. But as they finished, he wasn't expecting Mischa to pull him aside.

"Ricky, I must say, you are strong! Physical therapy? I have heard that hurts. You are strong, almost as strong as Ukrainian men. You are cool, strong man, Ricky Potts." Mischa blurts out in the choir hallway. Before Ricky can even process the words, he's pulled into a tight hug from the Ukrainian adoptee.

Ricky was 16 and a half when he remembered for the first time in far too many years, what a hug truly feels like. With his parents taking more and more shifts, and seemingly only showing up to make sure that the cats and him are fed, and everyone being warned since they were 6 that Ricky was delicate, and that they had to be gentle, he hadn't been in hugged in forever. And before he could even fully process the emotions he was feeling, Mischa said something, kissed him on both cheeks, and jogged towards Noel.

Ricky doesn't get another hug from Mischa, or anyone really, for a while. In fact, it's not until his senior year, when at the Kiwanis International Singing Competition (held at the Fall Fair!), where they are once again the smallest choir, and only choir in their competition size, and a shy girl joins the choir, a mere hour before the competition.

Ricky is 17 when he meets a girl, with the greenest eyes, who's just as shy and odd as he is.

Once again, he's not allowed to take his AAC on stage, but she offers to hold it. He can't help but to trust her. Afterwards, as they listen to the other choirs, she sits at the back with him, and talks with him. Not at him. She stops and allows him to talk, makes sure that she hears and listens.

Finally, the small choir decides to split up, and do their favorite things.

"Ricky, would you like to join me at the ring toss? We can ride the Graviton afterwards, if you'd like! There's a very pretty doll as a prize." She asks, then rocks on her feet, as she waits for a response.

-sure, I would be happy to- and at that, she quickly leads them both through the slight crowd and towards the nearly empty ring toss booth.

"Hello! Here's 5 dollars for the ring toss! I want to win that dolly over there!" She exclaims, handing the 5 dollar bill to the only other person there, the carnie worker.

"Here's your bucket of rings, it's a yellow prize, so try to get it on a yellow bottle" the underpaid worker mutters, unenthused. The girl (why can't Ricky remember her name?) begins tossing rings, and at the final one, lands it on a yellow bottle. The worker silently takes down the doll, the only doll like it, and hands it to the girl in exchange for the bucket.

"Ricky, you're really imaginative! And super smart. What should I name my dolly? Everything I'm thinking of feels wrong." She asks, as they start making their way towards the Graviton.

The doll looks nearly exactly like her. And a name quickly comes to Ricky's mind. -Savannah-

"That's perfect! Thank you, thank you, thank you Ricky!" the girl jumps in excitement, before enveloping Ricky in a hug. The first one he's had since Mischa's last year. She releases not nearly as quick as Mischa did, and stays there a while. But she does release her warm hug eventually, and cautiously sets the porcelain headed doll in her bag. The duo continues to make their way towards the Graviton, and as they arrive, the workers quickly allow them both to bypass the line due to his crutches. As they get escorted to the front, Ricky and the girl set down their things, which for Ricky, includes his crutches, after he's instructed to do so. Before they get on, he grabs his AAC one final time.

-help please?- and looks hopefully at the girl

"Of course!" She offers her shoulder, and a supportive arm around his waist. Her touch is like a furnace to Ricky, as she helps him up the stairs and into the spinning ride. "Is it okay if I hold your hand? I've never ridden this before, and it's kinda scary" she asks, extending a nearly begging hand. He takes it, grateful that someone wants to touch him, let alone asks for it. Most people in this town think that he'll crumble to dust if they breathe on him, so they avoid him at all costs. This girl (doesn't her name start with a P? It starts with a P, right? Right?) is an extremely welcome change.

After they get off, (the P-name girl didn't let go of his hand the entire ride. That shocked him) Ocean quickly finds them.

"You two, come on! Constance wants to ride the Cyclone!" She gets behind them and ushers them both forward towards the old wooden rollercoaster.

"Ocean, are you sure the Cyclone is safe to ride? It looks like it could derail at any moment. It's a safety hazard to have a loop on a wooden rollercoaster. The wood normally can't support the weight and force of the coaster." The girl says, concerned.

"nonsense. If you want to, you can sit out, if you're that worried." Ocean responds, as they find the rest of the choir, waiting by the fortune telling machine. The girl suddenly realizes something.

"I left my bag at the Graviton! I'll be right back, so don't wait up." She quickly runs away towards the place they just were, and Ricky realizes that she does in fact not have her bag on her. Ocean doesn't mention it, as they fully meet up with the rest of the choir.

"Guys, we have to follow Blackwood tradition! Let's get our fortune read, and then ride the Cyclone!" Constance exclaimed, sounding and looking very enthusiastic, while her smile doesn't meet her eyes. She looks hurt, and to be in pain, but seems to be hiding it well enough that no one else notices.

"Fine. And afterwards, we're going on the ferris wheel to do some Gruber tradition." Noel states, picking at his nails. As Constance inserts the coins, Ricky begins to worry about the new girl. He knows that it's quite a walk from here to the Graviton, but he doesn't want to ride alone.

"Be sure to ride the Cyclone!" The machine says, after saying a randomly selected "lucky number" and catchphrase. The choir shrugs, and gets in line. Much like at the Graviton, they get moved right to the front, due to Ricky's disability. As soon as they're about to get on, the girl sprints back, sets her bag down by a bench, and sneaks under the rope to jump to where the rest of them are.

"Sorry it took me so long, but I'll help you get onto the ride, if you'd like!" Ricky nods, as the coaster stops, and the group of kids gets off. The worker has a basket for the choir to set their stuff in, so Ricky sets in his crutches and his AAC, and the girl helps him into the cart. As the coaster starts, she is visibly scared, and begins muttering facts about lions and lionesses under her breath, low enough that Ricky can't hear full words. They speed towards the loop, and Ricky just keeps trying to remember her name as he's holding her hand.

'it's a P name, that's for sure, but what is it?'

"RICKY GET DOWN!" she screams, grabbing his shoulders, and roughly shoving his head towards his lap, as the world goes weightless.

