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[clarabelleblog]

True Blessing

Life is a true blessing. There is no greater gift than the gift of life but often we don’t appreciate this absolute miracle. When times are tough, we often focus on how hard this is for us and we forget to see life’s beauty for what it truly is. Remember how special and unique you are and no matter how difficult life gets, know you are so much stronger than any challenge that comes your…

[gwen-thinks]

something that people don’t tell you about depression, anxiety, trauma etc is that recovery is not this beautiful healing journey where you figure out the secret to happiness and a clear head and you just come out a different person. it’s hard. it’s really fucking hard and you have to work, probably harder than you even were working before while your mental illnesses stayed dormant.

and that’s what makes me so angry about people who misunderstand disorders and their subsequent treatment. getting help is not easy. you may think that all someone needs to do is wave a magic wand and stop being the way that they are but “getting help” often means signing yourself up for regular therapy, trying out medications, trying out different forms of therapy, processing complex trauma and emotions, reconfiguring your life, challenging yourself every single day to do things you couldn’t before. it’s fucking hard!!

and to everyone out there, like me, who is going through this process - i see you and hear you and i know that we’re going to get through it. and i hate the “you’re so strong” thing but holy shit, we are strong. i know how much effort and work it takes. it’s more than just “drink water” and “go on a walk.” it’s often about rewiring your entire brain.

[bblovetarot]

{❀} What good things is the new year bringing you?

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。°⚠︎°。follow your intuition when choosing a pile. if you're drawn to more than one pile, that's okay! you may have messages in more than one.

。°⚠︎°。tarot readings are not 100% accurate, and do not dictate your future. please keep in mind that you have free will. these readings are also general and aren't specific to one person, so please take what resonates and leave what doesn't! 

Pile 1

Many of you might be used to keeping to yourselves and often feeling down. But in the upcoming year, you'll have a chance to step out of your comfort zone. Although it may not be something you're thrilled about since you're accustomed to staying away from others, your heart will encourage you to break out of this habit. In the new year, this decision to come out of isolation is expected to bring about various opportunities for you. It's important to note that someone who used to bring you joy but is currently causing stress in your life is likely to leave. This person seems impulsive and tends to follow others rather than making their own choices. Their departure could lead to a more peaceful and happy time for you. If the described person sounds like yourself, it may mean that your own habits of holding yourself back are finally leaving your life. This change could make you feel happier and lighter, freeing you from negative energies. Some of you might engage in daydreaming as a way to cope with past difficulties. In the new year, you may become more aware of how this habit can be more harmful than helpful. The good things for 2024 is moving away from negativity and behaviors that hold you back, creating an environment where your true happiness can thrive.

Pile 2

For this year, Pile 2, positive changes are on the horizon as you break free from a cycle of self-doubt, consistently prioritizing others over yourself, and lacking belief in your own abilities. It seems like you're stepping into your power more confidently. Many of you may have grappled with insecurity issues for a long time, possibly spanning a decade, but in this year, you're overcoming significant hurdles. While some insecurities might still linger, you're handling them better and adopting a kinder attitude toward yourself, Pile 2. There's a desire for success in a particular area of your life, perhaps related to projects or a business venture. However, there's a noticeable shift in your approach as you become more patient, understanding that success takes time. Despite any impatience you may feel, thinking that others aren't recognizing your talents, you're navigating this challenge more effectively because of the newfound sense of security within yourself. You've developed a strong self-awareness, and external opinions no longer have the same impact on you – a commendable transformation, Pile 2. For some of you, there might have been experiences with failed projects, but you're now discerning when to let go and recognizing what is not aligned with your path. This newfound sense of self-assurance allows you to trust in your ambitions and their natural course. While blocked creativity may present a challenge, your enhanced patience will serve as a valuable asset to guide you through this year.

Pile 3

For Pile 3, the positive developments coming your way this year involve a journey of self-discovery. It appears that many of you may have grappled with emotional immaturity, but in the current year, you're addressing any ego-driven fears that have hindered your confidence and authenticity. There's a noticeable enhancement in your emotional intelligence, leading to increased kindness towards both yourself and those around you. This year, you're taking a measured and deliberate approach, crafting a plan and sticking to it. Some of you may possess psychic abilities, and it seems that you have a strong connection to nature, receiving profound insights when surrounded by its beauty. Throughout the year, there's a palpable growth in various aspects of your being. This includes boosting your confidence, refining your emotional intelligence, and nurturing your psychic abilities. You're focused on maintaining balance and grounding, ensuring that neither extreme dominates your life. For many in this group, the challenging period of the dark night of the soul may have been experienced in 2023, and the current year serves as a time to reflect on the progress made during that transformative period. If you haven't yet undergone the dark night of the soul, 2024 is likely the year for you to navigate through it. While not an easy journey, you're taking the necessary steps, no matter how small, that align with your personal growth. There's a noticeable effort in learning to control the ego, recognizing and addressing your deepest fears. In the past, you might have been reserved and hesitant to speak up, but in the current year, it appears that you're stepping into your power and finding your voice. Many of you maintain a close connection to the spiritual realm, and it serves as a guiding force through this transformative cycle. Communication might take a back seat, indicating a year of self-focus and solitude for personal growth.

[ezekiel-krishna]

🔢 Your 2024 Prediction (Numerology) Part 1

How to Know Your Personal Year Number :

1st Step : Add your date of birth [ Day & Month ]

Examples 2nd Jan = 2+1 = (3) 29 Dec = 29+12 = 41 = (5) 10 June = 1+0+6 = (7)

2nd Step : Since its Year 2024 thus 2+0+2+4 = 8 + Above number with 8

Examples (3)+8 = 11 = 2 (Personal Year Number) (5)+8 = 13 = 4 (Personal Year Number) (7)+8 = 15 = 6 (Personal Year Number)

Personal Year 1

This year marks a fresh start in your destiny, filled with endless possibilities. With all doors opening up and obstacles fading away, it's the perfect time to embrace new beginnings. Don't hesitate to take the initiative and make bold decisions. Let your creativity shine as you venture into uncharted territory.

However, keep in mind that this is the year of Saturn, which means delays and responsibilities may come your way. Saturn, being an adversary to the sun, which rules the number one year, suggests that you may encounter some initial obstacles.

But fear not, for competition, difficulties, and roadblocks are just part of the journey. Stay patient and calm as you navigate through them. Success will be yours, but remember that Saturn emphasizes the importance of taking responsibility, while the number one signifies leadership. In the end, you'll have to assert yourself and strive for what you desire. Just remember to approach it with kindness and avoid selfishness.

The combination of Saturn and the sun may make you slightly self-centered, but don't let that deter you. The convergence of the number one (sun) and number eight (Saturn) indicates that this is the perfect time to embark on something new. Whether it's starting a business, pursuing a job opportunity, forming new friendships, entering a relationship, or even moving to a new home, the universe is aligning in your favor. Embrace the possibilities and make this year truly remarkable.

This is a time for fresh starts and seizing opportunities, so take advantage of it while you can. Don't rush through obstacles, let them fade away naturally. Remember, honesty and integrity are key to success. Saturn governs your Karma, so shortcuts and dishonesty will only lead to failure. Stay true to yourself and work hard, as this new beginning is destined for greatness. Enjoy this period of new beginnings, as it won't come around again for another 9 years.

Personal Year 2

This year is all about connecting with others and fostering cooperation within your family and friendships. It's a time to build strong and lasting relationships that will bring value to your life. Remember, last year was a fresh start for you, and now it's about making it count. However, it's important to note that you can't do it alone this year.One thing to keep in mind is that the number two is influenced by the moon, which emphasizes the importance of harmony. Whether it's within your family or friendships, genuine warmth and understanding should be present.

Since this is the year of Saturn and the moon is its enemy, there is a tendency to feel disconnected from your emotions. It will be an emotional and sensitive year for you, as you will experience things deeply, just like anyone else in a personal year 2. You may find yourself becoming detached from your emotions and not fully expressing your true feelings. Depending on your personal circumstances, you might even experience a slight sense of depression and heightened anxiety.

As this year progresses, you will undoubtedly overcome any challenges that come your way. The key to doing so lies in your ability to connect, cooperate, and work with others. Remember, you are not alone in this journey. Whether you are single, in business, or working independently, it is crucial to establish connections with people around you. By doing so, you will find that happiness will flourish, and a sense of well-being will prevail.

