#control issues

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Be careful cause at times it's just your fears and past experiences (something that your mind has connected to pain) that make you think you are not in control of yourself (and therefore you try to control others/future events), but you are.

You are always in control of your decisions, of your emotions and your life. You are always in control of your reactions and of what you make those past experiences mean about you, even if they weren't exactly about you (and ofc you didn't know so please forgive yourself for it: you did your best with what you knew). Remind yourself that now you have the power to change how you perceive them. You have the power and hold the control on how and when to move on from something that happened in your past, and if and how/when to accept the chance that it can change. It's all in your hands. And it's indeed very scary to think it this way too (especially if you were used to others taking control of you and deciding for you), but it's all up to you and nobody else. And you can do it (slowly, you will learn how to if you take little risks and allow yourself to try). Best of lucks, my friend.

[elijahslittleprincess]

Darling don't test me.

Leonora being jealous is the sexiest thing on earth!

Leo: Where do you think you're going darling?

You: Im going to study with Ester, she asked me yesterday.

You looked at Leonora for a second with a pretty smile before turning around and heading for the classroom door. However, before you could turn the doorknob and leave, you felt a strong grip on your arm that tuned you around and pressed you hard against the door you were about to open.

You gasped in surprised at the quick gesture and your dark brown eyes fixed themself on your girlfriend. She looked pissed and just like about to literally murder someone. Even tho you had been in couple with her for so long, you had to admit that you still felt scared when she was acting like this toward you. Leonora could be really scary when she was mad and apparently you just made her furax.

When you accepted the invitation of Ester you knew pretty well it was a risk to take and that their was literally practically no chance that you would be able to leave your wife if she knew. After all Leonora was nothing if not possessive and terribly controling. She had her own insecurities and that because of her past...She wasn't allowing you to hang out with other poeple, she was way to jealous for that.

But anyway you had tried her patience today and you slowly realised it clearly wasn't a good idea.

The dean of evil took a hold of your neck and tighten her grip making you struggle to breath a little. Your eyes went wide for a second and you tried has hard has possible not to show that you where scared. Yet when you saw the darkness of her eyes and purple flame appears on her left hand, your eyes start watering and you whispered her name has best you could with her hand around your neck.

You: Le..Leonora.

The redhead at the sight of a single tear that escaped your eyes and your voice calling her name let go of your neck and took a long breath that literally made her perfect body shake with anger. Her expression however soften a little and her hand that was making flame appears, close itself and stopped the magic.

During that time your head had fallen backward to land against the door and you had closed your eyes shaking a little bit by fear.

Leonora's perfect manicured hand after a second came to your chin and brought your eyes that opened with the contact of her hand, back into hers.

Leo: Now...you will listen to me attentively. (she said with a voice that was to authoritative to even question).

Leo: I tought I had been quite clear about those things!? You are mine y/n! And I will not allow anyone but me to have you. I won't allow you spending time with an other girl.

Leo: I don't give a fuck about others want's, im the only one that gets to be with you or see you. I am the dean of the school for evil, and evil doesn't share! Evil get's what it want and doesn't care what it has to do for it.

Leo: So my love, be a dear and never test my limits like that again because the next time I won't be has nice.

Leo: Now...(she said when taking a long breath to calm down a bit). I want you on my desk right now with your legs spread open for mommy. All of this made me quite hungry...

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

Wait. I will probably gain more weight than before in recovery, but... with the time, it will stabilize and can I get back to my pre-ed body or a normal body and stabilized weight with proper nutrition and exercise after fully recovery? The "disproportionate body" will disappear one day, right?

Because you said: "This is tough for a lot of people in ED recovery, especially because your body may change shape or gain back weight in "disproportionate" ways. ***Even when this phase has passed, your post-recovery body might not go back to the way it was before you got sick.***

So the disproportionate body will likely go away, yes. A lot of people who are new to restriction recovery gain back weight in disproportionate ways and experience lots of other medical symptoms while their bodies try to heal from what they've been through.

Will your body go back to exactly what it looked like pre-ed? That I don't know. This uncertainty may be hard to embrace, and it's totally okay to feel that way. You're definitely not the only one, I can tell you that. The thing about extreme restriction is that it throws your body into survival mode, so your metabolism might work differently for a long time after this because it retained the traumatic experience of starvation and is now in a place of thinking "I need to hold onto every calorie I can get." Different bodies work differently. Your body at full recovery may look different from your pre-ED body and that's okay, and not any sort of moral reflection on you. You're allowed to feel how you feel about it though, and to grieve for your life pre-ED, and to struggle with allowing your body to do whatever it needs to do.

