#pwnpd

[draculian-accomplishments]

Reminder for people with Personality Disorders:

You can be in therapy for years to be able to cope.

You can mask the difficulties you have.

You can cope well with your disorders.

You can function in daily life.

But the day you have a bad day, the day you're so overwhelmed that the mask slips and you simply say one thing, the neurotypicals will use it against you and use it to abuse you.

Abuse is a choice. Abusers make the choice to abuse someone. Not every abuser has a personality disorder. There are plenty of abusers that are Neurotypical. Plenty of neurotypicals will abuse those with PDs due to the stigma and misinformation around them.

Quit using terms like "Narcissistic/Histrionic/Borderline/Anti-Social Abuse"

Quit using "Narcissist" and "Anti-Social" as insults.

Quit justifying abuse towards people with PDs.

Quit armchair diagnosing abusers and assholes with Personality Disorders when you don't know the lived experience of people with them.

Stop fucking appealing to Neurotypicals.

[unclaspedartificer]

>([pwNPD❤️pwNPD emoji and pwNPD❤️ChP emoji]

[sun-citadel]

Headcanon time, hooray

Harpuia is a ✨️ narcissist ✨️

No, I don't mean the stereotypical portrayal of an individual with narcissism, but rather the concept of a person [ reploid ? ] with NPD [ pwNPD ] . I'm not saying this because he was a villain, but because it suits him.

Edit ;; this is a game based observation, I didn't account for the audio dramas as it's been a while

[ flag cred ]

Why specifically NPD ? It's typically viewed as the " evil abusive person disorder " , when in reality it's a maladaptive coping strategy to handle a sense of inferiority and an internal struggle with deep seated self - hatred from early on abuse, by portraying one's self as high and mighty �� and in many instances, better than other people to cope. But that's barely scratching the surface.

Anyways. I did reference the DSM - V / an unofficial revised version by a pwNPD, as well as testimonies from others. But this is more an internal character breakdown, rather than how a person may view a pwNPD on an external level.

But to my points :

- 1. Grandiose sense of self :

That's very blatant with how Harpuia portrays himself, to where upon his first meetings with Zero, he states that he will repent for his sins, only to then be bested. While he'd admittedly impressed by it, he does tell Zero to stay healthy so that he may exact his revenge in the end — still believing himself to be superior, despite Zero's legendary status and capabilities. Upon years of going unopposed and retiring reploids to the point of almost boredom it feels like, I've always felt he'd garner a rather haughty attitude up until a challenge comes forth and bests him. Though, his disgust and anger is best apparent upon the repairs forced upon him. To be stripped of his position, to be torn apart, only to then be repaired by those he views as lesser is a clear strike to his ego. He's pushing himself to the point of fully avoiding repairs if it meant he could have a shred of pride left, which, self punishment and harm is common when a pwNPD struggles against a crash and feels at a low point. Harpuia has gone from mighty, basically second in command to X, to someone who was brutally beaten time and time again, to outright admitting to enjoy the pain / letting the pain distract him from his existence [ depending on translation ] to just cope with a fragile sense of self as someone split of X.

- 2. Preoccupied with feelings / fantasies of success, power, etc.

It does tie what I said previously, his countless attempts to try and surpass the legendary reploid, so I won't be redundant and repeat points. But he is in a place of power, of success, yet feels dissatisfied at times. His Japanese dialogue states that :

フフ‥あいかわらず‥やるな‥

それでいい‥それでいいんだ‥

オレは‥

オマエとたたかっているときだけ‥

なにもかもわすれることが‥できるんだ

しばらくは、これでいい

Only when fighting Zero can he forget everything for a little while, an act of self - harm that allows him to cope with the fact the world he knows is starting to crumble. He's forced to face his ego, when he never did prior to the awakening of Zero. It's a ruse. His feelings are complex, switching from the enjoyment of a challenge, only to go mask off during the repairs and admit to feeling highly inferior, especially after his banishment.

By this point, as to not repeat myself, I'll lump categories together.

- 3. Believe that they are “ special ” and can only be understood by other special or high-status people.

The Four Guardians position, being created of X's DNA — dare I elaborate ? He's essentially the top 1% of Neo Arcadia, just below Copy X essentially, with an entire battalion beneath him.