Family plays a significant role in your life this year, as many of the problems you face can be resolved through open communication and bringing your family closer together. Make this your main focus for the year - binding your family matters by fostering connections. By doing so, you will experience increased happiness, support, and reciprocation from others.

While starting new relationships is possible this year, it may progress slowly due to a natural inclination to be cautious and not easily trust others. The alignment of the moon and Saturn indicates a slight sense of distrust. If you decide to embark on a new business venture or change your job, keep in mind that you may need to adapt to the preferences and expectations of others.

It is important to fit into the new job or business situation completely, even if it may not align with your personal preferences initially. However, by blending in and making necessary adjustments, you will have the opportunity to shape your job or business situation according to your desires in the following year.

Personal Year 3

Jupiter's influence will bring expansion in all aspects of your life this year. Your social circle will grow, new people will come into your world, and you may even embark on exciting travels and romantic adventures. Personal year 3 in 2024 promises a positive and joyful connection with others. Saturn's universal year number eight, however, will also play a significant role. You may reunite with old friends or romantic partners, visit new and familiar places, and experience a karmic revisiting of the past to shape your future. Let go of negative emotions and grudges as you embrace this transformative year.

This year is going to be a turning point for you. The people you meet will play a significant role in your life, leading to more than just temporary friendships. You are expanding your social network and forming strong relationships. Get ready for a year full of dramatic moments and excitement around every corner. It's going to be an enjoyable year as you dive into new experiences like starting a new romance, job, or taking on more responsibilities. Just remember, it won't be drama-free.

As it's a Saturn year, be cautious not to become lazy. While there are many good things coming your way, you still need to put in the effort. If you slack off, you might find yourself in unwanted drama. Learn to go with the flow with your superiors, boss, and those around you. Don't disappoint anyone and avoid selfishness. Cooperation and considering others will bring happiness, enjoyment, and thrilling moments into your life.

This year is especially favorable for artistic individuals like actors, actresses, writers, musicians, and performers. There are plenty of opportunities for creative performances. Additionally, Jupiter's influence will bring good fortune to many. Students will have a successful year in terms of education. Managing a baby or getting along with your kids will be smooth sailing.

Personal Year 4

When you're in your personal year 4, the focus will be on security, stability, and making sure everything falls into place in your life. Despite your efforts to create a safe and solid foundation, unexpected opportunities may arise out of nowhere.

I've witnessed individuals in their personal year 4 experience sudden job offers, relocations, and new relationship prospects. Embrace these new possibilities and let go of the need for certainty.

While it may be a bit overwhelming, there's also the potential for promotions or new relationships. Make decisions wisely during this time. People in their personal year 4 will be productive and efficient, avoiding wasting time. There may be moments of anxiety, but push through and get the job done. It's a year for hard work and making improvements in all areas of your life.

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[joekeeryswife]

AHH girl dad! pedro is really just occupying my mind rn….

that one imagine with expecting! reader really has me in a chokehold but just thinking about how sweet pedro would be while your in labor

from the jump, he’d be by your side. the minute you feel your water break in bed and your contractions are feeling a little too real, hes right by your side. his old man brain is definitely a little discombobulated at first bit he’s definitely trying to get you out of your now soaked pjs and into some dry sweats to get you into the car.

thanks to you and all your nesting while pedro’s at work, all the hospital bags were set up and stocked fully for you, him, and the baby, along with the carseat already being installed, you guys were officially set up to be parents!!! pedro knows these contractions are really taking a toll on you so he’d give you all the time in the world to get your bum in the car. as soon as your both seated and settled, the drive over is filled with so much groaning and moaning and squeezing his hand with a freakishly amount of strength, because once again, contractions are indeed, a bitch.

but pedro will let you scream and shout all you need, hes just happy to be there with you. but he cant help but feel some sort of guilt. you both had entered this journey into parenthood but here you were carrying the heaviest load. so he did what he could best. after arriving in the hospital and being sent up to the suite you’d be staying in for the next few days, he’ your number 1 advocate. you want more ice chips? he’s already running down to grab you some more. one nurse isnt following the intended birth plan? best believe he is already asking for a new one. back hurts? hes the first to get behind you and rub it. hes going on walks with you, doing your lamaaze training (which he initially thought was dumb), holding you the exact way you need to be held, whispering sweet nothings, telling you how strong you are and how proud he is of you.

pedro makes it known that he wants to be as involved in the birthing process as possible, however he is needed. when its time to push, hes holding your leg up for you, praising you, helping the doctor count down on the pushes. as terrifying as it sounds, he had never been more glad to make such an effort. getting to watch beautiful, life-changing moment for the both you you. watching your daughter enter the world. i wholeheartedly believe the minute that little girl comes out, hes sobbing. i mean not that you arent but he just can’t express any other emotion what the overwhelming feeling of gratitude he feels. he feels incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful partner. he feels so lucky to have someone who was willing to go through all the troubles and challenges pregnancy presented to you. he feels incredibly lucky to have his heart grown even bigger for the newest addition into yalls life.

the minute your daughter is placed on you chest, it is the first time in a while that everything just feels right, and in place. your heart is more than content. you and your little family.🤍

i have so many thoughts in my mind about dad! pedro pascal, i just have no idea where to put them😭

Labour - p.p

hello angels! i’m honestly fuming because my last pedro fanfic got cut short- idk wtf is up with tumblr BUT… this request was the cutest thing i’ve ever read i don’t even think my writing is going to live up to it. i hope this is okay that it’s a part two to my last fanfic! enjoy angels (p.s dad! imagines are my fave so don’t be shy to put them in my inbox! x) 🤍 ⚠️age gap couple⚠️

taglist (don’t forget to add yourselves🤍) @1-john-4-19 @newtandminhoaretoocute @mavs101 @brilliantopposite187 @mimi-luvzyu (if there’s a line through your name i cannot tag you for some reason x)

"Pedro, get here right now" you shouted as you sat up in bed, looking down at the now soaking bedcovers. he had insisted you go lay down and rest as a few contractions throughout the day had worn you out and now, after an hour of sleep, your water had finally broke. you heard rapid foot steps approaching the bedroom and then the door fly open.

"what?" he looked frantic, and once he saw your anxious look on your face he knew. he walked to your side of the bed and lifted the bed covers off of you and held his hand out so he could help you up which you gently took ahold of. he could see the wet stain on the bedsheet but that was the last thing he was worrying about, he was worrying about you.

he helped you sit up and watched as a contraction surged through your body, making your face scrunch up and a small whimper escape your mouth, you squeezed his hand and tried breathing through it. after the contraction subsided you turned your body so your feet were flat on the floor, getting out of bed had gotten a lot harder and you always had to sit to catch your breath before you could get up.

"i'm sorry" you said as you looked back at the stained bed. he kept his gentle hold on your hand and lent in to give you a small kiss on your forehead. "hey, don't worry. it's only a bedsheet baby, are you okay?" once he saw you give him a small nod and a smile which reassured him enough he let go of your hand and walked to the chest of draws to get you some knew sweatpants then quickly made his way back to you.

"we gotta get you to the hospital love, you've gotta get changed" he helped you stand up which made his heart crush when he saw you breathing through yet another contraction. each one was coming with a whole new level of pain and it broke his heart that he couldn't do anything to take the pain away.

after that contraction finally subsided he helped you get changed into the fresh sweatpants and with that he grabbed your phone and your hand then helped you make your way to front door, he had to grab the baby's bags which were packed by you. you had started packing a month before your due date whilst Pedro was still working/doing interviews and he had never been more grateful that you had done that instead of rushing to do it at near your due date.

the car seat had been installed in the car three weeks ago just incase the baby decided they wanted to show up a little earlier than planned but they didn't, your due date was two days away and it looked like your baby would be coming right on time. once he was sure he had everything he quickly made his way back to you and helped you slip on your shoes and then to the elevator. the ride down to the car park of the apartment complex was filled with groans of pain as the contractions started to get closer together.

Pedro held your hand as the elevator finally stopped on the ground floor and guided you to the car which was luckily not to far away from the elevator, meaning you didn't have to walk far. "babe we have to stop for a second" you said, these contractions were really brutal, so brutal that they actually made you want to cry and that was rare. you had a very high pain tolerance so when Pedro saw you with teary eyes he knew these were really getting to you.

you hunched over slightly as a more painful contraction hit you, this time the pain went to the bottom of your back and lower stomach. Pedro let go of your hand and placed it on your back, rubbing it softly. "you're doing so well honey, so so well" he said as you stood up right again. all you wanted to do was sit down and with the car being in your view, maybe 15 steps away, you knew you needed to get there.

