#complex trauma symptoms

[unwelcome-ozian]

[warm-autumn-evenings]

*through tears* I BELONG HERE. ON THIS EARTH AMONG OTHERS. I BELONG JUST AS MUCH AS THE NEXT PERSON. I DESERVE TO BE ALIVE. I AM JUST AS GOOD AND BAD AS EVERYONE ELSE. I DESERVE TO BE LOVED. I DESERVE TO BE FREE.

[slivincptsd]

[furiousgoldfish]

Trauma Information

Processing trauma

Traumatic memories get stored in the brain Differently

Trauma processing information

Steps for Managing Emotional Flashbacks

4 Types of Trauma Responses in Childhood

Relapses can possibly be a Seasonal Trauma occurrence

Three Stages of Trauma from Childhood Abuse

It’s likely you’ll feel the worst of your trauma long after it’s over

Feeling like you’re not normal because of trauma

Anger is vital in resolving trauma

Causes of Trauma

List of trauma symptoms caused by Childhood Abuse

How long term childhood abuse develops into trauma (comic)

Loss of support and community after trauma adds to it

Isolation from support can decide whether a person develops ptsd

Abandonment, rejection and isolation causes trauma

Symptoms of Trauma

Magical Thinking is a symptom of Childhood Trauma

Memory loss is a symptom of trauma and dissociative disorder

Inability to keep your space clean and tidy can stem from Trauma

Chronic Exhaustion comes from Trauma and is traumatic

Constant guilt, shame, and fear of failure can be caused by Trauma

Constant guilt for things that were done to you is an indicator of Trauma

Trauma from abuse will create a compulsion to Act Normal

Trauma will make you feel like you’re losing your future

Trauma makes you feel like you just ‘need to snap out of it’

Trauma can feel like ‘it wasn’t that bad’ even when it was

Childhood trauma can make you sense other people’s emotions

If you wish you suffered violence and trauma, it’s likely you’re already traumatized

Health risks

Trauma will mess up your immune system

Trauma can cause breathing problems and heart palpitations

Trauma will mess up your digestive system

C-ptsd can cause chronic pain and chronic exhaustion

Trauma can make it difficult both to sleep and to stay awake

If you’re struggling with trauma, here’s a link to Pete Walker’s Complex PTSD, and if you believe your trauma comes from abuse, here’s a link to checklists for parental/relationship abuse.

[twoheadedfather]

i am just so exhausted from doing this. it hurts to have to exist here

[askmatthias]

Since Louis remembers everything does that mean he most likely remembers all his deaths too?..

"Yes."

"Everytime."

( cw self-harm, s*icide attempts implied, blood )

"But not the perspective you might be imagining."

"... And, eventually, destroying 'me' wasn't enough."

...

"He's what you might call... Delicate. So you and I will be keeping this between us. Okay?"

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Friendly reminder…you don’t ever have to publicly specify the “self” part of self-diagnosed. if you don’t want to. because I know it can sometimes feel like a caveat that you’re obligated to disclose but the thing is, you’re not even obligated to disclose your diagnoses in the first place, much less the source. so you can just say diagnosed. if you prefer. to feel safe and avoid scrutiny or fake-claims or for any other reason. because it’s the truth, it’s not even a lie. self-diagnosed is diagnosed

[spookietrex]

I should have known better than to dig through my old stories from when I was a teenager. There's so much trauma packed into them.

So I tried to unwind with a nice little video game (a new dating sim/visual story) since I'm having a high support needs day (high pain, poor mental health, increased confusion, anger, etc.) Anyway, I wasn't expecting the little platformer game. Usually not a problem.

Except today I'm not able to do hand-eye coordination well.

Today I'm not able to problem solve well. Today I'm barely able to get out of bed and am at a 12/10 on the pain scale, have negative spoons, and have the patience of my poor traumatized toddler self whose parents told them at age 10 they were a mistake (accident while on birth control) long after the divorce and whose parents should have never been together to start with.

Today, I had a meltdown because I tried to play a free to play video game, I couldn't edit the settings to make it disability-friendly, and struggled for 15 minutes with a task that in not unsimilar to a level in Mario Maker/Flappy Bird. I cried, screamed, and hit things. I wanted to hit my laptop/self-sabotage. But I didn't. I rage screamed (accidentally left the windows open, oops), tried to control the hitting to pillows only, and sat with my feelings.