The pressure of her hands on his shoulders stops being a pressure, and time travels in slow motion, as Ricky feels drops of warm liquid splattering his entire body, and the body corpse next to him goes completely limp. He looks up, her head is gone, completely. He turns around, and sees the brunette head smashing into the back of the cart, shattering into a bloody, brainy mess, and two brunette braids, that quickly get flung into the corn field around the farm, likely never to be seen again . He looks forward, and blinks as the ground meets his eyes. One final thought goes through his head 'Penny!' and the world goes dark as the cart hits the ground.

[dreamyheizou]

genshin boys as types of pet cats

includes: ayato, childe, heizou, itto, kazuha, scaramouche, xiao, and zhongli

genre: fluff, crack (?)

warnings: brief mention of vomit (in ayato's section)

ayato

- a siamese cat (with blue eyes ofc)

- a proper cat ☝🏻

- sits with his two front paws crossed over each other

- loves getting his fur brushed daily

- doesn't fuss when getting his nails trimmed 💅🏻

- refuses to eat dry food!!

- ayato ONLY eats organic food

- vomits if he drinks tap water

- also, DO NOT leave food out on the counter

- he WILL climb onto the kitchen counter and drink your doordash boba tea 🧋

- refuses to go in the litter box if it's dirty

- gives u a dirty look whenever you don't change his litter right after he takes a dump

- acts like the king of the castle 👑

- spoiled kitty fr

childe

- childe would be an orange tabby with blue eyes

- he gives off huge orange tabby vibes

- chaotic and loud ‼️🤪

- steps on your chest when you are sleeping

- meows loudly in your face at exactly 5am in the morning every dingle day to demand food

- shits outside of his litter box if you do something he doesn't like

- has mastered The Head Tilt™️

- begs for treats all the time

- and you can't help but give in

- everything has to go his way

- now, childe LOVES to play with just about anything

- shoelaces, teaser wands, soft plushies, hairbands, your $300 dollar necklace.....

- starts fights with other cats for fun 🤣

- loves annoying scaramouche especially

heizou

- he would be a brown tabby with green eyes

- but has the tortie sass

- sly mf

- constantly has this expression on his face that looks like he knows something you don't 😈

- which honestly is probably the case

- learns tricks very quickly bc he's a smart boy

- but doesn't perform them on purpose whenever you're trying to show your friends 😀

- just to spite you hehe

- like childe, heizou would be a very talkative cat so he'd never shut up

- swats at random things

- you know heizou is judging you whenever he gives you the side glance 👁

itto

- itto would be a maine coon

- a Large boy

- but despite being physically larger in size than most cats

- he is a big babie

- comes running for you whenever he gets startled by the smallest things :(

- not very bright but super sweet

- you know that trend where you hold a cat up against the wall and see if they're smart enough to stop themselves?

- yeah, itto doesn't pass that one

- his face just goes s m a s h into the wall 💥

- when he loafs, he doesn't just look like a loaf of bread 🍞🙅🏻‍♀️

- he looks like a whole ass bakery

kazuha

- kazu would be a white cat with reddish-orange eyes

- you know how some cats have very dilated pupils all the time?

- that's kazuha as a cat

- this feature just makes him look even cuter than he already is

- goes CRAZY over catnip 🍃

- definitely a lap cat

- just wants to cuddle and be held

- purrs a lot and makes biscuits on your lap

- jumps on your bed at night bc he wants to be closer to you 🥰

- loves giving head bonks too 🥹

- likes to sit by the windowsill and watch birds fly around in the backyard 🪟

scaramouche

- i can see scara as a grey tabby

- definitely used to be a stray cat, so he has his left ear tipped

- which gives him a menacing kinda look

- he is a little menace, after all

- hisses at everyone and everything

- people, dogs, squirrels, other cats, etc.

- likes to catch small bugs and spiders and torture them until they die 😼

- will not hesitate to scratch your eyes out with his murden mittens

- bites and clings onto your hand whenever you try to pet him

- and acts all innocent after you retract your hand??? 😇

- one day you decide to risk your life and start scratching under his chin

- at first, scara started clawing at your arm, but then after a few seconds you start to see his eyes kinda close

- as if he was saying, "hey this kinda feels nice......"

- scara eventually gives in and learns to love chin scratches 🤭

xiao

- black cat with golden eyes

- looks like a lil void

- especially when he's hiding in the dark and you see nothing but two big golden eyes staring back

- shy shy shy

- hides from strangers at first

- but warms up after he gets to know them better

- brings back dead animals he caught and drops them in front of you as a gift ❤️

- barely sleeps at night but keeps quiet so he doesn't disturb you

- in fact, he watches over you to make sure you're safe from any danger

- loves to sit in boxes 📦

- it gives him a sense of calm and security

zhongli

- i can see zhongli as a tuxedo cat

- he'd be a super senior cat

- since he is old asf 💯

- every time you take him to the vet, everyone there is amazed at how he is still alive

- his fur is kinda scruffy ngl

- and whiskers are crinkly

- but he is still a handsome kitty regardless 😌

- spends most of his time sleeping due to his age :(

- cleans himself pretty well 🧼🧽

- poosy clean poosy tight poosy fresh

- gets along with other cats, including childe surprsingly

[seasidepierre]

You wanted distractions and likes cats? Oh oh please can you do which cats the drivers would have and which would just cuddle and which transformed their home entierly into cat enrichment? Or the drivers as cats if that hits you fancy?

All the hugs to you also <3

Okay, I can't pretend I know all the drivers enough to be able to do many of them, but here we go:

Pierre :

This cat has socks and therefore, Pierre named him ✨ Chaussette ✨. Very inspired, this one. Chaussette is a chill guy, he wants to eat, sleep, play a little, repeat. Nothing bothers him, to be honest. When Pierre's little nephews and nieces come, Chaussette will happily act as a pillow, get scratches and play with the kids despite being tugged at his fur. When they're just the two of them, Pierre lets Chaussette jump on the kitchen counters and sleep on his bed with him. Chaussette will gladly entertain guests who want him to interact but knows about boundaries and will let alone guests who don't like cats. The epitome of the cool cat. Pierre got him a bed but quickly realised there was nothing that Chaussette liked more than his comforter, so he got rid of it. He did buy one of those feathered toys but Chaussette got into his drawers and found an old stuffed animal that a fan gifted him. Chaussette gets sad when the little duck disappears underneath the couch, so Pierre has to move around furniture every now and then to rescue the ducky and Chaussette is very grateful for that.

