#codependent toxic sapphic relationships…

[noctilia]

Rewatched Ginger Snaps last night and did a little speed paint.

Happy Halloween!

[txicgf]

I don't think of you.

I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of warm colors. Yellow like sunflowers, burnt umber and pumpkin orange. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of 4am caffeine and stained papers. Black cats and blacker coffee. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of ferrets and silly animal videos, fuzzy little things to dote on. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of starting tasks always exactly at the beginning of every hour. Cleanliness and order in a way I had never been able to match, even at my best. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of warm homes and dark forests. Conversation over the kitchen island. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of laughing until your chest hurts, inside jokes you’ll never forget. Youth we were never truly given, but stole for ourselves. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think of silent secrets and words you can never take back. The feeling of growing and regretting with someone. Mistakes. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I think about what we had been, rather than what we became.

I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember my old best friend and the cringy nickname I gave you in the sixth grade that held on for way too long. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember night walks and dreams of the future home we wanted to build. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember camping trips and hikes and drinking from (unsafe) waterfalls together. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember our shows, and all the things you made me stay up all night to watch. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember watching you more. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember being drunk and telling each other no one else mattered, the only ones we’d ever need were each other. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember being in Idaho, Arizona, Las Vegas, Hawaii – states away and staring up at our shared vast expanse of stars, never feeling so alive and so tethered to someone else, despite the distance. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember the exhilarating feeling of real love for the first time, and the crushing weight of that heartbreak. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember jealousy and possession, even if you had never truly wanted me. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember tears. So, so, so many tears. An ocean of them, filled up by two lonely, hurting people. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember days spent pining and nights crying. Being so hopeful because you’re too scared of what’s on the other side if it doesn’t work out. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember our quiet fights, tension so thick we suffocated ourselves and everyone around us. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember how much you would scramble to keep me whenever I was done. The sweet nothings and professions of love so I would stick around, to keep me from healing. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember long-winded Notes app apologies and kind words that I knew you didn’t mean; thoughts spilled out on a page in invisible ink. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember making confessions and tall promises I knew I couldn’t keep, and how much it hurt even worse when they rang true. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I remember how vile we became to each other. How much I loved you in spite of everything.

I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of my first and deepest betrayal. The truth that unconditional love doesn’t beat it all. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded about how when you love someone like that, it never fully goes away, no matter how far away you may be and how healed you may feel. How much you may not actually want them anymore. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of too many things. Too many memories. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of the framed picture of a rabbit you got me, the strawberry animal hide you picked out. The black hoodie I sewed a firefly pocket on that you wore for years. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of our cringy pet names, ‘pumpkin pie,’ ‘honeybun,’ ‘pookie.’ I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of the walk we took down that trucking road at the outskirts of town, calling each other as beautiful as the sunset we had shared together in that moment. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of jumping straight into a lake in our clothes, no motivation other than trying to get away from the blistering July heat. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of early morning snacks; pork buns and brownies, trips to the grocery store right as it opens at 7am. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I’m reminded of all of our memories at once. A slideshow of a snippet of our individual lives we had the privilege of sharing together. I don’t think of you, but if I do, I don’t want it to hurt anymore. I want our memories to be happy and developmental, nostalgic and sentimental.

I don’t think of you, but sometimes if I do, I can’t help but miss you, but only sometimes. I think I may have loved you more than life itself, to a point where it was my own destruction. To the point it was yours. To a point where, three years later, all I can think of is my own personal nostalgia for someone I’m never going to know again. We may have continued on living, but I worry part of me may always be stuck in that place. Lost in her. A phantom of the girl I once loved so deeply lives on inside a new version, as far away from myself as possible – and haunts me all the same.

[gay-and-afraid]

October 5th, 2018

Sweet as the honey that drips from within her very being,

I'm eager to taste her, to delve into the depths of her soul

to explore her every woe, her every desire

Captivated by the beauty that encompasses her

Enthralled by the pure altruism which radiates from within her

She has somehow awakened my soul and aroused every one of my senses

in the most alluring of ways one could possibly achieve

And my only aspiration is to sift through the anguish that surrounds her

to yield only contentment and anticipation for her future

even if it takes me to my very last breath.