I am tired of being exhausted all the time. Reparenting myself when my teenage self hates all adults and doesn't trust them is hard. Being kind to myself when everyone else treats me like scum is hard. Melting down over something I wanted to do to cope but suddenly can't do and can't change that is hard. But I will continue to fight for myself and others because no one deserves to be silenced.

My story matters. I owe it to myself to remember, even if it's hard. I can be kind to myself and not push myself.

[dying-weeds]

[unwelcome-ozian]

[fagbearentertainment]

I am now thinking about all the ways a fandom would flanderize my ocs and getting pissed off

[furiousgoldfish]

Submission from an anonymous source:

"I am in therapy right now and it's mostly about abusive parents, and I want to raise you a topic. I don't know if you covered it yet, but i want to throw it in your direction. It's that when you grew up in conditions that were unsafe, people you couldn't trust, that makes so many of your actions motivated by that fear, the fear that people will hurt you. You might feel like every conversation is a battleground, or could turn into a battleground any second. you might want to surrender, verbally -- tell the other that they are absolutely right in everything. Or flee. or fight back. I struggle with this, because in this case i put myself in the mental space of a victim, even when there is no perpetrator. i fabricate one, I put the role on someone it shouldn't be. and dismantling this overwhelming fear is gargantuan task."

I feel this person described really well how it feels. Your 'fight, flight, freeze or fawn' response can be triggered even in conversations, if verbal abuse was a part of your trauma. People's opinions and demands of you can feel like you're being suffocated back into the place where you have no voice, your reality isn't real, and other people are allowed to define you; this is traumatic. Projecting danger everywhere will be normal and regular activity for your brain, because its adjusted to high amounts of danger everywhere, and just assuming safety is not an option. This can and will go away with time, and your brain slowly realizing what are the new rules for danger. Also, it's not always fabricating. Sometimes you will sense something dangerous or upsetting, and just make it much more distressing and scary than it should be, that could be catastrophizing in motion, or you being so far on the edge that even a slight distress is the drop that overflows the cup, and is considered lethal.

If someone can speak more on to the topic or relate to this, please comment/reply! We should have a conversation on how terrifying and triggering the world is after suffering abuse.

[kats-lagoon]

WELCOME

TO

THE GREATEST

GUESSING

GAME

EVER!!!!!!

ON TODAY’S QUESTION…

Is this chronic pain real or is it part of a flashback????!!!!!

Place your bets folks!!!!

[solarisgod]

Even if the individual may have said and / or done a certain thing that could bring negative emotional effects to Micah who would experience physical + mental symptoms prominently linked to xyr DID and C-PTSD ( e.g. flashbacks, tremors, dissociations, no longer fronting / being consciously present, etcetera ), these experiences generally still will not reduce the love and care and kindness Micah have for them— especially if this individual is not human by nature or, if otherwise, isn’t known to be as compassionate due to having a violent background / life. Micah very much knows that these mentioned factors doesn’t ever excuse their actions and behaviours, but xe can still immensely understand.

When Micah says xe can understand them with how they are and xe can accept them as they are, xe means it all wholeheartedly. Just because xe may react or respond in ways that may not show xyr approval and acceptance ( from experiencing symptoms in this case ), that doesn’t devalue xyr benevolence itself and towards them. Even if xe may be displaying signs of anxiety and cautiousness during the post event, it’s usually because xe’s trying not to place xemself in a worst position for xyr own well-being while even being mindful or another’s comfort with xemself, otherwise it’s some of xyr more careful and protective starmates whose wariness would bleed over to xyr consciousness to have xyr behaviours influenced by them.

The only cases Micah does end up leaving one’s life if this sort of negative incident is repeated while the other party doesn’t make much active improvements, or if the interactions and relationships are or have become toxic that can’t be healthy by lack of communications and improvements. Micah doesn’t need or want them to change in terms of their morals, lifestyles, natures, etcetera; but all xe asks for are respect and patience and consideration, and if these doesn’t get or can’t be given in a certain amount of time with all of the chances xe provides being broken, then xe knows better to leave and wish another the best of everything because in the end, xe will always love and care for xemself the most to know what xe wants and needs and deserves more.

[quimbionics]

anyway i just think marcus should experience very human-like symptoms of ptsd despite being an android — namely panic attacks. hundreds of system errors that throw absolutely everything out of whack all at once, causing his internal cooling systems to fail and he overheats to scorching levels as a result. system overloads that override control over his bionics and cause all of his abilities to glitch on an even greater scale than the rats. system failures that corrode the voluntary nature of his built-in bodily functions — leaving him a crying, sputtering mess as his sensors go haywire

[traumatizedjaguar]