Charles :

Probably called him something Disney related but in French, like Tigrou (Tigger). V v cliché of him but who cares? He'd play piano and Tigrou would be lying on top of it or next to him on the bench. At some point, he tried to teach Tigrou how to play, holding his little paws in his head and pressing the touches. Needless to say, Tigrou learned how to walk on the keys and sleep on them and that's pretty much it, but Charles doesn't mind. He probably found him at a shelter when he wanted to adopt a puppy but found this kitten and thought "You know what? Maybe I'll take this one home instead". He bought a little cat tree and some toys but Tigrou would much rather sleep on the couch or his bed and play with a chord that Charles has no idea where he found. When Charles isn't home, his mother gets to feed Tigrou.

Daniel :

Daniel found this nutcase in the streets of Monaco as a kitten and took pity of him. He had no idea what to feed him at first but the cat ended up munching on his Chicken McNuggets, which earned him the name of Nugget. Nugget is a complete psycho and despite the fact that Daniel bought a scraper and toys, he has obliterated half of his furniture. He also has the bad habit of chewing on Daniel's toes when he's asleep. Daniel sports traces of Nugget's little canines on his hands like it's no big deal but he's lucky enough to be able to cuddle Nugget whenever Nugget allows him to. Nugget talks a pretty big game but he's a dumbass floof at best, getting the zoomies at 3 in the morning and headbutting in doors like he's doing parkour.

Esteban :

I know for a fact that Esteban has a black cat, so this one wasn't too much of a trouble. The underrated of them all. Esteban and Minuit get along like there's nothing else that matters in the world but each other. Esteban facetimes Minuit when he's away and Minuit is staying at his parents'. When they're together, they spend their days lounging on the bed or on a sunbed, Esteban reading and Minuit getting his much needed scratches. Esteban finds peace and comfort in Minuit's purr and Minuit loves his lanky human who feeds him the best chicken around. Two underrated beings, they were bound to love each other.

George :

Not even gonna lie, this cat is fancy and she knows it. V v old money vibes exudes from her. Got a posh name like Florence. George treats Florence like royalty and she will remind everyone that she is. George got her when a family member couldn't take care of her anymore and despite his busy schedule, once he saw her, he couldn't let her go to anyone else. He didn't change anything in his house for Florence, but she knows she has authority over anything. The couch is hers when she decides it is. She will get her food at a very precise hour, thank you very much. Very precious. The equivalent of a posh person, but as a cat.

Nicky :

You can't trust Turtle with your food. That's something Nicky learned a while ago when he got the multicolored cat. Despite looking moody and mad 24/7, Turtle is pretty chill and she will leave Nicky in peace. She'll hang in his office when he plays online on his sim and if Nicky's lucky, she will jump on his thighs and sleep there. Nicky tried to spoil her rotten with a nice bed and toys but Turtle likes to hide underneath his bed to sleep and she will legit disappear for hours on him. Once, he thought Turtle was lost. She hadn't come home in more than three days. He was freaking out, big times. Turns out, Turtle was living under the couch and coming out at night to nibble on her cat food.

Valtteri :

Valtteri is the EPITOME of the cat dad. His entire house is meant for Ari and he will let everyone know. Ari is his phone's lockscreen. He has socks that have Ari's face on them. He bought a cat tree, toys, a bed and a very high-tech litter box. Ari is his world and he couldn't care less that he looks like a lunatic. He bought Ari a bucket hat with little holes so that Ari's ears peak out of it. He walks Ari with a harness. He brings Ari on bike rides, in a little basket in front of his bike. Valtteri loves Ari so much it's ridiculously endearing.

[dolokhoded]

can I hear your headcanons about judas, big james, simon zealot and andrew please (whenever you have time this is just me expressing an interest in reading them at some point)

anon you have a special place in my heart. judas coming soon. he's got a bit of work to him.

80s jesus 'verse disciple headcanons pt. 2 (big james, andrew, simon)

BIG JAMES

john's brother. he works in their father's book shop and is trying to make enough money to open his own business

which is either a coffee shop or a record store. or both in one. he's a people person and he's great with costumers, he'd probably do well either way

he refuses to just take money from his parents for it he's gonna work for it

not as sheltered as john was. more of a protective older brother type. john and james had that typical family that was overall very loving and they were very lucky to have their parents but that doesn't mean they did everything perfect

which led james to sort of being treated like a third parent at times, and others just being treated like a little kid and not being taken seriously

he's still very close with his brother, though. and his parents.

very tall and very wide. brick wall shaped guy. hence the name.

adopted a kitten off the street. her name is aretha and she's an asshole and grows to be the chunkiest cat you'll ever see and they all love her

he does this a lot. he always lets cats in the shop, takes in injured strays until they're healed (of course he'd love to keep them but he can't have a dozen of animals in his apartment) (even aretha's not technically allowed they kind of smuggled her in and pray that she's quiet)

along with the strays he also takes in simon. but i will elaborate on that later.

is this guy aro? i dont know. i recently realized that all of these characters are aro unti proven otherwise so we'll just kind of leave it at that.

big flirt though. he's just very charming and very open

he hates the human race but he loves people and talking with people and making them smile and learning about them

has gotten him into very awkward situations at times. cause he is also stupid.

overall a very well rounded guy. prefers tea over coffee and has opinions on classical music and soul and punk.

but Watch Out! he's impulsive and at times aggressive and also has no sense of self perseverance cause he's the shape of a wall. which is not a great thing to be when you spend so much of your time at protests. in the 80s.

not that he would ever harm anyone who didn't have it coming. but unfortunately when you're as politically outspoken as this bunch was a lot of people do, in fact, have it coming.

jesus kinds of just shakes his head at him and he's like tsk tsk tsk james. punching people in the face is never the answer. but if you're going to do it then yes do punch racists.

when he does open his record coffee shop it quickly becomes a very popular anarchist hot spot. a lot of people already know him as a friend of jesus' so he's got a lot of support and he's trying to make the most of it to give back from what he gains.

not kitchen banned. not easily trusted with the stove because there's always a chance he'll get preoccupied with something else and burn the house down, but great at making drinks.