Pedro kept his hand on your back as you both started walking to the car again and you breathed a sigh of relief when you finally made it. he opened the passenger door for you and helped you into the seat. "you comfortable baby?" he asked you and watched you nod your head. you had heard from so many people that contractions hurt but you did not think they would hurt this much. he closed the car door and then made his way to the boot so he could put the bags away.

once he was settled in the drivers side he immediately started the car and started the thirty minute drive to the hospital. the whole ride to the hospital was filled with you groaning in pain with each contraction that came and with that came the soft words of encouragement Pedro spoke to you. this was probably the softest you'd ever heard him and it made your heart swell with love as he tried his best to make you feel better, 'you're doing so well my love, keep breathing that's it' 'you're gonna be such a good mama, you're doing brilliantly honey'

"mother fucker this hurts so much" you said as you squeezed Pedro's hand tightly. he took his eyes off of the road for a split second to look at you. he didn't know why but he felt guilty. you were both becoming parents, both on this pregnancy journey together yet you were the one that had dealt with the morning sickness, crazy hormone changes, cravings, back pain, and now contractions. "i know sweetheart but you're doing so well, we are almost there, five minutes tops" he lifted your hand to his mouth and placed a small kiss there for comfort.

-

you were finally at the hospital in the room where you would give birth to your baby. the nurse had checked and you were only 7cm dilated meaning you had another 3 to go. you were hunched over the bed, trying to get some sort of relief from the pain in your back, laying down did not help at all so you had to stick to this. Pedro was behind you, massaging the bottom of your back as you groaned in pain.

he watched the monitor which was tracking all of your contractions and saw that this one was a lot worse than the other ones. "that's it honey, well done. you're doing amazing" his words of encouragement filled your ears as your hand grabbed onto the bed sheets, keeping them in a tight grasp until the contraction subsided.

"that one was so bad" you said as you stood up straight and turned to face Pedro. he had a sympathetic look on his face. "i know" he opened his arms and you immediately 'fell' into him, needing one of his hugs. they always calmed you down somehow and right now you needed to calm down. "i'm so hungry" you said with a sigh.

you, for some reason, were only allowed to eat ice chips and all you wanted was a burger and actual chips but you couldn't, not until after you'd given birth. "we've run out of ice baby, let me go get you some" and with a kiss on forehead he pulled away from you to go find a nurse. within 5 minutes he was back with more ice chips. "here you are" he said lifting the spoon filled with ice chips up to your lips so you could eat them. "thank you sweetie" you said as you chewed on the ice. he lent in to kiss you on the lips and said a small "you're welcome" before feeding you more ice.

Pedro had been a bit weary of one particular nurse, she was in her mid 30s and was the most judgemental person he'd ever met. she was just not listening to a thing you had suggested and she was just one of those nurses who never listened to their patient, whatever the nurse wanted to do that's what was happening with no debate.

Pedro finally had enough of her when she almost made you cry with her harsh words and judgmental stares which lingered a little to long so she knew you'd notice. you both got judged on a daily basis on social media for your age gap but you had never had any bad experiences in real life, people were always so kind to you and in the thousands of judgemental people where were thousands of supportive people who always said how cute you guys were.

he had waited until she left before he slipped out of the room to speak to someone about getting a different nurse. you were in so much pain and having a nurse who wasn't making you feel any better was not something he'd ever want you to go through. luckily, there was an older nurse who was more than happy to take over. she must of been in her 60s. she followed Pedro back to your room and introduced herself to you. already the atmosphere had changed, she was so sweet to both of you and there was definitely no judgement coming from her.

"y/n, i think because you've been stuck at 7cm for the past two hours you go for a little walk around the ward, it doesn't have to be a long one but it could speed this up a bit and it also means you don't have to be stuck in this room" Mary, the new nurse said to you with a smile. she left you and Pedro alone and with that you both started walking around the maternity ward, hoping that this would finally speed up the process and will allow you both to finally meet your baby.

-

"that's it y/n you're doing absolutely amazing, keep that push" Pedro was holding your left leg and looking at his baby being born. you let go of the push and let your head fall back onto the pillow for a second just so you could catch your breath. "well done sweetheart" you heard Pedro say as you felt a small kiss on your forehead.

"and again y/n, push with this next contraction. well done" you heard Mary say as you pushed as hard as you could through the pain, groaning and the pain became almost unbearable. "that's it sweetheart, keep going" he was still holding your leg but was now by you, comforting you as you pushed. "okay stop pushing sweetie, that was amazing pushing y/n, i can see the head" Mary smiled and your heart swelled at the thought of your baby being here any second.

"okay, another contraction coming, give this one a big push y/n. this will probably be your last one" and as soon as that contraction came, your chin was to your chest as you pushed. you groaned as you felt your baby finally coming out. Pedro was now up again, wanting to see his baby come into the world. as soon as you heard that loud cry coming from your baby, instant tears started falling down both yours and Pedro's cheeks.

"you did it baby, i'm so proud of you" he said, tears rolling down his face as he kissed you passionately. "congratulations you two, it's a girl" Mary quickly put the baby on your chest and you looked down at this beautiful bundle of joy. Pedro thought he could never love anything more than he loved you, but as soon as he set eyes on his daughter his love for her grew, no words could describe how much he loved her.

"hi my angel, it's so nice to finally meet you" you whispered to her as you gently grabbed ahold of her tiny hand. she was beautiful. utterly perfect. Mary took your baby to the other side of the room where she would be weighed and would have all the regular checks any baby had, leaving you and Pedro alone. you moved over in the bed, allowing him to lay down next to you and as soon as he did he pulled you into his embrace.

"thank you" you heard him whisper as a few small kisses were planted on your forehead. he was grateful, grateful that you'd you went through this entire pregnancy and carried your baby, grateful that you'd chosen to do this with him and grateful that you'd grown your baby and now she was here with you both, where she belonged.

you looked up at him and saw that his tears hadn't stopped, they were still flowing freely down his flushed cheeks. you reached your hand up to wipe the tear streaks and smiled. "you don't have to thank me-" "no i do. you have done so much these past 9 months and i'm so grateful for that. i could have never done what you have and and i'm just really really lucky" he said, leaning down to kiss you again.

after a few short minutes of it being just the two of you, Mary brought over a wrapped up bundle of joy who was looking around the room with her dough eyes. "8 ibs and 6 Oz. she's really healthy. i'm going to leave you two alone for a while to give you time to adjust but just ring the buzzer if you need anything. again congratulations, she's absolutely beautiful" after she passed you your baby, you both said thank you and watched as she left the room.

"she's got so much hair" you whispered as you looked down at her, running your hand carefully over the top of her head. she was the most precious thing you'd ever seen. Pedro watched the two of you together, he had never in his left felt like this. he just felt pure love and adoration for the two of you. "she looks just like you baby, she's so beautiful" he kissed your forehead and let his hand stroke her cheek. this was love and he was so excited for the journey ahead.

[philosopher-blog]

عزيزي المنهك، أحيانا قد تبدو الحياة غير عادلة وتبدو الصعوبات كبيرة والتحديات لا تنتهي. قد تشعر أن الأمل يتلاشى والكلمات التي تملأ قلبك هي "لا تحزن". ولكن يجب أن تعلم أن كل ما تمر به الآن سيمر أيضًا.

لا تستسلم، لا تدع اليأس يسيطر عليك. ابق قويًا رغم الظروف، فلديك في قلبك قدرة لا تُعلى عليها على تحمل كل ما يأتي. حتى في أصعب اللحظات، ابق ثابتًا وقدر الصبر الذي تمتلكه.

اعلم أن كل شيء في هذه الحياة مؤقت، حتى الألم والحزن الذي قد تشعر به اليوم. يمكن لأيام جديدة أن تجلب معها السلام والسعادة. احتفظ دائمًا بالأمل بأن غدًا سيكون أفضل.

اذكر دائمًا وعد الله لك، فإن صبرك وايمانك سيجلبان لك الراحة والخلاص. قد تكون الأمور تبدو معقدة الآن، ولكن لا شيء يدوم إلى الأبد. كن واثقًا بأن الله لن يضيع جهدك وصبرك.

لا تنسى أن كل تحدي تواجهه يجعلك أقوى وأكثر إيمانًا. فكل تعثر تواجهه يمكن أن يكون درسًا تستفيد منه في المستقبل. تذكر دائمًا أن الصبر هو مفتاح النجاح، وأن الله مع الصابرين.