That's a hard thing, though, isn't it? Letting your body take control? Restriction and eating disorders in general often center around a need to feel a sense of control, especially over one's body. To guarantee that you can make your body be what you idealize it to be through all the trials of time and a full life lived.

It's natural for bodies to change as they go through things in life, something I think I've mentioned before. Eating disorder recovery is one of those things. Other things that can drastically change the body (including its base weight): pregnancy and childbirth, a major health condition, a stress event, a grief event, or just plain aging. All of these things are hallmarks of a full life, much as we may feel uncomfortable while we are living these moments. It's natural to look back on the time that was before and think, how did my body go from that to this? Someday you may have the good fortune to have lived to old age, but you'll be looking at your wrinkled skin with eyesight that's gone blurry, working extra hard to pull yourself out of your chair just to go to the toilet, and you may look back to where you are right now and think "God, I miss how young I was then." Of course, you may experience many joyous and beautiful moments on the way to get to that stage of your life, too.

Oh, one tip I do have for you: while exercise can be great for your physical and mental health, I recommend not taking it on with the specific goal of weight loss, as that might be a restriction trigger. Many people in ED recovery find that to be the case. Find a form of exercise that is fun and rewarding to you, and pursue it to get good at it and enjoy the positive health outcomes it can bring to your body.

[kerinna]

Control issues: Moon-Ruled Nakshatras

Rohini: Likes to control their special space.

Hasta: Likes to control where they end up in life.

Shravana: Like to control when they show up. (If something is important, lie about the time or go pick them up yourself lol)

[hood-ex]

I have this fic idea where Alfred dies soon after Jason does, and Dark!Bruce takes over. Because Bruce fears losing more people he cares about, he becomes insanely controlling to the point where he locks Dick up in one of those stasis pods (same pods he put Dick, Jason, and Damian inside of after Bane hanged them), and Tim, who only has some Robin training under his belt at this point, has to break into the manor to figure out what the fuck is going on. Upon entry into the cave, he finds Dick in the pod.

An alarm starts blaring as soon as Tim opens the pod. The cave goes into lockdown. Not in any condition to fight, Dick and Tim flee further into the cave to look for weak spots at the exit areas. It's there that they stumble upon something absolutely horrifying... Alfred's corpse in a stasis chamber. They're both bewildered because they went to Alfred's funeral. They saw Alfred's corpse go underground. Did Bruce bury a dummy or did he dig up Alfred's corpse himself?

Thoroughly disturbed, Dick and Tim blow up a portion of the cave wall to escape. After they manage to get a bike across the wreckage, they drive like a bat out of hell. Only, once they get to the end of the driveway, they see a familiar car speeding towards the manor.

Dick rides away faster than he ever has in his entire life with Bruce hot on his heels. Tim clutches on to Dick so hard that his fingerprints probably indent into Dick's skin. They race towards the city where Dick manages to weave between lines of traffic. They finally lose Bruce, who can't maneuver his car through the same spaces as their bike.

They drive further and further away until Dick absolutely insists that they ditch the bike since there could be a tracker on it. They push the bike into the river, and from that point forward, Dick and Tim do everything they can to get out of Gotham, get off of Bruce's radar, and run.

And Bruce? Well. He's glad that he put a tracker under Dick's skin while Dick was unconscious. It'll make it so much easier for him to hunt his two Robins down.

[lysshome]

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[moonlit-positivity]

The control your parents take away from you as a child is gonna be the same control you fight yourself with as an adult. When you're faced with situations that leave you stranded and abandoned and you're still looking for ways to make it work, remember how hard your parents forced you as a child to stay loyal and obedient and tolerable of abuse. Remember how they stripped you of all your autonomy and made it so that believing you deserve shit is easier than believing you deserve better. That control you place on yourself and others around you is gonna be what holds you back. Take some time to acknowledge the pain of letting go and letting life do it's job to turn on its own axis. You've got to learn how to recognize when your past is interfering with the here and now, you've got to learn how to adapt and be flexible with change. You do this by turning that attention inwards and focusing on how you soothe yourself when you're stressed. Your inner talk matters, how you feel about yourself matters. You can't control the world, but you can control your world and what's in it.

[terrence-silver]

Would Terry be into pda?

Well, what do you think?