ANDREW

peter's younger brother. 'rebellious little sibling' who ended up just being the one who managed to unlearn their parents' conservative beliefs the fastest.

worked with john the baptist way before the two of them met jesus, and he completely cut off their parents but not peter. cause peter wasn't a bad guy, he wasn't full blown conservative either he was just taught to think in a certain way so andrew was like yeah i can help him out

he did. they didn't get along as kids, but when they grow up they're very close. even if peter's always scolding him about how he's reckless and he doesn't think ahead yadda yadda yadda

they're just very different

group's token guitar guy...

big james always makes fun of him for it. and tells him to listen to good music.

it's all lighthearted teasing they get along great and they love to talk music together

the first to meet magdalene and introduce her to the group. they're both mostly focused on intersectional feminism so they'd met at various protests and gatherings before, at a pro-abortion protest someone fucking decked magdalene in the face so he took her back to the team to fix her up

he's roommates with philip, who also worked with the baptist so they've known each other a long time.

he wants to be a teacher. he loves to work with little kids.

not kitchen banned at all. good at cooking.

SIMON

zealotes.

i was very conflicted about what to do with simon z because he can't be a zealot. in the 80s. it doesn't feel right to just treat them like a fictional group and pretend they just exist in the future now so no he's not an actual zealot it's a nickname.

other than that, simon's story is for the most part the same as it is in the original timeline. sort of.

his father is jewish, his mother was nigerian and died in childbirth.

his father hated that his son was half black so in an attempt to like. idk. cancel out his blackness and his nigerian heritage, i guess, he raised him very very jewish. which......a lot of the group are anyways, but simon's father also happened to be an asshole.

he basically provided him a roof, food, clothing, and a set of rules he had to follow.

simon had to do all the rest of his upbringing himself, and as a result had to grow up very fast.

as he grew, though, and developed his own personality and beliefs he aggravated his father.

he started to hit him when he was 11. simon ran away from home at 15.

and as much as i hate to have that whole cliche of oh the Streets made him tough that's basically what happened. he encountered a lot of shit and he had to be cautious

he lived in some shelters. he made some friends. crashed with them for a while

mainly a group of anarcho-punks who helped him a lot and taught him a lot

but that bunch were uh......interesting personalities and had a lot of issues so at some point simon, ever independent, kind of just. let himself out.

he was involved with a lot of sketchy people along the way and he always kind of was in risky territory but he also prioritized taking care of himself. he never drew attention to himself, he tried to save up, never touched anything beyond weed. overall he's weirdly self aware.

anyways. simon meets everyone when he's 26. specifically, he meets james, who's around the same age, maybe a year younger.

and as much as i love how this goes down in canon era where james sneaks up on him and simon actually Fucking Stabs him, it would be a little too much for this verse

so here simon tries to pickpocket him instead. james punches him in the face. simon punches him back and it all escalates.

anyways, james is a very peculiar guy so eventually they stop trying to beat each other up and he's like man what the hell. and asks philip to come take a look at him cause there's a slight possibility he broke simon's nose.

he didn't. it's cool. simon reluctantly lets james help him and besides having beat each other up not ten minutes ago they find they get along great !

james is like sorry no we're keeping him

and simon doesn't really have anywhere else to go so he's like. y'know what sure whatever.

he expected to stay with the group for like a month and then be on his way. that did not happen

he tried, at some point, he kind of just disappeared but then he got arrested at a protest turned riot and realized he had no one else to call so he called jesus

jesus brings james along, of course, who was five hours away from starting a full blown murder investigation

james was like are you fucking stupid actually. does your brain work. why did you leave like that i was worried about you

anyways, he drags him back by force so he doesn't end up in jail. simon is welcome to stay at james' whenever he wants.

which eventually just turns into him living there.

which much like with aretha is not entirely allowed. but somehow by this point james' charm has won his landlady over so she allows it

despite everyone's expectations simon is surprisingly healthy.

he didn't always have the opportunity to be so now that he's permanently living somewhere and finds some stable job and is getting his life together he takes advantage of it as much as he can.

this man gets his eight hours of sleep and exercises and eats three healthy meals a day he does not fuck around

ooh maybe he ends up running the shop with james. yhyh i like that

john is very awkward with him btw. this random guy suddenly moved into his brother's home and their lives are slowly becoming conjoined and he can't even understand the nature of their relationship but at the same time he doesn't want to be thinking about who his brother is fucking. but still he has several questions.

(simon is, too, aromantic until proven otherwise)

simon and philip get along well. they're both very spiritual. which no one expected either.

oh, and also he gets very close very quickly with susanna !!! who is also nigerian and helps him connect with the culture that was robbed from him. it's lovely

not kitchen banned. he can make a decent meal.

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

hi! can i gently ask for a matchup with my hero academia and attack on titan? my name is alessia, my pronouns are they/she/it and i don't have gender preferences. i'm italian, but i speak english too and sometimes i speak in a kind of german mixed to french accent. i'm 5'11", curvy, i have fair skin, round shaped face with a small double chin covered in freckles i draw when i do my makeup, chubby cheeks, potato nose, i wear a fake septum piercing (i'm allergic to real ones :/), wavy raven/dark brown hair with undercut and bangs i'm trying to grow because i hate it and i wear black glasses. my dressing style is mostly grunge or hipster. i was diagnosed with adhd recently, but i think i have that since i was a child: sometimes i have mood swings, desire of immediate change (i don't fear it at all, actually i can't wait for something to change) and i get stubborn kinda bossy when it comes to defende my ideals. i like makeup, reading graphic novels, plushies, cats, shopping (due my mental condition, i have like a compulsive shopping syndrome) , cookies n cream ice cream, chinese/japanese food. I dislike persisting people, injustices, loud noises, garlic, snakes, balloons, spinach, horror stuff. thank you in advance xoxoxo.

Hello Alessia! Thank you for your request! I hope you like your matchups!