فلا تحقد على اللحظات الصعبة التي تمر بها، بل اجعلها تحديًا لتظهر قوتك وصمودك أمامها. وتذكر أن كما تتغير الأحوال من حال إلى حال، ستتغير حياتك أيضًا من وضعية اليأس إلى وقوف مستقيم ينبت منه الأمل والسعادة.

فلا تستسلم، ولا تيأس. اصبر وثق بأن كل شيء سيكون بخير في النهاية. احتضن صعوبات الحياة كجزء لا يتجزأ من رحلتك، وتذكر دائمًا أن الله لا يضيع أجر المحسنين.

فكن شامخًا كالجبل الصامد في وجه العواصف، وثابر كالنبات الذي يستمر في النمو رغم قساوة الظروف. وتذكر دائمًا أن لكل تعب وجهد ثماره وجزاؤه. في النهاية، ستجد نفسك قد تخطيت كل الصعاب وتنعم بسعادة لا توصف.

فلا تنس أنك تمتلك القوة والصبر لتحقيق كل ما تحلم به. اثبت للعالم أنك قادر على تحقيق المستحيل، وانطلق بثقة وإيمان نحو غدٍ أفضل. فالحياة قصيرة، والأمل مازال حيًّا.

Dear exhausted person, sometimes life may seem unfair and the difficulties seem great and the challenges seem endless. You may feel that hope is fading and the words that fill your heart are, “Do not be sad.” But you should know that everything you are going through now will also pass.

Don't give up, don't let despair control you. Stay strong despite the circumstances, because you have in your heart an unparalleled ability to withstand everything that comes. Even in the most difficult moments, stay consistent and appreciate the patience you have.

Know that everything in this life is temporary, even the pain and sadness you may feel today. New days can bring peace and happiness. Always keep hope that tomorrow will be better.

Always remember God's promise to you, for your patience and faith will bring you comfort and salvation. Things may seem complicated now, but nothing lasts forever. Be confident that God will not waste your effort and patience.

Don't forget that every challenge you face makes you stronger and more confident. Every stumble you encounter can be a lesson for you in the future. Always remember that patience is the key to success, and that God is with those who are patient.

Do not begrudge the difficult moments you go through, but rather make them a challenge to show your strength and resilience in the face of them. And remember that just as conditions change from one state to another, your life will also change from a position of despair to an upright stand from which hope and happiness grow.

Do not give up, and do not despair. Be patient and trust that everything will be okay in the end. Embrace life's difficulties as an integral part of your journey, and always remember that God does not waste the reward of those who do good.

Be tall like a mountain that stands firm in the face of storms, and persevere like a plant that continues to grow despite the harsh conditions. Always remember that every effort and effort has its fruits and rewards. In the end, you will find yourself overcoming all difficulties and enjoying indescribable happiness.

Do not forget that you have the strength and patience to achieve everything you dream of. Prove to the world that you are capable of achieving the impossible, and move with confidence and faith towards a better tomorrow. Life is short, and hope is still alive.

[ellekhen]

A tale of suns, moons, and our lives in between.

Stories centered around the journeys of the tiefling warlock Church, who seems intent on upheaving a cynical Astarion’s life of cruel and calculated chicanery. Whether it’s all for the better remains to be seen; but either way, Church isn’t going anywhere anytime soon — and Astarion finds he prefers it that way.

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Tipping the Scales - [Complete]

Drown Out - [Complete]

The Sun - [Complete]

Mirror, mirror - [Complete]

High Hopes - [Ongoing]

Hand, Hearth, and Home - [Ongoing] Master Post

The stars in between. - [Complete]

When Your Mind's Made Up - [Complete] Master Post

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For fic summaries…

Summaries

Tipping the Scales - [Complete]

Church knows something is just… off — wrong, even, when they’re together, but Astarion refuses to let him in. When the recalcitrant vampire spawn is left behind at camp, he has little besides his thoughts and regrets as company. Through fitful meditations and a few nudges in the right direction, Astarion begins to finally come to terms with his strange, complicated feelings towards the tiefling warlock.

Drown Out - [Complete]

During times as chaotic as these, something as simple as a bath can be a sanctuary most unexpected. All in all, the tiefling warlock — Church — wasn’t who Astarion expected him to be. He’s too soft-hearted for his own good, and yet fiercely protective of those he loves. For some inscrutable reason, the vampire spawn falls into that circle. In the aftermath of a disastrous reunion and ambush from Astarion’s “siblings,” Church tends to the rogue as he reflects on how far they have come as friends and lovers along their journey.

The Sun - [Complete]

In the aftermath of defeating the Absolute, Astarion has no choice but to retreat to the shadows. Fortunately for him, Church had already decided long ago to be by his side wherever that may lead. The pair find themselves descending into the Underdark in hopes of helping the thousands of vampire spawn they freed find shelter, a community, and perhaps eventually break the chains of their pasts.

However, living in the Underdark as the sole warm-blooded caretaker of thousands of traumatized spawn takes its toll on the tiefling warlock. After a shocking event within the community, Church struggles to stay strong for Astarion and his other charges.

While he is haunted by memories of past rejections and failings, Church finds solace in Astarion's constant companionship. Ever watching each other's backs, they remind each other of the memories that have made them both stronger, together.

Mirror, mirror - [Complete]

Years following the defeat of the Absolute, Church and Astarion have made a new life — a challenging, but happy life — for themselves in the Underdark. But after a ritual goes wrong, Church finds himself waking up in the arms of a different Astarion, in a world where a single decision led to a very different and devastating outcome to their story.

While the Astarion and Gale of his world work tirelessly to bring him back home safe, Church fights not just to understand this new world and how his lover has changed in it, but also to retain his sovereignty in mind and body so that he may find his freedom from the elf his other self once loved.

High Hopes - [Ongoing]

Rolan, Cal, and Lia have survived their exile from Elturel this long by growing up fast and watching out for each other. Still, they find themselves treasuring the moments of normalcy that are so rare during these dangerous times.

Along the way, they find themselves crossing paths with another tiefling - a warlock adventurer named Church who has saved them multiple times, but is shouldering his own burdens unimaginable to them. This adventurer has always watched out for them along their journey, but who's watching out for him?

A series of vignettes from the times where the siblings and Church's respective paths to survival have crossed, nurturing a friendship most unexpected.

Hand, Hearth, and Home - [Ongoing]

In their respective, wary calculations, Astarion and Church know that they very well could be the death of each other. Years after losing his childhood friend and first love, Church reminds himself not to get too attached. Sabotaging those plans is Astarion, who just won’t leave him alone — all in the name of using the warlock as a means to an end, of course. But when Church’s friend unexpectedly returns as a certain guardian in their dreams, it makes his already conflicted, burgeoning feelings far more complicated. And yet, as the trust between him and Astarion grows, Church learns to let go of the past that holds him back from embracing a brighter future — no matter how uncertain it may be here at the vampire spawn’s side.

The stars in between. - [Complete]

Years after the events of the game, Withers invites Church, Astarion, and their former companions back for yet another party — a festive, cozy, winter Simril celebration! Thrilled at the prospect of seeing all his friends together again, Church takes the opportunity to indulge in a nostalgic tradition of his old village. But once Astarion realizes that this tradition involves giving gifts, he desperately tries to come up with a last-minute gift worthy enough for his partner with help from their friends and a certain (former) god of death.

When Your Mind's Made Up - [Complete]

In another lifetime, Church helps Astarion ascend before impulsively following his lover into darkness — vowing that neither of them will ever have to be alone again. But when the warlock wakes up from his transformation, he realizes far too late that the person he trusts and loves the most has become yet another inescapable patron. And so, when the battle against the Absolute demands yet another sacrifice from the tiefling, he finds himself wondering… What more does he have to lose? (A companion piece to “Mirror, mirror.”)

[thejournallo]

AFFIRMATION: A Good Februrary

I let go of what no longer serves me.

I learn and grow from new beginnings.

I am in control of my own destiny.

I spread love and kindness to everyone.

I let go of expectations and let life flow.

I receive love and happiness abundantly.

Change helps me grow positively.

I let go of what holds me back and aim high.

This month, I find beauty in every moment.

I attract positive experiences into my life.

I release my doubts and step into my power.

This month, I will write my own success story.

This new month brings endless possibilities.

I am grateful for the chance to start fresh.

I think positively as I begin this new month.

Good things have come to me this month.

I deserve the good things happening.

