18 years since someone first noticed I was a bit different
8 years since I tried to tell my mom I felt different
7 years since my doctor told me it was probably nothing
6 years since I started guilting myself into thinking I was a liar
3 years since I started to accept that I wasn’t
2 months since I finally met a psychiatrist to test me
3 days since I was diagnosed with ADHD
1 day of finally starting to accepting myself
You know your mind and body better than anyone else. Lying is intentional. Please don’t give up on getting the care you deserve because you aren’t being heard. Someone is ready to listen to you.
Here’s some positivity for systems who have been misdiagnosed!
Receiving a diagnosis for any sort of illness or disorder can often be a lengthy, difficult, and expensive process. Unfortunately, healthcare professionals are only human, and sometimes they make mistakes which can have painful consequences for those who they treat. So here’s to all the systems out there who have received a wrong diagnosis in the past!
Shoutout to systems who questioned their doctor’s diagnostic choices but were misdiagnosed anyway!
Shoutout to systems who have had to self diagnose after receiving a diagnosis that doesn’t affect them!
Shoutout to systems whose misdiagnosis set them back in their recovery or made it more difficult for them to find resources and support!
Shoutout to endogenic, created, spontaneous, traumagenic, xeno origin, and other systems who have been wrongly diagnosed with DID, OSDD, or another dissociative disorder!
Shoutout to systems who have been misdiagnosed due to their healthcare professionals refusing to take them and their symptoms seriously!
Shoutout to systems who have sought out a second opinion from another healthcare professional after receiving a questionable diagnosis!
Shoutout to systems who find it difficult to trust doctors, therapists, and psychiatrists due to being misdiagnosed in the past!
Shoutout to those whose systems formed due to a traumatic experience with misdiagnosis!
Shoutout to systems who have misdiagnosed themselves and have had to re-examine their symptoms and change their diagnosis in the past!
Shoutout to systems who struggle to accept their proper diagnosis after dealing with being misdiagnosed!
Shoutout to systems who are unsure about their diagnosis or suspect they’ve been misdiagnosed!
Everyone struggling with a medical condition deserves a proper and correct diagnosis by healthcare professionals who understand them and center their voice in the diagnostic process. However, very sadly, this doesn’t always happen! If you or someone you know has been wrongly diagnosed in the past, we’d like to offer our deepest condolences. We hope that someday soon you can fully and accurately understand what illness or condition is affecting you!
Please don’t blame yourself or treat yourself too harshly for receiving a misdiagnosis or even misdiagnosing yourself. Mistakes happen, and receiving a misdiagnosis is not a poor reflection on your character and doesn’t mean you’ve been faking in any way! We hope that soon you can receive a proper diagnosis that reflects your struggles and opens up possibilities for recovery, community, and support. Remember that we care about you and we’re rooting for you regardless of your diagnoses or lack thereof! Thanks so much for reading, and take care!
[PT: Hoarding disorder/HD without OCD flag /END PT]
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Colors and squares mean that’s a hoard of something, same for the icon in the middle of the flag.
Oppositional defiant disorder/ODD flag
[PT: Oppositional defiant disorder/ODD flag /END PT]
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Colors in the flag are commonly associated with rage.
My two year anniversary with two of my insys partners was a few weeks ago, and my one year anniversary with my other is coming up! It got me thinking about how much our relationship (all of us are with each other) has evolved and grown, even though at times sharing a body has been a challenge.
As many of you know, we have P-DID. Because I'm the host, that means l've been front-stuck since I formed. I have access to headspace most of the time, but it's made having extremely committed relationships in the system a little difficult. I wanted to share some tips for insys partners!
These should work for systems with front-stuck members or no headspace. (It's worth noting, some of this requires co-fronting, which isn't easy/possible for all systems. These tips have also really helped me with mindfulness, grounding, and mental health and could definitely be modified for self love!
(TW: metions of food)
Some ideas for dates/spending time together
Play video games together
Share meals
Read together
If you feel safe, go places alone with them (ie: the zoo, a festival, etc)
Dance together
Just talk, talk as much as you can
Cook each-other’s favorite meals
Lean on each other
The most important thing we’ve found is communication, understand that there might be times that you wish the relationship was different. It’s okay to acknowledge that it hurts sometimes to not be able to interact in the meatspace. It also proves that you’re worth fighting for, that obviously being with one another is more important than the setbacks. In system relationships can be just as fulfilling as outerworld relationships, but they arguably take more work.
Tell each other everything. Understanding each other better than external partners could is a gift and a huge strength you should capitalize on. It’s also important to really lean into the emotional aspects of your relationships, this really helps foster intimacy.
Remember that you are still fully capable of hurting one another. Despite being in a system together, you still need to nurture your relationship. Things won’t be perfect, and there may be times you have to fight for your relationship.
In system relationships can still be unhealthy, make sure you’re being careful and not allowing mistreatment. If you feel like not being able to escape your headmate may make you allow toxic behavior, you should avoid starting a relationship.
Most of all, have fun, enjoy being together, relax! Insys relationships are absolutely amazing! You are so valid! You can still be “meant to be” even if you share a body.
My partners truly make me so happy, I want to be with them forever, they mean everything to me! I know it can be intimidating to start a relationship with a headmate, and it’s definitely worth asking if you’re truly willing to put an internal relationship first, but it really is the best decision I’ve ever made. I’m so in love, and my babies are worth every sacrifice.
I’ll never forget my counselor’s face when I said I used to secretly be really into aliens because I was worried that I was one. I thought I must not be from earth. But I must have known how weird that was because I never wanted anyone to find out. I would pull up the wikipedia page for dogs or trees or something, just to have a decoy tab to click to really fast so I wouldn’t risk anyone noticing what I was actually reading about or asking me why.
Anyway I’ve never attempted clinical diagnosis but if a professional ever tries to tell me I’m allistic I will laugh at them so hard and mock their career choice.
I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.
Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.
And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.
I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.
But do you know what I found?
I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,
I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.
Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:
I was worth talking to when I was quiet.
I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.
So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.
You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.
(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)
i don’t feel like i have special interests… i definitely get obsessed with things but i get over it after a month or less.. does that still count??
another thing that i’ve always been aware of is that i purposely don’t allow myself to interact with something because i know i’ll ‘become obsessed with it’, so i purposely don’t watch a specific show, don’t play a game, talk to people who like said things, etc. which could be a reason why i don’t have any spins, because i literally don’t let myself develop any
but i just feel so invalidated… i also have adhd so could that be impacting it… any advice/kind words??
This blog is for anyone who has aspd, antisocial traits, conduct disorder, oppositional defiance disorder, etc! Any one who exhibits antisocial symptoms can ask here.
BYF: I am an anti contact paraphile (unless you're not hurting anyone), I'm obviously against the idea of custer b abuse, I'm pro self dx. I have npd, hpd and aspd
Anyone can interact, just dont be an asshole.
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ngl I routinely forget that self-diagnosis discourse is A Thing and every single time it’s like getting slapped in the face by a wet fish of just how fucking insane people are about it. Can self-diagnosis be harmful? Absolutely it can, for numerous reasons. You might overlook something major and end up being treated for the wrong thing, as an example. But on the flip-side, self-diagnosis can also be incredibly helpful for managing symptoms and receiving support when professional help isn’t readily available, especially since professionals themselves are absolutely not immune to biases and bigotry in regards to mental health. It’s a complex topic and I despise seeing people go “ohh all self-dx bad” and “ohh all self-dx good” when the reality of it is that it’s just extremely contextual.