#tw vent talk

[cryptidwithaninternetconnection]

Hhhhmmmmmmg, these feel like pointed shorts, I’ve told my mom about my depression and she said “I have noticed that whenever your in a slump, it’s always with a smile on your face, you never realy let people know how badly your hurting until it bubbles up, then you sweep it off”

This realy helps me self-diagnose myself, I’m aware that I have depression, I’ve had it for about 2-3 years at this point, I started developing these symptoms around the time when the first Covid shut-down happened that was supposed to last 2 weeks, then it progressively got worse and worse until it developed into this monster that hung on my shoulders like a giant block and weighed me down like a blanket, it still does I just don’t think about it as much.

I also have extremely severe anxiety, it reguraly invades my life and bombards me like a hurricane, spinning my thoughts and turning myself against me, it regularly makes me question if my friends and family are just hurting me, it makes me sit out on activities I know I would enjoy in fear of.. something, I don’t know what yet

Sorry that this is a bit of a downer post, I usually do the sillies but I feel like this was Important for me to share to help you guys see more of myself, I trust you guys to not use this information against me :)

[to0needy]

not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

[vixen-angel]

purposely putting yourself in danger, or being visibly sad so maybe someone might ask if youre doin alright.. but then nobody bats an eye.

[foxlungz]

I would look so good with my brains splattered all over the wall

[rottingbunnyheart]

I’m just so tired. I want to be left alone to sleep forever.

[tap3tum-lucidum]

[psychobulimic]

No one cares until you’re dead!!!

[ima-end-itt]

No rizz just suicidal tendencies ^^

[chiyeko-kurea]

‘you should seek therapy’

yea so they either lock me up in an asylum or in prison?? bffr💀

[to0needy]

can i just die and reincarnate as a cat?

[ftm4lnutr1ti0n]

3dtwt and 3dblr are all so aesthetic where are my absolute trash goblins?!

[foxlungz]

I think killing myself will fix me lol

[youraverageventblog]

So what if it’s September?? I don’t give a fuck if it’s an awareness month, I’m still just as suicidal as I was in August.

[offkilterkeys]

I don’t know how to feel about this Eridan because while I was drawing it I got the news that an older family member I loved had died. Anyway finals are basically over so now I can interact on the internet without guilt yippee

[psychobulimic]

The harder I try things just get worse!!!

[ima-end-itt]

my hobbies are rotting, decaying, evaporating and uhh decomposing