Admittedly, Terry uses (or rather, abuses?) touch as an invasive weapon. Touches people for a great many reasons. To disconcert them. To confuse the senses. To catch them off their guard. Signal friendliness where there is none. Establish trust. Tear down boundaries on purpose. As a method of intimidation. To make people secretly uncomfortable and garner glee off of it. Purely to, yes, invade their space simply because he can (he is a larger, stronger and taller man than most, so what is anyone really going to do about it?) But, Terry also very much doesn't seem to like himself touched and appears to avoid it at any given opportunity, at least from people he hates or doesn't really have particularly positive feelings towards. Bows instead of shaking a hand, passes it off as respect to Mr. Miyagi and Daniel. Doesn't enjoy Mike Barnes's hand even accidentally grazing him as instinctual self-defense during a mutually staged fight. Even people he casually dates in passing, like in the case of Cheyenne --- everyone keeps their hands strictly to themselves for what little we've seen. Nobody touches nobody. Nobody's hands are thrown over anyone's shoulder. No skin grazes anyone else's skin. No trace of affection is there. Not even in private. These are all people he deems antagonistic, perhaps temporary, cool on the scale of his affections, tools to be used and tossed aside; each and every one in their own respective way. Safe to say, when Terry Silver has someone in that 'enemy box' or 'indifferent box' he loathes or avoids everything stemming from the people in said box, even their purely nonchalant, random touches, all while he can go around touching whoever he pleases and however he pleases, for whatever reason. That one guy at the club back in the '80's, for example? Terry doesn't even know him and immediately goes in and touches the man to the point that to an outsider looking in it can almost seem suggestive.

Daniel gets touched by Terry even when it is absolutely not necessary purely so he'd mess with that kid's mind and because in this dynamic and student and teacher, teenager and adult, there's overtones and overtones of grooming and skewed power levels involved. Terry knows that. One either accepts the touches, or the covenant of teaching is potentially over. Daniel might not be taught the precious knowledge he wants to garner, so he better take it. Take all the touching and all the pain.

Like, I said, Terry does what Terry wants.

Yet, people cannot do whatever they want to Terry, no. One set of rules for him and a totally different set of rules for quite literally everyone else, because in his ego-driven, narcissistic world, he's at the top of the totem pole and everyone else is beneath him. He makes the rules. Breaks the rules too. He calls the shots. He's in control. Is it hypocrisy? Perhaps. Does Terry care? No. Try touching him? Get aggressively pushed and slapped off.

Get ridiculously close inside of someone's personal bubble? Why not.

Meanwhile, he can and very well will touch a total stranger almost like a lover would.

Because my god, what is this?

Now, Terry can also, on the flip side, be incredibly and almost overwhelmingly affectionate towards those he holds in high esteem. Terry can actually be quite...a warm person, dare I say? To those he is devoted to, of course. Those he loves? Those that are classified into a positive box, garnering positive outlooks from him. Hey, like in the case of John Kreese; Terry practically, and I am not overexaggerating, runs into his embrace singlehandedly and they are seen touching each other one way or another constantly, going as far as a playful shoulder squeeze from Terry to John in the middle of them antagonizing Daniel, so go figure. When Terry cares for people --- really cares --- he cares about every aspect of them, even their unabashed, open, outright, loving touches, yes. Their physical affection. Their PDA, as you called it. But, this can only come from people he has fond feelings about. Only people that are innately special one way or another. One is either allowed in, or they're not. They're either worthy or they aren't. He deals in absolutes in that regard. He isn't touch averse when it comes to his own body. He is merely averse to the unworthy touching him. To the enemy touching him. And if one is deemed worthy, well, those touches become frequent and mutual. They lose their sinister undertones. Terry becomes as affectionate as much as he craves affection.

The most 'sinister' undertones his touches would have towards loved ones is him taking over the movements and leading them exactly where he wants them led at any given moment. Oh, but that is more or less universal, towards enemies and friends alike. Terry simply knows best, and as such, Terry guides.

[hotdoghottakes]

I think given the new information we got in Clouds on the Horizon, Alador might not have had a vocal role in his kids' upbringing. When Understanding Willow came out, and Amity revealed that her parents forced her to break her friendship with Willow off, Alador('s shadow) verbally tells her to make new friends with the kids they approve of. But in CotH, Alador seems to be as under Odalia's thumb as their children are.

