#thoughts of light

[terminaltrigger]

time slows down when it can get no worse / i can feel it running out on me...

[inside-my-gay-mind]

[soul-from-another-era]

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[poetryforall]

[sleeplessv0id]

what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

[daughterofchaosstuff]

done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.

[badolmen]

People against piracy fail to realize that no, I can’t just ‘buy it.’ They stopped making DVDs and Blu-Rays. They’re barely offering digital copies for download. I am not spending money I could use for food or bills to pay for a subscription service just so I can always have access to a beloved piece of media. Especially not when the service will remove media on a whim without concern for how the loss of access to that piece will make its artistic conservation nigh impossible.

For example, I recently learned that Disney+ had an original film called Crater. It’s scifi, family friendly, and seems cool - I would love to buy it as a holiday gift for my little brother! But: it’s exclusive to D+ and THEY REMOVED IT LITERALLY MONTHS AFTER ITS RELEASE.

The ONLY way I can directly access this film is through piracy. The ONLY available ‘copies’ of this film are hosted on piracy websites. Disney will NEVER release it in theaters, or as something to buy, and it may NEVER return to the streaming service. It will be LOST because we aren’t allowed to purchase it for personal viewing. If I can’t pay to own it, I won’t pay for the privilege of losing it when corporate decides to put it in a vault.

So yes, I’m going to pirate and support piracy.

Edit: if you are able, use $5 you would otherwise use for a streaming subscription to donate to a GazaFunds campaign.

[manincaffeine]

[fromdarzaitoleeza]

{Words by José Olivarez from Citizen Illegal /@fatimaamerbilal , from even flesh eaters don't want me.}

[asteroidtroglodyte]

5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

10 years ago, I was watching my Potential and Opportunities dissolve and evaporate in an ocean of cheap gin and expensive whiskey.

But 5 years ago, I was in Rehab.

One of the exercises they had us perform was to imagine ourselves happy, 5 years in the future.

Many of us in that room had forgotten how to imagine nice things happening to them. A few snorted (well, I snorted), finding the notion that we’d even still be around in 5 years grimly humorous.

For about half of us, it was the last stop on the way down.

But I indulged the therapist. I was there, after all, because I did not want to die. So, I imagined myself, 5 years hence.

Happy.

It came to me all at once; an artistic remix on Norman Rockwell’s Freedom From Want, reframed with myself placing food at the table.

Sunday Dinner At My Place, I answered, when it came my turn to share my fantasy. I was asked what food I imagined eating.

It’s not the meal itself, I said, it’s the implications framed around it. Sunday Dinner At My Place means that I have a Place. It means that I have Family that will actually speak to me and friends who actually want to see me. It means money enough not just to feed myself but others too. It means having the time to spare to take the time preparing the meal.

A lot of nodding heads all around me. A struck chord. Many people with no Place, in that place. Nowhere that would lament their leaving.

5 years hence, as I lay down to sleep in my Home, with my Wife and my Son, surrounded by my Art and my Flowers, I reflect.

It was a long road. It was hard. We lost people. So many people. There were long days and long nights and hospital stays. Angry arguments with ghosts. I changed, in ways I never hoped for, or expected. Good ways, finally, for once. Slowly, against the backdrop of a world in chaos, I found my mind.

Sometimes, My Wife wondered aloud, what she did to deserve me. After some stumbling with my feelings, I eventually settled on an answer.

I’m a Rescue.

She gave me a Home.

And, so, I gave her a Family.

It seemed fair

This Sunday, my folks, which whom I have not had a shouting match in years, will come over for dinner. We will cook and eat together. My Friend became My Wife, and she took a piece of me and with it she made Our Son. There will be many hugs, and no violence. Good Things Happened.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but you don’t know what the future holds.

don’t give up yet, ok?

It could get good, even.

[terminaltrigger]

Argos Delacroix

About 🍇 Tags

The Basics --

Age: 110+

Nameday: 26th Sun of the 6th Umbral Moon

Race: “Seeker of the Sun” “Miqo’te”

Gender: Male (trans)

Pronouns: He/him

Sexuality: Demisexual biromantic

Marital Status: Married

Physical Appearance --

Skin: Lightly tanned

Hair: Blond

Eyes: Red

Height: 5 fulms and 8 ilms

Build: Narrow but with strong arms

Distinguishing Marks: Lighter blond highlights in his hair; black fingernails

Common Accessories: Red-framed glasses; silvery earrings

Personal --

Profession: Arcanist; doctor; gunbreaker

Hobbies: Biological "tinkering;" reading; traveling; writing

Residence: Mor Dhona

Patron Deity: Oschon

Fears: Being powerless to stop pain inflicted on others

Relationships --

Spouse/Significant Other: Orizien Vie’ceile (husband)

Children: Rin Vie’orizien (daughter)

Parents: Hadriana Delacroix (mother)

Siblings: Adrian Delacroix (brother)

Other Relatives: Anya Delacroix (niece)

Pets: Mercy (chocobo)

Hooks --

Arcanist’s Guild: A man appearing to be in his 40s has been visiting Limsa Lominsa intermittently to study and teach at the Arcanist’s Guild for the last... 70 years?!  What kind of cryptid is this guy?  All we know for sure is that he’s "definitely not a vampire."  How informative.

Traveling Doctor: Argos is always happy to provide medical aid to those in need.  He seems to know Eorzea like the back of his own hand, too, so you may be more likely to run into him than you’d think.

Lemures: While not necessarily a member of this Reaper-led organization, Argos has spent a fair bit of time with them in his Void-related endeavors.  He also might be a little too eager to throw himself into danger if that danger involves the Thirteenth.

"Retired" Scion of the Seventh Dawn: As it says on the tin.  After all, the Scions disbanded recently, right?  That should give him the chance to pursue his own adventures.

Allagan Interests: While not his own area of expertise, Argos’s husband has exposed him to a vast amount of Allagan knowledge.  Incidentally, there are some odd rumors about a high-tech bunker on the outskirts of Mor Dhona, conveniently located not far from the Crystal Tower...

OOC --

Server: Brynhildr (Crystal) IGN: Argos Delacroix Timezone: EST (GMT-5) Seeking: Folks to do PvE/PvP content with, as well as people who want to chat about OCs without necessarily seeking RP. I am also considering testing the RP waters again, so if you are willing to be patient with a rusty RPer, let me know! I would prefer RPing on Discord rather than in-game, but meeting people in-game is fun too!

[wedarkacademia]

Andrea Gibson

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[fairydrowning]

– Noor Unnahar, Instagram account "noor_unnahar"

[TEXT ID: / [Lemons] / My father's mother loved lemons. Years after her passing, / we run out of everything, but never / lemons. / Nothing else shelters grief / better than memory. / It's my father way of saying, / even in your absence, you will be / cared by me. / END ID]

[secretsiwhispertothemoon]

Frida Kahlo, from a letter wr. c. November 1933, featured in The Letters of Frida Kahlo: Cartas Apasionadas

[poetryforall]

-Rumi

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