#idk depersonalized?

[xxalexislost19xx]

There is nothing so disconnecting as feeling like a ghost in your own body.

[sage-hazeline]

how do you reconnect to life after being disconnected for so long

[bitter-and-dumb]

I'm 14, I'm 17, I'm never gonna be 10 years old again, dear God I've already lived past 16, I can't keep living the same years over, who is this adult in the mirror, why am I still a child, I don't wanna live forever

[bl00ds0akedb0nez]

i don’t feel like a person ..? it feels like i’m viewing life in the third person.

[ask-me-about-therapy]

[charlottan]

hi! thoughts on being sleepful and so full of blankets?

None at all!!

[3ntity56]

Does anybody just. Do a double take at the mirror because you didn't recognize the reflection at first and thought it was an entirely new person and then stare at the reflection for several minutes trying to grasp the mental concept of "hey look that's me in the mirror" because it suddenly feels like you got ripped out of your original body and got put in a new one

[neoggtv]

I’m exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel.

Yall I be so fucking tired of this shit I’m trying to be so damn strong but for real I’m just a weak little kid inside. I feel like I’m barely managing and I want to be strong and brave and support. Everyone be kind and nice but I’m not even nice or Kind of to myself. Yeah, I’ll give everything for everyone else. Because I want to be strong but I don’t think I’m anywhere close on the inside anyways that’s my rent.

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

You know what is just mind boggling? Neurotypical people exist. Like there are people who can just DO things and not have depression, anxiety (in every form ever), RSD, sensory overloads, and not get overwhelmed. Like there are people who can work for eight hours every day and still do things after. People who can make phone calls with no struggle. Who aren't constantly bombarded by a cacophony of thoughts both good and bad when they do things. Who have anxiety but it isn't crippling. who can spend hours, WEEKS with people and not get tired or fear that everyone there hates you. People who have no idea what Depression or intense trauma feel like. People who hear instructions and do it right first go. People who can follow a conversation without zoning out, or having to mask.

Like. Do neurotypical people actually exist?

Because I can't even imagine what it would be like to be neurotypical. Or mentally healthy. Both sound alien and foren. But like. Obviously they exist because neurodivergent people wouldn't struggle so much if not for how the world was structured for Neurotypical people but I don't know if I've ever met a neurotypical.

idk. food for thought I guess.

[cantsleep]

[happyk44]

Frank experiencing an intense period of depersonalization: Ah, it's bear time.

Hazel: What?

Frank in bear form: *whatever noise bears makes*

Hazel: Oh!

[macksartblock]

Every time I think about Grant Wilson I think reading THG trilogy would’ve done wonders for him

[itspixthecrazybitch]

I hate that when I’m splitting the way my mind deals with the fact that I felt okay earlier is literally to go “that wasn’t me” and/or “that wasn’t real” and rationally I know that’s not true but god it’s so disorienting. Like. As soon as I stop feeling something my mind rushes to convince itself that it never happened.

[im-nothing-and-n0body]

I love any tiny thing that makes me feel real. I love commenting on peoples posts and getting a response, I love when people ask me about myself, I love smiling at people in stores, I love when I make any tiny change in someone’s life like naming their stuffed animal or buying them a gift they’d like. I love all these little pieces of myself that other people can hold on to for as long as they’d like

[arcalx]

♡ I hate that I must live at least one level removed from the world, dissociated to some degree just to manage.

I want to be able to live. I would say again but I don't know if I ever did, but at least back then I could remember.

[silenthillbunni]

funny that therapists whose job it is to listen to u are the WORST listeners in society lmaooooooo. they dont hear a single word u say. they genuinely dont care abt what u say at all, they're just gnna take what theyve read in some textbook and apply it on to u. whatever u say you're not a person speaking words, your just a box filled with their judgements and pre constructed notions abt whatever diagnosis theyve assigned to u. therapists and psychiatrists are the most useless and incompetent ppl in society lmao. such a fkn joke it's insane how theyre even allowed to get paid for the shit quality job they perform ._.