There are then, two things we can interpret from Amity's memories: the first is the noticeable change in voice actors from Alador's (unofficial) first appearance in Amity's memories (whereas Odalia seems to have the same voice actor). The second stems from the implication that Amity misremembers the event. Since Odalia has such a power over both her husband and children, and since this may not have been apparent when Amity was young, she may have seen her parents as a united force, even if Alador didn't verbally say or do anything to support this. To her, his silence in the matter, and his willingness to go along with Odalia, was as harmful as her memory of him saying as much.

Other evidence to this is Alador himself saying that he hasn't taken a break from work (not even for illness) for five years (pretty much from when Amity was nine years old). Even before then, he might have been heavy into his work life over his family life, and while he might have had a more active role when his children were young, going from a caring parent to a complete workaholic overnight is unlikely. This was a slow progression, an almost systematic takeover to keep the family divided and under Odalia's control. Alador has a disconnect from his children, such that he has no idea what is going on in any of their lives. The kids see that their father supports their domineering mother no matter the circumstances and feel that he wouldn't intervene if there was a problem. It's masterful and completely in line with who Odalia is. Controlling, domineering, greedy, and blind to who her children are and what her family actually wants beyond her own needs.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

it's difficult to speak your truth or tell the truth about something if all you are used to receive back instead of support is harsh judgement and yells/anger. It takes a lot of courage to leave that fearful place and just be open and speak, despite the consequences. But even if your scared younger self is still inside of you, remember that they have you as well. And you can be brave for them and stand up for them. You can also take the blame or accept you made a mistake or anything: you know your worth and lovability do not depend on that cause everyone makes mistakes and fails. And everyone is lovable and worthy anyway. It doesn't matter what you think you'll look like in the eyes of those people you never wanted to disappoint but make proud (and only get praised by) when you were little. You know you cannot stand up to others' expectations of you (you are already perfect) and you know they failed you as well many times anyway. Lovability and worth, once again, do not depend solely on those times.

[elijahslittleprincess]

Be a good girl darling. ( Pt.2)

Warning! that contain sexual description and strong language 🤫

Sorry the fanfic is really long...

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After your wife left you alone in her office, and asked you to be a good girl in her absence until her return, you started wondering what to do with yourself.

She hadn't left for that long and you already missed her really bad. You wanted her to be close to you and to cuddle you...because yes Lady Leonora Lesso the dean of evil was a cuddler, well when she wanted...

However, since it wasnt possible to be with her now, you tough about what you could do to help the feeling of craving for her you had.

After a while, you decide to just stand up slowly from your place and left the classroom in silence engulfed in tought about the women you loved so much and all the thing she had told you before leaving. Without really bothering where you where going, you let your feet lead the way to a place they wanted to go and finished in front of your wife bedchamber door. It was making a lot of sense after all. It wasn't the first time you went in their so you wasn't woried that leonora would punish you for it. After all your relashionship wasn't new and their had multiple night when you slept together and woke up in her bed all tangled with her. It was the thing you missed the most when you had to stay in the school for good because lesso didn't want others to have suspicion about you two...After all no one knew about your relashionsip, not even dovey that was like a mentor to you but anyway, you knew your wife really cared about her reputation so you understood in some way, even if you always had the feeling she was ashamed of you and that was why she wasn't wishing to say anything about your love for her and her love for you... These thoughts made you feel sad suddenly, like if you where nothing. The craving to be close to your wife grew even more, and the sentiment of loneliness you felt inside of you just solidified making you act instead of thinking of her.

Your hand in a natural reflex reach for the door knob of her room and once you had open the door you slipped into the dark room completely silent and calm. You closed the door behind you to make sure nobody is observing of following and you walk has carefully you could to the bed, trying desperately not to hit anything on your way, it wasnt easy task since you couldnt see much. Yet you succed to get to the desire place in the room and lay on the gigantic bed covered in dark black blankets and pillow. You slowly rool over to your wife side of the bed and literally covered your face with her pillow. After that you took a deep snif of her perfume that was making you crazy and couldn't help a moan to escape your lips. She was smelling so good dammit. Your lips tremble a little and you whispered with a voice so small that it was literally possible to think it was a children talking.

I miss you mommy...

After this you stayed in the same position in silence for a while and just tried to feel better with her scent near you. For a little time it was enough but fastly you start wanting more of her and feel desperate. You mind was just overwhelmed and you felt like a child to be so needy of her all the time but it was just stronger that you. Your wife was your everything that even if sometime she was careless and rude to you even mean at time but you still loved her. You knew she loved you to even if it wasn't really something she was saying often.