[wastingoxygensince1983]

If I have a nickel for every time a woman named Wan was in a codependent, toxic sapphic relationship…

[amberpriceenthusiast]

Expanding on my post from earlier

Vaggie and Lute actually aren’t toxic exes, they’re that codependent homoerotic friendship that all sapphics went through in middle school.

Or they’re a rivalry, more one sided (from Lutes side). Vaggie was one of the “top girls,” image Lute always looking at her and being bitter and jealous, yet always finding her so beautiful. Lute wanting to be one of the top girls, wanting to take place, and blaming that on why she’s always looking at Vaggie. Lute being so in love but refusing to acknowledge that because that’d be unforgivable.

It’s 1am idk how coherent this is, but their relationship would be very lacy by Olivia Rodrigo

[belovedviolence]

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genres i write in: psychosexual horror, contemporary, gothic romance, romance, and sometimes (very rarely) fantasy themes i enjoy + write: religious guilt, codependency, grief, loneliness, love as violence, love as consumption, oranges as a symbol of love, the obsessed artist, coming of age, tragedy, right person wrong time/not enough time, power dynamics in relationships, obsessive + toxic romances (especially sapphic) and several others but these are my most beloved favourite books: the descent of the drowned by ana lal din, the wolf's den anthology by @therottengirl, little rabbit by alyssa songsiridej, hell followed with us by andrew joseph white, letters to a young poet by rainer maria rilke + so many more

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[badass-queer-couples-battle]

Propaganda:

For Shadowpeach: "ok so, we all know from that one tumblr post that yaoi is two blokes doing fuckall and yuri is when there’s themes and shit? well these two (shadowpeach) have So Much Themes. they were super close friends for years and years (both immortal) before their epic breakup scene (wukong was trapped under a mountain and macaque refused to free him) (he wasn’t entirely in the wrong but that’s another story) (also wukong killed macaque there was that, that did happen) (its complicated)

from the Moment we see these two, all we know about them is that they’re the most divorced ever. as time goes on, we see the complexities in their relationship, and they introduce a lot of the overarching themes and motifs of the show (hero and warrior pairs, peaches being a symbol of their relationship, etc). also they’re both girls to me

tmnt theme song voice toxic codependent yuri!"

"theyre So So gay divorced and have an incredibly complicated and toxic relationship. also according to that one tumblr post yaoi is when theres two blokes doing fuckall and yuri is when theres themes and shit, and these two have So So So many themes and shit. theyve got motifs out the wazoo. peaches are a motif of their relationship and in the very end of the s4 finale wukong hands macaque a half-melted peach flavored (and shaped) popsicle. this is yuri to me"

"They used to be semi-immortal bff's, but then they fell apart and literally one of them died(bc of the other), then he revived, then got semi-consumed by revenge™ and tried to kill each other for a while, but they are cool now and they gave the sweetest little smiles when they finally talked- *fangirls* ok ok, look at it this way: it's a royalty au but it's canon."

"Well, they are toxic doomed yuri vibes, in my.most opinion. But also their designs are pretty gender I think.. mostly wukongs imo. And ik eyelashes aren't inherently feminine but theyre both some of the few(if not only) male characters in the show with visible eyelashes. Also if it counts, out of the relationships that I've seen compared to theirs, most are canonical sapphic relationships from other cartoons (catradora and bubbline notably)"

For Arthur and Linus: "THEY ARE SOO YURI!! OLD MAN YURI!!! LIKE!!! JUST LOOK AT THEM!!! THEYRE SO ADORABLE"

"A warm, loving caretaker of magical children who are orphans falls in love with the fat neurotic caseworker and changes his life for the better."

