#*mental note to self*

[ohhcinnybuns]

I'm here to yap

Hi, I'm here to yap about one of my best Tumblr friend, @anticidic

I am here to provide her and you with my top 10 Rosie ficlets because I need to gush about what an amazing writer she has become and how I'm very proud of her. Have you read her work? It's amazing! You should give them a read if you haven't yet.

So, if you don't mind my yap fest, here it goes.

TOP 10 ANTICIDIC FICLETS THAT DROVE ME INSANE AND HAD ME SCREAMING LIKE A BOILING KETTLE (a thread????)

I once created a mechanical butterfly so I could watch it soar through the sky,  the springs clink, a bolt fallen from its... – @anticidic on Tumblr The steamiest of steamiest steampunk au. When I tell you that I ROLLED in my bed, kicked my feet, gasped into my phone, giggled like crazy, this is it. I know we talked about this AU, and I can't remember how it spawned to save my life, but I LOVE everything about it. If this was read as a podfic, I would keep it on repeat. Easily, #1.

ONE DAY I WILL RETURN TO YOUR SIDE by @anticidic You've often annihilated my feelings, but a true writer becomes a writer when the feelings overtake them. You cried. I cried. I think everyone cried. I was an emotional wreck, BUT what I love about your fics is that they always have some comfort, and you did this just right.

ONLY FOR THE STARS IN YOUR EYES – @anticidic on Tumblr This AU has tortured me because we talk about it often BUT HE'S ONLY BEEN WRITTEN ABOUT ONCE. But the fear that comes from Snakezai being found out by Chuuya... the suspense kills me. Literally, you did the suspense so wonderfully here that I was on the edge of my seat.

Dear writing muse, Here is a writing prompt to help get you into the spooky mood: "Don’t you want to be consumed by what loves... – @anticidic on Tumblr I believe I came to you with this prompt to help you with your Halloween spooks and man, did I. eat. THIS. UP. Your kitsunes have altered my neurons, and I will SWEAR to have your kitsunes with their happy ending, or so help me, I WILL come for your knees. I will walk your halls like a zombie and pop out of your TV. I still GRRRRRR GRRRRRR BARK when I read it. Which reminds me, did you know she added more to her Halloween zine piece? heheehehhehe... check out her ao3.

UNSPOKEN PROMISES – @anticidic on Tumblr Snowzai, my dear Snowzai, he's the love of my life. Of course, a top 10 fic wouldn't be top 10 without Snowzai's mentions. The sun to my moon. I BREATHE him, and you know this; this has had to be the most wholesome Snowzai you've written yet. I love him with his flowers and little animal friends and being cared for. The fluff, the comfort, the little things that make him happy. He's everything, and we gotta protect him at all costs.

SO SHALL THE RIVER OF TIME FLOW Snow White!Dazai dreams a most peculiar dream about the Queen's magic mirror. He blows away the... – @anticidic on Tumblr Now... the downside of Snowzai is the overwhelming amount of angst, and we've yapped about him for what feels like centuries now, but this absolutely hurt my feelings and had me internally screaming and falling to my knees. This little paragraph alone was enough to remind me that... I really do love to hurt my own feelings, and you are too good at ANGST. Maybe I should give you nicer prompts from now on, lol. "Then, the sound of glass breaking. The same kind he heard back at the castle, far down the corridor and to the left when Mother dropped her crystal glass and screamed wordlessly. The anger that filtered through the halls and attached itself to the walls."

In a kingdom not too far away, where love blooms like early spring, there is a ball for the royal ladies and gentleman that... – @anticidic on Tumblr Snowzai. That is the literal tweet. But the reason I have this snowzai at #7 is because I love how you capture the moment - Dazai done with his heels and Chuuya still as princely as ever. This is what I love about romantic fairytales au's. Your post inspired my writing, and I can't tell you enough how much I love it.

hello! if it’s not to late to ask and if it hasn’t already been asked for, number 6 + ssk? – @anticidic on Tumblr This one is skk on a mission but Dazai being the most playful Dazai in existence. There is a playfulness to your SKK Dazai's that always have me giggling and kicking my feet, and I think you encompass his assholery just right, ehehe. This one was fun to read!

It often goes like this in movies, someone abandons reason over fear, A little interesting if you ask me. So to warm up your... – @anticidic on Tumblr Another kitsune mention, but this one is just one of those that hit me with gut punches. You beat up my feelings with your kitsunes. The psychological turmoil with Chuuya taking some of Kitsunezai's memories and how it affects them both... What is real? What is yearning? What is psychosis?

Metamorphosis by @anticidic Speaking of Psychosis. You just dropped this and it's already here with my top 10. I love Swan Lake. I love ballet aus. Something about the emotional turmoil in Dazai and how much Chuuya has become his obsession to reach yet toss away... omg... imma go slide down a wall after posting this. I KNEW IT WAS AN EMOTIONAL TRAIN WRECK, BUT I'M OKAY. EVERYTHING IS OKAY. EVERYTHING IS FINE (it's not fine). But, I reiterate my earlier statement: when you write with your feelings, it shows, and this was wonderfully written. From the mental turmoil to the physical injury, I felt that.