- 4. Require excessive admiration.

Harpuia recieves it, he receives admiration, respect, yet at the same time, fear. He is entitled, because he's so used to his role as someone so above everyone, yet below only Copy X — which he does seem mostly satisfied with, up until his questioning of things with Weil. Being betrayed by his Master like so, especially to someone like Weil, is bound to make anyone feel low : and with Harpuia, he results to harming himself by leaving early from the Resistance Base.

- 5. Sense of boredom, due to a lack of connection with others.

Points to the Japanese translation yet again. That, paired with the fact he seems relatively lonely. The other guardians don't even follow him in his banishment, and show up only after to aid in defeating Omega. They were a team, he worked closely with Leviathan — yet, ultimately he was left by himself.

- 6. Lack of empathy.

He's killed others for what he assumed the greater good, contemplated killing Zero while he was downed, attempted to kill Elpizo for knowing too much, there are various times where he takes a more selfish approach when he tries to play hero. Though, in his lack of compassion and empathy, he does choose to do good — especially when following the rules of robotics to help aid and protect Neo Arcadia. Though to other reploids, he comes across as callous, harsh, and even evil, yet, he is simply following orders that he learns to eventually question upon realizing he's doing more harm than good.

So he enters an arc of remission at the end, where he isn't cured [ NPD is incurable ] , but ultimately makes a selfless sacrifice to better humanity.

Does he like Zero after this ? Debatable. Does he respect him ? Absolutely, possibly to the point of being viewed as an equal in the NPD hierarchy in my eyes, despite initially starting out as a devalued person / bottom of the tier.

There are other points, but I really don't want to be repeating myself. He just comes across as an individual with NPD, judging from a fluctuating sense of self as his ego is repeatedly shot down by Zero. He's self loathing despite a mighty mask he wears, and ultimately, still attempts to do good despite the horrible actions commited from a lack of awareness that his goal caused harm.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

[miki-kit]

This may be too niche but do any of yall remember like back in 2021 when there was that trend with My Ordinary Life by The Living Tombstone and everyone was saying they had a God complex?? And then everyone else started saying "no, you don't have a god complex, you're just 14"??? Yeah except I REALLYY related to those lyrics especially analyzing it as being so on the top and knowing how great you are but still feeling like you need to remain absolutely perfect and everything is a critique. Yeah, so that should've been the first sign of my NPD-

[dragon-of-grandeur]

I wonder if systems can be triggered by NPD. Hear me out. A big part of NPD is not having a solid sense of self, even hating yourself. So what if your brain just decides to be different people because it can't decide who to be or because it's trying to create someone that feels more pleasing to others?

I feel like Max and I might have split in order to protect the part of me that I deemed "innocent" and separate it from all the things I hated about myself...

Of course, I also find Max embarrassing. So, potentially, I ripped him off and discarded him like an old mask that I got tired of wearing and no longer wanted to be associated with it for fear of his personality being too "cringey" and "weak".

Either way, I just think it's interesting to consider how having NPD has possibly influenced our system.

[aaaah-realfeelings]

egotypicals are like “i KNOW this person is a NARCISSIST because THEY DID EVERYTHING WRONG TO ME but I did absolutely NOTHING WRONG i am 1000% the VICTIM in this situation and only did GOOD THINGS. GREAT THINGS! Them = BAD ME = GOOD” and be completely serious. lol guess who you sound like

[discordantdays]

As a pwNPD who feels little to no empathy, I sometimes wonder what it feels like. I wonder what it's like to not be hated for something I can't control

I may not feel the sadness you feel, but that doesn't mean I can't help try to make you feel better. I have enough recognition to know that comforting words and actions can help. I may not understand it, or honestly, care that much, but I know that it affects you. I know that it hurts you. So I try to help in the small ways I can

I hear people (especially on social media) complain all the time about people with (little to) no empathy and how "evil", "heartless", "monsters" we are. How we are "cruel" and "villians" for not having something they do

But that doesn't seem fair at all

I may not feel what you feel, but that doesn't make me heartless. It doesn't make me a monster. I don't feel or understand, and that doesn't make me evil. It makes me a person with my own issues and pain. It makes me a person who has to actively try to do their best to help those around me

If I could tell people (especially those that claim to be empaths) one thing about NPD, it would be to not judge based on your own preconceived image of NPD, but instead judge on the character. Judge by what we say and do. Judge by how we try, despite not having the same skills you do

We are people. Just like you. Treat us that way

- Saint

[beetlepilled]

being a narcissistic writer is awful because sometimes i read something so good it makes me think "wtf why didn't i wrote that first?!"