For Thoschei: "i. why great

They are each other's narrative foils. They are archenemies. They were childhood friends. They might not have been married, but they are divorced. They call themselves best enemies. They are the "i can fix them"/"i can make them worse" duo. They've proposed to each other (to rule/travel across the universe together), but each declined the offer from the other. They've kissed. They've killed each other. They've killed for each other (the first to do so was the Doctor who is the protagonist and the hero, but this fact was revealed in an audio drama, not in the TV show). The universe's too small for both of them. "The cosmos without the Doctor scarcely bears thinking about" is a real quote from one of the episodes from the 1980s. They are war criminals. The Master commits atrocities to attract the Doctor's attention and admits it. They are not able to get rid of each other for good, nor they really want to. One of the showrunners literally spent the BBC's money to make his E2L I Can't Decide fanvid for them and make it a part of an episode.

ii. why guy:

They'd been in male bodies for more than 40 years…

iii. why yuri

…until one of them regenerated into a woman. After some time, the other did so too. Sadly, they haven't interacted in their female bodies on screen, but the fandom makes do with fan content.

in conclusion: this is The guy yuri if i've ever seen one"

[starrylayle]

been thinking abt how the marauders era relationships would pan out in every universe and here are my thoughts!!

Wolfstar — lowkey controversial but I don’t think they’re soulmates — they’re more, kinda-wrong person, right time. I think they’d only end up together when things go to shit. Which is part of why I love them so much and why I love them in the canon universe. James and Lily are dead, Peter is a traitor, remus is unemployed and sirius….poor sirius. So yeah, They’re just two fucked up lads trying their best to love despite the world being against them. In universes where they don’t fall in love, can imagine they think the other’s a little off-putting or perhaps no really strong emotions. I think that’s why their connection in the canon universe is so special to me, because I just don’t think they’re relationship would be as prominent if circumstances were different (in other universes).

Prongsfoot — they’re literally soulmates. In every fucking universe. Sometimes, it’s platonic (tho never strictly), sometimes, romantic, sometimes an intense sexual bond as enemies?? Either way they’re always a little bit in love with each other. I do hc James as straight in the canon universe but yeah they definitely made out. And in other universes where James is queer they’re having the time of their lives. Anyways so yeah. Soulmates in every universe.

Jily — Love Jily! I see them as a first love situation. Some universes (like the main one) their love becomes immortalised. However, in others, maybe they move on and find other people, but since they were each other’s first love they always have a special place in their heart for each other <33

Jegulus — …………………………………………………………..

Prongstail — always doomed in the long run. Kinda childhood friends to lovers to ……. . A bit of unrequitedness because I don’t think James could ever love Peter enough. And in every universe Peter always has an inferiority complex and bottled resentment. They’re relationship rarely ends well.

Snily — ooh this is an interesting one. Similar to prongsfoot, I think they’re also a kind of doomed childhood-friend-to-lovers. Except I think that in the universes where Sev does not end being a bigot, they could probably date for a bit. They wouldn’t last tho and would remain as friends. In one universe Lily is an out and proud Lesbian and Sev is a closeted t-girl and they date for a bit but eventually decide to become friends (Lily still supports transfem!Sev in her transition tho). Canon universe tho,,, Sev had a crush on her and maybe Lily did too, but fifth year and James lol.

Nobleflower — ooooh love me some sapphic friends-to-star-crossed-lovers! I feel like in every universe they’d be on opposing sides, depending on circumstance.

Marylene — Friends to lovers, right person wrong time in the canon universe, but in other universes they’re thriving. They still would have had some sort of codependent, homoerotic friendship leading up to it lmaoo.

Dorlene — I like to think they’re always rivals in some context. Sometimes it leads to a fiery relationship, and sometimes it’s just aggressive sexual tension while they’re on opposing fields.

Jeverus — oooh people hate this but. Toxic rivals/enemies to lovers. Sometimes it works out, most of the time it doesn’t. The hate they hold for each is very strong but so is the sex

anyways this was fun!! Lemme know what u guys agree/disagree with! Maybe I’ll do a part 2 lol.

[mgjong]

What do you like about 0610, 0507, and 0909?