Positive changes await me this month.

I am surrounded by love and always supported in my desires and needs.

I intend to be happily surprised by good news and miracles.

I am only available for unconditional love.

It's safe for me to be seen, heard, and understood.

The right answers and guidance always show up for me right when I need them.

I believe good things will come my way.

I am ready to reach my full potential.

This month, I am creating a life I love.

I focus on today and let go of the past.

I deserve good things to happen in my life.

I trust my journey and welcome the unknown.

I am strong and can overcome challenges.

I control my own happiness and success.

This month, I shine and inspire others.

Welcome to new friends and connections.

I deserve all the good things coming my way.

I am open to guidance and inspiration.

I create a joyful life for myself.

I let go of self-doubt and believed in myself.

I appreciate the chances this month brings.

I let go of what no longer serves me.

I learn and grow from new beginnings.

I am in control of my own destiny.

I will have a good month of february.

I'm staying grounded in the joys this month has to offer.

This month is a great time for making memories.

I am slowing down to enjoy the gift of the present.

I feel so much gratitude for the gift that is my life.

This month give me the opportunity to slow down and appreciate my gratitude.

I am a positive light.

I attract all the good opportunities.

There is so much more to come.

I embrace the things that make me feel good.

I am ready for a good february.

I'm freeing myself of all limiting beliefs.

I am in alignment with the path I'm currently on.

I look for new doors that open for me.

I am blessed with abundance.

Everything in my life is working for me, not against me.

As always, I will love to hear your thoughts! and if you have any questions, I will be more than happy to answer them! If you liked it, leave a comment or reblog (that is always appreciated!). if you are intrested in more method check the masterlist!

[positiveupwardspiral]

1. "I can get through this."

Emotional resilience is associated with mental toughness. There is an understanding that we have to be strong and overcome adversity without letting it break us.

2. "Even though I was a victim in this situation, I won't let it define me or ruin my future."

Being resilient means that when you experience the pain of mistreatment, you shift your perspective from "I'm a victim and powerless to help myself" to "How can I grow from this?"

3. “I won't always be happy with how things play out. But it's part of the journey."

Resilience is associated with a basic acceptance that life isn't always fair, and that we all experience emotional hardships. Accepting this truth helps people to not take things as personally when undesirable events happen.

4. "This, too, shall pass."

Resilient people believe that setbacks and challenges can feel horrible in the moment, but that nothing in life is permanent. It doesn't mean that the pain will go away entirely, but it does mean that we can work to make them less traumatic and damaging to us over time.

5. "What can I learn from this?"

Openness to experiences and the ability to shift your perspective from "Why did this happen to me?" to "What can I take from this to help me grow?" can help you better navigate through life's inevitable ups and downs.

6. “I'm feeling a strong emotion, so I'm going to take a moment and pause before I respond or make any big decisions."

A key component of resilience is emotional flexibility, or the ability to regulate your feelings and reduce their intensity in a given situation. Mastery over this can help us feel empowered during challenging times.

7. "I still have things to be grateful for."

We're hardwired to notice threats to our well-being. But people who are resilient find a way to turn towards the positive, even in times of difficulty.

8. "I have to see reality for what it is, even if it's not what I want, so I can move forward."

The key to resilience is not denying reality or seeking out a reason that makes us feel better about why something happened. When we arrive at a place of radical acceptance, the situation has less power over us.

9. "I'm letting this go."

Staying mired in resentment, wanting retribution, or focusing on payback keeps us holding on to past pain. Developing resilience requires getting to a place where we can see difficult life circumstances for what they are and actively choosing to let them go.

~ Dr. Cortney S. Warren, PhD

[alalaya2]

Tim Drakes sleeping habits save the Earth

Part 9 Death is a punk Goth

Morrigan like her older brother always knew things Things she was suppose to know and things she was defiantly not suppose to know. It did help with her rambunctious Friends/ siblings that she was the one who always knew how a journey would end. Lazarus would start there journeys Clockwork could see where they would go, she would see the end of the journey and their friends/siblings of chose made the journey worth taking. I had save them all a lot of grief in the long run knowing which pitfalls to avoid especially if both she and her Brother told them not to do it. Vortex nine time out of ten did it any way the Crazy loon that he was took it as a challenge. It would not surprises Morrigan if the Yahoo became a deliquesce in her absents.

It was not until she had married Lazarus and became pregnant with her twins that she saw two different ending she was Death and death was an end and a new beginning. she could watch her babies grow up and have children of their own only for most of the Realms being destroyed or she could miss so much of their life and the would suffer but they would survive and some day maybe even be happy and the realms would flourish. She was the Phantom Queen in the end their really wasn't a choice.

Morrigan allowed herself to Fade into the realms of the Endless and with the realms of the Endless was her younger siblings Destiny, Dream (formerly Morpheus, succeeded by Daniel), Destruction ("The Prodigal"), Desire, Despair ,Delirium (formerly "Delight"). She knew that she needed to keep them safe and that one day she would take them into the infinite Realms to save the balance they all protected. It was hard watching her Children Grow up without her and watching the hardship all of her family went through. the only comfort she had was a small locket watch that Clockwork had given to her with its steady ticking she knew the day it died was the day that she could go home and it was a day she was Dreading.

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Danny hurt all over his head hurt his body hurt and even his hair hurt he could see some ghost that had gone missing a few days ago secured to a slab the Scientist. He was luck or unlucky that as a Ghost his voice and hands were not intermetal to communicating. They had Klemper his Blond hair was matted with his own ectoplasm he was missing one of his red eyes. Klemper Reached out to his aura to his king ‘Friend, King. no not you’

‘How? Missing, who else’

“Ambushed, Trap, Promus of Friend, Archer gone.’

Archer was one of Doras subjects he was just starting to be trusted to go out of the Dragon Kingdom Aragon had not treated his subjects well and his soldiers even worse. Jazz had given Dora resources to help, and they were finally started to heal and move forward. Danny allowed himself one moment to mourn his passing and focused back onto Klemper and any others that may be there.

‘Others?’

‘Yes Plaything, Rebreather others don’t Know 15 more’

Over 20 of his Subjects he knew some were missing in the living Realms and no one knew it was that many and there was no telling how many others had faded like Archur. It was as if his core was a glacier, and it was starting to melt and Crumble at the thought of some many of his subjects he couldn’t save couldn’t PROTECT. His Fight had discovered that he had a Dule obsession Space and the protections of all that was in it the fact that his people were suffering, and he couldn’t protect them was painful. ‘Stay strong, will get you all out, help will come.’ Klemper just projected a string of emotions that Danny didn’t catch.

Klemper was a little over 100 years old he had Died during WWI Due to Mustard gas he knew that the young king was just Trying to protect him in any way he can. He had been with the GIW too long and he would not last the rest of the day. Already he could feel his core starting to dissolve but, the thought was nice almost like a Friend trying to comfort you. At least this time he would not die alone with out a friend or as near a Friend as a ghost enemy can get. ‘Sorry king, to late, to late, much to late thank you not alone friend.’

Danny watched in horror as Klemper seemed to shimmer a bit then he started to dissolve leaving bits of snow as he became less and less. Danny screamed as much as he could with his muzzle and restraints. He’s chest Rumbled shaking the table he had been strapped to and that Rumble started to shake the building as well. There was shouting in the halls outside the room, but Danny didn’t hear, nor did he care one of his had faded right in front of him and he could do nothing. Klemper was a little annoying, but he didn’t deserve this, none of them did.

Finally, Agent O burst in the room while he was trying to cover his ears as much as possible. Agent O glared at Danny shouting at him to shut up, but Danny could not hear him over the sounds of his own muffled screams. He had had enough and kicked the Button on the side of Danny’s table, shocking Danny into oblivion. Agent O, pleased with how he was able to take out the Ghost Scum was happy that despite that little hiccup everything was going smoothly.

This, all the GIW later find out, would be proven false because The Batfam and the JL were on the case Clark had heard the scream and told batman which Direction it was coming from. The Bats were able to find the tremors from the scream and pinpoint where Danny was they alerted everyone and everyone was ready for a throwdown.