In My Hero Academia, I match you with...

Denki is going to ask you to speak Italian all the time! He has no idea what you're saying but he thinks it sounds so cool.

He'll ask you to teach him a bit. He's not very good but it's the thought that counts. He's learning to roll his r's.

Thinks your septum piercing is cool, even if it's fake. Denki would love to get matching ones so you can both wear them when you go out.

I see Denki as a big fan of graphic novels. Please give him recommendations. He's always looking for new stories to read and graphic novels are the easiest for him to get into.

Also not a huge fan of horror. It's not that he doesn't like it in the moment. He just doesn't like laying awake at night.

Denki can be a bit loud sometimes but he'll always try to be considerate when you're around. If he or anyone else is getting too loud, just let him know.

Would absolutely join you in doing makeup. He'd love it if you would do makeup on him. He'll blink a lot while you're trying to do eyeliner but be patient with him. His favourite parts are blinking to get the mascara on and putting on lipstick!

In Attack on Titan, I match you with...

Erwin will also probably ask you to teach him Italian. He's much better at learning than Denki though so expect him to pick it up really quickly.

Enjoys reading. Modern au Erwin hasn't really read graphic novels before but would enjoy reading anything you suggest. Any form of story is something he will enjoy and reading in a different format is a new experience for him.

The person to go to if you want something to change. He's good at making things happen, no matter how tricky that can be. He's all about making things change.

Please talk him into wearing makeup! He won't wear it out in public (he has a reputation) but he's more than happy to let you put makeup on him when you're at home.

He's really good at sitting still. Perfect for putting eyeliner and mascara on.

Not a super loud person and is very aware of his surroundings. If things are getting too loud, Erwin's either telling people to be quieter, or he's moving you to a quiet space for a while.

He'll sit with you as long as you need. He enjoys the quiet as well.

[venacoeurva]

For the couples prompt thingy-

3. What's their favourite thing to tease about each other?

10. What was their last big fight? Did they learn anythin from it?

14. What little things remind them of each other?

For either Teldryn/Wren or Dusk/Kharjo. Also no pressure to do/draw/write all of these! Whatever you want to do is fine.

HOW ABOUT BOTH! This is decently long due to my overly verbose ass so rip

3. Teasing

TeldWren: Did this on a prior ask.

DusKharjo: Dusk is first and foremost a mage, despite his build for a two-handed heavy armor setup, and Kharjo loves to claim people will see Dusk coming due to how huge he is, but they won’t see the magic part—because they’ll be incinerated while waiting for him to whip out a battleaxe. Kharjo is a bit of a scaredy-cat when not prepared for combat to go down sometimes (pun intended), and Dusk's sister sneaks up on him a lot and scares him because the last thing you expect to see in Skyrim is an Alfiq of all people and she loves a good prank. Dusk doesn't have much of a sense of humor, though and tends to take things literally and seriously, so his teasing is at a minimum.

10. Fights

TeldWren: I don’t think they fight so much as bicker featuring above mentioned teasing (specified in another ask) as a way to feel out a situation with each other while making their stances known, on top of them probably not voicing vulnerable feelings very often in a non-jokey/teasing/snarky way. If they don't bring whatever it is up, they most likely sit on it and mull it over. It's definitely come to a head before, most likely regarding how hands-on Wren can be in combat and makes a lot of risky moves and is willing to test new spells and potions on himself (lack of fear doesn't help this) as well as the danger of going out hunting as a werewolf, especially with werebears being an issue. Teldryn is also a very aggressive fighter in battle, so it's like the pot calling the kettle black. Eventually they decided they'd both calm tf down in battle a little unless absolutely necessary but that could have came to a head. Having Miraak as some additional help in fights also helped.

That said, I’m sure Teldryn doesn’t exactly appreciate Wren’s casualness surrounding his role as Nerevarine and all it entailed, though Teldryn doesn't take the prophecy and his role as the literal reincarnation and more a figure of convenience for everyone who fit the qualifications like Wren does, and probably has questions about how Wren really feels about the prophecy, role, ordeal, the gods, and experience and so on and likely doubts Wren is fully honest concerning it to himself or others. Teldryn is aware there's baggage and unprocessed feelings about the matter, it is extremely obvious, but he also knows it's not his place to try to push the issue despite it occasionally frustrating him with how much Wren is avoidant of thinking about it, especially when Wren gets cagey and sulky about it when asked.

DusKharjo: I don't think they'd have fights too much, either. Dusk is very patient and somewhat submissive on a verbal front, so he'd concede pretty quickly without changing his mind. That's not to say he doesn't stand up for himself, but odds are he won't find most things worth it to get his hackles raised over. I'd imagine they probably disagreed a lot about what should be done regarding the whole Dragonborn thing--shit's dangerous! Dusk might not come back and sometimes Kharjo can't come with! Sometimes Kharjo doesn't consider the high risk to be worth it for a land that doesn't like them and actively shuts Khajiit out. Once it was all over and the emotional highs settled he felt bad about being so dismissive over other people, but he's been in an Us vs. Them situation for a hot minute, and knows they'll continue to be.

14. Reminders

TeldWren: The obvious ones are daggers and chitin armor (and crustaceans of any kind), but they also reached a point that they'll see completely mundane things that reminds them of each other, especially the pale dusty blue Wren's robe is nowadays; Teldryn is sort of accidentally conditioned to have a split second of going "oh there he is" if he sees it on something Wren-sized. Wren also makes and uses superior mountain flower soap (based on keep it clean mod), so that and similar smells reminds him of him as well.

DusKharjo: Anything with mages, especially mages guild, brings Dusk to mind. He's arch-mage, so he kind of has that as an automatic association. Dawnstar reminds Dusk of Kharjo since that's where they first met each other (and Kharjo commented on how lucky he was to have such long fur). On the more mundane level like mentioned above, Dusk has an affection for somewhat minimalist gold jewelry, just very simple but sticks out really nicely against his fur. He also has a habit of stacking books in a sort of spiraling way instead of a clean stack, he’s not sure why, but Kharjo started noticing it everywhere now. Meanwhile, The smell of smoke has gotten an association with Kharjo, mostly as a result of them camping out a lot as well as encountering him with the merchants when he was guarding them.