I was not expecting the ship ask, nice! Okay okay let's see. I'll try to make this as short as possible I already rambled too much today but I don't mind explaining further if someone really wants to listen

Adding a break in case you don't want to read ship stuff (too shy to ship tag the post)

Starting with 0909 I think what I like the most about it is the concept by itself and the way that imo it gives such an interesting flair to Mikoto's story. I guess it also stems from me wishing that Mikoto and John could be happy and finally interact in a healthy way. However if I must be honest I think the way I prefer this ship is as an initial one sided attraction on John's side. If it does develop into an actual relationship and his feelings are reciprocated it has yet to happen. Again I just love the way it would fit into Mikoto's and John's narrative. But I do find them very cute!

For 0507 I think it's way easier to explain. I find it a fun dynamic that could possibly happen within the narrative (starting to see a pattern? yeah I like ships that are thematically relevant to the overall narrative and that can enable possible character development). Their timelines have been very fascinating to me and given the current most popular theory for Kazui's case to be regarding his sexuality I think it'd fit. Aside from that there is a lot of room to explore their flaws and better traits. Shidou is extremely self sacrificial as we saw, Kazui could help ground him by offering someone to rely on as someone who can understand the grief he is going through. After all, he knows exactly what it feels like to lose a loved one who you have had a relationship with for years. Both are filled with guilt but for very different reasons and I think they could heal yes but also tragically fall apart in the third trial specifically because of these attributes. Obviously they don't have to date in specific for this to be a thing and I wouldn't mind it regardless but hey, let them be gay and happy even if just for a passing moment.

Now for 0610... Hey guys is it me or have I rambled about these two enough already? Well never fear for I have an entire thesis ready just for you dear anon. First things first. I love the sun and moon sapphics trope and these two are one of the best representations of it I have ever seen (imo). Bright, warm, friendly, energetic Mahiru and cold, blunt, mysterious, quiet Kotoko. One hates, the other loves. Both stubbornly idealistic, both extremely lonely. They hide their own hurt behind a facade and cling with everything they have to what gives them purpose. Just like the previous two ships I really like the idea of 0610 within the narrative. "uhm Mg, Kotoko literally-" LISTEN! Doomed toxic yuri. It's good! Kotoko doesn't want forgiveness. We know what Mahiru thinks of her. Kotoko has no one right now but we know what she would hate the most is to receive kindness. Especially from someone such as Mahiru. They work as a pairing so well because they COULD find comfort in each other. Mahiru could give Kotoko the stability that she needs while Kotoko could show Mahiru how she can stand up for herself. This, however, could very easily lead to codependency. Mahiru could become Kotoko's lifeline, giving her the purpose she so desperately needs in her life. Kotoko could give Mahiru all the attention that she has always wanted, making her feel justified, feel like her love is right unlike what Es said to her. They could lead each other down a path of destruction where their ideals wouldn't be challenged and they got worse. Or... They could notice their flaws, they could help each other heal. They could provide the love and affection to fill their broken hearts and survive together. And I'll stop now because I think I rambled enough jkhdfgkjhd.

[certifiedgoofball]

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR OCS 😤

ok i have like a ton of ocs but i will talk about my main ones guy 1 (i do not have a name for him. fuckin james or some shit??? idk) is the one ive had for the longest. hes like this 30 something year old guy? and basically what happens is he has this wife that he loves like So so much and then one night at dinner she asks for a divorce. and he is so confused by this because he thought that everything was okay. she reveals that she had been cheating for a couple of months and used HIS money to buy a new apartment for herself. he obviously kicks her out and over the course of like idk man a month or some shit he spirals down and down and down and ends up becoming a murderer. he slowly progresses thru his murderous tendencies, wanting to be able to perfect them before he goes for his ultimate goal, his ex wife. guy 2! also dont have a name for him! i dont know why! his story is loosely based around the concept of the backrooms. i got inspired by the endless office space and decided to create an oc. his story is like way too complex to explain and mostly resides in my Brain Catacombs but basically what happens is that people find out about the back rooms, being able to go in and out whenever they please. the government is of course curious about this, but there are still a ton of things they dont know about it. so they choose to do human experiments! woohoo! the main character, at the age of 13, looses his parents. he is a completely normal guy, and life really isnt looking up for him. so he gets chosen to be a lab rat basically. they dont tell him like, anything at all about the true nature of the backrooms. so he just gets put in there. and observed for years. they find out that the backrooms have a sort of amnesia inducing quality that gets rid of most of the persons memories of before it. but the main story happens when hes like 20 years old still in the backrooms and theres another person there with him. i really need to share my writing from this guy because i have a ton of stuff about him and his story is super hard to explain without them the last 2 kind of come in a package. izolda is a bisexual polish girl and lestari is a sapphic indonesian. theyre both cluster b coded and they end up going into this incredibly toxic codependent relationship with eachother where lestari feeds izoldas insecurities and bad qualities, trying to shape izolda into the "perfect parter" for her. i havent fleshed out their stories that much yet because theyre my newest ocs but i think whats gonna happen is lestari is going to finally push izolda into killing someone for her. i really need to think about their stories more tho