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[foxes-that-run]

Canyon moon

When introducing Canyon Moon in the one night only performance harry said was written at Tom (kid harpoon) and Jenny’s house L.A. in January 2018. Jenny in the song is Tom’s wife and Harry dedicated it to her:

Longing for home and domestic life

The lyrics refer to Jenny and Tom’s settled life with kids as a dream when compared to leaving his beloved to tour:

“Sky never looked so blue So hard to leave it That's what I always do So I keep thinking back to A time under the canyon moon The world's happy waiting Doors yellow, broken, blue I heard Jenny saying "Go get the kids from school" And I keep thinking back to A time under the canyon moon I'll be gone too long from you”

Remembering lyrics

Harry talks about sharing love of music and not remember lyrics which reminds us of his temper trap tattoo. After the bridge the song ends with ‘looking back’ because the relationship didn’t survive his journey. :

“I'm going, oh, I'm going I'm going, oh, I'm going home Quick pause in conversation She plays songs I've never heard An old lover's hippie music Pretends not to know the words And I keep thinking back to A time under the canyon moon”

Dulcimer

To Rolling Stone Harry spoke about the influence of Joni Michell’s Blue for Canyon Moon: “he and Kid Harpoon tracked down Joellen Lapidus, the woman who built Mitchell’s dulcimer for Blue. She not only made one for Harry, she gave him and Kid Harpoon their first dulcimer lesson at her house.”

Between 3-4 March 2012 Taylor Swift wrote "Nothing New" for Red. She'd just learned to play the Appalachian dulcimer because that's what her hero Joni Mitchell played on Blue. Swift penned this song on a flight from Perth using the instrument, inspired by Mitchell's "A Case Of You." Thank you @mynkno

Laurel Canyon, Joni Mitchell

The canyon is likely Laurel Canyon where Joni Mitchell lived while dating Graham Nash. At the height of their fame in the 70’s Joni and Nash had a strong attraction, broke up and wrote many songs about the heartbreak, including Blue.

California has a similar meaning to Canyon Moon. Joni sings of being weary from travelling in Europe after breaking up with Nash, longing for home in California and includes hoping he will take her as she is ‘strung out on another man’ (breaks my heart every time)

Harry owned a Hollywood Hills house near laurel Canyon, from 2016 which was for sale when he wrote this. The song was written at Toms house ‘around the corner’.

TS also owned a house in the area 2012-2018 which he visited before leaving to tour and she sold the year this was written (to buy another in LA).

In his interview with Zane Lowe about the album at 38:45 in Harry talks about his relationship with California changing and it never being home.

Summary

Canyon moon is bittersweet about a relationship with someone who has a shared love of music, harry gives two outcomes:

The reference to Joni and Nash are a couple who are driven to succeed as famous musicians. Passion and leaving LA to tour were challenges and the relationship ended, as happened in the relationship he is looking back on,

The reference to Jenny show a different path, Harry is daydreaming about having stayed in LA and having domestic bliss with someone who shares his love of music.

The song is about what could have been and missing the relationship rather than place.

[justanotherrpmeme]

Long Distance Relationship starters

"I miss you so much. It's hard being apart."

"Distance may separate us physically, but our love keeps us connected."

"How do we make this distance easier to bear?"

"I wish I could be there with you right now."

"Remember, our love knows no distance."

"Long-distance relationships are tough. Do you ever doubt if we can make it work?"

"Doubts are natural, but I believe in us. We'll overcome the challenges and grow stronger together."

"I met someone today who reminded me of you, and it made me miss you even more."

"How do we keep the romance alive when we can't be physically together?"

"Sometimes it feels like our lives are moving in different directions because we're apart."

"Together or apart, we're on this journey side by side."

"I envy couples who can be together every day. It's hard not having you here."

"The depth of our connection isn't defined by physical proximity."

"I worry about the future and how long we'll be apart. What if it becomes too much?"

"Together, we can find ways to make it work and eventually close the distance."

"I had a rough day, and I wish you were here to comfort me."

"It's hard to make plans when we're so far apart."

"I feel guilty enjoying my life here when you're not part of it."

"You deserve happiness, even when we're apart."

"I can't wait for the day we don't have to say goodbye anymore."

[text]: Wish you were here right now. I could really use one of your comforting hugs.

[text]: Missing you like crazy. How about we plan our next visit? I can't wait to see you again.

[text]: Just saw something that reminded me of you. It made me smile and feel closer to you, even from miles away.

[text]: I stumbled upon a cozy café today, and it made me think of the countless hours we spent together at our favorite spot. Can't wait to create more memories like that.

[text]: Today was a tough day, but talking to you on the phone made it so much better. Your voice has this magical way of calming my soul.

[text]: I came across a new recipe, and I can't wait to try it out when we're together. We'll make a mess in the kitchen and create something delicious.

[text]: I stumbled upon a handwritten letter you sent me ages ago. Reading it brought back all the beautiful memories and reminded me of how lucky I am to have you.

[text]: I can't help but smile whenever I see couples walking hand in hand. It's a reminder that no matter the distance, our love remains strong.

[text]: I'm grateful for technology because it allows us to bridge the distance.

[text]: I had a dream about you last night.

[text]: I found an old photo of us, and it made me realize how much we've grown together.

[text]: Sometimes, it feels like the world is conspiring to keep us apart

[text]: Just wanted to remind you that no matter how far apart we are, you're always in my thoughts and in my heart. I love you more than words can express.

[text]: Being in a long-distance relationship has its challenges, but it also makes every moment together so much more special.

[text]: I can't wait for the day when we can close the distance and be together. Until then, every day brings us one step closer. Stay strong, my love.

[vizthedatum]

Another Hinduism/spiritual/philosophy post (based on my current understanding from my readings):

Krishna clearly disavows cults.

He says that the only way to him - for people/devotees to teach his lessons - are for the people who come to him on their own, on their path to moksha (liberation).

We cannot teach anyone who is unwilling to learn, even if they say they are willing - the willingness needs to be ingrained in every, single, part of you, down to your very subconscious.

You must embody it completely and even beyond that. Because to do so is the most powerful act of remembering who you are.

And Krishna purports that through this process, we will realize that this is the only way to break through maya (illusion/delusion).

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So this is all to say: don’t trust gurus who persuade you via false promises of a happy life, if they are not willing to be honest with you about how you see yourself. I think most gurus are false. I think there are people who provide services that can be helpful, but we must all be careful of who we trust - what is their motivation for helping you?

People do find cults - and I think they’re meant to find them, maybe as a challenge in their own physical-spiritual journey to see that it is yet another mask of delusion. (Oh and Hindus definitely find themselves in cults all the time, lmao)

Much like how many of my past friendships and partnerships were - there were a delusion of what I needed or even wanted.

And as much as I hate to admit it (a weakness of my existence), I haven’t fully let go of many of my maya - I want to, that’s why I study, that’s why I pray, that’s why I seek to achieve enlightenment, that’s why I want to treat people the way I think I should be treated…

I have not mastered many of the elements that Krishna tells Arjun about in the Bhagavad Gita - but it’s not necessarily about mastery, it’s about the process of getting there.

I want to be better - I want to keep learning - I want to keep living.

(I’ve often said this, and I’m not quite sure what he told me, but when I was suicidal in high school, it was ultimately the Bhagavad Gita that saved me.

I picked it up and read it on my own, I stopped listening to my parents’ bullshit, I paused time and meditated on the song and what it was saying, and I came to a conclusion that I cannot remember -

but the spirit of it has always stayed in me, and it is that spirit that propels me to fight to stay strong, to find resources, to find comfort, to feel my emotions, to meltdown, to embrace my body, to worship my goddesses, to find Krishna, to come out as trans, to seek refuge with my friends, to make mistakes, to learn from my mistakes, to be who I am despite of all of life’s challenges.

I strayed away from religion after high school - it shook me to my core because I thought I wouldn’t be a good scientist and because I got caught up in finding love from outside myself -

and now after multiple traumatic life events, I find myself more spiritual and devoted than ever, and I cannot go back. I cannot go back even if I wanted to.)

And because of this want, this compulsion…. which I think is part of the plan anyway, the truth will come to me that it’s always been there.

I think God/Source/the truth is everywhere - it is in every single object/idea we can sense, it is what we experience, it is our inner guiding light, it is within us, it is outside of us, its bigger than us, and it is us. It shows us that no one is better than the other.

I am not perfect nor do I aim to be.

I just want to be me.

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So this is all further to say that:

We all have it within us to find our own truth, regardless of religion or method.

I will cease to stop telling people who cannot listen (I’ll blog and express myself of course!! People don’t have to listen to me on here, lol!)

Some people need guidance but they will find each other eventually. Connections often tell you what you need to work on.

I hope I continue to find my people/community (and I already have - I’m immensely grateful for my friends from all walks of life).