[bunny-rambles]

let's be real cat boy scara probably just acts like my best friend's cat lmao: he'd be always kinda there, absolutely ignores you like crazy and if you go to cuddle him he'll give you one second before bolting away like you're bothering him but the second you get next another cat??? he'll come next to you and he'll hiss until you pay attention to him instead (and then he'll promptly start acting like you don't really matter the second the other cat is out of sight). and then i'd feel like he'd have the other habit that cat has of just. worrying sick when you're not feeling well. like, once i fainted while at my bestie's house and when i woke up i just saw the cat all wrapped next to my head and the second he saw i was well he kinda like, rubbed against me and then promptly left. i was told he stayed with me all the time when i was unconcious lmao. typical scara imo

albedo on the other hand??? i feel like he'd be like those cats that maybe will stay on their own, and will only let you close to pet him if you devote your time and patience to show him that you're a Good Person™. but once you have that trust he's in love for life. you sit down? there you go, catboy!bedo will kind of emerge from wherever he was hiding and fall asleep on your lap when you pet his ears lol

i can't really say about xiao?? in typical xiao behaviour i just think he'd be like those cats that have like, one (1) person that they like and absolutely refuse to stay around anyone else. if you're that person? good! dark fluffy xiao ears ti pet and cuddle with. but if you're not that person you're not even seeing him around

- 🍓

I could kiss you on the cheek multiple times right now you’re fuelling me with so many ideas

That is so accurate to Scara it’s almost crazy, only giving you comfort when you really need it - just a shame you can’t appreciate it because it’s so rare. I have a feeling when he really warms up to you it’ll be more frequent (more like he demands to be pampered sometimes) but for it only comes in very small bursts, and it’s usually when you’re not feeling the best. (I am absolutely writing about sick reader and catboy scara now thank u for this gold)

I do like the idea of that, but I also think Albedo wouldn’t really care if he gets pets or not from people. I think he likes to be close to observe, so I don’t think he’d be the kind to bolt off if he gets bad vibes from anyone. He’s too intrigued (curiosity killed the cat, as they say). But he is the kind to just walk away if he doesn’t want to be touched and sit somewhere else instead. Not a fan of touch if he’s not at least acquainted with them. Also, very good with kids? They’ll quickly learn he doesn’t like his tail or ears pulled, but he’s patient, and since he’s a cat boy instead of a full cat, he’ll gently explain that it isn’t okay to pull like that. Cue Albedo and Klee snuggles !! But I absolutely agree, once he likes you, you’re the love of his life. He’ll put his head on your lap and wrap his tail around you, looking up at you expectantly for pets. And when you touch him, his purring is almost immediate. And it’s so very pleasing when Catbedo purrs, I think it would be rather loud, the complete opposite of him.

Honestly, I’d say the same for Xiao. He hates purring with a passion because it’s involuntary and very loud. It’s also a sign that he’s vulnerable and, dare he say it, happy. He doesn’t like being that way with anyone, since it’s obvious he’s not been treated the best. He rejects you spoiling him and avoids affection like the plague when you first get him, but when he starts warming up, he’s a completely different cat. You only need to call his name and he’ll come out of whatever dark spot he was hiding in just to see you. Ear pets are strictly off limits if you don’t ask first - he’s very jumpy and he will lash out if he thinks he feels threatened. It’s not you, he hurriedly tells you, but he doesn’t exactly trust easily. Just respect his boundaries and he’ll be a cuddle bug just like Bedo. You never see him, but he’s always there, watching over you. Very, very overprotective of you. Hates it when you have visitors, he’ll just glare at them from the darkness so they can feel a constant foreboding presence (so they can leave quicker). But when they’re gone, and he has you to himself, be prepared for some of the best snuggles of your life. Very good cuddler, when he feels like he can open himself up to get to that point. Best sleep aid there is.

Oh, before I write this up, is it okay if I use some of your ideas? And if you have anything you’d like to add, please feel free, dearest !!

[imperatorium]

what stink things did the boys do growing up in the abby

Two and Three got into probably way more physical altercations than you'd guess. Not even like good fights, just like...you know when two cats are in the middle of wrestling and they have that moment where they're doing a very tense glare and standoff, then they just pounce and end up rolling down the stairs? That's what they were like probably through their early teens.

A little bit like this skit from SNL. Minus the hose. Although Sister probably wishes she had one for them, sometimes.

Three figured out pretty early on that he could get attention if he fell down/got hurt, so he did a lot of playing up his bumps and bruises in front of Sister. Obviously she didn't coddle him over it too much (she figured out his game, pretty quickly), but when he was small enough, she would pick him up sometimes or let him sit with her in her office.

One mostly kept to himself, other than the time he spent with his brothers. For the most part, he was a good boy - not too much stink to him. But he did get a kick out of telling Two, Three, and (only by virtue of proximity) Copia all the scary stories/anecdotes/rumours/etc. he'd heard or learned in the Church and then watching them get freaked out or worked up about it. Older brother stuff.

(For reference, I know he's supposed to be like 20+ years older, but I still can't wrap my head around that and usually write him like 6-ish to 10 years older, depending.)

Copia, meanwhile, was typically not really any kind of stink. He mostly tried to keep his head down so that the other boys wouldn't pick on him too much - which only worked sometimes, of course. Typically, any stink he had to blow off would be done so in the silence of Sister's office, when she would let him hang out and read by himself, and it usually looked a lot like his very first video where he's boldly (by himself) talking a lot of shit about Three and Ceremony & Devotion right before he was properly introduced.

[alwaysaskerurihan]

I have been told that I seem to experience the world alot differently than most people do and I find joy and excitement in things most people would find mundane. Though yes, it does make me quite naive and has gotten me into trouble before because I find I trust people too quickly sometimes, but I'm working on that. Gotta learn to protect myself.

As far as recommendations for trip ideas for you guys someday, me and my partner really like just being out in nature, especially by lakes, so when we wanna get away we enjoy camping near the lake! I know it's probably not too far off from what you're used to doing on Scouting Missions, but I highly recommend it regardless. There's this place near me that so far away from cities and towns that there's no light position and the sky almost glows from the amount of stars you can see! Its one of my favourite places. Only downside is it gets really cold at night, even in the summer, cause it's on top of a mountain but thats nothing a nice blanket can't fix!