[gay-and-afraid]

ramblings at 3:18

i'll never forget the ways in which you made me feel

both the love

and

the pain.

the caveat to being with women

after finding myself with men for so many years

as a lesbian

is that the stakes are that much higher

the weight of the hurt greater

and the effort becomes laborious

yet there is no fruit to bear

that is safe enough to eat.

i will never be the same.

[punkfistfights]

i love how madohomu goes from deeply tragic in the main series to deeply toxic in the movie. i don’t mean that ironically. i would add it to my “toxic homoerotic sapphic friendships” list right alongside jennifer&needy from jennifer’s body

i dont think homura is evil by any means but i am of the opinion that rebellion kept her perfectly in character. she is a deeply traumatized, lonely gay teenage girl. of course she has a codependent relationship with the first friend she has ever made. i love her so much

[redheadbigshoes]

Personal experience here but i think we get into toxic codependent friendships bc we don't know what to do with our intense emotions and the girls we've befriended often just love the way we'll be so intense in our friendship. It makes them feel special and loved and cared for but neither of us realize it's romantic or yearning or a crush so it's fun and reassuring. So to them we're just so loyal and caring and the best friend they could've possibly asked for. But since this is confusing for us as sapphics we often don't get what we need or want out of the friendship, bc sometimes it isn't even a crush it's just that we yearn for a close relationship with a girl and bc the other person is almost always straight and romance and men are seen as more importantl the friendship will crash and burn in the end

This makes a lot of sense actually.

[juniperhillpatient]

I finished Yellowjackets and I already miss it! Any recs for what to watch to fill the void?

Omg I feel you every day of my life I miss Yellowjackets I wish I could watch it all for the first time again 😭

I don’t really watch that many shows so I’m terrible with recommending stuff 😅

If you want more depravity & complicated awful female villains & anti heroes with complex toxic sapphic dynamics Hostel 2 is my go to but you do have to watch the first one to understand it & I love the first one myself but it is very man heavy with characters lol

If you are really wanting to lean more into the messed up flesh consuming homoerotic codependent sapphic dynamic aspect specifically I’d recommend Ginger Snaps or Jennifer’s Body the main canon sapphic female relationships in both those movies are brain rotting in similar ways to JackieShauna. (Though Ginger Snaps gets incestuous so I know that’s as quick for a lot of people tread carefully)

Ooh as far as TV shows go you’d probably enjoy Killing Eve if you like Yellowjackets although that one the writing really goes downhill pretty badly so I do hesitate to recommend it unless you’re in it for the parts that are worth it & prepared for disappoint down the line…. Ugh but Eve & Villanelle are SUCH amazing characters!!

Dead to Me is another show that’s really good & far less depraved & more drama centric than the other stuff I’ve mentioned. However in my opinion the writing does go downhill but the first 2 seasons? Iconic. Not canonically gay like the other things I’ve mentioned but still a delicious dynamic between two complicated & somewhat crazy women.

Not in the same genre as my other recs but Bottoms is a great comedic movie if you just want crazy & sort of awful lesbians.