From the bed you extend your hand to the nightstand to open the bedside lamp so you could finally see somethings. When it was done you observe the surrounding and looked for something anything that was hers and that could help you out until she comes back wich could by the way take hours...Your dark brown eyes didn't noticed anything of the sort and you puff out a breath of distress, honestly it was more like a whine that anything else really. You where on the point to give up soon when you laid your eyes on the door of your wife's closet and bit your bottom lips unsure if you should let your though became act. Leonora was really the type of women to like her things to stay where they where and all, so you where quite hesitant to pick someting from her clothes witout her permission...like one of the shirt she wears under her suit. You slowly crawl out of the bed, one of you finger between your teeth like all the time you wasn't sure if doing something was a good idea and if your mommy would punish you later for it. You walked to the closer door and after a moment of hesitation you open it and enter the area with the light opening itself seeing movement in the room. It wasn't that big but for a place where you put your clothes it was pretty large and their was a lot of things pretty much everywhere. Practically everything was black except the item you where looking for so it was quite easy to find in the lot of article belonging to your wife. You walked to it and grabbed the soft white fabric in your hand that where a little shaky. It's not that you were scared or anything it was just the fact that you where kinda invading Leonora private life that made you unsure of your gesture, yet you tought that it wasnt going to bother her after all, she loved you and you really was desperate for her right now. At the moment you was wearing a normal gown in a purple tint lace with a corset. The dress was stopping a little bit before your feet in wich their was beautiful purple Sapphire shoes. For you it was normal attire...being a princess was all about etiquette and decorum. You had to be beautiful and pretty always and wears enchanting dresses to attract attention and it was such a bother...here you was no princess . Only lesso's baby girl and you felt the need to just make it look like it. With only a snap of your now alight finger, you where only left in your underwear and your corset making you shiver from the cold. You fastly put leonora's shirt on top of your body and sigh in contentment when you smelled her on your white skin.

It finally felt right and the void inside of you was a little bit better now. You delicately got out of the closet closing the door behind you and got back to the bed. When you reached it, you crawl under the blankets and covered your small body with them making your immediately hotter. You purr in delight at the feeling you had and felt before closing your eyes and slowly drifting to sleep on your wife side of the bed.

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Jump in the past to lesso's side when she left you in her office.

Lesso: (whispered in your ear) Tonight you are going to yell it so hard that even the school of good will know your mine, I promess. Now I have to go. Behave for me my little princess or their will be punishment instead of pleasure tonight.

After saying these words to you Leonora had left her office, closing the door behind her. She had a little smile on her lips for a small laps of time on from the love she had for you, but fastly it disappeared and became her cold expression again when she felt a pang in her heart from being separated from you. She had one class to teach and honestly she wasn't really happy about it. Lady lesso would have gladly stayed in your company instead but well, because she was the dean of evil she had responsibilities and she needed to accomidate with them no matter how much she wanted to be with you.

At the time she needed to be their, the dean of evil showed in her classroom and wait for the student to arrive for their classe. When every chair of her class was taken and all the futur evil where present she closed the door of the room with only a wiggle of her finger and start her lesson.

The lesson was feeling like years instead of only hours for Leonora. Normally she wasn't the type to complain about teaching because it was her job and she loved it even if she would never really say it out loud to anyone. However, today you where waiting for her and she was honestly really trying her hardest not to get distracted by that matter, yet it ended up being harder that she thought it would be. The image of your face when she left you alone in her office wasnt stoping to apear every often in ger mind, the look of sadness you had, and it was just making her feel a little guilty. But...you would understand right, understand that she had obligation, as a teacher and that leaving you was not an option. Yes she was sure you knew that and it was making her troubled heart a little less in pain.

After two hours of teaching to evil students with absolutely no useful potential to win against the good side, Lady lesso had finally finish her class. The redhead was so happy to finally be finished and only wait until every student had left her class to immediately rush to her office to see you. Yet, when she arrives at it, and open the door expecting to see you she was greeted by thin air.

Leonora frown in discontent...she really wondered where you where. After all the school of evil wasnt yours and if you ended up being seen by Evil student, it could turn baddly. Good and evil were ennemis or nemesis like lesso just so liked to say. Anyway to say simply, you could be in danger, especially knowing that you wasnt just any princess, but one of quite a lot of importance for the school of good.

Lady lesso a little bit taken by a wave of panick started searching all around the school for you in every place you could have been, to end up with nothing. It was after half an hour that she stopped her search for you, thinking that you might have went back the school for good because her class was to long and you had given up on seing her.