I guess this ends my yap fest, hehe. If you've made it this far, you are a trooper, and I hope you learned a little more about Rosie and why I think she's a wonderful writer, and why I love her ficlets. Don't forget to follow her ao3 for more SKK content. You'll always be in for a treat.

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[johnny-depp-is-loved]

can’t believe I have to say this but it’s completely okay to question your own sexuality as an adult. you don’t have to have every single thing in your life figured out before you turn 18 babe. those socially deadlines are not real. there’s actually no such thing as deadline for learning new things about yourself as long as you’re alive

[stil-lindigo]

the vulture.

a comic about cycles.

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[disgracefulthings]

Shang Qinghua, holding a present: Happy Birthday my king!

Mobei-Jun: ...what?

Shang Qinghua: Oh, once a year humans celebrate our birthdays with gifts, so I got you something!

Mobei-Jun: No I got that, I just don't know how you know it's my birthday, I don't even know when I was born

Shang Qinghua, sweating profusely: I guessed

[lucabyte]

even dogs pass the mirror test

[biscuithoney]

The sillies!

They know Zane, they know...

Based on an interaction between me and my friends.

[permdaydreamer]

I refuse to believe the best years of my life are behind me. I refuse to believe the best years of my life are right now. I refuse to label my years as being the best of my entire life. Good times are always ahead. I have to believe there are always better times coming.

[oysters-aint-for-me]

tips on refrigerator ownership for the mentally ill

1.) letting food go bad does NOT make you a Bad Person.

2.) it is okay to throw out only one thing at a time. even especially if there are a lot of expired things in there.

3.) give yourself permission to throw out tupperware once in a while.

[raining-at-ease]

[haleyincarnate]

Even when you can't open your curtains to welcome the sunlight. Even when your heart feels twice as small as it usually is. Even in the deepest dark you know. Especially then.

Inspired by @wetheurban

[recoverr]

shoutout to all the kids with good people as bad parents. the parents who were sympathetic, honest and kind to everyone until you were the next in line. the parents who loved the entire family except you. the parents who preached about acceptance, warmth and kindness, but never offered it to you. the parents who were understanding to friends, cousins or siblings, but not to their own children. the cognitive dissonance is surreal, but i promise it is not a reflection of your own worth. you deserve more.

[healing-is-cool]

It’s not about if you’ll make it, it’s about when. You have everything it takes to create a life where you feel safe, loved, and free.

[atinycupofpositivitea]

This is the sign that you are going to make it.

Take care.

[sunsetsandhope]

and if today was rough for you, i am proud of you.

and if you suffered today silently, i am proud of you.

and if you struggled with eating but you still ate, i am proud of you.

and if you were not happy for your body but you let it exist in the peace, i am proud of you.

whatever happened today good or bad, whatever you felt today - i am still very much proud of you, please keep going my friend, i love you.

[creatingnikki]

another year is ending and I want you to know that it is okay if you:

have not healed from the things that happened/did not happen from six months ago. just because the year is ending it does not mean your grief is too.

don't have any "fun" NYE plans to ring in the new year. this life is yours to live across days and months and years, and you can celebrate days other than the ones heavily marketed and shoved down your throat to shroud you in severe FOMO.

have no resolutions or goals for the new year laid out in elaborate lists or shared on social media or with your friends. you are braving through this life trying to do your best every day and hold the fort and so of course you know, deep down you know what is needed from you for you going forward and of course you are going to work in that direction. good luck love.

have not become a "better" version of yourself by any of the tangible or conventional measures. that kind of bettering is mostly to serve others, not yourself.

are not happy with yourself/your life as it is now. you're a work-in-progress, remember? and if you're progressing in a direction you do not like, then it's time to change the blueprints and the strategy.

take time off social media around this time to protect your mental health and whatever little joy you have managed to keep.

don't want to spend too much time reflecting on how this past year went and doing various forms of 2023-wrapped. again, it's your life. you can also revisit this year in memories and pictures and feelings whenever you'd like. it's not like you don't still visit 2012, 2017, and 2022, right?

feel disconnected from your friends, family, lover. I know this is "ideally" a time to be celebrated with your loved ones. but life is not ideal, is it? it's just life. and if right now you are not feeling the love, the joy, or just don't have the headspace or social energy to engage , that's alright.

are finding comfort in simpler things like a TV show from the 90s or that book you first read at sixteen or that slice of strawberry cake or a random post like this you come across.

don't feel hopeful, encouraged, or excited for the new year. given everything that's happened in the last couple of years, on the macro and micro level, it's only natural for you to feel weary as well as wary. when the good things happen, when the healing happens, when things begin working in your favour over time, you will automatically feel all those things. it's okay if until then you choose to be neutral.