Also, Hange, if I knew Levi wouldn't kill me I'd give you a pet cat. I have two of my own and they are my everything!

-🩷🐱

"It takes a lot to recognize a weakness and attempt to improve oneself," Erwin tells the anon. "This world is dangerous, inside the walls and outside so learning how to protect yourself is a very good idea." He leans his arm across Hange's chair. "I hope you keep that unique way of looking at the world. We need people to recognize the beauty in things otherwise we lose a piece of what we're fighting for."

Hange exaggeratedly sniffs. "I keep telling Erwin he would make a good politician, spewing out speeches like that. Only we can actually trust him."

Levi quietly considers the anon's recommendation. "If we're going to be taking time off, it doesn't really matter if we're revisiting old terrain. At least this time we won't be training anyone or putting up with any bullshit."

Erwin chuckles. "And by bullshit, Levi means squad members just being loud and argumentative."

"It's bullshit."

Hange's face lights up when the anon talks about giving them a cat. "Oh I would so dearly love a cat! Don't fret about Levi. He's not quite as menacing as he'd have you believe." They declare with a mischievous side-eye.

"Tch, stop making me out to be terrifying, Four-Eyes."

"To be fair, you are a little bit." Hange holds up two fingers very close together before looking back at the anon. "Sadly my busy schedule wouldn't allow me to keep a pet regardless. But you have two, you say?! Tell me about them!"

"Hange," Levi chides, "you're going to make them late."

"Fine!" Hange throws their hands up. "But tell me next time, okay?" they ask pleadingly.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary66

11/16-17/2023

thursday-friday

crazy how many airplanes i hear. entry will be short i feel like.

it's all stuff happening for formula one i think. lots of private jets supposedly. still not enough traffic here to fill these seats though, and tonight a part of the track destroyed a guy's car because it wasn't built correctly. literally not the driver's fault at all. insane stuff, a psychotic waste of money.

anyways i think i'm starting to start to feel better, but i did learn today that my cat is probably going to die soon. really sad about that. i haven't seen him in a while. he's had 12 years on earth, that makes me think he has wanted to live, to be here that long. whatever wanting means to a cat. recently my friend pulled this cat out of his car, he stuck himself to the bottom, near the engine, he was really scared he'd have to kill the animal, just drive away, but he managed to pull him out of the car. last night, i was looking at old videos of my cat, the day before finding out. strange things happening about cats lately. i am going to miss my cat. i've been missing him. our other cat died this year too. she lasted a good amount of time. but not a long time. she was adopted, she came to us ill, and we made her healthy, but she i guess quickly got unhealthy again, she overate a lot. so she was big, and maybe that made her live less than she could have. i was the one feeding them. whenever she wanted food i gave it to her. maybe i shouldn't have. when she came to us she was too skinny, she also died pretty skinny. but with lots of extra skin. our only cat left then will be this weird stray my stepdad picked up. we know nothing about his past. he is just a strange and well behaved guy, mostly, until he decides to mess with the others. but they won't be around to mess with. or the only other one won't be. it's been a long time since i've seen the cats. maybe i should visit just for my mom. i know this is all making her very upset. i also know that she has pigeons now that she takes care of, maybe they die easier, and maybe that's made her more used to it. i don't know if i hope so or not. mostly, i don't want my cat to really fall ill. he hasn't been eating, he has puked a lot. maybe it's momentary. he is a strangely strong animal. we got him from a family, while my cousin was moving and my mom was helping. this little girl ran up to her, and said: you take him, our dog will hurt him. so my mom did. the cat came to us with a broken tail because, i think probably to make sure a dog didn't kill him, someone shut a door too quickly, clipping his tail. that was in october of 2011, when my mom and i ran away from my stepdad for a while. he kept saying: it's the holidays, we have to be family during the holidays. i guess that was when it turned november, towards that time, we started living with my grandma. the cat was okay in that environment, her cats were funny but not too much. i think. or was that a second time we ran away for a while. it's funny how homeschool is really what enabled my mom to do that. since it was via computer, she could easily uproot me, and i didn't mind because i wanted to run away from him too. but we couldn't, for long. i think i inherited my mom's inability to work. it's something in my brain, her's too. there's no way to afford to take him to the vet. my stepdad lives off early(ish) retirement + money made off being a crossing guard during the school year. he doesn't even do photography stuff anymore i feel like. he has dreams of producing a book of photos of bighorn sheep to sell in giftshops. i guess i hope it happens.

i don't want to get into why we wanted to escape, but it's not like he beat us. it just made us feel less alive to be around him. that's how i felt i guess. i can't speak for my mother. my cat was something we couldn't get with him around, and since we got him while they split, he had to come back with us, it was conditional like that. stepdad of course says yes because he is desperate to not be alone. the cat got on well with the dogs when he got big enough. our cat is like a fragment of freedom from that time, i guess. for her, she is still not free. i am. it doesn't mean he means less, honestly i never thought about him like this, it's just true that he is. i wonder if it's more painful for her. in a lot of ways, she only said he was mine, to help me learn responsibility and stuff. i think it helped. in a lot of ways, he was her cat because he stayed with her a lot more, he slept in her bed usually, he would come to me though. i miss that. any time an animal was nice to me like that it really meant a lot. it still does.

i will miss you cruikschanks, when you do go (my mom named him (another reason he is in some ways her cat), that is how you spell it).

anyway i finished the main riff in that new tiny song, and started a new one. i think maybe there are either 1-2 more tiny songs needed by this album, and then i can just, focus, i guess. i want the last 1-2 to really be 20-30 seconds at most each.

but it's hard to focus right now, because of all this stupid shit in my head. i just want to void out, i guess.

listening to jenny piccolo, the discog comp, studying riffs kind of, or at least thinking i am. i just like hearing music that's like this.

anyway,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!

[batfoonery]

BatPets Headcanons

In honor of the Most Glorious and Beloved Bitewing (and Ace and Titus and Alfred the Cat and Goliath and Batcow.....) I wanted to share my thoughts on what pets the batfam has and should have.