Honestly Leonora was quite pissed and disappointed. She really had hoped to spend time with you after her class and she was missing you quite bad...not that she would told you that. After a bad day you was always the only one to make her smile and make her forget that she was the dean of evil for some time. In simple word she needed you...but you wasn't there or anywhere else so she just decide to retreat to her room.

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Back to normal time

Lady lesso standing in front of her room door, turn the knob and open the door a little bit roughly because of the anger and slammed it shut behind her with a sigh.

The sound it maked was enough to wake you up, making you move a little in the bed. You let a little groan escaped your lips and looked at her with small eyes still full of sleep.

Nora...your back finally.

Lesso stayed silent for a second in surprise to find you there especially after thinking you had left her. But after a little lapse of time she slowly came up to her bed and sat aside of your body wondering what she should feel toward the situation. Should she be mad at you for making her run all around the school for so long thinking you where in danger or should she be happy to see you were still there waiting for her. The evil dean looked at you with her piercing eyes and seing your adorable face, and your little eyes looking at her with innocence, all the anger she had, desapeared. She sigh in exasperation thinking that she literally was getting soft because of the love she had for you, before she slowly but surely end up looking in your eyes with a smile she only reserved for you.

Yes princess, I'm back...You know you did gave me quite a scare not telling me where you were. I looked for you around all the school for thirty minute thinking something had happen to you, and now I find you in my bed. You are in the school for evil here my love and seing has you are Snow White's daughter...theirs a lot of people in here that would love to put hands on you.

Your wife's words made your head rise up abruptly and get up from your sleeping position to come closer to her side. Suddenly you felt really bad for her and wanted to be forgotten, you knew that you being in the opposite school was a risk you was taking and that what your wife sayed was absolutely true. However, you always knew lesso would be their to protect you if needed. You could see that the whole thing had made Leonora quite troubled and a little mad and it was entirely your fault. So you moves even closer to her and place yourself on top of her legs straddling them and finally end up sitting on them like a little child. You looked at her in the eyes and blushed.

I'm sorry leo, I should have told you but you were bussy and I didn't wished to disturb you. I just missed you really bad and needed to be somewhere were you kinda was imprinted on. And well, just being in your bed apparently wasnt enough...so i kinda stole one of your shirt in your wardrobe so i could be with you without being with you...

You were ashamed now like really ashamed and kinda fearing her reaction at the same time you break the eyes contact with her and looked to your hands that where playing with Leonora's shirt you was wearing.

Lesso listen to you and angled her head a bit to the side biting her lips when you explained to her why you where in her room in the first place. Now that you were on her lap and practically collided with her chest she could see you clearly and examined your body wearing her shirt without forgetting your corset and underwear. Her eyes that where previously clear and troubled changed and became a darker shade of blue. How sexy you were wearing her clothes...god it was entrancing.

Her first reflex was to put one of her finger under your chin and lead your face back up so the both of you where looking at each other, her voice echoing in the silent bedroom.

Now now my little princess look at me will you.

Her words just made you look at her even more, with love and obedience in your look.

You felt the heat comming from her body radiating to yours and her slow respiration get synchronized to yours in a reflex motion. You both where so in sinc that you felt like one.

Leonora's touch moved from your chin to go on your cheek and start caressing it with a delicacy no one except you knew your wife was capable of. Her other hand placed itself in your dark black hair and tangled themself in them. She had one of her wicked smile on, and she looked like she wanted to literally eat you alive. Honestly you wanted to really bad...after being apart from her like that you missed her touch on your body really bad.

Mhh who could have tough that a simple white shirt could look so indignantly sexy on someone... Luckily I'm the only one to see that.

Leonora bit her lips before letting go of your hair and placing her now free hand under her shirt you wear, to delicately caress your sensible skin.

The contact of her fingers that where so cold with your skin made your eyes closed and a little gasp escaped your lips and apparently it satisfied your love because you heard a little chuckle.

Tell me darling...do you remember what I promessed you before I left you alone this morning...

Lady Lesso asked you before getting her lips to your neck and starting to bite at it kinda strongly to let some marks she liked so much to see on your immaculate skin.

Her lips where hot and soft on your neck and you couldn't help but angle it further to the side to give her better access and give her space to work. It honestly wasn't long before you were moaning in pleasure and a little of pain. It felt so good that your mind literally shut down, making you forgot to answer her. The only thing that escaped your lips was some praise being sayed with such desire.

Mhh...mommy...fell so good.

Seeing that you wasn't going to answer her, the dean of the school for evil to punish you literally bit her teeth into your skin so hard that it maked blood appear on your white skin.

