#disordered

[crabussy]

if you fakeclaim you are an ableist piece of shit and are actively contributing to the shame and stigmatism of disorders as well as making disordered individuals terrified of being vocal about their experiences. the removal of a minuscule community of fakers will never be worth making disabled people scared and miserable over their symptoms and their identities. hope this helps!! get out

[hazards-lab]

Cluster B definitions help

Hello! I'm working on making a doc about cluster B PD with dsm criteria and then also how people with the disorders actually describe it / think it should be described. Fortunately, I don't have all cluster B disorders, and I can only really speak on ASPD and BPD I am looking for help with definitions and general defining. If you have any cluster B disorders please help if you can, comment or reblog with your views and experiences even if it is just something small. Anything helps really. I still am looking for other peoples experiences with ASPD + BPD and their view of the disorder I also may look for people to help actually make the doc itself but I'm not certain yet. Reblogs for reach are appreciated but not needed!

[sugrdolly]

girl dinner

[abby-howard]

Cooled down today with fanart for Disordered Games’ More Than “One Way”, which was announced this week! Very intrigued by what I’ve seen so far, lovin the character designs :O

[a-timeless-illness]

My carrd I made for PPD!!!

Paranoia/PPD Related Terms Masterpost

Paranoic Lying/Paranoicover

Where one's paranoia, or PPD, causes them to lie. Rather, it be out of fear, anxiety, other related feelings, or perhaps another reason. One may lie about their identity/likes or dislikes/hobbies, etc, or bigger lies that may cause them trouble later on. It can be about anything.

Invisparanoic

Where ones paranoia, or PPD, causes an individual to never disclose, or keep private, information about themselves. Rather, it be due to fear, other related feelings, or perhaps another reason.

NPC Paranoic

Where one's paranoia, or PPD, drives them into being an NPC or act like an NPC. This could be due to wanting to blend in without being seen, from fear or other related feelings, or perhaps another reason.

Paranoic Verbalism

Where ones paranoia, or PPD, may affect their verbalism in any way. Rather, it be shutdowns, semi-verbal, speech loss, non-verbal, or however one wishes to describe it.

MOGAI/Gender/Etc related terms below

Paranoicluster - gender in regards to PPD

Vesil term where one's paranoia affects all aspects of ones identity [not coined by me]

My Proposed PPD Flag [with saturated version]

Platonic Attraction/Relationships being affected by paranoia or PPD

Punk ID that is more inclusive to other things, but can be identified with if you have PPD, or experience paranoia

Acespec and arospec related terms in regards to paranoia and/or PPD

[alostlittleriverlotus]

I feel like I never talk about my avoidance enough. I'm kind of avoiding my avoidance. Hahahahaha. But seriously, it's kind of so natural and so ingrained into me that I never know how to talk about it. Kind of the same way with my OCPD too and my STPD. Like they're sort of "natural states" for me that they're the disorders I fucking notice the least. Not that I don't experience them intensely, but I just really don't notice their symptoms as much as I do like my narcissism or my antisociality. To me, those are often such dramatic shifts from my natural state while avpd and ocpd and stpd are kind of just...constant. Also my alters being symptom holders only add to that as well.

Like being terrified and avoidant is just so normal to me. My schizotypal is so normal to me that I can barely understand reading about the disorder even though I check off everything. And my ocpd is another "normal" part of me that I just don't even realize how much it affects me. It's why it's harder for me to talk about this disorders aside from other ones I experience. Cause yes, I do experience them. But they're far more constant with the symptoms never really dulling or stopping unlike either other disorders which can kind of fluctuate due to symptoms holding alters as well as specific triggers.

It's just weird to suddenly be reminded "oh yeah, that's that and it is very intense and debilitating and real." Cause yeah. These disorders are disabling and debilitating. And they're terrifying. And I'm just...so used to them.

But it also helps that my other disorders are such a disconnect from my self. They're still me, but they feel like something I can notice and follow and point out. I can see the shifts. While with, like, stpd and ocpd and avpd and even ppd, they arent. Its why I have a harder time understanding the criteria for them. I was reading the stuff on schizotypal and it literally triggered my schizotypal and caused me problems. It is so fucking real and I just...never quite fully realize that. They're just constants for me, more than the others. Like they're all fucking constant, but these are the most constant constants.

[urangelgirl1]

50.5 kg

<3

[circular-bircular]

My disorder is a negative part of my life. I am disordered, and it hurts.

My disorder is a positive part of my life. I am disordered, and I find beauty in who I am, in part due to my disorder.

These two things can coexist.

[autumnsunshine10]

It seems I no more know myself than before. Just when I think I've finally come close to cracking the code, there it goes, another digit added or subtracted out of nowhere. Often when someone describes me in any certain way I can't help but wonder if I have them fooled without meaning to or if another person (even those we don't know on that deep a level) can actually offer unbiased insights into who we are. Could it be I'm the biggest mystery to me? And if so, will it ever be solved and resolved?

[mischiefmanifold]

neurodivergent people are faking their disorders because I know every single detail about their lives and obviously their disorders don’t work like that 🙄

[liquidlightandrunningtrees]

And the nights, bigger than imagining: black and gusty and enormous, disordered and wild with stars.

Donna Tartt, The Secret History

[papervixen]

[coralina44]

having to chug water after eating literally anything just to feel a little less guilty.

[notabled-noodle]

"disorder" is not a bad word, and it is not a synonym for "I spend all of my time being miserable and down on myself". that's an ableist line of thinking that has become super pervasive in the neurodivergent community.

I acknowledge that the history of the word "disorder" can feel uncomfortable for some. but the truth is that I am disordered, and being able to say that is a form of freedom.

my brain functions differently than most people, and that difference is messy. the differences make me quick to anger and hard to talk to and way too passionate about everything. I can't walk too far without my joints dislocating. that is messy. that is untidy. that is disordered.

I'm not saying that everyone immediately needs to start using the word "disorder" for themselves or that there's nothing wrong with some uses of it. what I am saying is that acknowledging my disorder is freeing for me, and that you shouldn't prevent people from using that language.

I'm also saying that, in the end, the disabled community has no choice but to reclaim language that has been used for ableist means in the past. because otherwise we end back at "differently abled", and we all know how shit that is

[crownedrottenthorns]

We so often forget our way of perceiving love, relationships, and the like is so different from most people. We fluctuate a lot in our feelings due to disorders and symptoms holders, trauma triggers, and alters fronting. There are so many reasons that contribute to our experience of love, it's kind of interesting. And we so often forget it is vastly different from others. Sometimes it leads to a feeling of isolation especially when our disorders are disordering (schizoid especially ties into our feelings as well as schizotypal) and it's just...so interesting. Even our darling system partner that understands is is actually only asexual, fully ace while we are aceflux. So even that one thing we are near opposites on.

I just find it so fascinating to self examine and compare and ponder it. I cannot wait for our system's partner to awaken so we may discuss further. Host is rather excited too. My sweet darling. :)

-Ally-

[sparethedreamer]

Hi so question, if we started out as endo system and then developed into more of a traumagenic, disordered system, is that on us for even going down the path of becoming plural? Is it on me that we're struggling right now and having so many doubts and issues? If I chose not to create a tulpa/parative, would I have been in a better place, even though I did it to cope with the traumatic loss of family members? Am I to blame for my own problems? If so, am I ok?