Dick

Ahhhhhhh Bitewing! Our new beloved! We've only just gotten you but if you get whooshed away by bad writers I already know I will RIOT.

It actually makes perfect sense for Dick to take in a stray pup. His bro-son has the attitude and personality of a cat, so he already had that covered. And I can't see him paying high prices for a designer breed (bless him) so it's stray/shelter or nothing.

That being said, he also needs a young dog. Some people are made with the disposition to take in the older dogs with older dog needs, but Dick loves deeply and I can't see that he'd deal well with the shorter timeframe of taking in older dogs. So. Younger dogs, that he can go running with in the morning and play with in the park and nap with on the couch.

Jason

My man has taste, and also had a doggo as a kid. He's got a soft spot for all of Gotham's forgotten strays. I see him as being a pitbull kind of guy, but like. Also mastiffs. Anything big and menacing looking, but they always turn out to be utter marshmallows.

Totally the type to name his big scary dog Tinkerbell or Baby or something mushy like that. Likewise, Kori and Artemis (and probably Roy) all collect cutesy costumes and collars and leashes. Has the most cutsey giant dog.

The kind of dog that he can trust to take care of kids. If he's particularly concerned about a kid out on the street he can drop the dog off to stand guard until the kid's parent shows up. The dog is real gentle with the lil human, but scares off potential kidnappers.

Cass

The first of our exotics keepers! I feel like Cass would really appreciate betta fish. The way the swim and flit through the water, fins seeming to dance as they moved.... like tulle, like dancing.

She probably has several tanks. The first one she got was from Petsmart or PetCo or whatever. It irked her because she knows they don't tend to treat the fish well, but the local petshop's fish were all extremely sickly looking. After that she's hooked, for lack of a better word, and Bruce ends up learning way more than he ever needed to learn about importing fish (and paying for imported fish).

She's meticulous about their care. They've all got nice big clean tanks, and a companion to help keep them clean (different ones according to temperaments, snails for the easier going ones and shrimp for the more aggressive boys). They've got live plants and decorations to hide under, each tank a different theme to show off the fish. Has lowkey been considering getting a female for one of her favorite easy going boys (the first one, who has become a very soothing companion) because he's getting older and she'd like to be able to carry a part of him on.

Tim

His companion is an emotional support animal, with papers from his doctor and everything. Seems like he should be a dog person, but instead has a very big Turkish Angora. Her name is Mrs. Tuffles and he got her from a breed-specific rescue.

She's good for him because she disrupts his work and also helps provide a soothing presence when he has a panic attack. At night if he isn't in bed at a certain time she lays on top of whatever he's working on. If he's panicking she lays on his lap or chest and purrs (the added weight, the feeling and sounds of the purrs, held disrupt tension). She's a cuddly cat, and it tricks him into sleeping in in the mornings.

When he finds out that cats purr on a wavelength that encourages healing, and that there's evidence that they sit on humans and purr in attempts to heal/help them, he bursts into tears and startles the cat, who had been draped over his shoulders.

Steph

Got a bunny because she thought it would be an easy pet. She was very very wrong. It was from one of the neighbors in her building, because the mom of the kid who brought it home didn't want it anymore. It's a cute little lop, grey and brown.

She quickly discovers that bunnies are super dirty, and they absolutely stink. It bites her for the first week (and Tim and Jason and everyone else that isn't Damian, who somehow tricks it into loving him) and she seriously considers taking it to the shelter. But she doesn't. By week three, he's snuggling up on her feet and in her lap, and she decides that maybe he isn't so bad after all.

He didn't have a name when she got him, so she call him Mi-Mi. She doesn't tell Damian, but it's totally named after him because he reminds her of the way Damian had been when she'd first met him and the progression of their friendship over time.

Duke

Seems like a bird type of dude. Probably has a Cockatiel or two. They're very sassy birbs, and there's no way he doesn't enjoy that. One of them repeats words, and has picked up swears from Jason. It swears at Bruce every time he comes in Duke's room. Everyone except Bruce finds it funny.

The other one "dances" whenever it hears music coming from Cass's room. They're both very active and curious, he's contantly having to buy toys for them to rip apart. One of them nipped Damian's ear once, and Duke has never seen Damian look more offended in his life. It was probably the first pet that Damian hadn't been able to Disney-Princess.

They've probably got a dumb name pair. Tom and Jerry, Chip and Dale, etc. Personally I think he'd get a kick out of naming them Batman and Robin, just to fuck with Bruce. He probably then teaches the one who talks (Batman) to say dumb things like "I am the night! I work alone!" etc etc.

Damian

Has all the animal companions. Not pets. That makes them beneath him, which probably opposes his fundamental beliefs. This is my reminder to yall that Ra's started out as an eco-terrorist. Putting aside what he is or is not now, I like to believe that Damian was raised with a deep respect for nature and animals, he probably sees humans as just one particularly terrible animal species.

He has a wide array of companions as is. I'm good with them all, although I wish they'd bring back his dragon friend. :( I love the dragon friend.

I think he'd be the type to have axolotls too. They've got an interesting mythological basis and fit into the dragon theme. Plus the short story "The Axolotl" by Cortazar is a fascinating piece of mystical realism and I could see that he'd be intrigued by the species. They're endangered in the wild because of habitat destruction and invasion of foreign species that prey on them, but are easily bred in captivity. So I could see he'd keep at least one breeding pair, with the intent to someday bully Bruce into funding a project to save their natural habitat.

Barbara

Doesn't have her own pets, because she doesn't want the responsibility on top of everything else she does.

But her apartment always has furry/feathered friends in it because she's constantly petsitting for the others when they have to go do hero stuff. She's basically like a step-mom for everyone else's pets. She's learned how to take care of tanks and whatnot as well, mostly for Cass. The axolotls are gross and she refuses to touch those tanks, but the bettas are kinda like cute grumpy old men. She likes to tease Bruce by telling him his grand-fish take after him.

Always has a variety of pet snacks with her. She is determined to be the overall favorite human to all the bat-pets. Competition is fierce between her and Dami, but she has an edge because Robin the Cockatiel seems to prefer her.