Oh —- ok last 3 recommendations. These ones don’t necessarily have the toxic crazy sapphic girlies element of YJ that I just assume is a big part of the draw (it is for me lol) HOWEVER they are some of my faves -

Hannibal. I love this show. It’s art. I don’t have anything else to say that hasn’t been said meow articulately by more hardcore fans. I watched this entire show in a fever haze when I had Covid so that probably affects my analytical ability but I promise it’s great. It’s also a little man heavy & the female characters could be… done better sometimes so that is a criticism I have that keeps it from being a number one fave for me but Hannibal & Will are VERY compelling & the plot & visuals are soooo good.

Scream mtv I honestly feel like you’ve seen this one I’m pretty sure but it’s a fave of all time & Emma/Audrey is one of my fave ships of all time. Excellent cast excellent writing it’s so good.

Bates Motel. This show is so slept on in fandom & it’s probably the best horror tv I’ve ever seen from start to finish it tells an amazingly cohesive prequel backstory for one of the most iconic villains of all time in a way that honors the book & film both of which I LOVE & somehow manages to stay fresh & shocking & exciting despite the audience knowing where it’s going. For quality horror tv I can’t recommend this show highly enough it’s honestly the best thing on this list on an objective level like the cinematography the fantastic acting from Vera Farmiga & Freddy Highmore especially but also Max Theriot & Olivia Cookie I just - I LOVE this show. Heavy heavy trigger warning though not just for incest which is inherent to a Psycho prequel but like…. Everything you could ever need a trigger warning for. There is a significant amount of SA shown so yeah be careful.

Anyway there you go you’ve probably seen a lot of the stuff on this list but this is what I could think of to watch next to somewhat keep the mood of Yellowjackets although of course we both know YJ is unique enough you’re never going to recapture that exact vibe 😉

If anyone else has recommendations also I’d also be curious! ❤️

Oh wait last thing my best friend Juliet Lewis plays another iconic traumatized girly with maybe worse daddy issues than Natalie even in Natural Born Killers. This is one of my favorite movies but it is NOT for everyone. You are signing up for unapologetic depravity & sympathetic serial killer villain main characters with a toxic relationship. Now for me those are selling points but it is a very messed up movie so yeah. Trigger warning for SA incest & basically every dynamic in the movie being the definition of toxic.

Okay that’s off the top of my head for watching after YJ I’m done now lol 🫶

****Edit I’m listening to music on my porch as I play on tumblr & I Know the End by my best friend Phoebe Bridgers came on & I remembered to recommend School Spirits it’s not exactly the same horror vibes of YJ but I just think you’d like it because it’s a delightfully creepy compelling & fun ghost story / mystery with absolutely wonderful characters fun cinematography exciting lore a good plot & a banger soundtrack ok I’m done now lmao go watch School Spirits it’s so great

[reedreadsbooks]

do you have any like. book recommendations by any chance 👀

okay since you didn’t specify what type of books you’re interested in I am going to just base this on what I know about you, Ena, my friend.

The first one that comes to mind is Paradise Rot by Jenny Hval, which I read recently. This is an adult literary horror about a kind of toxic, codependent sapphic relationship. It’s not really scary as much as it’s just weird and vibey.

For a lighter read, I’ll Be the One by Lyla Lee is a YA contemporary about a fat girl who joins a k-pop competition show. I’ve talked about this one a bit before, I really loved the romance in it, and I think you’ll be able to enjoy the k-pop references more than I did lol

And lastly, I know I’ve told you about this one, but since you are a werewolf-obsessed lesbian, this is me formally recommending the graphic novel Squad by Maggie Tokuda-Hall and Lisa Sterle.

[dumpster-fire-sapphic-failgirl]

Whether it was intentional or not (my money is on not), Marisha made one of the best sapphic trans girl metaphor characters I’ve seen

Laudna:

• makes a lot of small town folk uncomfortable

• is goth as hell

• has trouble believing she is beautiful

• has trouble believing she deserves love and happiness

• had a weird codependent relationship with the toxic woman who helped her transition (D)

• spent a long time not realizing the feelings another girl had for her

• was literally in a 2 year+ long romantic relationship and didn’t realize it

• might be married and doesn’t realize it

• has a literal deadname