#crisi borderline

[fioridichern0byl]

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze

I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway

Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay

I battle with depression, but the question still remains

Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?

And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay

[neuroticboyfriend]

After seeing this Mental Health Pain Scale a while ago, I realized that it doesn't really work well for people whose mental wellness changes frequently (ex: people with BPD or C-PTSD, addicts), and very extremely. So, I made some tweaks for myself, and hopefully it can help others:

Here's a version with a table :) Emotional Distress Scale

0 - I feel great! This is the best I’ve felt in a long time!

1 - I’m feeling really good! There’s no distress to address.

2 - I’m feeling good. If I start feeling bothered, I can be easily distracted or cheered up.

3 - I’m okay, but there are some things bothering me. I can easily cope with them, though.

4  - I could be better. There are a few things distressing me right now. It’s not exactly easy to deal with, but I still have the skills to get through it.

5 - I’m not okay. It’s getting harder to do the things I want to do, but I can do them. My coping skills aren’t working as well anymore, but enough of them work to get me through the day. I need some support.

6 - I’m feeling bad, and it’s very hard to do the things I need or want to do. Most of my coping skills aren’t effective right now, and it’s taking a lot of energy to stay stable. I need help.

7 - I’m feeling awful. It’s hard to focus on anything but my emotions, and/or I’m avoiding things that distress me. I can’t do much but try to take care of myself, which is already hard in itself. I’m running low on, or have run out of, effective coping skills. I need a lot of help right now.

8 - I’m feeling awful, and I can’t escape it anymore. How I feel is affecting every part of my day, and I’m reaching the point where I can’t function. It’s hard to sleep, eat, socialize, etc. I need help before I can’t handle anything.

9 - This is approaching the worst I could feel. I can’t function anymore. My emotions have totally consumed me. I may be a danger to myself or others, or I may be neglecting myself. I need urgent help.

10 - This is the worst I’ve felt ever/since [last time]. I can’t care for myself at all. My emotions are so intense, I’m at imminent risk of dangerously acting on them. I need crisis support immediately.

11 - I have acted on my emotions and hurt myself or someone else. Everything else in my life is impossible to comprehend. I need medical care and/or crisis support immediately.

Note that this doesn't really work well if your positive states end up being unhealthy (ex: mania, idealization, etc.), so it's geared towards negative emotions. This is also meant to be about how you feel NOW. The other scale works best for viewing your overall state.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i surprise myself every time i get through another day cuz there’s times i’m so certain i will kms

[its-simply-just-krys]

select the answer that best applies to you :

□ girl

□ boy

☑ a mystical ethereal being beyond one’s comprehension

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

does anyone else with bpd have trouble figuring out their gender?? like i’m so confused bc of my lack of identity that i want to assign it something but nothing feels right bc my perception of myself is always changing.

[eliserzilber]

TIPP

Use this skill when you are overwhelmed by intense emotions or are feeling the urge to self-injure.

*If you’re in crisis and are having suicidal thoughts please call a Crisis Hotline! (Call 988 in the US)

T - Temperature: To relax fast or distract your mind with sensation, hold an ice pack to your cheeks or eyes or dunk your face in a bowl of ice water for at least 30 seconds to activate your Diver Reflex*.

*If you have high blood pressure, talk to your doctor before trying.

I - Intense Exercise: Doing a few minutes of vigorous exercise will release Endorphins. Try a few minutes of Jumping Jacks or running in place (or around the block). Play your favorite fast paced song and dance it out.

P - Paced Breathing: Breathe deeply into your belly, expanding your lungs as much as you can. Pace your inhales and exhales to 5-6 per minute. Then make your exhales longer than your inhales (5 seconds in, 7 seconds out).

*Try a 60 bpm Metronome track from your music streaming app or YouTube for pacing.

P - Paired Muscle Relaxation: Breathing deeply, tense your muscles (not so much that you cramp up) section by section, move your focus from your feet up your body. Tense up with every inhale, relaxing and melting with every exhale.

*More DBT guides here*

[willowstar204]

Identity Disturbance in BPD

(Artist unknown.)

[suffering-silentlyy]

I'm scared that this is all I will ever be

[3m0g1rlyyy]

i am hallucinating please someone help me

[n00dleb0yy]

3am bpd witchcraft episodes kinda go hard

[prehistoric-faggot]

i’m having like. an identity crisis. idk if it’s a bpd thing but i don’t feel like leo anymore at all, or lav, or *deadname*. i don’t care about looking masc anymore, purple is no longer my favourite colour and i don’t care much about lavender even. i barely have any dysphoria, which was awful before. i feel like a completely new person, i changed my online name to dino bc i feel like dino. i no longer feel some sort of connection to the name leo. this is weird.

is this my bpd fucking with me?

[fioridichern0byl]

crisi borderline

tre giorni fa sono finita in ps e per poco ricoverata in psichiatria per una crisi con pensieri suicidari, volevo buttarmi dalla macchina, attacchi di panico, autolesionismo, allucinazioni uditive e pensieri intrusivi.

va da quel giorno che ho crisi, oggi compreso. ieri volevo andare di nuovo in ospedale ma non poteva accompagnarmi nessuno, ero molto tentata di chiamare il 118 ma non l’ho fatto. ho preso molti ansiolitici che mi hanno fatto dormire e da allora sono stata meglio.

oggi va male di nuovo, non so come volgerà a termine questa giornata ma nel caso avviso miei ed andiamo in ps perché ho paura di fare qualche cazzata grossa.

[annabelle-wilson-house]

is frequently doing the 16 Personalities MBTI Test online and getting different results almost every time because you are basically undefinable and have an unstable personality and inconsistent, ever-changing trajectory BPD culture?????

[its-simply-just-krys]

the urge to reinvent yourself at exactly 2am

[a-healthy-dose-of-apathy]

i struggle with mirroring so bad it effects literally every aspect of my life like i’m trying to conform and relate to my friends. with one i’m a bitchy gossip girl with another i’m calm and silly and another i’m confident and rough. i’ll get entire new outfits based on what i think would fit/compliment/please the person i’m with. it even mimics their gender/sexuality and in the moment it’s TRUE, i believe i am that thing. i even do it with fictional characters i desire to emulate bc everyone seems to love them. but then i’m alone and i go home and sit in my room and realize i don’t know anything about me.

and i don’t know how to stop.

[altocat]

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