[dodgeryy]

So I follow namelessnarcissist on tiktok love his content and like. People HATE when he posts content that they can't turn into some pop psychology yes this is why my ex was evil.

Like his posts that r about cluster bs lifting each other up and like support and how disabling npd is get NO PUSSY.

[the-rolls-on-black]

people are allowed to have their own hcs and stuff it's just really annoying that i only hear the "ford actually has autism" hc when it's to dunk on ppl saying Ford has NPD. or people saying "well he doesnt exhibit these traits and if he does, that doesn't mean he has npd/a cluster b disorder because it's just traits" or "well pwnpd don't make posts saying they relate their experiences with Ford, but people with Autism do so..." ????

it's so silly. why are people not listening to this WHOLE GROUP of people with npd saying ford exhibits their traits. why do we have to put down this hc to lift another one up? this is the first time in forever where a character is more or so agreed to have a disorder that I have and struggle with, and it feels demeaning when that hc is dismissed! Ford isn't a "good guy" but he isn't a "bad guy" either, and it's so refreshing seeing a character with NPD TRAITS be treated with nuance instead of an evil guy who does evil things.

it's ALSO silly because it's like saying you can't have both of these disorders either. when you can! npd is a personality disorder, after all.

[narcpocalypse]

NPD consumes me

But ya know what I consume?

UR MOM

[draculian-accomplishments]

Quirky NPD Ask Game!

🥀 - Favorite unusual compliment? (ie "You're crunchy")

💌 - Your biggest accomplishment right now?

💎 - Favorite thing about yourself? (Appearance, personality, etc)

🩰 - What's your favorite supply right now?

🎀 - What character do you feel represents NPD best?

🥧 - Preferred way to treat yourself in a narc high?

🌓 - Any other PDs you have?

🎼 - A song you feel represents NPD?

🗯️ - Favorite NPD meme?

🛎️ - A silly or unorthodox coping mechanism?

🗝️ - Favorite quote you can relate to NPD?

🏩 - What do you love about being a narcissist?

🌌 - Least favorite NPD stereotype? (Can be fictional or real!)

🪄 - Highest D&D stat?

Image ID: DNI Narc "Abuse" blogs, demonize Cluster B Disorders, use "Narcissist" as an insult, Etc. Don't be a dick.

[interruptedsblog]

I don't understand pwbpd who have partners and are in love, how do they maintain long-term love? I can't "love" someone for more than two months, I always end up devaluing them, I don't feel real love, I only feel sexual attraction and obsession, but not love.

[basalts-system]

I love my little brother so much.

He has BPD and struggles with accepting when he's wrong about something.

But he like always tells me when hes still in defense mode.

He's always like.

Give me a moment. And then I give him a moment.

Guys it's not hard to Respect pw/pd

Yes, and I shouldn't have to say this, this goes for all pd

Also npd

[miki-kit]

One time I took that NPD test online and thought 'yeah, that's a little high of a score but maybe it's just broken'. Like I figured this test couldn't be that accurate, it's just like taking a fucking buzzfeed quiz.

BOY WAS I WRONG.

Continued to have all my close friends take it (who I trusted enough to not particularly care about me possibly having NPD) and all their scores were INSANELY low. Looking at the side by side made me feel like a monster bruh. 😭

I even thought "maybe it's cause they're autistic but in a different way than me" so I had my very blunt, very non-caring autistic best friend take it.

Low score.

I had them take DIFFERENT ONLINE TESTS. Every single time, they all got low scores.

Yeah, everytime I think I don't have NPD, I reflect on that.

The test I used most, in question

Cluster B safe space, neurotypicals DNI

[dragon-of-grandeur]

For some reason, I keep forgetting that no one is worth my time.