This is my own truth and journey - it’s something that has brought me immense peace as I continue to navigate this life.

[eunkitarot]

btw can you do eunchae's current energy reading and any solo gigs for her like magazine shoot, mc for award show , variety show, brand ambassador etc

Hi sure 💗

Current energy:

Knight of wands: little sis is busy. She is constantly moving. She is making strides towards her goals. She is doing things in a courageous approach. Eunchae is feeling enthusiastic about what she is doing currently. Seems like maybe cb preparation and she is feeling pumped up

3 of cups Reversed: I think in terms of her social life she is detached. I am getting a sense of loneliness here. She is feeling the lack of friends perhaps due to her busy schedules and idol life. She also feels lack of support from people around her. I think they do reach out to her, but somehow they are not doing it in a way that she feels supported. She dont feel the support even if people around her gave theirs. They are not doing it right. Its not reaching her is what i am hearing.

Four of Pentacles reversed: right now, eunchae is facing some difficulties of letting go. Of something that does not serve her any purpose. I think she is holding on to the point that it could affect her. So she needs to loosen her grip and be more open to sharing, whether its her time or her space. She is pretty closed off right now that explains why the support of others couldn't reach her. Eunchae is blocking it her herself bcs she is busy holding on this 'thing'.

Queen of wands: however she is feeling very determined, energetic and she is having this strong charisma with her right now. She is forming that charisma of a queen sitting proudly on her throne, holding onto a wand. So very bold . I think her being closed of and holding to that issue is making her more determined to comeback stronger. She is a phase where her passion and dynamic will start to influence the people around her.This magnetic energy can open up pathways for success and new possibilities, making it a promising time for personal and professional endeavors.

The Empress reversed:however she may feel like there is a lack of growth and creativity. This cause her to lack self-nurturing. She might start thinking that she is not good enough or all those negative thoughts like self-hate. This is suggesting that self-care or a new approach may be necessary for her. Because she is in her head thinking that this is a period of stagnation, it manifested into something real. In fact it was not the case in the first place. It could cause her to find difficulty in expressing creativity and worsen the lack of self-nourishment. The reversed Empress prompts Eunchae to refocus on her personal growth, to explore new creative outlets, and to ensure that she is prioritizing self-care as a means of overcoming these challenges.

Overall energy/eight of wands: she is making MASSIVE progress. On all aspects of her life but mostly her career. This tarot card represents a phase of your life marked by accelerated motion and bustling energy. It’s a time when plans and ideas are set into motion, and results come quicker than anticipated, propelling you forward in your journey. So she can expect rapid developments in whatever effort she put in. This dynamic energy can lead to exciting opportunities and the swift resolution of pending issues, so it’s a time for Eunchae to stay alert and adaptable.

Conclusion: her current energy is a mix of both but overall very positive. Its normal for a person to be in their head as long as they move on, let go and contihue to push through. Even now as I am writing, this i can feel a surge of excitement of happiness and curiousity as to what the future is gg to offer.

For future / solo gigs im gg to pull some oracle instead of tarot just as a bonus. So here are the cards:

Success in tranformation: yes but I think Eunchae seems to be more focused in her transformation and wanting to hone her expertise and skills. She dont really care about brand ambassador or any solo activities of that kind. (Which is crazy to me cause she is my ult and I want her to get opportunities too.) But to her its not as important as being able to progress and become better at certain aspects.( for eg: her dance skills) She care about her dance more, so if her management dont give her product endorsement or any face of luxury brands she really couldnt care less.

External Validation: people around her will start to realise how good she is when it comes to her eloquency. Its the way she speaks , her word choices will make peak people's interest. And people in the industry will probably approach her regarding this and offer her opportunities that allows her to display this skill. A lot of praises is about to come her way. She will feel very validated by people around her.

Bravely market your magic: eunchae will be attracting a lot of opportunities just by being herself. She will be able to pull ppl , business owners in because of her personality. Its like she has the pull,the aura that matches certain brands. And they will want her. In fact , the agency does not need to find for her endorsements. Its going to come knocking at their door. It is THE HONG EUNCHAE that is enough to want her as the face of your brand.

The spark of hustle: Eunchae has been working so hard behind close doors and because she is the maknae of the team people tend to oversee her talents and abilities. This is the point in life where her hardwork will pay off. Its gg to blow up. All aspects of her will be seen. And people will realise how good she is. Spark of the hustle also means that her opportunities will blow up because of her hard work being recognised. Like i said all sorts of opportunities will be laid out to her like a silver platter. Its like a domino effect of good things coming her way because of Eunchae's patience to continue grinding.

You Are the light: i think this aspect is where her postiveness as a person is going to be the very reason she is appreciated. Her being the light everywhere she goes brings her to places she needed to be and places where she deserves to be. She is just that person. And that energy of positiveness is going to pull people in. Its gg to reel opportunities in. What she wants is going to be what she gets.

I hope u like my reading this is a looooong one but yeah overall its very positive💗

[imunita]

Look for the light

Short description: The story picks up after Santa Barbara and Ellie's visit to the Farmhouse. Ellie decides to depart from the farmhouse without a clear goal or destination in mind. However, her journey takes a turn and she is saved by Y/N from intruders . Ellie, who is still grappling with grief clashes with YIN due to their strong personalities. Ellie finds Y/N annoying and Y/N challenges her in return. Due to a particular circumstance, they're forced to seek temporary shelter together.

Warnings : kind of enemies to lovers , they're not big fan of each other, mentions of death , guns , mentions of murder, potential smut in future , English isn't my first language

word count : 2.3k

Chapter one

Ellie had been in the forest for a few hours, looking for a way out without any particular goal in mind. She wanted to distance herself from the painful memories that bottled in her mind for past few years. The hope and glimpse of happiness she had felt vanished as soon as she entered the empty hallway of the farm house, leaving her only with memories. Deep down, she understood that pain would remain her constant companion, regardless of where she went. Still, at that moment, escaping her haunting past seemed like the best option, even if she lacked a clear destination.

The summer heat was unbearable, even under the trees. Ellie eventually found a small spot to rest, where she put down her backpack and grabbed a water bottle to quench her thirst. While she drank, a snapping sound caught her attention. Infected weren't common in the area, so she wondered if it was some kind if animal, which was the best case of scenario . She carefully put the bottle down, attempting to grab her gun . But it was too late. Out of nowhere, four men appeared, pointing guns at her. One of them grabbed her from behind, trying to restrain her.

" Fuck " she yelled loudly, as she was trying to get out of intruders' arms .

" Now easy girl, we won't harm you if you stay still " One of them said with a mischievous smile on his face.

" I'll fucking ki..."

She couldn't finish her sentence as man behind her grabbed her neck, attempting to strangle her. In the midst of the struggle, Ellie's mind raced, and she remembered the knife in her back pocket. In a blur of motion, she found herself on the ground, the last remaining man on top of her, threatening her with her own knife.

Despite Ellie's attempts, unknown man almost succeeded in his intent, but was disrupted with a gunshot echoing through the woods. Ellie pushed him away, discovering a stranger standing in front of her , putting her gun in the back pocket. Confusion swirled in her mind as the girl took in the situation , extending a hand, urging Ellie to get up.

"Come on, we don't have much time. There are many of them in these woods," the stranger warned, gesturing her urgently.

Your POV

"She seems so angry , scared and sad at the same time" you thought to herself as you looked in her green eyes , Quickly scanning her features on her face .

" I don't need your help to get up " She mumbled as she quickly got up , starting to collecting her belongings.

"Um... How about " thanks for saving my life?" you retorted, growing irritated with her behavior .

" I killed three of these fuckers without you, would've killed the last one as well " She looked at you , slightly rising her tone .

Despite her fiery attitude, she studied you, her gaze starting from your body and ending with your face.

" I don't think that you would be able to kill him with knife in your throat, but okay , you really seem like a person who has everything put together " You replied sarcastically, following her steps .

Rolling her eyes , she fully grabbed her gear, leaving you with a dry response:

" Anyaways , it was nice to meet you whatever, I gotta go " She wiped blood off her face , heading in the direction of the woods.

" Hey hey hey " you quickly followed her , grabbing her arm to stop her. She looked at you once again, scanning your features, waiting for what you were going to say

" I don't think you understood me earlier." You exhaled " I'm not very fond of you , trust me , but I think it's better to stick together, for few hours " You looked around " You don't know these people, there are lots of them, they are fucking dangerous and are ready to do anything , I mean anything " you explained, masking your fear. The horrifying scenes you'd witnessed hours before meeting Ellie were etched into your mind.