You yelled in pain pretty loud and tried to push your wife body away from yours. But then Leonora change in demeanour and became quite mad at you for even thinking about rejecting her. She grabbed you neck with one of her hand and squeeze enough to make you stop moving in fear. Your body now laying on the bed was shaking a little bit and your eyes that where on hers started to be a little glossy.

Dont even think about escaping me darling you know how much it makes mommy mad don't you. Your mine princess, and I can do whatever the fuck I want with your body even if it implies hurting you or making you moan like the little slut you are for me, am I understood?

A tear escaped your eyes at the voice your wife used to talk to you. It wasn't the first time. Not at all Leonora really loved being rude with you and sometime hurting you was part of the game when you disobeyed her. Tho it honestly never scared you less from time to time. How she could pass from loving and delicate to really violent and possessive in no time. You where scared and vulnerable, a lot at this but god knows that you where wet to. Your underwear where soaked, you needed her so bad and the words she was saying where comming strait to your pussy. How much you loved when she was telling you how much you belonged to her, and that she literally was possessing your body to do what she pleased with it. It was true, you where a literal slut for Leonora lesso.

You closed your eyes for a second and moaned in pure need for your wife.

Leonora's eyes darken when she saw how much you wanted her and she tighten her grip on you neck.

Has best you could you tried to answer her with a voice that wouldn't be that depraved but the only thing you manage to say was a big and loud YESSSS.

Lady Lesso groan at the view of you being so possessed with lust and want before bringing her mouth to your neck again this time to literally lick the blood that was dripping from the wound she had caused. The redhead licked sucked and savoured the bright red liquid with ecstasy before she let out a moan of pure bliss.

Fucking hell baby girl your blood taste so good.

After her words you didn't even had time to answer that her lips where on your ferociously and you tasted your own blood on hers making you moan for more. Her tall and muscular body was on top of you, straddling your waist on the bed, you felt so small under her but honestly you loved it. Really bad. You craved to be dominated by her to be fucked hard and to yell he'd name and god your composure was getting so slim.

You needed Leonora's hands on you, to touch you and make you feel good you wasn't felling her enough. All day you craved for her and you couldn't wait anymore.

So with your eyes directly in hers you whimpered and literally pronounced her name with so much want and lust that it sound like a plea.

Mhh Leonora pleasee...

An evil smile appeared on the red head women's lips and she came down to your lips putting one of her perfect finger under your chin and asked so darkly that you shivered.

What do you want exactly from me baby girl, I need to hear it from your pretty mouth. Common tell mommy my baby.

You blushed furiously and tried to hide you face from her sight angling it to the side but your wife stopped you and took your face more strongly between two finger this time.

Tut Tut Tut don't hide form me pet. Mommy wants to see your pretty face. Your so sexy when you blush...

Now however, I'm getting impatient and you do know what happen when I do, so I suggest you listen to me my darling...

To help untangle your tongue your evil wife gently and slowly slide her other hand the one that wasn't busy holding your face, down your belly and to your hips to end up on your clothes pussy. She slowly but rudely rub your clit and it makes you literally tremble with wants under her. Your breath hitch and you yelled a swear that you tried to muffled has best you could by biting your lips, but honestly it didn't do much.

Fuckk!

Plea...please mommy I need more...you literally implored to her.

You knew it wasn't going to work for your wife. She wanted you to be specific, to tell her to literally fuck the hell out of you but those things where hard to say for you. It was making you terribly ashamed and fell like a desperate slut. You where in the school for good and saying profanities like that was not accepted. You knew it was exactly why Leonora was asking you to tell your tought out loud. It was kinda exciting to her, she was corrupting you making you hers and the only thought made you wanna come undone. You resisted only some second more before she rubbed you clit in a way that made you crazy and you noting but literally cried to her in desperation.

I want you to fuck me so hard that I don't remember my name anymore, I want to feel you in me and to cry you name in desperation. Make me yours Leonora, and I want everyone to know who I belong to. Destroy me so no one will be able to fuck me but you.

You couldn't realised what you had said...if you thought you where red before now it was the epitome of all. Your chest heaves up and down so fast and your heart wasn't really able to andle how exited you where. For a second you closed your eyes and wisped a weak whimper.

The friction on your center stoped suddenly after your words and you opened your eyes suddenly. They fell directly into lady lesso dark and dangerous one. She was so excited, it was an evidence seing how full of lust her normally green orbs where. She bit her lips and use the hand that was previously giving you the minimum she could give you of pleasure to make your clothes disappear with her purple magic. In a second you where completely vulnerable under her and it makes you shrek a little.

Well it wasn't that hard was it my love. Humm, how I would love to see your dear dovey's face if she had heard you say this to me...how jealous she would be to realised that I am fucking her protege.

Before you even had time to take a breath or say anything, two fingers entered your wet heat, plunging into you hard and fast, filling you up. Your lips opened to let out a cried of pure pleasure out at the sudden intrusion. Your hips buckle against Lesso’s hand, and your back arch slightly on the mattress.

Hum! Leonora.

You said before pulling your lover to you and capturing her lips with your own. What was Leonora to do, but give her princess what she demanded, her fingers thrusting in and out of your perfect body, each time slightly deeper than the last, your moans filling up the dark bedroom, a devine music to Leonora’s ears.

You wanted to feel your darling wife's skin against yours so bad. To feel the friction of your two body's rocking together but Leonora was still fully clothed compared to you that was completely naked and vulnerable. It was something you would have to do remedy about. Even overwhelmed with pleasure and lust caused by the actions of your wife on your body. You manage to raised your finger that suddenly start glowing and with a wisp of magic make the taller women's cloth disappear from her body in a second.

You smirked in satisfaction when after that, finally your actions leaved you both bare against each other. The contact of your cold wife's body against yours makes you whimper it was feeling delightful. You circled you arms around her neck to bright her lips to yours and kissed her so desperately making your moans muffled for a little while.

With each thrust of her fingers in you, your hips where arching up and getting deeper to your sensitive spot. Your nails that where desperately searching for an anchor point found their place onto Lesso’s back, digging into freckled skin pretty hard and making the dean of evil moan in pain and pleasure.

Leonora knew you where getting close, panting and losing it. Your kisses became more desperate with each thrust and frixion. Lips moving against each other hard and fast, tongues clashing, tasting each other.

Hum Mommy I'm..I'm coming.

And this is not even a moan later that came your undoing point. You came hard, walls clamping around Leonora fingers, and a yell of her name that sound really higher that you expected making your blush like a tomato. Some student would certainly have nightmare about hearing this.

When your came down of your peek, your body went limb on the bed and your head fell on the side. Your eyes closed themself and your raging breath was literally the only thing to hear in the gothic like room.

You felt Lesso's hand gently caressing your cheek and murmuring soft words in your ear with so much care and love that it makes your heart flutter.

Such a perfect little darling you are aren't you, my sweet little girl.

Your eyes weakly opened fixing themself into Leonora's perfect green orbs and you esquisses her a weak smile that made her apposed a sweet kiss to your lips and lay assides of your pearly body. The redhead, grabbed the blanket and covered you both with them to give you some warmth and with her strong arms she circled your body and brought you even closer to her.

You sigh in comfort and happiness before letting 4 words slip out of your lips before letting your tiredness take over your sens.

I love you Leonora.

The dean of evil smile at those words and looked at your now limb body assise of her before saying in a whisper.

I love you to my little princess.

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[stressmallow]

[a-place-to-exist]

(flirting) babygirl i have issues your mind cannot even comprehend. control issues. attachment issues. memory issues. sensory issues. mental health issues. self-esteem issues. so many issues. call me the issues connoisseur

[journey-to-balance]

When you forcibly try to wake someone up, this means you're asleep.

When you let them sleep, this means you're awake.

What does this mean?

If you are someone who has awakened and then tries to force everyone around you to wake up, you're "asleep". I know because I was once that person.

What programs are you running in trying to wake people up that are choosing not to wake up? Control issues, panic, dear, anxiety, co-dependency, attachment, worry?

What's showing up for you that needs your stillness, that needs your attention?

If they want to sleep, let them sleep. The more you do you, focus on you, raise your vibrational frequency, the more it will ripple out to everybody and then they will have a choice on whether to get in the journey with you or not.

If not, surrender to that, be okay with it, and if you can't be okay with it, see it as a red flag within and about yourself. See what it brings up in you when someone you love or care about chooses to be asleep.

That is their soul's journey. Honor that, by honoring your journey.

You never know how long your season will be. All we have to decide is what we will do with the time that is given to us.

[poisonous-flowergirl]

Maybe Sauron got so obsessed with order and control because he had absolutely no control over his own life while he was serving Morgoth?

It would be a normal response to the trauma of feeling absolutely controlled by someone else for literally THOUSANDS OF YEARS