" Shit " she took deep breath " listen... I'm not scared of these fuckers , trust me , I can deal with them , but if you're scared and want , you can tag along until we leave this place " smirk accompanied her words.

" Oh you're just so brave , aren't you? " you rolled your eyes , letting her arm go, as you stepped forward, trying to take the lead " You keep forgetting that I was the one who saved your ass just few minutes ago " You glanced back just to see annoyance on her face .

" Now , we have to move , they're getting closer " You finished your sentence, continuing your way out of the woods.

Next few hours were quit, even too much quiet , other than exchanging small sentences, both of you focused on your own tasks, attempting to navigate your way out. It was evident that she shared your dislike for small talk, so you didn't even try to bore her with questions. It was clear that your paths would diverge once you escaped.

"Um, if you're hungry, I have some almonds left," she spoke up, breaking the silence, her gaze fixed on you as she studied your features.

"I'm fine, had something a few hours ago," you replied quickly , offering a forced smile.

"Okay, whatever," she muttered once more, struggling to match your pace.

And next few hours also were the same , except for catching her occasional glances in your direction, she remained quiet. Looking at the sky, which was barely visible, it was clear that it would go dark very soon and you needed some kind of place to stay in . While you didn't expect her to stay, you secretly desired some companionship after witnessing the ruthlessness of the other group, even if it meant being with this rather unpleasant stranger.

"Um..." You paused, locking eyes with her, as it dawned on you , that you didn't even know her name "By the way, what's your name?" you inquired.

"Ellie," she swiftly responded, even though it was obvious that she wasn't fond of sharing any kind of information with you

"Right, Ellie," you sighed, taking a breath. "It's getting dark. I believe we should find some kind if shelter , or not. I'm just informing you of my plan."

"I think we should keep movi—" She couldn't finish her sentence as a loud shout pierced through the woods.

" I THINK THEY WENT THIS WAY"

You both quickly moved away , realizing that that someone wasn't very far away .Finding nearest bushes , you sprinted down ,shooting Ellie a quick look.

"Listen, I spotted their group hours before they attacked you. I saw them encounter another small group , they killed them in seconds—tortured, even. Trust me, if they're close, we need to fucking run," you whispered m, striving to maintain your composure while flashbacks from earlier in the day replayed in your mind.

"And after... they did unspeakable things to the bodies," you added, attempting to mask your fear.

I mean..." Ellie paused briefly, her gaze sweeping around. "I'm okay with running," she added , meeting your eyes.

"If we stay together, we can escape this place. Just stay cautious and run no matter what," you took charge once again, the urgency fueled by the sound of their voices resurfacing.

"THIS WAY!" the man's voice yelled once more.

And you two ran . Other than taking few short breaks , you didn't look back , trying to escape this haunted place as soon as possible. You didn't know how much time has passed, only thing you knew was that after long , tiring time, you two found yourselves out of the woods , stepping in front of the house , which seemed in an enough shape to think that someone was living inside . At the same time , place seemed very empty and abandoned.

" Listen, I don't think we should stay here," Ellie murmured, concern in her voice. "I get that you're tired, but this place seems occupied, and more importantly, it's not far from the woods," she added, her eyes on you.

"I don't know about you, but I've had an awful day and I need need to rest. I'll check the house, and if it's empty, I'm staying. I don't give a shit about the rest," you exhaled, striding towards the entrance.

"Weren't you the one who just had me running for hours to escape those people? And now you don't give a shit ?" She quipped with a small laugh.

"Less talking, more action," you replied, once again annoyed with her , nodding towards an open window. Without hesitation, Ellie widened the opening, confidently entering the house without a word. She seemed experienced at this.

"Um, I think the house is clear," she called out loudly, the front door already open before you realized.

"Come in," she urged with a serious tone.

"It's only been like 30 seconds. How can you be sure?" you started to ask, but she handed you a note.

"If you're reading this, congrats. You're the new owner of this place because I'm probably dead, rotting somewhere near the river. One of those fuckers bit me, and I refuse to turn into one of them, so I'm going to end my life. There's canned food, clothes, beds, and other supplies in the house. Feel free to use them. But please, do not take my guitar and records. They belong here,"

You quickly scanned note , as mixed feeling emerged your body . On the one hand , you were happy that you found place to sleep in , but on the other hand , this note hit too close to home, as memories started to haunt you once again, remembering your family home , finding oddly similar to this one , as it was so lifeless and full of memories at the same time.

" Looks like we won the lottery " you mumbled and looked at her , trying to read her emotions once again.

" Yup..." She murmured, putting backpack on the ground " Let's just find our beds and I'll leave first thing tomorrow " she finished her sentence, as she scratched her head. Glancing her hand , you quickly noticed that two of her fingers were missing.

I wonder what she's been through," you thought, as Ellie caught your gaze on her hands, trying to conceal her imperfection.

"At least can we find some food? He mentioned canned goods," you attempted to brush off the awkwardness, but it didn't seem to alleviate the tension. Ellie appeared more distant now.

After opening cans of beans and peaches, you found a small table in the living room and headed towards it. As usual, Ellie followed you silently, taking a seat across from you. Dinner was again marked by quietness, though this time, Dinner once again was quiet but this time you were the one who was quietly staring , gathering thoughts in your head . Ellie seemed to be holding lots of emotions—sadness, grief, anger—all painted across her face simultaneously. She was so hard to read. considering the fact that she wasn't fond of you either, made it harder to get to know her even a little bit . Not that you were entirely sure if you wanted to. After losing everyone you ever loved in 20 years, forging connections wasn't high on your bucket list.

" Can you stop staring at me ?" silence was broken by Ellie.

Her words took you off guard, but you weren't the type to shyly look away , even though she was challenging you in many ways , you would never admit it.

" god , I looked at you once " you rolled your eyes " and what I'm supposed to do? We've been together for 12 hours already and you haven't said a word , I'm getting bored here " You took your last bite and put fork in the can .

Grabbing your backpack , you headed towards the hallway, quickly finding two bedroom doors . You checked, both had beds and matrasses that were somewhat clean . As you headed back to living room , you bumped into Ellie , who was standing in hallway, waiting for your next move .

" Um , I checked and there are two badrooms " you looked down , trying to get away from the awkwardness as soon as possible.

" Oh thank god I don't have to sleep wirh you " she said quickly, trying to make conversation less awkward, but it clearly didn't work . She took short pause , looked at you , continued talking with calm tone

"you can choose one, I'm fine with either" she gestured, as you gave her small , genuine smile .

" Okay, I'll take the bedroom that's on the left then " you said quietly, almost whispering, as she nodded, heading towards her bedroom .

Before you opened door , you took a small pause and turned around . It was like she sensed your next move , as Ellie was already facing you .

" I'm Y/N by the way " You murmured and looked in her eyes , she gave you soft smile , as she stepped back .

" well thanks for saving me today Y/N" She finished her sentence and before you knew, next thing you saw was her bedroom door closing in front of you.

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Ahhhh I'm so nervous to finally publish this!!! I have had this idea for months and I finally had courage to write it. It's my first ever writing something, so please be kind and tell me whether if I should continue or not! Comment or dm me your thoughts, it would really mean world to me to hear what you think about it .



[zibethrose]

Happy Wednesday you beautiful souls.Make love your daily bread💞 Recognize that Life throws challenges your way, not to diminish you but for you to recognize your potential. You are stronger than you think.Remember, adversity is the canvas on which your strength is painted🤗The time to start making the most of your life is now.

Stand in YOUR SOVEREIGNTY, embark on an inward journey toward spiritual growth and cultivate a strong connection with the Divine, the Universe, and your inner self. 

Embrace the spiritual journey within. Be true to yourself and express your inner sacred being in all aspects of your life. Take a step back and look at what needs changing or improving and do the things that will impact your life positively. Be open to new opportunities and possibilities coming into your life. Trust your intuition, stay true to yourself, and have faith in the Universe. Believe that you can create the life you want to make it come to be. Figure out what you want most out of life, it is time to take risks and step out of your comfort zone. Make room for inspired thoughts, ... be bold and independent as you embark on a fresh start in life. It's time for change and transformation to journey to a loving, peaceful life. Trust that the universe is guiding you towards opportunities that align with your purpose and values. Follow your intuition and inner wisdom to spiritual growth and enlightenment. You need to start expressing your true self to manifest your desires and create something beautiful.

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